Shangguan Qiang had been very annoyed these past few days. Qiqi had called him many times to ask him out, but he had rejected them all because he didn't have the time. He didn't want to give Qiqi hope because that would hurt her. Although he didn't mean to hurt her, he didn't want to hurt others. His heart was already occupied by the little girl from before, and there was no place for anyone else to stay. The bitterness of love was not getting it, but not getting it.
"Shangguan Qiang, you're here. I thought you were busy. I hope I didn't disturb you.”Qiqi said.
"No, no." At this moment, Shangguan Qiang didn't know what to say. He didn't expect that Qiqi would suddenly come looking for him. Perhaps, what should come would come, and what should be avoided couldn't be avoided. In the end, he had to face everything. It was better to make things clear now. He didn't want to hurt others, nor did he want others to be hurt because of him. The pain in one's feelings could not disappear in a short period of time. It was a lifelong pain. She couldn't tell him what hurt him the most. He could only find an excuse. Hopefully, she wouldn't be hurt.
"Qiqi, I'm sorry. I don't know how to tell you. I think that we're not suitable for each other. I have a bad temper and am a little chauvinistic. I'm really not as good as Sister-in-law says, nor as good as you think. I'm only so successful in this life. You definitely won't be happy with me. I'm a very boring person. If I hurt you, please forgive me.”
"Only I know whether you're happy or not. You don't have to belittle yourself like this. To make you suffer like this. Why are you treating me like this? Shangguan Qiang, you're too much. It's not that I can't get married, and I won't rush to get married.”Qiqi cried in pain. Shangguan Qiang looked on helplessly. As a man, he was not unmoved by such a woman. However, it was easier said than done for him to give up a woman he had loved for ten years. Although, in the face of that hopeless love, he did not know if he still had to persist. Why did he persist?
Previously, she had thought that Shangguan Qiang was busy. She did not expect him to be hiding from her. Why? Her sister had told her that this man was secretive, reliable, and safe. A woman would be very happy if she could marry him. It all depended on whether she cared about his first marriage or not. Because this man had a special charm and temperament. Her sister hoped that she would seize the opportunity. In fact, she had fallen in love with this man since the first time she saw him. She had been observing him in secret. His every move was deeply imprinted in her mind.
However, she never thought that Shangguan Qiang would treat her like this. Why? She kept asking herself, could it be that this man had a phobia of marriage? Or was there someone else in his heart? Who could that person be? She ran out of Shangguan Qiang's dormitory and tried to calm herself down. She needed to find a place to be quiet. She had to think about what to do. Perhaps she would know what she should do after she figured it out.
" I'm sorry, I'm really sorry." Shangguan Qiang stood rooted to the ground as he watched Qiqi run out. She had apologized hundreds of times in her heart. "I can't forget her, I'll never forget her. Perhaps, to me, her love is like the stars in the sky, so far away. But I still love her. Even if one day, she holds someone else's hand, I will bless her forever because she has already taken root in my heart. No one understands the kind of love that goes deep into the bone marrow. I love her, but she doesn't know it. Sometimes, I feel that it's a little ironic, but reality is always so helpless.”Shangguan Qiang said to himself over and over again in his heart. However, who could he tell? The people he could tell couldn't, and the people he couldn't tell insisted on him telling them. God, what should I do? Xiao He, what are you doing now? Can you feel my heart?
"Shangguan Qiang, Shangguan Qiang, don't, don't.”She did not know how many times she had seen him in her dreams. It turned out that he had always been there. He had always been hidden in the deepest part of her heart. It turned out that she still could not forget him. It was because of him that I didn't notice that the person who had been by my side for three years, the person who had been by my side crying, laughing, and acting coquettishly with me, the person who loved me more than his life, had now lost his life.
Why didn't she get the love she wanted? Why didn't she cherish the people around her? Why did she always let that illusory person stay in her heart? Could it be that true love was only when she couldn't get it? He didn't know how to cherish what he got. He asked himself again and again, but he could not find the answer.
The university was about to start soon. She didn't know if she was happy or sad, but everything at home seemed to have returned to the past. It was extremely quiet. It turned out that the knot in their hearts could never be untied. They might never forgive an ominous person like me. Perhaps, they had always been conflicted in their hearts.
Yushan came by a few times to help me prepare for school, but I felt like there was nothing to prepare. I didn't know how long I could last in university. If I ran away from university one day, my family would think I was crazy. What's even more ridiculous is that they all think I'm a monster. There's nothing I can do about it. Right now, I don't have any confidence in myself at all. I wonder what I should learn after I go to university? What should I do? Forget and forget, which one should be forgotten and which should be forgotten? It was love. Perhaps, after giving up love and letting go of feelings, he would be able to relax for a moment. However, the pain in his heart could be hidden under the scar. The wound that was sutured could not be sutured.
All of my happiness has gone with Zou Xiangyang's passing, and I never had the courage to open those diary pages. I didn't dare to look at them, although I put them beside my pillow every night when I slept. I knew that with him by my side, I wouldn't be lonely anymore. This silent companionship, this pain, I can't let go.
"Shangguan Qiang, I've thought it through. I don't care if you like me or not. I've fallen in love with you, so I want to treat you well. Whether you like it or not, I think I can drive away the shadow in your heart. I think you'll definitely like and fall in love with me in the future.”Qiqi had thought about it for a few days, and today, she had once again trapped Shangguan Qiang in her room.
Shangguan Qiang didn't know what to say to such a devoted girl. He couldn't tell Qiqi that his heart was already filled with memories of Mei Yuhe. He didn't want to hurt Qiqi because she was not wrong. She was wrong to fall in love with him. A man who had another woman in his heart. He didn't say anything and just walked out of the dormitory. Now, he just wanted to go to a place where no one was around and hide. He wanted to slowly lick the pain in his heart.
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