Time: 2009-9-318:06:11 Words: 10330
Cloudy August 5th
I admit that I'm still in love with someone. In my heart, she is a very charming girl. When you have a strong feeling of love for her, she is your fairy. Really, I've tried my best to love her and others, but she still has a lot of space. Who will give me a chance? God favors those who seize the opportunity on Valentine's Day. I suddenly realized that I was lowering my standards in this regard. Life tells me that you should find the right person, but not necessarily the most beautiful. Sometimes I really don't know what I'm going to do. I want to change my mind. What was reality? I've pursued many beautiful girls except her (my old classmate). I can't seem to accept anyone else. This was not a comedy. When I saw the other first her, I seemed to be hoping for results. I have to stir up some things, such as my thoughts and attitude towards life. When you have formed a good habit, you should stick to it. No one could change reality. That seemed too far away. I saw her. She was a little fat girl, but she had charming breasts. The good things I pursue are too fantastical. I admit that I prefer foreign girls, but I prefer to live in my homeland. I will meet more Chinese girls along the way. Please respect them. That was all!
What was the past?
I often like to reminisce about the past. I thought it was a very interesting thing. Everyone has their own history, I have mine too, but I prefer to live in the past. What a stupid move. I will destroy my faith. I had to ask myself to cure my mental illness. Why did I live the same life for so many years? I felt very tired. Please spend more time paying attention to your image. You must have the right stance. Otherwise, you will be abandoned by society. Don't try to change everything, or you'll fantasize about becoming the sun all day long. Don't try to repeat the past. Don't reminisce about old stories again and again. No one told you she was the most beautiful girl in the world. Oh she is my angel and fairy. So I repeat this sentence over and over again, you are the best in this world.
crazy night
It was late at night, but the night watchers were trudging on their journey. There is nothing stronger than willpower, there is no sea deeper than love, there is nothing impossible, as long as you work hard, everything is possible.
I just want to remember last night as it was. It was a crazy night, a night of surpassing, an unforgettable night. At any time, our greatest enemy is ourselves. As long as we raise our hammers of strength and smash them down without any fear, we will definitely knock ourselves down the fastest and most accurate way. All problems will be solved easily. This is the power of our confidence.
I made up my mind to make a long journey in Nanyang and Angao. Last night's dream finally became a reality. The wind and rain were very strong, hitting his face. Although it was not painful, his clothes were already wet, but the lamp of faith shone in the distance. As long as you set your mind on something, you would pay the price. That way, when your merits were fulfilled, it would be the time for you to reap the joy.
I didn't want to wait, I didn't want to delay my plan again. Walking from Nanyang to Angao wasn't an earth-shattering feat, but it was related to persistence. The rain was getting heavier. I raised my wrist to look at my watch. I should follow the plan step by step, or I would be exhausted. Because I was now empty, and the God of Hunger was also pouncing on me, as if he wanted to devour my will and make my will collapse bit by bit in front of reality until it collapsed. [Vicious lightning, you can do whatever you want. Vicious rain, you elf, why do you always like to rub salt on my wounds? These three vicious gods always inadvertently deal a fatal blow to the strong, even sacrificing their lives.] However, they seemed to have forgotten that the reason why the strong were strong was that they had never been frightened by difficulties. They would get up from where they fell, and the lamp of faith would not be extinguished by the rain with ill intentions.
I walk on the road and forget the road. The road was far away, and the starting point was always at the foot.
In fact, many things have already been decided before they started. Why do we still have to pursue it? It's because we value the process more.
"Warring States Strategy" on the memorial said: Night walkers can not do evil, but can not prohibit dogs from barking at themselves! Dogs barking at pedestrians at night was not the fault of night walkers, nor was it the fault of dogs. This was the nature of dogs. Its only hobby was nothing more than barking. No wonder there was a folk saying that dogs bite Lu Dongbin. In fact, in the eyes of dogs, there was no difference between good and bad people. It only knew acquaintances and treated the poor and the rich equally. Perhaps this was the reason why dogs were often synonymous with loyalty! I've been writing about dogs, not because I'm studying dog theories, but because I have a dog at home, Bei Bei. It's really a lovable dog, but the first thing it feels when it sees people is not joy, but a unified barking. I hate dogs that like to wag their tails and beg for mercy. They've lost their dog nature. They're too human, but they're not really humane. Along the way, I ran wildly and gradually, the wind and rain stopped.
I looked at the environment on both sides of the road, which was both familiar and unfamiliar. Because I had taken the bus countless times to and fro on this road, the feeling of being separated by glass windows was very different from walking. I felt flattered to walk in so sincerely, but I was trudging on a distant road.
As I walked along the village road, I finally realized that the village was full of dogs. Hence, I walked carefully on the road, taking every step carefully. Dogs were really not things to be trifled with, especially at night. It seemed that dogs barked especially happily, and there was the aura of a dog barking at a group of dogs. Could it be that dogs were communicating?
There were always some people who didn't tie their dogs. Suddenly, a dog barked at me. I thought it had this hobby, but when it attacked me, I seemed to be a little caught off guard. The training of a soldier was still useful. I ran like crazy and did a 100-meter sprint. The dog chased after me relentlessly. Did it think that I was someone to be trifled with? I was a little exhausted because I had already traveled 12 kilometers. The tired demon was attacking me. I would become the prey of the dog. I thought," Of course, this is a momentary action. In a flash, I flashed to a small ditch on the side of the road. That dog thief is stupid. It seems that he can't find my figure. He can only helplessly bark a few times in front of him. Then, the defeated rooster dejectedly returns home." I've finally escaped this calamity and gained some knowledge. No wonder beggars always use a stick to beg for food. The Beggar's Sect's method of beating dogs with sticks is very useful. I also tactfully broke a branch from a tree by the roadside as a self-defense weapon. Even though I had to bear more weight, it also gave me a greater sense of security. Although I had been ambushed by dogs several times on the way, all I needed to do was wave my hand and all the dogs would obediently return to where they should be.
Just like that, I relied on my faith and courage to successfully reach home. When I got home, it was already 11:30 pm. My parents were already asleep. I quietly sneaked into the courtyard and completed this crazy journey. October 5th, Saturday, sunny
Today was the last day of the National Day holiday. I have nothing to do. I woke up very early. I'm going to visit a good friend. Perhaps he can give me some inspiration.
