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The second half of the colorful freshman year
On March 3rd, 2002, it snowed. Peach blossom snow, passionate snow. My roommates were constantly moving towards love. Boss and Hui Zai found their own love. Many of my schoolmates and I sang " Single Love Song " in a lonely corner. Flowers in the corner, when you admire yourself, the world becomes small. As the days passed, many of the schoolmates seemed to be waiting for an opportunity to vent their frustrations.
4.9 Event
April 9th, 2002, the long-awaited day had finally arrived. There was a sudden blackout that night, so my schoolmate and I were like crazy wolves looking for food. At nine o'clock in the evening, there was still no electricity, and the sound of a bottle breaking could be heard from the western campus. It was as if the rooster crowed in the middle of the night. Many people received the signal, so the western campus was filled with shouts and the sound of beer bottles breaking. My roommate and I also threw the three beer bottles we had recently drunk and the two thermos bottles that had just broken down from the window on the sixth floor. The sports department opposite us made a bigger move. As expected of a sports athlete, they actually smashed the glass of the fire extinguisher. The Cantonese boy on the same floor also liked to join in the fun. He actually took down two doors on the sixth floor and threw them to the ground. Someone was still lighting a fire. Such a lively scene also made the girls 'building opposite restless. Practice proved that women were not inferior to men. They actually ran to the roof of the sixth floor and lit a pile of fire to entertain themselves. They were caught red-handed by the security department. She was from Yan 'an and had the fighting mentality of the people there. Later, it was said that the power outage that day was caused by the school's overload of electricity. From that day on, the school began to count the high-power electrical appliances in the dormitory and banned alcohol. However, smart boys always thought of ways to drink, and the school could not do anything about it. This was the so-called 4.9 incident. I have always liked to comment on this matter because I had also participated in it. Although it wasn't as earth-shattering as some of the events in history, it was just as real when it happened around me. Therefore, I thought that many of the contemporary university students were impetuous and easily impulsive. This was a terrible thing. We were the backbone of our future motherland. We must not be controlled by our impulses. We must let reason occupy the high ground. All the schoolmates who paid the price in this practice deeply understood. It was said that on the day of the incident, a department head was riding a motorcycle on the road between the dormitory buildings to check on the situation. Two beer bottles were thrown at him. Fortunately, he was wearing a hat. Therefore, I didn't want to publicize this practice too much. It was like a very irregular wave, and it was just an interlude in the transition from freshman to sophomore. Although it sounded a little thrilling and even unbelievable, what we did at that moment even left the so-called successful people with the so-called scholarly impression. We were already used to others looking at us with lustful eyes.
Sophomore year--I want to say that loving you is not easy
His heart was already heavy when he mentioned the pen that was about to corrode. It was as if this memory was indistinct. I was like a lonely star lost in the night sky. Who was willing to wipe away my tears? This was how I learned to wander. Who would understand the taste of pain? Missing and confused, they stood at the gate of hell, looking forward to it and calling out. The love god was also crying. Why was Helen kidnapped twice and triggered the Troy War? The blood of heroes spilled in their hometown. For love and pride, they still sailed far away. Oscius, the embodiment of intelligence, Opus resolutely walked towards destruction. His sin was not only killing his father, but also taking his own mother. He had committed a heinous crime. Three goddesses of vengeance, one with a venomous snake on her head, one with a scorpion on her head, and one with the most evil thing in the world on her head. The fire of vengeance had already begun to burn wildly, and the sword of vengeance was no longer cold. The shadows of swords had already swept across the sky. The noblest hero of Achilles had always charged forward without hesitation. Ator, who had overestimated himself (he had been the most powerful before the appearance of Achilles), had finally fallen into a pool of blood. The jealous sun god Phobos shot her evil golden arrow into Achilles 'heel. He was dead. The great prophet had lost his sight, but he had not aged completely. He used his last bit of energy to sing loudly and foresee the final tragedy of mankind. Bakard, grant me wine! Let me get drunk, don't wake up from my dream. However, no one lives in a dream. No matter how cruel life is or how fragile our hearts are, we must face it bravely. Warriors should never lack the courage to fight against wind and rain. Even if they are like a small boat, drifting in the wind and waves, it is still magnificent and beautiful. If they die at the bottom of the sea, their reputation will spread far and wide. Keeping a clear head was especially important for one's success. Only those who were not arrogant in victory and not discouraged in defeat could be invincible in the fierce competition.
My pen has been rusted for a long time. I have been living a dull life, but I have been destroyed in the dull life. However, the sea of life is not very calm, and there are also tragic waves.
He tore open the healed wound and sprinkled a handful of salt on it. It was very astringent. If you didn't sprinkle a handful of salt, you would become numb, forget your pain, and waste your time in a drunken dream.
