Zhao Minmin, I've Used All My Strength To Chase After You, But I've Bought Half A Life Of Memories In Exchange
(1)
" The Hawthorn Tree Romance "'s female lead, Jingqiu, is a girl that I really like. Seeing Jingqiu suffer from part-time jobs, I was so touched that I wanted to cry. She's just a high school student, and she's such a weak girl. She has to do such hard and dangerous work, and she's worried that she won't have any part-time jobs.
Jingqiu's girlish feelings, her little temper, and her shyness are so beautiful. Jingqiu is such a good girl. If Third Brother likes her, I like her too. I want to take care of her too!
However, what I want to say now is that when I accidentally saw the interview of the original Jing Qiu, Madam Xiong Yin, I immediately had a strong spiritual resonance with the real Jing Qiu. How did I spend such a long time thinking about Zhao Minmin? The real Jing Qiu is really a bosom friend. I also used the following points to comfort myself because the interview of the original Jing Qiu has a very high position in my recollection. Please forgive me for using it appropriately:
First, I always comforted myself that it might be a good thing that Third Brother and I couldn't live together for a long time. This way, we wouldn't bump into each other and quarrel over daily necessities. He would always be beautiful in my heart, and I would always be beautiful in his heart. I would never have to worry that he would have a change of heart.
"Secondly, this thought became even stronger after I got married. My husband was comparable to Third Brother in many aspects during the pursuit stage before marriage. He also sent me across the river, standing on the river bank for a long time; He had also sat alone in a pavilion by the river all night because he was a married man at that time. Our relationship could not be made public, and his salary was not high. He could not bear to spend money to stay in a hotel in the summer. He came to see me from the city where he worked. He had to take the train overnight. Many times, he didn't have a seat and sat in the toilet on the train.
Third, I had the courage to bring him to our house, but I hid the fact that he was married from my mother. He was very diligent at my house. He always washed our family's clothes in the summer. At that time, there was no washing machine, so he washed them by hand. He is also very obedient to me and can tolerate any little temper.
Fourth, after I go to L University to study as a graduate student, I'll be closer to his workplace. He can visit me once every two weeks. I lived in the same dormitory as my sister. When he came, he helped us wash the sheets and quilts. He even sewed quilts for us on our small beds, making all the girls on the entire floor envious. Sometimes he'd buy a chick, wash it, cook it, and look at me
He didn't eat a single bite when he ate with my sister.
Fifth, after we got married, conflicts gradually appeared because he was no longer so attentive and considerate, so I had that kind of "bean sprout" feeling again. Before they got married, he and Doctor Cheng had the same bean sprout stem, but after they got married, they went their separate ways. They became two bean sprout petals, one golden yellow and the other moldy black. This time, the fork was no longer " success ", but marriage.
Sixth, at that time, I had a deep feeling that I had been tricked. I even felt that if Third got married, he might become like this. Third Brother's family background is good. He might be even more difficult to deal with than my husband. Perhaps this kind of thought was extremely blasphemous to No. 3.
But in a sense, it helped me get through the times when I missed him.
Seventh, to quote Huang Yan: " If you stop at the right time, most love can be beautiful, and most lovers can be great. Love in stories was often better than love in real life because stories could be stopped, but life could not.”
(2)
Beijing's Yuanmingyuan, Fuhai, late autumn and early winter, cool breeze blowing. Qin Fangfang and I were on a boat on the lake, letting the boat drift with the current.
Qin Fangfang and I will be acting together in " Those Years, We Had a Love in Beijing ". We will listen to Director Xia's arrangements and act as we are, hugging and kissing.
Qin Fangfang and I, one was a newcomer who had just debuted, the other was a veteran actress who had already acted in more than 30 movies and television dramas. However, we had a common characteristic. Our performances were too natural and too invested. It was as if we had been waiting for this kiss for generations, as if we wanted to make up for the long wait of several lifetimes with this kiss.
Qin Fangfang and I finally ended this dream-like kiss that seemed to have been agreed upon several lifetimes ago. The lake was already silent, and the sky was already filled with twinkling stars.
Director Xia and the other crew members of " Those Years, We Had a Love in Beijing " had already left. It seemed like Director Xia was quite satisfied with Qin Fangfang and my performance. Qin Fangfang and I had a one-time pass, so we didn't need to try again.
" Qin Fangfang, Director Xia of 'Those Years, We Had a Love in Beijing' has left." I was still immersed in my dream.
" Xiao Qingsong, yes, but Qin Fangfang and Xiao Qingsong's love in Beijing can continue to play out-"
Qin Fangfang replied gently.
