In this era where the internet is developed, all letters can be sent by Email. It will arrive in a second. However, I always feel that this lacks a bit of humanity. The more convenient it is to contact, the further the distance between people. So this time, I chose a paper letter. I wrote this letter on a plain piece of paper, folded it, put it in an envelope, and stuck it properly. I think it's always better to be formal. It can express my sincerity better. I sincerely hope that Chu Lian can let go of our past and obtain new happiness.
I sorted out " Dream Girl " and sent it to the printing shop to print and bind it into an exquisite book. The cover was the homepage of my dream website. I put the books and letters into a plain kraft paper bag and sealed it. I filled in the address of Chu Lian that Lvping gave me a few days ago and took the parcel to the post office.
" Di-di." Walking on the sidewalk, I suddenly heard the sound of a car horn in the lane next to me. I turned my head and saw that it was Yunfan.
"Mrs. Fei, where are you going? Why wasn't he riding a bicycle? Come, get in the car."
I was a little surprised because I wasn't mentally prepared. Although I had already let go of the past, I didn't know if Yunfan could let go. I was still a little nervous, so I took the package and got into the car.
"I, I want to go to the post office. Aren't you working? Why did you come out?" I asked.
"I miss Mrs. Fei. I wanted to come back and see you after the meeting. Why go to the post office? Is there anything you want to mail? Why don't you let John go?" As Yunfan spoke, he turned his head to take a look. I saw his expression suddenly change. I looked down and saw the parcel rushing toward me. It was obviously " America " and " Engineer Chulian ". I subconsciously covered it with my hand, but he had already seen it.
"Squeak!" Yun Fan's car stopped by the roadside.
" Yunfan, let me explain…" I said hurriedly.
"What's there to explain! This is written in black and white for Engineer Chu Lian. Do you think I'm an idiot? I did say that I don't care about your past, but is this what you call your past? Should I scream? She took the parcel and walked happily to the post office. She didn't know what she was going to mail him! What do you want to explain? Do you still want to explain that it was a chance encounter like the last time you called me on Messenger? Was there such a carefully prepared chance encounter?”Yun Fan said excitedly. His eyes were filled with anger and seemed to be filled with some sadness. That ferocious expression on his face made me afraid.
" Yunfan, it's not like that. It's not what you think. Let me explain..."
"Explain what? I don't want to hear your excuses! Wasn't this evidence enough? You know where my bottom line is, but you crossed it again! I can't believe you're still like this after everything we've been through! Just a while ago during the anniversary celebration, I naively thought that you were completely in love with me. I didn't expect that it was just a daydream! I, a man of two years, can't compare to the man of twenty years in your heart! I'm notorious! Good! No matter what, he couldn't compare to that innocent man!”Yun Fan used his arm to hit the steering wheel with all his might and honked continuously. "Do you still only have Chu Lian in your heart? Will he live in your heart and share this dream with you?!”Yun Fan asked frantically.
"What do you mean by that? What nonsense are you talking about! Are you looking for trouble? You clearly know that's not the case, but you're still being unreasonable!”
"I'm being unreasonable? How am I being unreasonable? Tell me, my mind is filled with you every day. I come back to see you when I have time, but I see you happily giving the parcel to another man and being intimate with him. How can I calm down? Am I looking for trouble? Was I the one who found it? You pushed me to the peak, then pushed me to the bottom. You let me down again and again! I can't stand this kind of life anymore!" Yun Fan leaned on the steering wheel angrily.
"What do you mean? Why do you misunderstand me so much? Do you not trust me so much? Do you have no confidence in me? I've treated you with all my heart, but you still doubt me like this! You disappoint me! I'm telling you now, I'm going to mail something to Chu Lian. I'm upright and not afraid of shadows. It's up to you whether you look at it or not.”I threw the package into the car, opened the door, and ran away crying…
I didn't know where I got the strength to run all the way to Dream Garden. Tears covered the roads on both sides. As I ran, the image of Yun Fan getting angry at me just now kept appearing in my mind. It was a hoarse roar, as if he wanted to roar out all his anger. I rushed through the door and ran to the bedroom.
“MadameFee!”Xi Pengpeng called me from behind. I didn't know what was wrong with me, but I wasn't in the mood to pay attention to them. I rushed into the bedroom and locked the door.
"How could this Fei Yunfan do this to me? He actually didn't listen to my explanation! It was clearly nothing! He shouted at me indiscriminately. We've already been through so much, but you still don't believe me. Am I such a heartless and cold-blooded animal in your heart? If you don't trust me and yell at me like this, I'll never talk to you again!!!”
I grabbed something and prepared to use it as support, but it turned out to be Little Winter Melon. "Little Winter Melon, Big Winter Melon, go to hell!”With that, he threw Little Winter Melon on the ground and laid on the bed, crying bitterly.
On the street
Hearing the sound of Zi Ling slamming the car door, Yun Fan's heart suddenly twitched. He was heartbroken, not knowing whether it was because of his own pain or because he saw Zi Ling crying and running away.
"Why is this happening? Why did this happen? Wasn't it the same for those two years? I've already endured it, so why can't I endure it now? I can't leave her. I wish she was by my side, but I'm not the one in her heart. What should I do?”
Yun Fan got out of the car in frustration, but he did not chase after Zi Ling. He stood on the side of the car with his hands on his hips and paced angrily. Rather than anger, it was more sorrowful. Looking closely at the expression on Yun Fan's face, it was not the anger of the enemy meeting, but the despair of his unfortunate fate, the disappointment that he was not the person in Zi Ling's heart, the jealousy of someone far away, and the sadness that hit the bottom of his heart. It was deeply locked between his eyebrows.
" Ah!" Yun Fan shouted angrily and punched the car window. The car window cracked and red blood dripped down Yun Fan's clenched fist. He couldn't feel the pain in his hand. Perhaps he wanted to use the pain in his body to distract the pain in his mind. However, her heart still hurt so much…
Yun Fan turned around and leaned against the car as if he was exhausted. He slowly slid down and raised his head. His eyes were empty as he looked into the distance. Despair overflowed from his eyes.
He slid down slowly and leaned against the car. He hugged his head with his scarred hands. He cried silently, like a wounded king of beasts licking his wounds…
"Zi Ling, it's not that I don't trust you, but I don't trust myself. I yelled at you to hide my guilt. You see, I'm all-powerful in the business world, but I also have a soft heart. I also desire to love and be loved. For decades, I've seen the fickleness of the world, but I've never experienced the warmth of the human world. In your place, I suddenly felt the meaning of life, the joy of life. I'm so powerless. My past is not only your pain, but also my pain. I'm afraid that I'm not good enough for you. I'm afraid that I'm not outstanding enough to replace the person you've been infatuated with since you were young. The anniversary celebration a while ago was the most touching day of my life. I thought you were completely in love with me, but today, I doubt it. Am I not good enough? Why can't I occupy the most important position in your heart? Are you lying to me when you say you love me? Is it to comfort me? I'm really not sure. Zi Ling, I love you, but it's also because I love you so much that I can't stand your 'not loving me'...
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