Other than my fourth brother who felt wronged for me, my brother-in-law and sister-in-law who also opened a cosmetics store in the provincial wholesale market were even more unhappy that I was working as a clerk in the market for others. Although I didn't bring them any direct benefits when I was a leader of a state-owned enterprise, they were still proud of me as their brother-in-law. For more than ten years, they had already adapted to the psychological position that I could only be an official or a higher official. It was difficult for them to accept the reality that I suddenly fell from an official position to a commoner. What was even more difficult for them to accept was that their brother-in-law, who had made them proud in the past, had now become a clerk in their neighboring shop. This reality was really difficult for them to accept. Therefore, whenever I met them during that period of time, the topic would always be that I shouldn't have been their assistant. I also understand what my brother-in-law and sister-in-law mean. It's fine if I don't grow up on the spot, but I don't want to be a waiter in the shop next to theirs. Even if I want to work, I have to find a decent big company to work for. Or I can simply work as a waiter in a place where they can't see. In any case, I can't be a clerk in the same market as I am now. Not only do I feel useless, but I also make them feel useless. Cough, this is the difficulty of being a human. It's not easy to live a simple life. I have to live a life that can make my brothers, friends, and employees proud. If he couldn't do that, then he would be wise enough to avoid them far away, out of sight and out of mind. At this point, I can't pretend not to understand anymore. I think my wife thinks the same way, but she's just afraid that I'll be sad. I decided to leave my friend's shop and wait for the right opportunity to bring it up to Jun. I don't know if people's thoughts can really sense reality, or if I've dragged reality into my thoughts. What happened next became the reason why I left the shop. The provincial capital was only a few dozen kilometers away from Zhoutian Farm Junshan Industrial Zone. There was already a highway, so it was very convenient to come and go. After getting a small four-wheeled car, Jun often went to Zhou Tian Farm to meet up with his old friends. Jun and I have lived in Zhoutian Farm for decades, and Jun's friends are all my acquaintances or colleagues. That evening, Jun came to the shop when the shop was about to close. He asked me to go with him to his friend's place in Junshan Industrial Zone for dinner. After resigning from the unit, I didn't want to meet my former colleagues or acquaintances, especially those from Zhoutian Farm. I didn't plan to go, but Jun insisted that I go with him, so I had to get in the car.
On the way, Jun told me another unbelievable idea. He wanted to change the legal representative on the shop's business license to my name. As mentioned before, this shop was taken over by Jun from his predecessor. When the shop was handed over, two people stayed behind. One was Xiao Yang, who was at the front desk to quote and collect money, and the other was Old Yang, the tricycle driver. Although the store was close to closing down when it was handed over, it was Jun who turned the losses into profits and accumulated hundreds of thousands of assets after taking over. However, Xiao Yang and Old Yang knew very well that the store relied on inventory goods to make money. At present, none of the hundreds of thousands of assets accumulated in the store came from Jun's pocket. Besides, Jun didn't know how to do business when he first took over the shop. It was all thanks to his Er Yang's help, and Jun learned how to do business. Seeing that the store had accumulated hundreds of thousands of assets, Eryang could not help but think that he had contributed a lot. He dreamed of getting a share. Although they did not publicly make a request to Jun, Jun could also predict Eryang's thoughts. He was just pretending to be confused. He really could not bear to let others share this property. Jun treated me as his confidant and wanted to change the legal representative of the store to my name. He assumed that I was the one who brought in the registered capital. Using this method to cut off Er Yang's idea of sharing the store's property, all the property would belong to Jun (and I had a share). I didn't expect that the shop, which looked calm on the surface, was actually full of undercurrents. I don't know if Jun had this plan before I came to the shop or if he came up with it after I came. But whether it was before or after, this matter involved moral issues. I was sensitive to such things, so naturally, I would push it from Second Yang to myself. Second Yang had been working for ten years and couldn't share any property. He couldn't even be trusted. Would I really be trusted? Besides, what right did I have to enjoy the shop's property? Wasn't this planting a disaster for myself? My principle as a person is not to take undeserved wealth. So he refused to put my name on the business license. At this time, I clearly felt that this small shop was not suitable for me to stay any longer.