XXXXXXX
December 27th, 2002. I will remember this day for the rest of my life. One day, we were in the middle of an "Introduction to * Thought" class when the counselor suddenly told us to go home. I realized that something might have happened. As expected, XXXX, we already knew the general situation on the way.
I was a little surprised, but not surprised. Because I have personally experienced and seen too much XXX, but I still can't accept it.
The surroundings of the dormitory, especially the area above my bed, were wet. The air was so thick that I couldn't help but cough. Our blankets had already been moved out, leaving only a mess on the ground.
I climbed up the bed and examined the possible reasons for XXXXX with Sherlock Holmes 'eyes. It seemed to have something to do with me. There was an obvious XXX on my bed.
Their reactions made me understand once again that " true love is revealed in dangerous times." I didn't want to repeat D's harsh words. Z didn't want to push all the responsibility to me either. He even said that he would " reduce the punishment to the lowest point." H was a little gloating. Y said a few comforting words. Ever since something happened, I was very impressed by his personality. C didn't say a word. He had always been like this. He wouldn't pour a bucket of cold water on my head. This was all he could do. I think I can only do this, enough, that's all, the horse has to leap.
My heart is in a mess.
Listening to the counselor's teasing and sarcastic words, I was absent-minded. I just stood there and responded symbolically.
I have seen the world clearly, and every face that disgusts me. I have also seen the sincerity of my friends and the smiles that rarely speak but are sincere and encouraging.
After a while, the people from the security department rushed over. The director ordered us to go out. After a while, I was called in and asked about the situation. Before I left, he took away the so-called source of fire, the lamp, as evidence. It was ridiculous. This was an investigation, nothing more.
A comrade from the security department asked me to teach a self-reflection letter before two o'clock. My roommate was already cleaning up the dormitory, so I hid next door to write a self-reflection letter.
My heart is too chaotic.
I struggled to write each word. I felt very sorry for the old physics seniors, such as Newton, Rutherford, Nobel, and so on. Their reputation was destroyed in my hands. A physics student, a student who had done a lot of research on physics seniors, used his hammer to destroy one idol after another.
The most important thing now was to write my self-reflection letter. I wrote it twice and tore it up. I was not very satisfied and was hungry. A classmate helped me buy a lunch box. As the saying goes, health is the capital for a good revolution.
After dinner, I continued writing and finally wrote more than 700 words.
I went back to the dormitory. I had already swept it and tidied it up a little. I hurried back to the security office. It was exactly two o'clock.
I handed in my reflection letter.
review book
This morning, after I woke up, I quickly made my bed and folded my blanket. The pillow was placed at the northernmost end, and next to the northeast end was a small cardboard box for miscellaneous items (mainly letters, followed by a few books and a table lamp (with a beautiful clock attached to it)). The box containing the table lamp contained seven magnetic tape, a single player, two earphones, and the quilt was near the lamp wire and socket.
After dinner, I went to class. Not long after the "Introduction to * Thought" began, the counselor asked all of us roommates to return to the dormitory, so we rushed back.
Ever since XXX, my mood has been difficult to calm down for a long time. It is said that XXX was caused by the short circuit of the lamp placed on my bed. My heart is even more uneasy.
After I saw XX, I realized my mistake and reflected on myself deeply.
First, they did not follow the school's relevant regulations and privately pulled wires, which seriously violated the safety regulations of electricity, which led to the possibility of XXX.
The second was that they did not pay attention to the cultivation of good living habits. They did not unplug the plug before leaving. Even if the lamp switch was turned off, there was still a safety hazard.
Third, he did not predict the severity of XX in advance.
I have learned a lot from XXXX this time. I must reread the Dormitory Electricity Safety Regulations and become a person with good electricity habits.
I will definitely work harder to learn and master more knowledge about safe electricity usage. I will humbly ask the leaders and members of the Security Division for various safety knowledge and not make similar mistakes again.
(I must use myself as a negative example to warn those students who do not pay attention to the safety of electricity, so that they are deeply aware of the seriousness of XXX. For various reasons, this paragraph has been deleted.)
From now on, I will pay more attention to my personal cultivation. I will be a cautious person, a person who learns humbly, a person who is useful to society, a person who serves others, and a person who works hard to learn from the security department.
Reviewer: Physics Department Class 016 XXX
2002.12.27
After reading it, he seemed to be dissatisfied. He pointed at the relevant words and said,"This 'rumor' is unreliable. We've clearly investigated it, and you've seen it yourself.”Of course I knew. I played word games. He continued,"Write down the school's Safe Electricity Regulations clearly. Also, write down the situation you saw when you walked into the dormitory, including personal losses and public losses.”"You mean you want me to write down the consequences and causes of the accident clearly? That's good!”，Of course I understand.