October 7th, Monday, cloudy
Today was the first day of the week. I began a new journey. I hope that I have a place in the field of electronic engineering. I was still devastated by strangers.
My first official job after my second visit
The flames of war on National Day had not completely subsided. I felt that my chance to go to Shen Zhen to pursue my dreams had come.
On October 6th, I took a bus. After a 22-hour journey, I finally arrived at the city that I had been envious of for a long time. My third brother once again provided me with a safe haven. I had always been in a state of narcissism and infatuation. I thought that Shen Zhen was my world. The fortitude and strength I had learned from the military camp, the skills and knowledge I had learned from school, had finally found a platform to play freely.
Reality really liked to strike people down. After failing the interview again and again, I kept reflecting on myself. What should I do? Should she continue living in her dreams or boldly gamble her youth? It was good to be young. He could gamble with his youth without any scruples. If it wasn't destruction, he had to rise up.
Fresh graduates were really not welcomed in Shen Zhen. Our Pioneer did not pave a bright road for us. On the contrary, their bad habits left a very bad impression on some companies, especially small companies. Fresh graduates were not reliable. They came to work in the company with the purpose of learning skills and experience. Therefore, many companies did not welcome fresh graduates.
On October 28th, I spent a long time wandering around in Shen Zhen. I paid more than 300 RMB to the talent market, contributed more than 500 RMB to the transportation industry in Shen Zhen, and gave my third brother more than 20 days of trouble. Finally, I decided to find a job first before choosing a job. I found Deli Clock (ShenZhen) Co., Ltd. in Sanhe Talent Recruitment Agency. It became my first battle in society. Although it was short, it was unforgettable.
Our supervisor is an amiable person, and he has high hopes for me. I wanted to call him Old Lu. He was also a reformist, but he was powerless. The company's middle and high-level executives had a strong sense of self-defense, which seriously hindered the implementation of his reform plan. Although he also tried to instill the management concept of Huawei in us, because we were all in the extended level, it was his right-hand man. He made good use of us, and our finished products department was undoubtedly ahead of other departments.
I had never understood the meaning of being a reserve. I thought it was something profound. When I walked to this position, I finally realized that I was a complete handyman. Just like that, I revised my view of choosing a job again and again, and finally took the decisive first step.
It was probably Old Lu's honesty that conquered me. It was probably because I really needed a place to train myself at that time. Old Lu chose me, and I chose to benefit from it. Was it fate's guidance, or was one willing to fight and the other willing to suffer?
During the days when I was profiting, I did my best. I couldn't say that I was doing my best, but my heart was really moved. The first job was of great significance to one's life. Sometimes, I really, really feel like I've lost myself. The position of Chu Gan is intriguing. I've already said that this is a super big handyman from head to toe. The key is the mentality, because every time I take over, I will gain something.
Perhaps every training came from the details. Because of the many contacts, although he did not have any real power, he did the same work, the same role, and the different treatment. He learned how to play. I made use of everyone's strength to complete a difficult order. I learned to make various forms, including daily reports, repair reports, piecework wage reports, and even learned how to hold each morning meeting well. I didn't forget to comment on the events of the day before I got off work. This was the charm of life. I learned a lot of things during the profitable days, which paved the way for me to live well in the society. I thanked my colleagues. They regarded me as their brother. I see them as sisters, and we have established the most sincere friendship. This is something that nothing can exchange for. I would like to thank my supervisor for giving me a chance to train. He was the one who made me realize that a person's potential could always be discovered. He was the one who taught me many skills in dealing with people. He was the one who taught me how to lead my team. Although there were only 20-30 people, I should never be careless or give up.
Just like what Old Lu said, the higher-ups were a pile of mud when they were profiting, and everyone was in danger. This caused the reform of our finished products department to be difficult, and we were ostracized and attacked by the relevant departments. Although we achieved some proud results, the roots were broken, and we could only helplessly surrender. Old Lu tried to implement a new management education for the team leaders of our finished products department, but it had little effect. The general climate had already taken shape. Although the company had reached the forefront of the world and China in environmental protection and many other aspects, this was forced by the situation. The competition for watch makers in Shen Zhen was really fierce. The European Union and other countries had established new barriers for them. New measures were also constantly being implemented on ROHH. From the general ROHH label, to the current detailed classification of PG and non-PG. Especially since the birth of QC080000 had an impact on the watch industry. Fiada, EBOR, Tianwang, and even Casio followed closely behind. After I left, the company's external reform had been completed, but the internal reform was still far away. The city walls were always breached from the inside.
Maybe I'll try my luck at the talent market after the Spring Festival.
It rained on Wednesday, October 17th
Today was a special day. I went to a company. I'm disappointed, even though I'm interested in the operator position. I passed three tests and finally got close to my goal, but I was wrong in the end. If I don't see the light of hope, but it's far away from my dreams. I was forced to accept this fact. I cannot reach my goal because it is empty. I want to thank the almighty God. She told me you had to save yourself. If I don't save myself, no one in this world can save me. So I worked hard for my dream. I firmly believed that a beautiful future would come. I must believe that the sun is always fresh every day. Dreams were always the best. Who could control their own destiny?？？I didn't find the answer. I wrote this article, My First Job Interviewer Experience, and I found it ridiculous. We can learn a lot. You must persevere until the end until you see the light of hope. I hope that day will come.
The passage of time is a terrible thing. I've been here for more than 20 days. Maybe every day is memorable. Life lost its charm because of waiting. I lost the courage to live in helplessness and gradually became fragile.
The depression and breakdown were the true reflection of his recent mood. Life became tasteless and meaningless. We can't find an exit for life at all. For ignorant fools, we still yearn for an unexpected encounter, or a pie suddenly falling from the sky. That's very scary. As the saying went, if God took pleasure in constantly throwing pies on the ground, then there was probably something wrong with this God. Because getting something without sowing would not become the main theme of this world. Struggle, unrelenting struggle, fly, never stop flying, until you break through the clouds in the sky, until your dreams come true.
