When she really left the studio and the room was empty, I realized that she had really left. Gently, I left the workshop, the place that once made me happy and happy. Then, I threw the key into the air…
I don't know why my heart feels so sad.
Just like seven years ago, when we were still 16 or 17 years old, I told Ye Xiaozhou that I liked him. However, Ye Xiaozhou only smiled and did not answer. In our ignorance, we didn't understand what love was. When I wanted to confess for the second time, I realized that she was already very far away from me…
Yes, she told me that sentence that I couldn't let go of." If you were a ticket and placed in front of me, perhaps I would pick it up and wander the world…" But unfortunately, perhaps I didn't understand it at that time, or I retreated or was afraid, so I chose to hide.
I knew that Li Xing 'er liked me and I could be unrestrained in front of her. I felt that I could be as free as she was. " I knew that I might be immoral, but at that moment, only I knew that my soul had long been lost. I didn't know where I was lost, or perhaps I had long been lost in the moment I hid from Ye Xiaozhou…
The short time I spent with Wang Xinjie and Ni Yuying's dramatic entrance into my life actually revived my dead heart in a sense. I'm no longer the same person who was dedicated to vanity on stage. Actually, I don't want to escape anymore.
However, when Ye Xiaozhou appeared again, I realized that I was even more cowardly than I had imagined. She told me that she had waited for me. Before we got married, she wrote me a letter. But I didn't receive it…I couldn't help but think that the letter might have been torn to pieces in my mother's hands, and my heart ached like a knife. I want to give Ye Xiaozhou a stable life, a stable home that she yearned for, but I'm afraid that I can't do it…
Ni Yuying was Ni Yuying. Even though I said that I treated her as Ye Xiaozhou's substitute in front of her. Her breakdown in front of me actually made my heart ache. She's really a very clean girl, a clean heart, a clean soul…I'm afraid that I'll taint her. I didn't dare to tell her and didn't want her to know that my mother didn't have a good impression of her. She liked young girls from Shanghai. They were pretty, had a clean family background, and had to be rich…
My heart is in a dilemma. The girls I like don't meet this standard. Whether it's Ye Xiaozhou, Ni Yuying, Wang Xinjie, Li Xing 'er... So when I'm at a loss, the one thing I'm most willing to do is to run away.
There was a bird in my dream. It was a canary that I bought with the money I had saved from skipping lunch in the second grade. It's very beautiful, and I like it very much. I feed it water and feed it every day. However, one day, when I got out of school very early, I realized that my mother had strangled my canary to death…I walked around in tears and pretended that nothing had happened. I pretended that I had just returned home from school and looked at my canary as if I didn't know anything. When I saw the empty birdcage, I asked curiously, where is my canary? Mom said that I ate too much and was stuffed to death, but I still had to pretend to believe her…
" Sometimes, I dream. Sometimes, I wake up from my dreams in fear. In my dreams, that beautiful bird will sometimes turn into Ye Xiaozhou's face, sometimes into Ni Yuying's face, and sometimes into the canary that was strangled to death by her mother's hands…
Later, I heard that Ni Yuying was hospitalized because of a car accident. I was also admitted to the hospital. Because he had done too many things that he had done wrong and offended too many people, he had suffered revenge. However, when I was lying alone in the hospital, I filtered through everything that had happened before. It was like a movie in my mind. Only then did I realize that I had once been happy, but it had inadvertently slipped through my fingers…
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