"Also, the safety of electricity isn't just a matter for the security department. Your department head and counselor also teach you every day. You have to pay attention at all times.”Of course, I didn't want to argue with him endlessly. I made some changes according to his instructions. I changed the words " said " to " actual ", some " possible " to " definitely ", and changed " learn from the comrades of the security department " to " learn from the department leaders, counselor, and comrades of the security department ". He was very satisfied with it, but it took me nearly 45 minutes. I left helplessly.
I didn't care about the last two experimental classes. Perhaps I could easily handle them. Since those who were weaker than me could easily surpass me, I was speechless.
At six o'clock, I met Liu. Her sincerity touched me. Perhaps I saw Wu's shadow in her, so it was especially easy to get close to her. I told her about the fire and she sincerely agreed to lend me the blanket. Of course, I wouldn't agree. Because at that time, she might need a warm blanket more. "If you ever need anything, please call me," she said at last.”，I readily agreed.
The experiment seemed to be very unsuccessful. Long live 60 points.
After the experiment ended, I was indecisive. I suddenly had a fanatical idea in my mind to go to Xi'an to work. I had also talked to Liu about this idea. This fanaticism dominated my brain and made me uneasy. I called W, but his cell phone couldn't be connected. Hope couldn't stand still and was destroyed again.
I went back to my dorm. I wasn't in a good mood, so I shuttled between the first floor, second floor, and third floor. I didn't know if I was looking for someone or looking for an empty seat. It was crowded. The day was too long. I met my roommate so-and-so at eight o'clock, so I went to Haoyiduo for a short walk and had a snack. It was really satisfying! Before I went to get the bag, I didn't get any melon seeds. I blurted out,"Business is booming." The waitress politely said,"Thank you!"”，Her smile was so bright. The world was still full of love. This world did not lack beauty, but it lacked discovery. We sat on the roulette and ate melon seeds for a while. I asked him to leave first and called Liu. Even I myself felt strange. What kind of medicine was in my mind?
I circled around the wheel, one round, two rounds…until I wanted to go back to the dormitory. When I reached 2B, I called Liu again. I realized that I was really crazy. Maybe I just wanted to hear her voice and had no other thoughts.
When I returned to the dormitory, there was already a blanket on the chair. I already guessed whose it was. It must be Xiao Li's. He sighed in his heart. Only when you are in danger will you see a true friend. I made my bed and finally had a good night's sleep. The things that should be burned were burned, but the things that should not be burned still existed. My letters and photos would not leave me. Thank you, Almighty God, for bestowing me with endless spiritual wealth.
I always feel
I always feel
You're like Mom
every frown and smile
feel more cordial
I always feel
You're like Daddy
Gently caress my head
Soothes my wounded heart
I always feel
You're like a sister
With the most delicate love
Warm my fragile heart
who you are
The person who cares about me the most
by my side
But you won't show your face
Written on December 28, 2002 at 16:10
This poem is dedicated to everyone who cares about me, especially Liu and Li.
My Heart Is in Disorder: Rise
December 28th. I woke up very late. It seemed like I slept very soundly last night. I took my book and prepared to go to the library to study. When I reached East Borough, I changed my mind. This was a new beginning. I could only live better and not continue to sink. Was it worth it to worry about someone who didn't love me and someone I didn't love?
I went to get a hairstyle. The boss is nice to people. My humor made the boss laugh. Reforge yourself. From now on. The road was always under his feet.
Oh, about a note, I must mention it.
The army:
This is all I can do. The only thing left is to speak.
The mortal world was a vast world, and the long life was full of ups and downs. There was still a long way to go in the future. Be open-minded and relax. There was nothing that he could not face and bear!
The exam is in half a month. I hope you can adjust yourself well.
Friend: Li XX
I was really touched when I saw this note, but this person was not good at expressing his feelings, so I could only let the warmth drown me. I've been suppressed for too long, and my frozen heart hasn't been unfrozen yet. But I will never sink, because the light is still on.
The sun was really bright today. The words of the second year teacher echoed in my ears: Although we cannot control the weather, we can control our moods. Holmes might really be old. His lament was like what shakespeare said: Man is the leader of all living things, but we are the slaves of time. After all, I'm still young. If I accidentally fall, I can still get up smoothly. I'm not the only one in the world who's so unlucky.
After eating the ramen, her stomach felt good. There was still space in the library on the third floor, so I sat down to write " Fireburn." I should rest if I'm tired. Perhaps I'm really tired and should rest.