September 25, 2007, Mid-Autumn Festival 7:37 (Written on October 29, 2006)
October 3rd, Friday, cloudy
I haven't seen the sun for a long time. I wish I felt that way. I still have dreams in my heart. I smell the deep clouds floating in the air. Who can save me? Is this my position in my career? I can only see the deep night sky. I don't want to cry for my dreams anymore.
I suddenly remembered my supervisor's words," I hope this is your first and last job. I will stay here for a while. I've asked God and my little brother. He said that you have to work hard first and control your own destiny. No one can influence your destiny.
Look, the road is right under your feet. You should sing like a bird. I realized that my words were so powerless that I couldn't describe my experience. Please love the almighty goddess, she gave you everything including a heart that has gone through many vicissitudes. Please remember this proverb: study hard and make progress every day!!! The eagle laughed at the donkey and said,"Why are you not confident?" Donkey said," I don't believe in this world. No one can make full use of their specialties, so start learning." 2007 Mid-Autumn Festival
December 14th, Thursday, cloudy
Christmas was approaching, and the new year was about to arrive. My mood is extraordinary. Why? I realized that I had done a lot of things. I made a lot of friends. I'm good at dealing with colleagues, even if it's difficult. I knew I had to learn English, even though I had 10000 reasons to refuse.
I warned myself again and again. This was the truth of life. Though I don't want to accept it. I met a lot of people. I want to start my love, but I find that I have lost the courage to love. This was a very serious matter, more serious than a sad rain. It was not what I had hoped for, but I breathed in the cold air and had to admit that it was winter. Even though it never snowed in Shen Zhen, I could walk around the mall in the winter to buy some things, but I had no money in my pocket. I saw the whole world except for beauty. They were a beautiful sight. I asked myself," When will I start my dream?”It seems too far away, I encourage myself again and again, you are the best, you can definitely win in anything. Was this true? Therefore, I wrote an article titled " Who Does the Night belong to?》
Who will the dark night belong to?
I often forget the way when I walk on the road. inscription
I often get lost in the night. It wasn't that the night was too dark, the stars were too dim, the road wasn't flat enough, or that he lacked a sense of direction. It was that his soul could never find a direction. It was always drifting, exploring the mysteries of nature.
I often get drunk in the dark. It was not because of excessive drinking, not because of being charmed by a certain woman, not because the plot of a certain book was very sensational, but because he was used to this kind of mentality, used to being anesthetized, or pretending to be drunk, everyone was awake and I was drunk alone.
Jinyuan was probably a good place to go. It was not because of its dazzling array of goods that attracted me, nor was it because of the charming and hospitable salespeople that attracted my attention, nor was it because I was used to admiring beautiful women in a sea of people. Beauty was an art, a taste, and a seasoning. I should have a pair of eyes that can see beauty. Maybe it wouldn't end up like this. But why should I go? He just wanted to calm his restless mood, just wanted to see the flow of people, or maybe he just wanted to go to the ice-skating rink on the third floor to take a look. I don't participate in ice-skating and disco dancing activities because I'm not compatible with them, and more importantly, I'm afraid of sweating. There are many ways to sweat. I can run, practice Crazy English, or go to the park. I'm used to using a normal and natural way to release my sweat. So I stood outside the ice skating rink and just watched and thought. Most of the people who went were boys and girls in their late teens. Although I wasn't married yet, I never liked to think of myself as a child, so I just watched and thought.
Who would the night belong to? The sound of the metal instruments was deafening, and the DJ and the big amplifier made me want to move. I just quietly watched and quietly thought that they were the elves of the night, crazy dancers, and devil messengers.
Who will the night belong to? Maybe it's not appropriate for me to go to Jinyuan Department Store to look for inspiration. Especially on the noisy third floor, where should I go? The dark night said: The dark night gave me black eyes, but I use them to find light. The night belonged to the night. It belonged to the beggars who fell asleep as soon as they fell to the ground, the homeless wanderers, the dogs without owners, and the ballpoint pen that had just been thrown into the trash can. Although it was useless now, it had once served me loyally without being known.
Who would the night belong to? Let it go!
Listen to Change of Heart again
Every time he listened to Black Dragon's " Change of Heart ", he would always have an extraordinary feeling. I don't know if it was the song that changed my mind, or if it was my state of mind that matched my change of heart, but Black Dragon had already sung " Sing Again, Change of Heart ". Was there a need for me to listen to " Change of Heart " again? In fact, most of the time, we only use changing our minds as a tool to console ourselves.
You were the one who accompanied me for so many long years. You told me that you still had true love, but I didn't know how to protect you, and I broke your heart. Just when my heart was about to melt, you left quietly. I hope you will change your mind, because I will cherish you. What else do I have to say? How many tears do I have to shed? Don't you know my love for you? What else do you have to say? How many tears do you have to shed? One day, I will make you change your mind.
If I could do it all over again, I would cherish her with my life. If I could do it all over again, I would wait for her with my life. I will forget yesterday's yesterday forever.
Actually, I understand very well that all of her will eventually become an image and disappear into thin air. As the saying goes, love ends before it begins. No one would pay a heavy price for this. To start a new love, I might have to put an eraser in my mind to erase the love that had no result and should have withered long ago.
Collated on September 26, 2007 (written on December 15, 2006)
The destruction of dreams was often not due to lack of effort, but the lack of courage to fight. Only by constantly forging ahead would the dawn of hope arrive as scheduled. Struggle, struggle, and struggle until the pulse of life stopped beating.
Maybe it was because of the TV series " Traceless Snow " that I had more images in my mind. I'm a little used to being narcissistic. This is the blind self-confidence complex in my bones. I always think that I'm the best in the world. Most of them were unwilling to go with the flow.
There were some things that I didn't want to admit or accept, but they still happened one by one. In the face of reality, humans were truly weak and powerless. What I wanted to persevere on, I didn't persevere to the end. Memories were sometimes as unreliable as experience. Time was always the fairest. It would definitely provide me with other things. Until my friends and former lovers walked into the hall of marriage one by one. Perhaps the news on February 15th broke my heart. So-and-so was getting married, not because I still had fantasies about certain people, but because I had once again walked into the embrace of reality. Should I run away, or should I sleep and forget everything? When I wake up, I will see the sky again. A Valentine's Day without a lover, and Meng Tingwei's song will continue!