" Qin Fangfang, you-you were a dream in the depths of my heart when I was in middle school. I've been looking for you for so many years. I finally found you at Beijing's Old Summer Palace-"
" Xiao Qingsong, that's right. Who doesn't have a childhood dream? I have one too. Beijing's Yuanmingyuan. Yuanmingyuan itself is a place to fulfill dreams-"
Qin Fangfang and I returned the boat that Qin Fangfang and I would never forget to him under the reproachful words and gazes of the Yuanmingyuan yacht manager. Then, we left Yuanmingyuan hand in hand with joy in our hearts.
(3)
Near the Beijing Pingtu Company, Qin Fangfang and I held hands and entered the Royal River Pill City-California Bay Community. The two-bedroom apartment was located in Room 1101 on the 11th floor of Building 13, Unit 1. It was already 9:30 p. m. I saw the lights in the room from below. Zhao Minmin had already returned!
I slowly woke up! I slowly let go of Qin Fangfang's hand!
Qin Fangfang sensed my abnormality, but she didn't say anything. We silently entered the elevator and went up.
On the 11th floor, he silently entered Room 1101. Zhao Minmin was in the room!
"Xiao Qingsong, you're back. It's so late. Did you eat outside? Did you have fun with Fangfang today?”Zhao Minmin asked with a smile.
" Zhao Minmin, we ate outside. Qin Fangfang and I…" When I saw Zhao Minmin's smiling face, I finally woke up and felt extremely guilty towards her.
"Sister Minmin, Summer Palace and Yuanmingyuan are quite fun. Yuanmingyuan and Fuhai also met a TV drama crew. The TV drama is called 'Those Years, We Had a Love in Beijing'. It's quite fun!”Qin Fangfang said calmly.
Qin Fangfang should really become a female spy!
"There are a lot of TV dramas in Beijing. Fangfang, have fun. It's getting late, rest. You still have to go to work at the Beijing Lido Hotel tomorrow!”Zhao Minmin said calmly.
"Zhao Minmin, the production team of 'Those Years, We Had a Love in Beijing' even cast Qin Fangfang and me as a couple. We had a dream of becoming celebrities, but now that we've woken up, Qin Fangfang and I still can't become celebrities.”
I think I should be more honest. These words are both a sign of determination to Zhao Minmin and a hint to Qin Fangfang. It's also a vow I made myself!
"Xiao Qingsong, when the crew of 'Those Years, We Had a Love in Beijing' asked us to act out that love scene, Xiao Qingsong, you were really immersed in your performance. I think you must have mistaken me for Sister Minmin. Who doesn't have a dream of becoming a star in their heart?”Qin Fangfang said calmly.
(IV)
"So You're Here Too" Lyric: Miyuki Nakajima sang: Rene Liu
Please allow me to settle the dust and bury the past with silence
Covered in wind and rain, I came from the sea to live in seclusion in this desert
The things that should be hidden are always clear, thousands of words can only be speechless
Love is the superstition of time and place. Oh, so you're here too
Ah, which person only exists in the dream?
Why do I use all my strength
But in exchange for half a lifetime of memories
If it weren't for your longing for eyes, if it weren't for me saving my mood
Meeting in a sea of people, oh, you're here too
Zhao Minmin could only exist in my dreams now. I really used all my strength to pursue Zhao Minmin for more than six years. I went through all kinds of ups and downs, and I went through all kinds of pain and torture.
However, no matter what excuse I found, no matter how many plots I fabricated, no matter how I beautified myself, Zhao Minmin still left me. Even if she really missed me, in fact, I couldn't even be sure if she really missed me. Why couldn't Zhao Minmin find someone who loved her more and was more suitable for her? Why do you have to be like what you implied in your novel? It seems that Zhao Minmin is very unfortunate to leave you, Xiao Qingsong, and can't live a happy life?
Su Yunjin hoped that Cheng Zheng would leave her and live an unhappy life. I also hoped that Zhao Minmin would live an unhappy life in Shen Zhen or other places. However, this could only mean that Su Yunjin still had feelings for Cheng Zheng and I still had feelings for Zhao Minmin. I still hoped that our old feelings would reignite one day and we could continue our relationship.
