Vast sorrow, boundless calamity; Short song ends, bright moon wane
The spring wind, the spring flowers. Autumn quietly flies and falls,
It had been a long time since school started. During this period of time, with Ni Weier's beauty, the teachers of all the subjects had been desperately helping me to tutor my past gaps for free. Now, I had already gone from having to listen to classes with great difficulty to being able to do so with ease.
I knew that Ni Weier had helped me settle all the things that needed to be arranged. Otherwise, how could I possibly sit together with my peers when I was learning history? The beautiful Ni Wei 'er was so good! Every day, I was led to and from school by Ni Weier. The angel of happiness opened her wings to me, which I had been waiting for a long time and dreamed of many times.
。Angels have never existed in this world, and you, Newell, are my angel. Because of your existence, my smile once again hung on my face. Because of you, I finally bid farewell to the life of a wandering orphan. I no longer have to enjoy the life of a vagrant.
Ni Weier, your appearance changed my fate of being an orphan. "As for my parents, I'm very grateful to you for giving me life. It's just that I don't understand what difficulties made you so cruel to abandon me."
He gave me an orphan life that was neither human nor ghost. Even a weak woman like Ni Weier, who had no kinship with me, could not bear to leave me in the new city. Even if she asked others to sacrifice herself, that little boy who I did not know could not bear to let me travel outside. He would rather give me food and take care of me even if he was hungry.
And the little girl who has always lived in my heart. She can give up food for me, put down her dignity and always play the role of protecting me. For me, she even gave up her life.
I really couldn't understand why a stranger who I didn't even know and had nothing to do with could take care of me unconditionally without hesitation. I really can't think of any great reason as my biological parents for you to be willing to leave me behind even if I have no ability to survive, even if I can't live on. Even a vicious tiger won't eat its cubs. Yet, for your own sake, you heartlessly abandoned me when I was so young that I didn't even have the strength to survive. Blood is thicker than water, and kinship is more important than everything. Kinship and blood ties are not worth a single cent in your eyes.
In fact, this sentence is also worthless nonsense to me. I don't even know how much a pound of kinship is in the current market. Will there be a discount? This way, I can use the luxurious gold card that my beautiful Ni Weier gave me to swipe it back and frame it as a piece of art.
Haha. Father, mother, before I was seven years old, my memories of you were blank. Even if we meet one day, we should maintain that feeling of not knowing each other. When I needed someone to take care of me the most, you didn't even show up. Now that I have the capital and ability to live, I think there's even less reason for you to show up.
I'm very satisfied with my current life and I really like it. Every morning, Ni Weier would prepare simple and rich milk and bread for me and dress me up like a beautiful princess. In the afternoon, she would occasionally drive me to my favorite mall in her private car and buy me a lot of beautiful princess clothes.
She used material resources to enrich my life and provided me with a superior living environment with her own financial strength. Of course, Ni Weier had to maintain our luxurious private villa and the life of the upper class as a mistress for the rich in a city. The small car, private luxury villa, and large garden were all under Ni Weier's name. It's all our private property,
That's why we can all stand our ground in this city. She has dozens of platinum cards of all kinds. Our money can buy many beautiful villas. This kind of life gives me a sense of security. Many nights, I sleep alone on a big soft princess bed, with my big doll as my pillow and my big bear doll lying on it. I cover myself with a light pure silk blanket and sleep peacefully.
"As for Niwei 'er, she's about to pack up and go out. She often doesn't come back for the entire night. Once she comes back, she'll be completely drunk. I know that this woman has a story buried in her heart and also has a heartache that no one knows about. It's very unsafe to live as a mistress. She'll often be slapped in the face, and she'll often be forced to drink and socialize. She'll often drink until her stomach bleeds."
I often saw Ni Weier hugging her stomach with a pale and helpless face. No one cared about her body, and no one cared about her thoughts. I wondered if beauty was a silent disaster for her. My heart aches for the woman who adopted me,
"Actually, only she and I know how tiring it is to be someone's mistress and how low your self-esteem is. Many a time, I've seen her come back with bruises all over her body. I know that many people have sexual masochistic tendencies. Ni Weier's fair and tender body has been covered in bruises for a long time.