The rainy season in Dongguan was always so long. There were people getting married every year, so why were there so many this year? Could it be that the Goddess of Love was deliberately sowing the seeds of love? Cupid's golden sword had already found its direction. All passionate people had found their own love in this season. Perhaps it was because the legendary Golden Pig Year of the Chinese Empire had arrived late, so he could enjoy it to his heart's content! The rain was still falling. Was it the tears of a lover, or the cry of a lovelorn, or perhaps the heavens were also moved.
God said: You have not fallen out of love at all, because your love has not yet begun. The feeling of falling out of love was like drinking a glass of mineral water. It was tasteless, but not drinking it was necessary for life, so it was more painless and itchy. Everyone needed an umbrella on a rainy day. When they really needed an umbrella, they realized that the umbrella was already in someone else's hands. As the saying goes, when the girlfriend is married, the groom is not me. It's too late to regret!
So I should be free and easy, dancing for this rain, the greatest elf in the universe, showing herself in the cutest way. It had extinguished the fire of the God of Fire Prometheus's anger, the great God of War Ares had used his last trick, the heel of the greatest hero, Achilles, had been hit hard, the wooden horse had broken into the palace of sin, and the horn of the end of the war had sounded.
I had to tell myself that I, Hu Hansan, shouldn't have come back. But here I am, treading on thin ice. The green military camp might be infinitely different from the so-called society. I'm worried about retreating and advancing. When can I be happy? Someone once said: You missed the sun and the moon; You missed the moon and the stars; If you miss even the stars, you are really hopeless. Please cherish every rare opportunity and feelings. You have to work hard to at least pick that star that belongs to you.
married
Tomorrow you will wear a beautiful wedding dress
The groom standing beside you has nothing to do with me
I curse myself ten thousand times
Why do I lack the courage to confess?
Is it because I don't love you enough?
Tomorrow you will wear a beautiful wedding dress
Tonight I'll miss you alone and sleepless
Maybe love doesn't just need fate
We still have to cherish each other with our hearts
Punish the loser without mercy
Tomorrow you will wear a beautiful wedding dress
I also want to go in outside the siege
The guard dog barked incessantly
I can only entrust the bright moon to express my love
I sincerely wish my beloved girl happiness and beauty forever
Tomorrow you will wear a beautiful wedding dress
I shouldn't be sad at night
Green wine, I have no chance to pick it up
In this happy atmosphere, why must we force love?
I hope tomorrow is a sunny day and everything goes well
Written on February 4th, 2007, the night before So-and-so's wedding
The Travels of Qiushui Villa
The destruction of dreams was often not due to lack of effort, but the lack of courage to fight. One could only constantly forge ahead and have the mentality of giving up on others. The dawn of hope would come as expected. NewYeariscoming.Imustmakeanewplantosuitnewlife.AlthoughIhaveunapprovedjob,Imusthaveabettermood.TheGodlovessomeonewhosmilestoeverytomorrow.Youhavemorewaytochoose.Facingwithnewcircumstance,youmuststicktothelast.Thatisso.SoIwritethisarticleabouttour.
I couldn't sleep at 5:15 am today. Could it be that there was a plan that surpassed the Dream God's care for me? Could it be that I really didn't care about working overtime last night? At 1 AM, I was still struggling for the last time. The devil of longing began to erode my brain. The show had already begun, the stage had been set, and my mentality decided everything.
The departure time was originally set at 7:30, but due to some special reasons of some colleagues, it was not possible. When everyone arrived, I noticed a strange phenomenon. I was always used to playing a different role. It's not that I'm born to be dull and like to dress poorly. I'm really short of money, but it also shows another side of me. I'm me, whether it's work clothes or casual clothes. All in all, the dressing of his colleagues was indeed eye-opening. The girls were all delicate and charming, with a strange kind of beauty. The boys were elegant and handsome. It was true that people needed clothes. A beauty was 30% beautiful and 70% well-dressed.
After about half an hour, we finally arrived at our destination (my colleague, Ah Ming, was waiting for us at Sakata's place on the way)--Qiushui Villa Resort. Perhaps this was a good place. There were four generations of leaders at the door-Mao Xdong, Deng Xping, Jiang Xmin, and Hu Xtao. The speech style was very intriguing. Grandpa Mao was holding a speech. One look and one could tell that it was his speech at the founding ceremony, announcing the arrival of a new era. The people of China had stood up. Grandpa Deng seemed to be giving a speech too, but he did not have a manuscript in his hand. It might be the classic material for the southern expedition. The people of China were getting rich. Jiang Ximin's gesture was very natural and unrestrained. We experienced what it meant to be a big country. The people of China became stronger. Hu Xtao's hand gestures were even more carefree and unrestrained. The people of China were getting more and more powerful.
Walking along the main road at the entrance, not far away on the left was the Hakka custom garden, which was the regret of this day trip. The opportunity to have zero contact with the Hakka culture was once again wasted. I think the relationship between Uncle Mao and the siblings must be extraordinary. It's said that there are many ancient pictures in it. Unfortunately, when we went there at night, the iron general was already locked.
The two roads began to diverge. Both the left and right sides could reach the top of the mountain smoothly. The only difference was that the scenery along the way changed. Everyone weighed it again and again and decided to follow Old Lu's suggestion to climb the mountain from the right. They walked and walked. The mountain road was not very rugged. Although the imitation of the Great Wall was very different from the real one, standing on it still gave them a sense of pride. No wonder people said that those who did not reach the Great Wall were not heroes. Everyone was willing to leave the touching moment to the Great Wall.
Walking towards the top of the mountain, he did not hesitate. Suddenly, he passed by a corridor. There were creepers everywhere. It was gloomy. Perhaps it was more suitable to come in summer. The trees were green, and the climbing plants at the top of the corridor would be more vigorous. However, it was a bleak winter. Not only were the plants on the roof half-withered, but the plants on both sides of the road had also lost their vitality. Osmanthus flowers should bloom to their heart's content. Unfortunately, only in the north could there be the fragrance of the eight laurels. Today, he was not lucky enough to enjoy this wonderful fragrance. There were many kinds of flowers on both sides of the road, such as magnolias, pomegranate, and even kapok.