Jun saw that I refused and no longer mentioned this matter. The road conditions were good, and Jun drove very fast. In just over an hour, they arrived at Junshan Fruit Juice Company. Guo is the general manager here. Although Guo and I were in the same class from primary school to middle school, due to the disparity in family status (he was a cadre family and I was a worker family), I rarely interacted with him when I was young. When they grew up, they both became leaders of the second-level units in Zhoutian Farm, but they still didn't interact much with each other. Later on, I was promoted from factory director to industrial deputy director. Compared to a group of students who were leaders of secondary units, including the country, my administrative level was half a level higher. After that, the king seemed to be interested in getting closer to me, saying that he wanted to transfer to industrial management (he had been in the security department) and asked me if it was possible. I am not used to the initiative of the country. The past estrangement has long caused a psychological set. I don't know how to deal with it when I suddenly want to break this set. Therefore, even if he took the initiative, I was still passive. I would never take the initiative to look for him. However, I would help him with some things. When the establishment of the fruit juice company needed people, he became the general manager of the company. The psychological distance between me and the country was caused by my inferiority complex when I was young. When I was young, I was afraid of the country and avoided it.
Before Jun brought me here, he already knew that I worked in Jun's shop, so he couldn't wait to tease me when he saw me."A capable person like you will also step down. I really didn't expect you to have such bad luck!”During the period of resignation, I met many acquaintances and heard a lot of true and false words of concern, but there were not many people who dared to hit me when I was down. I was a little surprised to be mocked by Guo Gang when I met him. As the saying goes," It's never too late for a gentleman to take revenge, but revenge for a villain is right in front of you." Guo continued," Since elementary school, you've always regarded yourself as a noble person and never put us classmates in your eyes. You've been arrogant enough for decades. Now it's time for you to step down. I'll let you have a taste of being neglected.”I couldn't believe that the " Overlord " whom I feared when I was a child actually misunderstood my fear and evasion of him as " Divine Qi "'s " self-esteem ". Moreover, because of my " self-esteem ", he had developed an " inferiority complex " and was suppressed for decades. Only then did I understand that not only did children from poor families like me have an inferiority complex, but his son, who was an official, also had an inferiority complex. Moreover, his inferiority complex was caused by my humble background. Things in the world are so funny. I don't know whether to feel happy or sad. I no longer felt awkward and embarrassed when he continued to vent his dissatisfaction and resentment towards me. Instead, I felt a sense of satisfaction. Perhaps what he vented to me was what I wanted to vent to him. Both of us have suppressed each other for decades, and it has long become a mental set for us. This time, he wanted to take the opportunity to vent all the anger that had been suppressed in his heart for decades. I should have shouted at him when he vented. Now, the grudges and grudges that had accumulated between the two of them had become unclear. There was no need for me to vent my anger on him anymore. In fact, there was no need for me to explain myself. No matter how much I vented or explained myself to him, it would not change the mindset that had been formed over the past few decades.
Let him express it alone. The more he spoke, the more agitated he became, like a child quarreling and revealing his past."Once you step down, you'll be a loser. A loser, a loser, a loser still has the cheek to come and see me!”Feeling that it wasn't enough to vent his anger, he said loudly to Jun, who was standing at the side,"You still need a loser to work in your shop. Don't give him face and ask him to work honestly.”Jun didn't say anything. Instead, he was thinking about his own thoughts. With my temper, I wouldn't have been able to tolerate such rude humiliation. But this time, I didn't argue with him. I even secretly rejoiced at his hysterical venting. I even wanted to indulge him in venting. I let him know that it was because of my existence that he had been angry and suppressed for decades. He didn't know that I had been suppressed and suffered the same pain as him for decades. Moreover, our suppression and pain were mutually conditioned and caused. He finally couldn't take it anymore and exploded in front of me, completely exposing himself. I wanted to bury the opportunity to let him know the pain and depression in my heart so that he would never be the winner. He won't have a second chance to vent his anger on me. I'm going to jump out of the three worlds and stop bickering with him.
On the way back, I told Jun that I wanted to leave the shop and avoid the familiar environment and crowds. I wanted to find a completely unfamiliar environment to let my heart be at ease. I thought that Jun would be surprised by my request to leave. I was wrong. Jun didn't express any surprise. Perhaps he already had the same thoughts as me. He doesn't need me to work for him. The 700 yuan salary he gave me can find two young men in the market to work for him. Since I'm not willing to change my name to the business license, what's the point of staying in the shop? Naturally, it's better to leave as soon as possible. Therefore, in late June 1998, I left Jun's shop and the provincial wholesale market where thousands of stories were told every day. The page of working as a waiter in a friend's shop in my life has been turned over forever. For the time being, I don't have to worry about my friend's expression for a few pieces of meat in a bowl and a few bottles of beer on the table. I won't let my brothers feel ashamed for being a waiter.
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