Time: 2010-4- 30 15:13:37 Words: 4428
I suddenly had the urge to write. Coincidentally, I was in the new factory and had a lot of free time, so I wrote an article to reminisce about the days when I was with Xiao Ying…
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Yesterday was the 500th day that I met and fell in love with my favorite Xiao Ying. So I picked up the pen and wrote a few words, recording the beautiful moments and the unhappy moments. Love is actually a beautiful and moving song.
500 days was neither long nor short. If a person had 500 days in their life, 60 days should not be considered a small number. Recently, he had been thinking about the meaning of life. One-third of his body was buried in the ground, but he still had not advanced towards his goal. Yesterday, he read a sentence from Jack Ma: Doing a job that interests you is starting a business. It felt like he had suddenly been enlightened. I never started a business because I never did anything that interested me.
Let's talk about my love story with Xiao Ying. It can really become a novel with twists and turns.
In the first 100 days, we got to know each other and fell in love with each other. The God of Love was wandering between the two hearts, and the whole world was in love.
We got to know each other because of an accidental mountain climbing. In fact, I really like to climb mountains and enjoy the beautiful rivers and mountains of my motherland. However, I don't know how many times I've climbed Mount Wutong in Shen Zhen. Five times? 10 times? Finally, he couldn't remember. But the day we met seemed to have become an eternity in our lives.
I didn't want to go that day, so I lay in bed and didn't want to get up. A warm-hearted colleague forced me to get up, so I respectfully obeyed. I didn't expect this mountain-climbing activity without any warning to actually promote a relationship. Many things in life are actually in the dark. Sometimes, I'm very grateful to this colleague, the modern matchmaker.
The weather was sunny that day. It was said to be her birthday. He had heard her mention it on the way back. When they went up and down the mountain, everyone had split up. I wasn't in the same group as her, but I was in the same group as her cute little sister. Perhaps it was my courage or my organizational ability. Under my encouragement, the team we were in was the first to go down the mountain. It was a little unbelievable. At that time, I treated them as soldiers and only knew how to charge.
Later on, he learned from this warm-hearted colleague that she had a good impression of him. I'm not an idiot, so I started to pay attention to this girl. Because she hadn't been in a relationship for a long time, she was afraid of getting hurt, so she was careful, got to know him from the side, and personally went to find out. It seemed that she really had feelings for me. I had an idea. One of my biggest hobbies was to play, so I organized them to go to Tiger Valley. This place was a paradise for explorers. Unfortunately, the water was all dry when we went there. We didn't witness the cuteness of the Dakang Valley and didn't experience the thrill of crossing Tiger Valley. However, everyone's interest didn't decrease. So I decided to pursue her. She might be my other half.
In the future, we would always find all kinds of reasons to be together, especially on the roof of the sixth floor of the company dormitory. We had countless intimate contact and exchanged our sincerity for true love. Everyone had a lot of thoughts at every juncture. In the process of loving and being loved, the two hearts gradually drew closer. She loved me a little more. I seemed to have found the long-lost feeling of love. With the taste of love, it seemed that my soul had a sustenance.
Therefore, I had something to worry about when I went on a long journey. I had an idea on my way home. I had expectations in front of my temptations. She was really the beautiful girl I had been waiting for.
The God of Love is slowly expanding in my mind. I am releasing my love energy step by step. He seemed to have feelings for this black girl and wanted to protect her for the rest of his life.
I still remember clearly how she ran around Longhua Park like a child. I still remember the mutton skewers she bought for me. I still remember the strawberries she left for me. I still remember how I hugged her intimately in Century Square. I still remember how she accompanied me to buy tickets in the bleak wind in Baishizhou before the Spring Festival. I still remember how she woke up in the middle of the night and sent me a text message. I still remember that she accompanied me to the folk culture village on Valentine's Day. I still remember…
In the second 100 days, we began to hesitate and think about whether the two of us were suitable and whether she was the person I loved the most.
She finally wavered. The external factors had too much of an impact on her. She was like a small boat drifting in the sea and began to lose her way.