When he really came to the imitation Great Wall, he had a different feeling in his heart. The ancients said: not to the Great Wall is not a hero. Our vanity was more or less satisfied by coming here. Therefore, we also passionately climbed the Great Wall, thinking about the magnificence of Jiayu Pass and the impregnable Shanghai Pass on Badaling in Beijing. The ancients said that the most powerful city wall was not the Great Wall. Qin Shihuang had worked so hard for decades to build his foundation, but he had only lived for two lifetimes. Although the Great Wall was still there, it could not save Wu Sangui's determination to defect to the Qing Dynasty. The Ming Dynasty was in danger. It seemed that the iron hooves of Japan could easily break through the Great Wall, splattering blood in the Central Plains, and invade China. Therefore, I have always believed that the strongest Great Wall still exists in the people's beliefs. Only the national spirit of the people who are united against the enemy can keep the Great Wall forever.
We would stop to rest after climbing for a while, leaving our moving footprints behind. Everyone wanted to leave an unforgettable moment in their lives. Time would tell us whether we would have a chance to meet again. Finally, we arrived at a place-a pavilion. Now that they had forgotten the name, everyone could finally relax and eat the food they brought along. However, what was infuriating was that the pillars of the pavilion were always marked with the words " XXX visited here ". The tragedy of the beautiful historical site of Loulan would repeat itself again and again. Would it be the sorrow of the Chinese people or the sorrow of the Chinese cultural world? After eating and drinking, he threw the trash into the nearby trash can and continued on his way.
Go, don't stay. However, the most important thing about climbing was to appreciate the scenery along the way. It seemed that they were getting closer and closer to the top of Mount Qiushui. Suddenly, a platform appeared. Could this be a stargazing platform? Looking down, the entire Buji Town could be seen. The prosperity of the first town in China could be imagined. It was reported that Buji had a population of more than one million. It was a large city in the Central Plains. It was a small place, and the density of the population was unimaginable. In the small Buji, how many foreigners were like hardworking ants, rushing around in search of a little space that belonged to them? Only by standing here can you see Buji more clearly. Humans are the leader of all living things. Perhaps only the greatest human being could create the myth that a mere town could accommodate a million people. I marvel at the miracles of mankind, like the discovery of the New World by Colombus.
A few more steps and rows of red lanterns attracted my attention. That was the only way to the top of the mountain. Standing at the bottom of the stairs and looking up, I suddenly thought of Zhang Yimou's work, Raise the Red Lanterns. Zhang Ziyi's image woke me up. Forget it, let her be! He climbed up the stairs and finally reached the observation platform at the top of the mountain. Looking into the distance, the sun in the east was rising slowly, showing its exuberant vitality and vitality. In the distance, there were mountains, trees, and a reservoir at the foot of the mountain. It was said that it was the most famous reservoir in Shen Zhen. Perhaps it was an exaggeration or a bluff. Compared to the Swan Lake Reservoir and Danjiangkou Reservoir in his hometown, it was far inferior. However, many people had a special liking for it. This was life. Being good at discovering beauty, our world was really beautiful. That was the happiest.
According to Old Lu, there used to be a watchtower here, but now it was demolished. Climbing the watchtower to enjoy the scenery of Hong Kong, it seemed that this beautiful wish had once again come to naught. There were many flaws in life, but it was too beautiful to be real. There were more and more people on the mountain peak. There was a stone tablet carved with words, probably about the origins of Mount Qiushui. It seemed that this was still a divine mountain in the past. People had tried to seek water at the top of the mountain, and it had worked every time, so it was called the Water-Seeking Mountain.
Going down the mountain to view the Hundred Birds Garden, the Long March Garden, the barbecue area, and even the amusement park was a unique experience. I need a lot of ink to describe it.
Descending the mountain was relatively easy. In addition, there were many people, so chatting along the way was naturally a lot of fun. They had long forgotten the pain on the road. Soon, they arrived at the amusement park. Old Lu and Old Zhang (our two supervisors) suggested that we go to the Hundred Birds Garden first. Anyway, it was still early, so we went to look for it. From afar, we could hear the loud chirping of birds in front of us. It was easy to get there. The trees there were obviously denser than other places. The top of the trees and the entire Hundred Bird Garden were covered with barbed wire. Perhaps this was the sorrow of all the birds in the Hundred Bird Garden. We looked inside through the barbed wire. There were all kinds of birds showing off their talents. There were nightingales with sweet voices, mighty eagles, orioles, and many other birds that we couldn't name.
12/18/2007 Reorganized (7/11/2007 Youqiu Shuishan Resort/Before New Year's Day 2007)
Year end inventory →→ New Year outlook
Remembering the past years, looking at the heroic wind of today. -- inscription
Winter had passed, and spring had finally arrived. Spring was the time of the year. Whatever seeds you sowed in spring, you would reap in autumn. So spring is very important to farmers. If you don't sow in spring, you will get nothing all year round. So I often play songs in spring, looking back and looking forward to the future. Maybe tomorrow will be better.
September 23, 2007, 13:54 (Added on September 21, 2006)
Recalling Those Forgotten Days
2009-9-40:26:14 Words: 6822
home
I finally returned to my hometown after so many years. The changes in his hometown were completely different from yesterday. Every village has finally jumped out of our dreams. All the roads can lead to Beijing. The heroic scene of dust flying from our sight has become a thing of the past. I don't know if we should cheer or cheer for the party's policies. Even his father, who was old and conservative, had learned from the people in the city who had three rooms and one living room. Star-level towns had sprung up like bamboo shoots after a rain in China.
But unfortunately, I felt like an outsider. I really didn't seem to be used to this world. I still had a long way to go before I could integrate into society. Qu Yuan said: The road is long and long, I will seek up and down! I still belonged to the military camp. The two-hour time difference between Xinjiang and the mainland really hurt me. I had to challenge the new biological clock. The effect was minimal. I was still stuck in the life of the army, nervous, thinking about problems in a formula, like a robot that only knew how to execute orders. Was this life? This seriously hindered my communication with the outside world, so my neighbor arbitrarily concluded that this person was not good at socializing. I was depressed. Could this be the price of my retirement? Could it be that every soldier of the Republic who was discharged would become an outcast of society?