Xinyi Dock helped Su Yunjin realize her wish in the novel. Of course, in reality, Xinyi Dock also helped her realize it. However, in real life, Cheng Zheng's family conditions were extremely good. His father was an official, his mother was extremely rich, and he was handsome. He was even very lethal to girls born after the 1990s. He could be the best man in the eyes of girls born after the 1990s. Why could he only find Zheng Xiaotong, who had big blank eyes and a dull expression, after leaving Su Yunjin? Why couldn't Cheng Zheng find a woman who was more outstanding than Su Yunjin, or perhaps not as good as the Su Yunjin in her teenage years, but at least more outstanding than the Su Yunjin who was already his superior's "future mistress"? Or at least find a complete woman. Cheng Zheng was the only child in the family, and Su Yunjin could no longer have children. Who should Cheng Zheng's family leave such a large fortune to? No matter how childish Cheng Zheng was, he would have to consider this problem sooner or later, right?
In the novel, Xinyi Dock forced Cheng Zheng to ignore the above facts and break through the limits of a normal person. In fact, Xinyi Dock did not adopt Cheng Zheng's acceptance of Su Yunjin out of sympathy or love, but Su Yunjin was high above. Cheng Zheng begged below, and Su Yunjin reluctantly accepted Cheng Zheng again out of sympathy or love!
Xinyi Dock could only be realized in novels. It was a beautiful wish that was difficult to realize in reality. It was used to entertain and satisfy the desire of the readers and audiences for a loyal and beautiful love.
No matter how much I lied to myself, no matter how much I comforted myself, the bloody ending of the story was right there. That was, I really used all my strength, but it was only in exchange for half of my life's worth of memories. It might even continue until the end of my life, and the things I exchanged would be sublimated into lifelong memories.
If it was even crueler, then Xiao Qingsong, would you dare to answer such a question? Does Zhao Minmin really love you? Or even lower it a little. Does Zhao Minmin really like you? Zhao Minmin might have pitied you because you've been pursuing her for so many years. Do you have accurate information about the reason why Zhao Minmin is far away from home and left Beijing? Was it just a figment of his imagination to comfort himself? Zhao Minmin is far away from home. She left Beijing and you. Maybe it's because she doesn't love you. Maybe it's because she wants to find the person she really loves.
I still can't prove that she really likes me and loves me, but from the first time I saw her, I liked her and loved her. When she was in Beijing, I liked her, loved her, and pursued her. When she was in Shen Zhen, I looked for her, missed her, and loved her from afar. Until today, I still love her. I'm not willing to accept the ending. My heart aches when I think of her.
In this love between Zhao Minmin and me, whether it was during the six years of pursuing her, the ending after six years, or the ending until today, I am a failure. The only thing I can persist in is that I am willing to be such a failure, just like the first time Zhao Minmin left me.
Time flowed like water. The love that was once engraved in his heart seemed to slowly fade away, and the pain that once devastated his liver and guts had long gone with the wind...
Love is like a meteor. Love at first sight comes quickly, so let it go quickly like a meteor. As long as my love for Zhao Minmin streaks across the sky like a meteor, leaving behind beautiful traces and memories, I can only do so in this life!
If loss is bitter
Are you still afraid of giving
If falling is suffering
Do you still want happiness?
If confusion is bitterness
Should it begin or end?
If the pursuit is bitter
Is this strong or stubborn
If separation is bitter
Who do you want to complain to?
If promises are bitter
Should I reveal my true feelings?
If infatuation is bitter
Is love a mistake?
If loving each other is bitter
Where is the true love in this world?
A lot of things are always seen clearly later
But I can't find the way I came
A lot of things didn't feel bitter at all at that time
Even if it's bitter, I don't care
Thinking back to the days when I wrote love letters to Zhao Minmin, I really liked to use the word 'unforgettable.' But in fact, there was not only unforgettable love, but also unforgettable pain.
Zhao Minmin allowed me to experience both.
I think only eternal time can slowly erase the love and pain that are engraved in my heart.
However, I think that if there is a next life, I will still be at that place, at that time, waiting for Zhao Minmin to appear. I will still pursue her without regrets, like her, love her. Even if Zhao Minmin makes me experience the unforgettable love and pain again, I will not hesitate!
Zhang Ailing-Love-Meeting the person you met among thousands of people, in thousands of years, in the boundless wilderness of time, not a step earlier, not a step later, just happened to catch up. It was still the summer before the rainstorm, in the bookstore in Haidian, Beijing. Zhao Minmin was still dressed in a white shirt and a blue skirt: " Zhao Minmin, you're here. My name is Xiao Qingsong. I've been waiting for you for a long time. No matter what the outcome is, no matter who wins or loses, I want to use 60,000 years to pursue you, like you, love you, and perform a love in Beijing. If you're ready, let's start now-"
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