There was too much helplessness on the road of being a mistress. Not only did they live under the saliva of others, but they were also often forced to take on some commercial business. They drank until their stomachs bled and had to accompany those sexually abused guests. Life made us helpless. Actually, we've earned enough money long ago. She doesn't need to work so hard anymore, but I don't know why she refused to stop. She kept eating and socializing outside, and she didn't care about her sorry state.
"I didn't know that Ni Weier had mild obsessive-compulsive disorder and schizophrenia. Sometimes, she clearly hates that man who often appears at home, but she always forces herself to take the initiative to contact him and force herself to be his mistress."
She also often abused herself. Her wrists would always cut themselves until they were bloody during that month. At that time, she often drank and smoked and abused herself.。I don't know what could make this rich and extravagant woman torture herself like she's risking her life.
I don't know what kind of cruel and fatal blow I suffered during that period of time that made me look neither human nor ghost. Ni Weier, even if the whole world doesn't understand you, at least you still have me. As long as you raise your head, you can see the heartache in my eyes. Why would you rather torture yourself than tell me?
I don't know if meeting you is my innate sorrow. You never tell me what you're thinking, but I always have to guess your heart. God knows how tiring it is for me.
I broke the strings and complained that it was not enough to leave
Looking through the autumn water, I can't see through the love net
The cycle of time can't take away sadness
The boundless snow can't cover the melancholy
The time that flies on the plain
But the years have turned my hair white
But your beautiful face is still soaked in the moonlight and condensed into a persistent statue. I don't know who would be so blessed that my Ni Wei 'er would rather turn into a statue and wait for her to appear.
Flowers wither, flowers fly, flowers fill the sky,
Who will pity me when the red fades and the fragrance is broken?
Ni Weier, you never let me participate in those distant stories. From the beginning to the end, I've always been an outsider in your heart. You would rather bury your emotions in yesterday's story than tell me, so why did you adopt me?
'Could it be that I was really a mistake that you made on impulse? Then why did you spend so much time and money on me? Tell me, Ni Weier, what are you thinking? I can't see through your heart even at such a close distance. We're clearly under the same roof, and we're only separated by a narrow wall, but I feel that you're so far away from me.'
, so far that it seems that we are all passers-by and have never met each other. I want to enter your world, but you have repeatedly rejected me. I have made you difficult again and again, but you have made me disappointed again and again.
Every time you faintly alienated me, it was like a sharp blade piercing into the deepest part of my heart. I didn't understand your thoughts, but you turned a blind eye to every loneliness you gave me.
Mom, what do you want me to do to heal the wound in your heart? It's because I'm not your real daughter, so I don't have the right to ask about everything about you. Even if I'm really just concerned, I can't, right? Our relationship is only limited to adoption, right?
Is this what you want to say? Many times, I feel that your eyes are looking at me, but I don't exist in your eyes. I know that you're looking at that person who's about my age through me, right? She's your real daughter, the daughter you're so worried about, the daughter you'd rather harm yourself than eat or drink.
。I heard you call Sisi's name many times when you were drunk. She should be your real daughter. I'm just a chess piece when you're lonely. I'm just a shadow that you miss your daughter. Every time you cried out for Sisi in your dreams, I heard it, but I chose to remain silent.
Her name repeatedly appeared in your dreams, and your heart-wrenching cries shook my blood until they pierced into my heart. Ni Weier, did you know? While you repeatedly tortured yourself, you also brought me another kind of heart-wrenching pain.
Ni Weier, you never knew that while you were torturing yourself for her, you were also torturing my broken heart. I also lived in your longing for her. I wanted her to appear in front of us, but I was afraid of her appearance because I knew that once she really appeared in this house, you would no longer need me as a shadow.
I don't need to appear in your sight anymore. I know you miss me, but you never know my fear.
Maybe one day, at a certain time, we will really become a passing scenery for each other again. Ni Weier.
This book is provided by FunNovel Novel Book | Fan Fiction Novel [Beautiful Free Novel Book]