The most important thing about returning home was to return home spiritually, to stop drifting and find a warm harbor.
return to school
Returning to school is not like what I imagined. Once the discharge certificate is lit up, everything will be immediate. It would always be childish Ahh's wishful thinking if things went smoothly. I still had a long way to go.
On December 9th of the year I was discharged, I went to the school for the first time to negotiate with a counselor. He gave me a suggestion that seemed to be the best choice at that time. He would report on March 1st of the following year, which was more in line with the spirit of the file. Perhaps every careless consideration would eventually lead to bitter consequences.
I took this opportunity to walk around the school. I couldn't meet a familiar person. This place had become far from yesterday. Perhaps I really didn't belong here. The expansion of the school to the west is beyond my imagination. The former Wenbo Building was now renamed Yifu Building. It was said that Hong Kong tycoon Shao Yifu had invested in it, so a building rose from the ground. As one of the school's landmark buildings, it was naturally pleasing to the eye. The interior and exterior decorations were luxurious and practical. There were many lawns in front of the gate that looked like it was real. Not to mention the hardness of the ground, there was also a fountain embellishment. It was really beautiful. I think the school leaders had done this long ago. Back then, Jay Chou would not have sighed when he saw the photos faxed by the school and said that it was too dusty here. I could also have another chance to see Chairman Chou's beautiful face. The modern stadium was finally completed as scheduled. When I was here, the place was really barren and dusty. Many sports enthusiasts were here to show off their sports talents, but I didn't belong here. I could only leave resentfully.
On February 19th, 2006, I finally got tired of staying at home, so I came to the school in advance to check out the situation. A counselor said that it was really easy to go to the Academic Affairs Office to complete the procedures. Could it be that being a soldier was really not to be trifled with? However, Teacher Yang from the Academic Affairs Office said,"I can't guarantee your graduation results. It's your fault for not coming to apply for re-admission last year." If you want to think of a way, find your department to do it.”I tried to explain, but it was useless. He had already taken the first step in his long journey, so why should he be afraid of how long the road ahead would be? A counselor said," You should have followed Class 035, but unfortunately, they had already gone out for an internship before the new year. It seems that good things never happen to me." Perhaps this was the legendary fate. I think since I have nothing to do, I might as well go to the south to search for my dreams!
The days of being a security guard
On March 1st, 2006, my cousin picked me up at the train station. With him welcoming me, I was greatly relieved and came to the legendary Shen Zhen.
Third brother and sister-in-law rented a house not far from their company, and sister-in-law happened to work the night shift. Third brother and I were in the same room, and it was summer now, so everything seemed to be easy to deal with.
I once naively thought that it would be easy for me to find a suitable job with the graduate employment agreement and student ID card in one hand and the discharge certificate in the other. Helplessly, I once again ran into a wall. There was no shortage of talent in Shanghai. It was not an exaggeration to say that there were many talented people here. I often encountered various challenges from outside and inside. This might be the reason why many young people were willing to come to Shanghai to work hard. A fresh graduate who hadn't graduated was really unpopular in Shen Zhen.
I shuttled back and forth between Sakata and the major talent markets in Shen Zhen. I was extremely tired and slowly adapted to it. Is this the law of survival of the fittest? Every morning I leave full of hope, and every evening I return disappointed. My mood is like the operation of the sun. In the morning, it is full of vigor and vitality. At night, the sun sets in the west, and the heartbroken person is at the end of the world.
On March 20th, under the persuasion of my third brother, I finally gave up my so-called dignity and applied for a fake high school graduation certificate. I made full use of my specialty and found a security job at Sanhe employment agency. This was my first job in Shen Zhen.
On March 21st, I took up my post at the Longhua Zhanhua Experimental School. Three shifts, 800 yuan. It wasn't too tiring and was quite relaxed. Most of the time, I stayed in the guard room. The people coming and going in the school were relatively simple. I just drank tea and read the newspaper in the guard room. However, I always thought that this was not the life I wanted.
Days passed day by day, and I slowly became familiar with Zhanhua.
Zhanhua was a private experimental school that gathered students from kindergarten to grade three. Children from all over the world found a place to study here. No wonder the private schools in Shen Zhen have developed so quickly. Without these private schools, I really don't know how our working children can study normally like the people in Shen Zhen. In the development of education, these private schools played an important role. Every day, they saw more familiar faces. For the sake of their children's future, every parent had put in a lot of effort. The school's hardware is not bad. It has a large stadium, multi-media education, and more than 1600 students. The only shortcomings are that the software is a little bad, and the teachers lack experience. I think this may be a choice that many private schools have to face. The turnover rate of teachers is too high, and it is difficult to pay them. Unfortunately, the local government's subsidy funds are very limited.
I see many teachers who want to teach their students well, but this is Shen Zhen. When a person's survival becomes a problem, everything else is out of the question. I've seen many teachers rack their brains for their students, but unfortunately, they're very pitiful. This vicious cycle has led to the bottleneck of the scale of private schools that can't be broken. As a security guard, I feel that I have the obligation and responsibility to protect my students. Being a teacher was the gardener of the garden, being a security guard was the butler of the campus, and being a guard was my favorite. Any position had its own loveliness. As long as you put your heart into it, you would always reap rewards.
The weather was hot, and the people were very passionate. In addition, there were many young teachers here, so naturally, there were many touching love stories happening. When patrolling at night, there were sometimes thieves. It was a very thrilling thing. One night, we laid in ambush at a place behind the canteen. There were lush trees there, which was the best place for thieves to commit crimes. Those days, the buckets in the canteen were always lost, although it was unbelievable when I thought about it. That thing was very worthless. He did not expect that the thief would not return empty-handed. After ambushing for a few nights, they almost found traces one day. Perhaps they were too eager for success, so the thief slipped away. Only a string of rope was left at the scene, which could be said to be a harvest.
The rest of the time, at night, there were more people who accidentally found lovestruck men and women playing passionate games of kissing. As young people, who didn't have passion, who didn't have youth and impulse? However, due to the limitations of our duties, I would not stop them directly. Instead, I would use a roundabout way to save the country and remind them indirectly. Even so, I still felt that I had committed a heinous crime.