She always likes to compare her ex-boyfriend to me. It's not scary to compare. How can I improve without a comparison? But if you compare one person's strengths with another person's weaknesses, there will never be a result. She doesn't want to listen to my explanation, and I'm tired of this helpless explanation. I just want to live a relaxed life, not educate her like a child. She was crying in my arms for her ex-boyfriend. I didn't understand, but I was calm. She told me about the good things about her ex-boyfriend, but she accidentally let it slip. His good things were small, but his bad things were big and not allowed. This was the most real scene.
Her heart was slowly moving away from my heart. Although she had offered her body, the distance between her heart and my heart was getting further and further away. I began to feel lost. It was as if my position in her mind was not even comparable to that of an ordinary friend.
I was depressed, and so was she. She really wanted to give up, but she couldn't bear it and didn't want to look for anyone else.
Sometimes, I would go to the supermarket with her, and she would go to my little nest, but there was no warmth. She wanted to give up on this relationship, but she was too tired. She started to argue, complain, and blame. It was as if I was the most important person in the world.
The days passed, and the two of them still met every day for dinner and entertainment. However, the sweetness and intimacy in their words were no longer there.
At the end of April, she went home for a walk, perhaps because she was too depressed. I climbed Phoenix Mountain with her on May 1st. Although we were together, she made things difficult for me and offended me verbally.
So on the night of Mother's Day, I sat on the roof and sang to my heart's content. Anyway, she no longer accepted me and I didn't want to leave a good impression. So on that night, the moonlight was cold and clear. I thought of my parents in the distance and the wandering life in Guangzhou. My heart was cold and I wanted to give up completely.
So I wrote down the day I left her on the bed. I insisted on running every day and reading English every day. Later, when I was mending my shoes, that uncle kindly told me that he could see me at Osmanthus Park every day. Those days were really depressing. I looked at her every day and swore not to talk to her anymore. I really didn't say a word. I didn't greet her when I saw her.
Gradually, my mood calmed down, my goal became clear, and my heart became bright. It seemed that I could live without her. However, she seemed to have started to waver. Perhaps she felt that I was not bad. At least there were not many men who were as sincere to her as I was. Many men just wanted to have a girl's body…
In the third 100 days, he was groping forward. As he groped forward, his two hearts began to get ready to converge.
In August, she left the company that we loved. Perhaps she was very lonely. Sometimes, she would come over to live with me, but not every time she was in a good mood. Sometimes, when she was in a bad mood, she would even fight with me. She asked me a few questions, but perhaps my answers were too cold and heartless. She was very dissatisfied. When she was happy, she would accept whatever I said and did. When she was unhappy, she would object to whatever I said. Therefore, my greatest happiness was to give him happiness.
However, as they had more physical contact with each other, they seemed to have slowly become familiar with each other, and their hearts were closer.
Sometimes, not everything was taken seriously. It was a good thing to be serious, but if I was serious about everything, not only would I offend people, but I would also easily have conflicts with others. Therefore, sometimes, even if I was very angry, I would calm down and think about it. I had to think about her first. After all, she was a girl. Why fight to the death with her? Not only would it hurt my body, but it would also hurt my feelings.
During this period of time, everyone had been moving towards reconciliation through understanding. The two of us had been together more frequently, and I had also been with her more often. We had left behind many stories in Baishizhou and Shahe. In Europe City, where the Yi Family was located, everyone's relationship had been calm during this period of time. It seemed to be warming up. There had been no major changes, and they had slowly integrated. Especially when we went to Bright Farm. She had a great time, but I felt that it was very ordinary. Maybe it was because I went there once.
The days were just like the sun, rising and falling. The repetitive clock moved forward step by step. Time was devouring our time step by step. During this period of time, my work had also changed greatly. Sometimes, everyone could enjoy themselves together, be crazy together, and be entangled with each other. However, my wandering heart could not find an exit. There was no sense of security. When would I be able to have my own career? When would I be able to have my own nest? Could it be that I had to live in seclusion for the rest of my life? Many problems lay before us, making me full of expectations and yearning for the future. I was very dissatisfied with my current situation. Hence, he left Lianxing in October. He wanted to go out and find another job that he liked. He really wanted to show off his skills.
When he came to Xi Xiang, he had an indissolvable bond with Xi Xiang.
In the fourth 100 days, love is heating up, life is watching, where is the road, can our love really go all the way?
