2010, 11, 26, 00:08，
On this day, he suddenly had a new idea. Under the situation where he could not do anything, could he find a new way? As long as he was willing to bow his head to Bai Yu and beg for forgiveness, she would definitely change her mind immediately. In fact, her sincerity towards him in the past had already cultivated his confidence. He felt that he did not need to beg for forgiveness. He remembered the last sentence in her last letter. She said that as long as he gave her a little indication, she would rush to his residence overnight. Fortunately, the problem did not lie with Bai Yu, but with Xing Zhong. Was he willing to let go of his so-called "dignity"?!
The long, slow night was hard to endure! The sound of the city faded into silence, and then gradually recovered from the silence. With the help of the sound of dawn driving the car, dawn quickly climbed up the small window of his two-person dormitory in the forest chemical factory. At this moment, he stared at the pale white color in the small window with his dry eyes, and he remembered the black-and-white movies and plays he watched when he was eleven or twelve years old. In particular, on the playground of the primary school in Chengguan Town where he studied (on the high platform of the tower next to the well where his mother threw herself into), a series of dialogue was spread on the small stage of the drama that was performed by the local art troupe in Wan County after the liberation of the small town. It was not the first time that Xingzhong had seen and filtered the special words that were strung into the funny drama. There was a phrase used by an actor who played the role of a playboy who lived a nightlife. It was:
"The sun has come out, and the darkness remains behind. But the sun is not ours. We are going to sleep.……”
Yes, after a sleepless night, Xingzhong should be sleeping!
In a daze, he heard the sound of people walking after the night shift. It was the "bamboo pole" of his colleagues, fellow countrymen, and classmates! The sound he made in the room next door after his wedding was the sound of washing from the ceiling made of bamboo mats. When he came out and walked around the door of Xing Zhong's room, he saw that he was going to the well three meters away from the dormitory to get some water. Xing Zhong then raised his upper body and asked him a favor from the window.
"Zhu Gan, when you leave for the morning shift today, please help me ask for verbal leave for my middle shift today!”
"What's the matter, Xingzhong?"
"I'm sick!"
"Oh, how did you? Did you spit out a little blood in your phlegm? You've recovered in the past few days, haven't you? Teacher Xiao Wang is studying at the Normal University. Yesterday, when I went to the city to purchase sulfuric acid, I met him and mentioned that I had visited his school. Your mild 'invasive lung disease' is not too serious!”This " Bamboo Rod ", who was nicknamed " Bamboo Rod " because of his tall and thin body, went to the well to get water without waiting for his reply.
Because Xingzhong had not been going out for the next few days due to illness, not only did Zhugan know about it, but the factory leader had also approved it. However, he had met someone from Xingzhong who had gone for a walk with Bai Yu, who had suddenly come to visit his family in the provincial capital. Now, even the bamboo pole would think this way-- If the second-level leaders of the factory and the school (excluding the bureau level) mistakenly believed that he had a disease (when he took the chest X-ray, he kept a negative film in the file of the medical office of the school), it was just not too serious. If that was the case, he would accompany Bai Yu on the streets in his excitement. This move would be detrimental to his future career! He couldn't ignore the fact that once he was fired for cheating, where would he go?
It was fine for him to be fired or retired, but it would increase his mother's burden (she worked as a waitress, and she only earned 22 yuan a month to support her eight people, including his grandmother).
Not going home? There were many high school classmates who wanted to go to university in the provincial capital. Although he had some food stamps and could stay for a while, Xingzhong's strong will would make him refuse. Originally, there was a way out. It was both ideal and appropriate, because the letter Bai Yu left behind had prepared everything for him. She was already teaching at his uncle's elementary school in Shancheng Commune. It could be said that she was 100% safe and sound, waiting for him to start a family with her. However, he was still waiting for his first love, Li Ying, and was willing to give up this good invitation. It was really a pity for the White Jade and Black Jade sisters!
Now, he could only bring his chaotic thoughts into the dream, but soon he was awakened by an uncontrollable cough. He groggily took out his handkerchief from under his pillow and spat out the bloody stench. Suddenly he sat up again. A chill, vigilance, and horror drove away his sleepiness.: It turned out that he had once again discovered that there were indeed blood vessels in the phlegm!
A cold current seeped from the top of his head all the way to the bottom of his feet. His heart froze, and countless small stars appeared in his eyes. The phlegm under his gaze spun and expanded in circles... and then formed a bottomless black trap. He was sinking into the trap step by step. Gradually, he could no longer support himself. With a thud, he fell onto the bed, closed his eyes, and panted heavily. His face was as pale as wax!
That little bit of blood was still the blood in his body. It had repeatedly proved that his organs were damaged. He could not deceive his superiors and himself. At the same time, he could no longer ignore the fact that his condition might be even more vicious than he had imagined!
Xing Zhong's head was heavy, but his body was light. For a moment, he forgot where he was. He only felt a kind of emptiness in his life caused by despair. The boundary between life and death was very vague, but it was sad that it was difficult to live, and it was not easy to die. Then, he suddenly remembered the time when his mother and grandmother had quarreled. His mother's first attempt at hanging herself was saved by Father Ping 'an and Father Bai Yu. The second time his mother jumped into the well, he was the one who kept a close eye on her and saved her life. Although he managed to save her from the death god in time! However, from then on, he also began to talk about the idealist "destiny"!
With complicated feelings, there were also complicated emotions. His body began to tremble in excitement, and something strange happened. His mouth began to twitch. He had stored in his self-pity and self-pity. Every time he felt complicated emotions, although he did not shed a single tear, the grief without tears far exceeded that of crying! [To be continued][Page 23]
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