Six years ago, six years ago. Ding Shaonan could not bear to hear someone saying that they did not regret or feel sad about their life. There was once when he was having a meal with the people from the customs. After a few rounds of wine, they had a secret conversation. A familiar director suddenly came over mysteriously.
"Young Master Ding, what do you think people want to live for in their lives? Money, power, women, you dare to say you don't love them? In our line of work, we are in the right place at the right time. What was principle? I've done many things without principles. If you say there's a god within three feet, I believe it. But I didn't kill anyone, set fire to anyone, or hide anything. I was prepared that one day, all of this might turn into soap bubbles. But I won't regret it. I just want to enjoy myself today.”
After a few years, they had seen each other again on television. It was a very famous legal program. The black background, the gray prison uniform, and the strong light from the side made his face half bright and half dark. He was crying and repenting, just like an eight o'clock script. Only his eyes were filled with despair.
Ding Shaonan thought, if he didn't regret it, where would he get the despair? At that time, he thought that he had already made sufficient preparations and was willing to risk everything. He thought that he could bear the consequences, bear it, endure it, and ignore it. Ding Shaonan had long known that when the director dared to say that, it was only because he could not calculate the " what if he lost " that he had not experienced before.
If it wasn't true at that moment, everything would be a self-deceiving imagination. In the end, whoever regretted it would know.
Just like how they parted six years ago.
On the day he was about to break up with Gu Qiqi, even the weather was suitable. The drizzling autumn night deepened the cold weather. Ding Shaonan originally thought that he could rely on his own strength to survive, but when he looked inside carefully, he realized the danger within. Apart from staking everything on this, he had no other choice.
However, he didn't dare and couldn't gamble with her. If it was a tomorrow that even he could not grasp, how could he bear to let her take the risk?
However, the moment he saw her, he suddenly forgot the script he had prepared in his mind. The two of them stood under the same umbrella in a daze. They opened their mouths at the same time, looked at each other, and then closed them again. He slowly placed his hand on her cheek, his fingertips touching her soft and smooth face. He kissed her passionately, breathing in her sweet scent. He sighed and turned, almost obsessively muttering her nickname between his lips and teeth. His arm was on the back of her neck covered in hair, and he continued to deepen the kiss until it became dust forever.
However, the words of breaking up came out of her mouth without any warning. She pushed him away lightly and resolutely, as if she had made the greatest decision in her life.
"This kind of life is really hard. I've really had enough, so…please let go. I've already fallen in love with someone else…so. Go…get lost!"
At that moment, Ding Shaonan wasn't on guard against Gu Qiqi telling him all this. His heart skipped a beat, but he finally felt relieved. Yes, she had indeed endured him for too long. She loved him so much, but he couldn't give her the same affection. She had been waiting and forgiving for him. He wasn't blind.
When Ding Shaonan turned around, he even deliberately ignored some of his instincts and lied to himself. Since she had fallen in love with someone else, this was good, this was good.
She couldn't help but turn back. Only San Piaoling remained where she was, but she was no longer visible.
He remembered that the road back was very long and dark. He remembered that she had to walk through the cold rain alone. At that moment, he almost couldn't control his footsteps. He finally stopped and stood still on the spot. Then, he would never see her again, and he would never be able to exchange for tomorrow. After that, it was like this for more than 2,000 days and nights.
He had never believed the words she had said. He had no choice but to swallow the " why " in his heart. After that, he even regretted thinking about it. Even if he only had a one in ten thousand chance of winning, on what basis could he have tried to make the decision to break up for her that night?
She didn't even give him the chance to make this decision.
Then, she disappeared just like that. He did not even have the right to blame himself in the future.
In the end, it was not because he wanted to break up, but because she had " fallen in love with someone else." How could she be so ruthless and stingy? How could she leave his world just like that?
He hated her for not giving him the chance to hate himself. She hated him so much that she could only punish herself with regret.
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