In order to live, I began to pursue my dreams again. When I came to Xixiang Gushu, she would sometimes come to accompany me at night. A lot of things happened in the middle, but there were too few opportunities for us to be together. After all, work was very busy and I had to work overtime at night. I always said that she was tired when I asked her to come over. I was embarrassed to let her run back and forth because her physical condition was worrying. Work was becoming more and more boring. For love, I had to start a new round of running.
Hence, she came to Xixiang Jiuwei. She rented a house outside and went crazy together at night. Sometimes, they would cook a little. On weekends, they would go to her mother's place to improve their food. The days seemed to be as casual as spring water flowing into the sea. There were no waves, no valleys, and no ripples like a calm lake.
Even though our relationship had been warming up, my heart was not at all relaxed. How to give her a stable life and how to control her fickle heart? I still could not touch her pulse well. She was like a cute deer, sometimes wild, sometimes happy, and sometimes terrifyingly calm.
I also didn't tie a rope around her neck, so everything seemed to be going according to my expectations, but it deviated from the normal track again, especially when it came to the issue of going home. She still angered me. Perhaps everyone's thoughts were different, or perhaps she still had concerns. She didn't accept me 100%, and she was still a little worried. This little bit of doubt became the knot that fused us into one, becoming a stumbling block for our future development. I deeply felt the gap between us. It wasn't because we knew each other, but because she hadn't yet determined that I was in a supreme position. Perhaps she already had it. It was just that her actions and words, as if she didn't care, really made me very angry.
I wanted to have absolute control over her, but I felt that it was unnecessary. I didn't want to control her, but I also felt that it was impossible. A contradiction arose. Perhaps I was too paranoid, or perhaps it was necessary. The road always inadvertently took a fork in the road. Life always went to extremes when I was not careful. Love was still singing that endless song.
On the fifth 100 days, love seemed to have reached a peak and then fell to a low point. Everything was unexpected and seemed to be within expectations.
Ever since her mother went to Guangzhou, everything seemed to have changed subtly. We spent more time together, especially at night when the two of us finally started to live a proper life as a couple.
After being together for a long time, I finally realized that there were many things that she could not accept, especially the details of my life. In her eyes, there was nothing good about it. I told my colleagues and felt that she was nitpicking. Actually, I thought about it and thought that she had higher requirements for me. Perhaps she wanted to mold me into someone. Unfortunately, I really wasn't that kind of material. Could it be that she had already nurtured me as her husband? Otherwise, why would she keep nagging?
I also found certain aspects of her unacceptable, but I didn't want to say it. There was no point in saying it. We seemed to have entered the legendary breaking-in period. Many people who loved each other would be happy for the rest of their lives after breaking through the breaking-in period. If they couldn't, they would meet again. She and I were ready to face this challenge.
Sometimes, she would waver and think that I was not good enough. Sometimes, she would be hesitant and think that I was a good person. In the repeated hesitations and choices, everyone trusted me to the bottom. Doubts arose. Perhaps there was really something inappropriate. Otherwise, why would there be more chances to quarrel? After the legendary honeymoon period of love, she began to worry about oil, salt, vinegar, and vinegar. She began to worry about her future life. Perhaps our worries were unnecessary, but this hurdle was really difficult to overcome. This is the biggest problem I have encountered.
After she changed her job, everyone's relationship was sometimes crazy, sometimes calm, and sometimes lost. Sometimes, she believed in this relationship, and sometimes, she wanted to smash it with a heavy hammer. If this was our future life, how terrifying would it be?
Doubt arose, life began to lose its sunshine and smiles, happiness was leaving our sight, and the road ahead had more forks.
Perhaps every pair of lovers who truly loved each other, especially those who were born in the 1980s, would go through this period of hardship. If they could overcome this period of hardship, their future would be bright and everyone would understand each other. If they could not overcome it, they could only start another relationship. After that, he would go through a period of adjustment. Perhaps this was the true meaning of life. What you wanted to give up was what others were pursuing, and what you were pursuing was what others gave up. There was always a balance between giving up and pursuing. What you pursued might not be good, but you just wanted to make your life better. What you gave up might not be bad, but life made me reconsider.
In the 500 days that Xiao Ying and I have been in love, I resolutely wrote this chapter. I just want to discuss with my peers who are also confused, what is true love? Where is our path? Do we still need to choose?
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