When Honghui woke up, he could already eat at night. In order to make up for not making eight-treasure porridge for him last time, I specially went to the kitchen to make it. Xiao Cui also helped, so it was done very quickly. She tasted it and it tasted good.
"Honghui, try it. I made it for you.”I handed it to Nala Shi and motioned for her to feed Hong Hui. She took the bowl from her hand and sat by the bed to feed Hong Hui spoonful by spoonful.
"YiNiang, what is this? It's so delicious.”Seeing him eat happily, I was a little happy too." Yes, this is Eight Treasures Porridge. When you're better, I'll make it for you every day."”I smiled.
Nala looked at me with gratitude in her eyes. I knew that as a mother, she had never cooked for Hong Hui and probably rarely fed him personally. She actually wanted to be a good mother.
"Eat slowly. There's no hurry." Na La Shi looked at Hong Hui and said," Sure enough, he did well. At least Hong Hui likes it. It's just that I don't know how long he can last."
At this moment, we were all looking at Hong Hui, and the person who was called Ma had also arrived. Seeing him standing there like this, could it be that he wasn't a little sad? This was his son.
"Fourth Master is auspicious." I bowed to greet him and lowered my head to wait for his reply." Yes, get up."”
I stood up and looked at his expression. I thought I shouldn't stay here for now. I'll leave them to get along with each other. I turned to look at Honghui and the Nala family." Fujin, Honghui, I'll leave first. I'll come back tomorrow."”
"Mhm, okay, go ahead." Hong Hui smiled at me, and I smiled back. Then, I turned around and walked past him. The feeling of brushing past him was no longer heartache, but disappointment.
After leaving the place, he walked into the courtyard and looked at the lake. The moon was reflected in the lake, giving off a faint glow. At this moment, his heart was as calm as the lake. There was nothing to remember. He looked at Xiao Cui, who was at the side. He was waiting to tell the Fujin tomorrow to settle the matter between her and Tian Ya. Then, he could leave.
"Young miss, it's a bit cold here. Why don't this servant go back and bring you a cloak?”Xiao Cui said, but I wanted to stay here quietly. She nodded and said," Okay."”
After Xiao Cui left, I quietly sat on a rock beside the lake and looked at the lake. It was so calm. Why was it so calm? It was just like why my heart was so calm at this moment.
"You'll catch a cold sitting here." A voice came from behind him. It was his voice. Why wasn't he there to accompany Hong Hui? What was he doing here?
"Why is Fourth Master here?" I didn't turn my head to look at him. I continued to look ahead. Perhaps I didn't want to face him or see him.
"I wanted to go to your place to take a look, but I came here when I found you here.”As I spoke, I felt a tinge of interest in my heart, but it quickly disappeared. I smiled and said," Fourth Master, you must be joking. This servant is very good. How can I trouble Fourth Master?"”
"You're still angry." Angry? Am I angry? I just didn't think that he needed to see me. I turned to him and said," Why would I be angry? Why would I be angry? Fourth Master is really joking.”
He didn't say anything and looked at me quietly. I looked back at him. Our eyes met. I was no longer so shy that I didn't dare to look at him. How could I still be afraid now?
"I shouldn't have been reckless today." He said softly. It turned out that he also knew his mistakes. However, was there any use in apologizing now? Even if he apologized, it wouldn't mean anything. This was definitely not the only time.
"Master, you didn't do anything wrong. It's my fault. I shouldn't have provoked others and attracted too much attention.”I gently smiled. Why should we continue to hurt others?
He was stunned and slowly regained his senses." Why is it like this? Can't you go back to that time?"”His words confused me. I didn't understand what that was." What do you mean by that?”
"At that time, you were very happy. You smiled every day and would be shy whenever you saw me. However, you had many thoughts in your mind and were willing to help others.”As he spoke, I smiled bitterly." My memory is very good, but how can I return to the past? In the past, I thought that I could get what I wanted. At least, if I couldn't get it, I could accompany him quietly. At least, I wouldn't get hurt. But I was wrong. The closer I get, the more hurt I get.”
"Can't we still think like that? Maybe it'll be different.”Yinzhen asked, but I didn't know how to say it. Go back to the past, go back to the thoughts of that time, but it had already happened, how could I go back?
I looked at him and said slowly," Yinzhen, I do like you. I thought I could like you so much that I just wanted to be with you and see you, but I was wrong. I couldn't do it. I couldn't watch you have a group of wives and concubines. I couldn't stand the ridicule of your women.”I really can't do it. It's very difficult.
"Then why did you choose me in the beginning? Wasn't it because you liked me?”I wanted to laugh when he said that. Yes, I chose him because I liked him. If only I didn't like him.
I didn't say anything and just looked at him. Seeing that I was so calm and didn't say anything, he continued," Can you slowly adapt? Start again."
I was stunned. His words were so laughable. Should I get used to his wives and concubines, or should I get used to the ridicule of those women, or should I slowly wait for him to treat me sincerely?
" Yinzhen, don't you know that you can't give me what I want? I chose you because I like you, but I also want a peaceful life, so I regret it.”I said calmly. He couldn't believe what I said, but seeing my expression, he knew that I was serious.
"Go back and have some peace. I'll come back to find you tomorrow.”He didn't say anything more and turned around to leave. Looking at his departing back, I finally couldn't help but cry. The man I loved, you're not mine in the end. You'll leave me in the end. We'll have to separate in the end. I can't be with you in the end.
I turned around and left. I saw Xiao Cui holding a cloak in her hand. I thought she had heard me when she came just now, but she couldn't make a sound. I wiped away my tears and smiled." Let's go back."”
Xiao Cui didn't say anything and walked into the room. I was so tired that I walked to the bed and sat down. Xiao Cui stood in front of me and said," Miss, Fourth Master is right. You've changed. Xi Min is no longer Xi Min."”
"Changed?" I have changed, how can I not change? It was destined from the day I married him. It was destined from the moment I came to this dynasty.
"Miss, your smile has lessened. You're no longer as happy when you see Lord Fourth. You've become often in a daze and often don't know what to do.”Xiao Cui kept talking. I looked at her and said," Yes, I know. You can go down first. I'll be quiet."”
Xiao Cui looked at me and didn't say anything else. She turned around and left. The door was closed and I quietly lay on the bed. How good would it be if I woke up and found myself back in the modern world?
Honghui is already destined according to history. I can't do anything. If I stay, I'll only be sad. It's better to leave. I'll go find that person for help tomorrow. I'm really tired.
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