When a profession doesn't even respect a child, I will leave. For the sake of self-esteem and to welcome the arrival of the new round of English CET, although it's still a step late, I have decided to leave. I will not stay. In this hot season, I have decided to leave Zhanhua. Before I leave, I will try my best not to fly alone. One of my three colleagues is my comrade-in-arms. It's amazing to meet an old friend thousands of miles away.
On April 12th, 2006, I finally received my first salary from working in Shen Zhen-652 RMB. With a longing for the future, I came to school to say goodbye for the last time.
graduation storm
On April 13th, I finally returned to school. The first person I met was of course one of my best classmates-Aijun. In fact, sometimes I feel that it is necessary to publicize her in other pages. After all, we are very fated classmates. Since the second year of high school, we have been deskmates for a long time. All the rumors were born. The first classmate I met when I returned from the army was also her. She was promoted to the same department as me. I got to know this school from her first hand. She was a beautiful and lovely girl. She might be busy preparing for graduation now! I wish her well from the bottom of my heart again and again.
I took my English exam materials from her, but it was too late again. I had no choice but to let the flowers fall and the swallows return. There was only news of waiting for graduation.
The graduation was not smooth sailing. April 19th was a dark day. I was originally staying at my aunt's house, but I played for too long that night and forgot to go back. At 11 o'clock in the evening, I was a little embarrassed to disturb their rest. I thought about Sister Zhao, and it was also inconvenient, so I pushed my motorcycle helplessly through the streets of Nanyang. There were many phenomena that were beyond my expectations under the lights. It was a night of indulgence, but I was like a complete wanderer, wandering, wandering. I took out 100 RMB as the activity funds. The dark night was very difficult to bear. I hid in a lonely corner and endured the long night, waiting for the dawn bell to ring. When I woke up in a daze, I realized something that made me very helpless. My information bag was lost. I regretted my carelessness. There were all the things that could be considered my credentials in there. My retirement certificate, ID card, student ID card, shooting level certificate, graduation certificate, excellent soldier's certificate, and my only green card. I collapsed.
But things had come to this. Lu Xun once said,"Whoever brews the sour wine will drink it himself." I could only accept this helpless reality. I originally wanted to go to Zhengzhou to collect graduation information, but my dream was shattered. I could only go home and wait foolishly. Because the internship for the 2003 class had not expired, the counselor could not give me any valuable advice.
I didn't have any free time at home. Instead, I followed my father and uncle to become a mason. Although this kind of life was monotonous, as a soldier, I was used to enduring all kinds of difficulties. There was no threshold that I couldn't cross.
On May 9th, I snuck into the school again to inquire about the news. Teacher Yang from the employment office suggested that I do graduation collection. So I came to the provincial capital again. I wanted to look for Jing, but I learned from the phone call that she was now living alone, so it was inconvenient for me. So I thought of Ning Guangwen. I remember that when I was in the military camp, he helped me very warmly.
He really helped me, but he treated me with great hospitality. Moreover, during the critical period of my graduation project, he resolutely accompanied me to the Henan Province Information Center to take a photo. He fulfilled his wish. Along the way, there were always too many friends and relatives to help me bravely come to this day. Thank you Guangwen, thank you to everyone who helped me and gave me sincere advice.
But I still haven't gotten the hang of graduation. Maybe it's my fault for hesitating. He kept the Goddess of Victory out of the door again and again. I stayed at home because I didn't have an ID card, so I couldn't go to work in Guangdong or Guangdong. Thus, I once again hid my strength and bided my time. I hid at home for a summer. This summer, I systematically entered the ranks of masons.
Three months might not be a long time for me, but it's enough to change my fate. I relied on my strong physical strength and sweat to exchange for what I deserved. I have no regrets. Perhaps this will only make my graduation more meaningful.
On August 27th, I went back to school again to inquire about the news. The accurate answer I got was to pay 4800 yuan first and then ask for money from my parents again. This was perhaps the most shameful thing for a veteran and a contemporary college student. It didn't go well. The school was on guard, as if I was a spy. At that time, I was thinking that if the school wanted to delay, I would write a letter to the Henan Province Department of Education to report my thoughts. Fortunately, I wasn't forced to that step. That hateful Teacher Yang from the Academic Affairs Office, perhaps it's more appropriate to say that he's more bureaucraticist, finally let go. I received this belated graduation certificate, whether it was tears or something else, perhaps it was all fleeting.
However, my ID card had never been found. I really lamented the efficiency of the town government. According to the regulations, the ID card can be completed in two months until September 27th. I counted on my fingers and it took nearly eight months. This is the efficiency of some units in my eyes. There's no need to mention it. Because soon I will go to Shen Zhen to search for my dream.
summer afternoon
Miss Xia is always late
Like naughty lovers used to not be punctual for appointments
She's like a little deer waiting
The weather is very stuffy
t breathe
Suppressed like a young love
It's hard to swallow, but it's hard to let go
Lei Gong cried.
As if someone owed him a debt
Deep in the gloomy soul
Longing for that moment to come
rumble
lightning and thunder
storm was brewing
Love is still waving
Suddenly the rain beckons
Two or three drops of rain are floating
Bored love is wandering around
Destiny longs for the arrival of love
Finally the sky is dark
Wind and Rain
the blurry world
A blank space of love
What was that? The sun revealed a smiling face
The rainbow hangs in the air like two dragons
When my lover comes
Who is the one rushing away?
summer afternoon
Seven or eight rain stars beyond the sky
Two or three feelings are deeply in my heart
It seems to be refreshing when it comes
Kunlun Sword Grass on July 17, 2006
My first official job after my second visit
The flames of war on National Day had not completely subsided. I felt that my chance to go to Shen Zhen to pursue my dreams had come.
On October 6th, I took a bus. After a 22-hour journey, I finally arrived at the city that I had been envious of for a long time. My third brother once again provided me with a safe haven. I had always been in a state of narcissism and infatuation. I thought that Shen Zhen was my world. The fortitude and strength I had learned from the military camp, the skills and knowledge I had learned from school, had finally found a platform to play freely.
