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"I've never fallen in love with anyone else. The person I love has always been you, and you're the only person I want to love.”Roland firmly denied that she had a change of heart. She said,""I only play with others at most. I only occasionally date them. I have never loved them. I only love you, but you no longer care about me…"
Xia Xin knew that she was being unreasonable. It was like a person who had killed someone but still said that he didn't kill anyone. Xia Xin's kind heart couldn't find anything else to say. Instead, he seemed to be at a loss for words. He could only say,"I didn't ignore you. I wrote you a letter but you didn't reply.”Thinking of the last letter she had sent three months ago, which she had sincerely called out to him, she only received an indifferent " I don't know " in the end. Tears flowed down her heart again.
" Why are you only looking at my attitude?" Roland asked." What about yours?"”When you love someone, it doesn't matter how the other party is. The most important thing should be his own pursuit and sacrifice, right?! Even if I don't love you anymore, if you do, you should persevere to the end.
Xia Xin was stunned and looked at her speechlessly. What attitude can I have? At first, I was passively accepting you, but now, I'm passively withdrawing from your life. I also tried my best to change your attitude. I hope you can love me for the rest of your life. But in the end, he realized that it was just a dream. Since it was a dream, I could only give up. So what if he didn't give up? I'm really tired after being hurt by you again and again. So tired that I can only give up on you!
"Are you really going to give up? Can you bear to?" Roland refused to admit defeat. In the past, no matter how big a mistake she made, as long as she changed her mind, she would always forgive her. As long as she said " I'm sorry ", she could still get her warm embrace.
Xia Xin smiled bitterly. At this point, she still didn't want to hurt her or use any words to provoke her. She only wanted to protect her self-esteem and mood.
"I know you can't bear to.”Seeing that she was just smiling and didn't say anything else, Roland continued,""You said that you should be tolerant of your lover. Forgiving the other party is equivalent to giving the other party a chance, and also giving yourself a chance. I've always loved you, but…I felt that my abilities were too limited and I couldn't stay by your side, so I asked you to find someone else. Baby, I know I've let you down and hurt you, but I really love you. You understand and have always understood me, right?”
"Aren't you sick?" Xia Xin felt that this conversation was very tiring and could not help but interrupt her."We've been chatting for more than an hour. You should go and rest early.”
"I don't want to play. You have to accompany me!" Roland acted coquettishly. "You said that no matter when I look for you, you will accompany me! Even if we became friends, you promised to accompany me.”
"But you also said that we have to protect it for the rest of our lives! " But you quickly went to find someone else, and you asked me to find someone else…" Xia Xin felt a wave of sadness rush to his eyes as he said this. He quickly lowered his head to stop his tears from flowing.
"I'm sorry!" " But I'm doing this for your own good," Roland said after a pause." I hope you'll be happy." Moreover, you promised to protect me for the rest of your life. You can always stick to your beliefs…"
"You're sick. You should rest early.”Xia Xin's heart was in a mess, and he felt extremely heavy. He felt that he could not continue chatting, so he could only persuade her to rest. Besides, she wasn't alone in the office. No matter how low she lowered her voice and typed the key words, it was better to end this conversation as soon as possible.
"Alright then." Roland nodded in agreement, but then said," Why don't you call me anymore? Why not?"”He hid the word " baby " in his throat, hoping that she would call it out. In the past, when the two of them said goodbye, they would always say," Baby, goodbye." After saying it many times, she still called out reluctantly," Baby."”
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Xia Xin understood what she meant and said,"Go and rest. Take care of yourself." The two intimate words that he was so familiar with could no longer be uttered! Since they were no longer each other's treasures, there was no need to force it. No matter how she tried to beat around the bush, Xia Xin could no longer say the word "baby".
"I miss you so much!" Roland said, looking at her deeply.
Xia Xin was speechless and suddenly turned off the video call.
Leaning against the back of the chair, she suddenly felt as if she had collapsed. She was so tired!
Xia Tian noticed that she was extremely tired and reminded her to take a break through QQ.
Xia Xin looked at her and typed,"Can you go out with me?"”
Xia Tian immediately agreed and held her hand as they went out for a walk. He did not ask anything and only held Xia Xin's hand tightly!
Winter in Guangzhou was not cold at all. Even at night, the wind blew on her face, bringing a gentle warmth. The shadows of the trees and flowers were floating around. Under the streetlights, it was as gentle as a dream. They walked along the road in the neighborhood. There were many redbud trees planted beside the houses, and the purple-pink flowers swayed in the wind. After turning around a building, there were palm trees that supported a cold silence in the night sky.
Xia Xin turned to look at Xia Tian, who smiled at him. The hand that she held tightly was warm and carried the breath of spring. Her smile and handshake were like the flowers on the Magnolia tree, filling Xia Xin's heart with fragrance. Slowly, she told her about her conversation with Roland.
Xia Tian listened quietly and held her hand tightly from time to time. He did not judge her past and only gave her his warmth.
After repeating Roland's words," You also promised to protect me for the rest of your life, so why didn't you insist?" Xia Xin felt ashamed and smiled bitterly."She's right. Why can't I always protect her?”Protection was a kind of faith. No matter what the other party's attitude was, one should stick to one's own faith. However, after the other party had a change of heart, he had also changed his heart not long after. What was faith? What was human nature? "Speaking of which, I'm also a very weak person. I'll give up when I encounter setbacks…"
Xia Tian's heart trembled. It hurt! Was she still in love with her? Otherwise, why would her every move still affect all her nerves? The relationship between the two of them should be very, very deep. She still missed her very much in her heart. Although her heart was hurt, that love could not be erased.
Xia Tian suddenly felt guilty! I was the one who stole her love, and I was the one who destroyed their relationship. If I didn't accept her feelings during this period of time, and our relationship stopped at the boundary of friendship, perhaps Amoi wouldn't be in a difficult position and wouldn't feel guilty. Perhaps they could start over!
Xia Tian felt deeply remorseful. I didn't have the courage to give her anything. I didn't even dare to say " I like you " to her. Love was just an extravagant hope. Am I qualified to love her like this? Did he have the ability to love her? He was afraid that one day, he would not be able to give her happiness. At that time, he would only leave her with harm. Then what was the difference between her and them? But seeing her happy and happy with him, was her rejection still a kind of hurt? "Do you feel awkward?" she asked.”If it's difficult, if I still love her, then I'll withdraw…
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