When he woke up, he felt really depressed. So many people had come to the library. There was too much carbon dioxide. He had to leave. When I arrived at the 303 building, I had just written for a while when there was no more water. It seemed like a coincidence, so I came down to walk around. I bought a bottle of ink and won a small prize of 10 cents. So I composed a song,"God Prefered Me".
if I make a mistake
of deplorables
's nothing
Because God loves me
I am the messenger of God
My singing is not beautiful
Nor gentle
To those unfortunate ones
anyone needs me
Living happily
Suffering is needless to say
Because God loves me
God loves me
I'm the most favored
I met someone I didn't want to meet. Some people's numbness and indifference really made me wonder if I really had to be free and easy.
It was better to bid farewell to the pain and start all over again.
Farewell to pain
Suffered too much pain
can't let go of
want to be happy
not happy
The sword in my hand
Shining cold
If I could cut the pain into pieces
Swallowing piece by piece
Say goodbye to suffering
Maybe we'll be happy forever
December 30, 2002, 12: 00a
Today is a fine day
Today is a fine day
Hatred is like a frozen stone that will never die
But one day,
All hatred will be melted
There's only one ending
unity unity unity
December 31, 2002, 9: 15Am
the robbery
I'm still living in the cracks. Sometimes I think it's better to end this life because there's too much pain. Happiness always came late. Being dull would only wear down one's wildness, and one would sink into it day by day. Once the future was bleak, there would be suicidal tendencies. If they did not sink into indulgence, they would perish in indulgence.
My love has never been responded to. Her numbness and dullness are beyond my imagination. I don't know if I can find such a person, unless I'm a fool or an idiot. And I fall for fools, which is called 'silly cute', just like a famous saying: When women were smart, men would panic. When I'm with her, I never panic. I'm just like a philosopher teaching a cute and obedient child. That's all.
That day, we went to watch Zhang Yimou's movie Hero. After watching it, I asked her who the hero was. She actually asked me, I'm so depressed. What era is this? Could it be the legendary E-era? Yes, I'm a show-off who has to use my silver tongue to argue. It's very tiring.
I never cared about material poverty, because it was easy to solve this problem. If a person lived in a relatively low realm, then such a project was a great and arduous task. Everything was up to fate. It seems that our fate is very shallow.
As for me, I am not very courageous. I was born with a lack of courage. Perhaps it was because of the culture I accepted. I once pursued the Han Dynasty and read a lot of foreign classics (I thought it was the most I read among my classmates and friends). My heart was filled with the cultural style and fragrance of Europe and the United States. In action, I was like a follower of Confucius and Mencius. My actions were always hovering between the two. I was worried about advancing and retreating. Alas, when could I surpass them?
The XX incident slowly faded away. My punishment was not to give out this year's scholarship and not to give out the next year's scholarship. My roommates were lucky enough to have their nephews carry lanterns-as usual. I've finally left a piece of pure land in the student file. Let's calm down and rest! Thank you to my simple and hardworking father, thank you to the almighty God, they all love me without reservation.
I still thought of her in my heart, and this belief never wavered. I left her a message online, but I didn't know if she didn't see it or if she deliberately didn't answer. (All in English)
Daring:
I'm mafreeman, running after "the cold current of the sun" I like to feel like "young and dangerous",butsinceImetyou, I found I losemysky. I can't find myself, I admireIlikeyou, it interrupted my breast. I'm on lythis, I will feel very happy, but today I love you. So I address to you, I hope you can be a happy encounter.
Yours,
I didn't know if she saw it or not, but the greeting card was very beautiful. I was both afraid and surprised. I was forced to Liangshan, and it was better to have a short pain than a long pain. However, she never replied. Could it be that she was afraid of breaking my heart?
When I called her, her tone was very irritable. It was obvious that she was in a bad mood. Perhaps she needed comfort. I had to admit that I was a very careless man in life because my memory was sometimes surprisingly bad. I can't do anything about it. She swallowed the words on the tip of her tongue. She was at her wit's end. She could hear that my words did not convey her meaning, so she hung up. Disappointment welled up in her heart again. I really hoped that she would say "say no to some one". I really want to recite this poem, Hu Shi did it, I can't remember clearly
threw
The person I love, she doesn't love me
I'm carrying a new debt of lovesickness, I kneel in front of her
Begging her to say, please throw me away
To walk out of the valley, one had to go through many hardships of death. If he did not sink into indulgence, he would be destroyed in indulgence. People tend to commit suicide when their future is bleak. I have been longing for the appearance of three people: The first person can point me out of the maze, and I can find a bright path to success; The second person is someone who can provoke me to commit crimes. The magma that is brewing in my heart will eventually erupt. The third person is a woman who can replace my mother in my heart. She might come late. Until now, none of these three people have appeared, so I naturally haven't obtained any impressive results.
junction
junction
In my heart
Memories are having a meeting here
The pain won't go away
Happy, angry
Scolded
roll
So the gods were resurrected
The Statue of Liberty smiled again
The person who unties the knot is not a bystander
but your own
――2003.1.4
(These passages are a bit messy)
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