Reality really liked to strike people down. After failing the interview again and again, I kept reflecting on myself. What should I do? Should she continue living in her dreams or boldly gamble her youth? It was good to be young. He could gamble with his youth without any scruples. If it wasn't destruction, he had to rise up.
Fresh graduates were really not welcomed in Shen Zhen. Our Pioneer did not pave a bright road for us. On the contrary, their bad habits left a very bad impression on some companies, especially small companies. Fresh graduates were not reliable. They came to work in the company with the purpose of learning skills and experience. Therefore, many companies did not welcome fresh graduates.
On October 28th, I spent a long time wandering around in Shen Zhen. I paid more than 300 RMB to the talent market, contributed more than 500 RMB to the transportation industry in Shen Zhen, and gave my third brother more than 20 days of trouble. Finally, I decided to find a job first before choosing a job. I found Deli Clock (ShenZhen) Co., Ltd. in Sanhe Talent Recruitment Agency. It became my first battle in society. Although it was short, it was unforgettable.
Our supervisor is an amiable person, and he has high hopes for me. I wanted to call him Old Lu. He was also a reformist, but he was powerless. The company's middle and high-level executives had a strong sense of self-defense, which seriously hindered the implementation of his reform plan. Although he also tried to instill the management concept of Huawei in us, because we were all in the extended level, it was his right-hand man. He made good use of us, and our finished products department was undoubtedly ahead of other departments.
I had never understood the meaning of being a reserve. I thought it was something profound. When I walked to this position, I finally realized that I was a complete handyman. Just like that, I revised my view of choosing a job again and again, and finally took the decisive first step.
It was probably Old Lu's honesty that conquered me. It was probably because I really needed a place to train myself at that time. Old Lu chose me, and I chose to benefit from it. Was it fate's guidance, or was one willing to fight and the other willing to suffer?
During the days when I was profiting, I did my best. I couldn't say that I was doing my best, but my heart was really moved. The first job was of great significance to one's life. Sometimes, I really, really feel like I've lost myself. The position of Chu Gan is intriguing. I've already said that this is a super big handyman from head to toe. The key is the mentality, because every time I take over, I will gain something.
Perhaps every training came from the details. Because of the many contacts, although he did not have any real power, he did the same work, the same role, and the different treatment. He learned how to play. I made use of everyone's strength to complete a difficult order. I learned to make various forms, including daily reports, repair reports, piecework wage reports, and even learned how to hold each morning meeting well. I didn't forget to comment on the events of the day before I got off work. This was the charm of life. I learned a lot of things during the profitable days, which paved the way for me to live well in the society. I thanked my colleagues. They regarded me as their brother. I see them as sisters, and we have established the most sincere friendship. This is something that nothing can exchange for. I would like to thank my supervisor for giving me a chance to train. He was the one who made me realize that a person's potential could always be discovered. He was the one who taught me many skills in dealing with people. He was the one who taught me how to lead my team. Although there were only 20-30 people, I should never be careless or give up.
Just like what Old Lu said, the higher-ups were a pile of mud when they were profiting, and everyone was in danger. This caused the reform of our finished products department to be difficult, and we were ostracized and attacked by the relevant departments. Although we achieved some proud results, the roots were broken, and we could only helplessly surrender. Old Lu tried to implement a new management education for the team leaders of our finished products department, but it had little effect. The general climate had already taken shape. Although the company had reached the forefront of the world and China in environmental protection and many other aspects, this was forced by the situation. The competition for watch makers in Shen Zhen was really fierce. The European Union and other countries had established new barriers for them. New measures were also constantly being implemented on ROHH. From the general ROHH label, to the current detailed classification of PG and non-PG. Especially since the birth of QC080000 had an impact on the watch industry. Fiada, EBOR, Tianwang, and even Casio followed closely behind. After I left, the company's external reform had been completed, but the internal reform was still far away. The city walls were always breached from the inside.
Maybe I'll try my luck at the talent market after the Spring Festival.
Why is the horse betting so red when it is profitable?
He hadn't been in Shen Zhen for a long time. He had been in Shen Zhen for almost a year on and off. Many of the phenomena in Shen Zhen were indeed different from those in the mainland, especially due to the influence of Hong Kong. It was like a child wanting to learn well, but the surrounding environment did not allow it. It was really difficult, but it was easy to learn badly. Horse racing was just the tip of the iceberg.
There was no need to refer to the classics or read important documents and instructions to bet on horses. It was absolutely illegal to bet on horses based on intuition in China. However, what was puzzling was that many comrades had a special liking for him. They were even happy to lose their salaries and family assets. I was also deeply affected when I benefited. My upper bunk was a Hunan boy, a true gambler. His roommates and many colleagues called him the " Horse King." He really put in a lot of effort. According to my long-term observation and investigation, other than sleeping, eating, and working, he spent the rest of his time in the horse betting business.
Sometimes, I'm really touched by his tireless dedication to studying the horse betting heart sutra. What kind of charm did this thing have that it could make a young man who was active and steady in his work degenerate? Sometimes, when I called him out to go shopping, he was stunned for a long time and didn't react. He thought that my voice was floating from space. Alas, I think if a person cultivated to such a realm, he could completely publish a book. In fact, he was just a very inconspicuous member of the horse racing gambling when he was profitable.
I had thought that there were very few people who gambled on horses when they made a profit, because many people had their own principles. Just like how I knew in my heart that gambling was bound to lose, and that I would never do anything illegal no matter how great the benefits were, my wishful thinking was awakened by the reality of profiting. Horse racing is not an isolated case, but rather a large group of people. Because I took a short break at work, I chatted with the female employees. Among them, there were many heroines who were even more violent. There were dozens of them, and there were thousands of them. The result really surprised me. This was the profit I made from my work.
Some people say that if you want to do a good job, you don't have to care about his work style and living habits. Whether this theory was correct or not was questionable, but an African girl said, Living among the blind, the deaf, and the mute all day long, how could you still be poetic in the face of meaningless death? I think sometimes the environment can affect people.
Perhaps he had to reflect on himself when he benefited.
Finishing on September 29, 2007 (on February 24, 2007)
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