It was March in B City, and there was still a hint of coldness in the air. The spring rain fell gently, causing the surroundings to become hazy. From the 25th floor, one could see the beautiful peach blossoms on the distant mountain ridge, and the tender green willow trees complemented each other. Looking at the scene in front of him, Song Moqing couldn't help but think of a beautiful poem like 'The most beneficial thing in spring is better than the smoky willows that fill the imperial city'. Spring was supposed to be the season when all things revived, but her world was experiencing eternal leaves.
Song Moqing lay lazily on the soft tatami with his arms crossed, feeling a little sick. It was unknown when Song Moqing started to like to bend his body, hug his knees tightly, and curl his body into a ball. He learned to find the sense of reality in his own aura. Ever since Tang Yu's sudden phone call, they had not contacted each other. She should have drawn a clear line with him! Song Moqing thought so, but he couldn't help but feel a deep sense of loss. Actually, she knew what it meant to let go! I don't love you anymore! All of them were just deceiving themselves. We all know how things will end, but we have to go a long way to explore its meaning, and our so-called journey is just a meaningless farce.
Just as Song Moqing was lost in his thoughts, his phone rang. Pan Nuo's voice entered Song Moqing's ears. His smug laughter was mixed with unconcealable joy. He said," Moqing, the company is finally on the right track, and I just signed a big case…" Pan Nuo paused for a moment. When he spoke again, his tone was full of gratitude." Moqing, you pulled me back from despair. Tell me, how should I thank you!"”
Song Moqing smiled gently and said," I don't need any thanks. Besides, you're important to me. I won't leave you alone.”
Hearing Song Moqing say the words 'important person', Pan Nuo stopped what he was about to say. He carefully asked in a low voice," More important than Tang Yu?”
There was silence on the other end of the phone. Song Moqing was stunned by Pan Nuo's question and was momentarily speechless. She couldn't find any way to answer Pan Nuo's question. She could not say 'yes' or 'no'. After a long silence, she could only continue awkwardly," How's Uncle's illness? He should be able to be discharged soon!"
Pan Nuo didn't answer immediately. Song Moqing quietly listened to the movements on the other end of the phone. Ten seconds later, Pan Nuo said," Moqing, please don't run away from me. Such an answer was even crueler than a 'no'.”
Pan Nuo's tone was full of hurt. Song Moqing felt that she was really useless. She would only choose to run away from the Tang Yu she loved. She also used the same method to push Pan Nuo away. Song Moqing thought for a long time, but he didn't know what words to use to express himself. In the end, he could only say apologetically," I'm sorry, Ah Nuo. I just didn't want to hurt you. I…"
"Mo Qing." Pan Nuo interrupted Song Moqing from the other end of the phone. She said slowly in a heartbreaking tone," Every word of apology from you is like a knife that cuts me to pieces. I'm already injured…"
Song Moqing was stunned. She never expected that she would hurt Pan Nuo so deeply. She had always thought that she was a victim in love. However, she had forgotten that her opponent at this moment was not Tang Yu, but Pan Nuo. When she was by Pan Nuo's side, she had always accepted all of Pan Nuo's love and care, but she had never thought about him. Pan Nuo knew all her preferences and would do everything for her unconditionally, but she knew nothing about Pan Nuo. Even as a friend, Song Moqing felt that he had gone overboard.
Pan Nuo saw that Song Moqing didn't say anything and regretted saying those words. After all, he was nothing to Song Moqing. After stammering for a long time, he said guiltily," I'm sorry, Mo Qing. Just pretend that I didn't say those words. I didn't want to cause you trouble. I still have work to do here, so I won't disturb you anymore.”After saying that, he hung up the phone in a hurry.
After a while, Song Moqing gradually reacted. Even if they were arguing, at the last moment, Pan Nuo would still think for her and not make things difficult for her. As for himself? She had been doing things that hurt him. Song Moqing didn't know how to repay him for this favor. She suddenly felt that perhaps returning here was the wrong choice. If she had stayed in Paris, perhaps she would have been with Pan Nuo. As time passed, she would have slowly forgotten about Tang Yu. After that, he would live a happy life. However, we always didn't know how to cherish the people in front of us. We always thought that we would meet again. We always thought that if we said 'sorry,' there would be no regrets. However, he had never thought that every wave of goodbye could be a farewell. Every sigh could be the last sigh in the world. Song Moqing had once seriously tried to fall in love with Pan Nuo, but some people were like that. They would only love once in their lives. The next time, there was no longer the persistence and enthusiasm from the beginning.
Su Jie walked out of the bedroom and looked at Song Moqing, who was curled up on the tatami, a little absent-minded. Ever since Tang Yu called, Song Moqing had been in a daze, lying on the tatami all day. Su Jie shook her head helplessly. She picked up the cashmere blanket and tiptoed over Song Moqing's thin body, waking him up.
Su Jie looked at Song Moqing pitifully and comforted him," It's okay. I'm afraid you'll catch a cold.”
Song Moqing held Su Jie's hand, and two lines of tears rolled down. An uncontrollable sadness stained her increasingly thin face." Little Jie, am I very cruel? I kept saying that Tang Yu hurt me and I didn't want Pan Nuo to get hurt. Then, he coldly pushed Tang Yu away and shut Pan Nuo out. But in fact, I'm doing this because I'm selfish and afraid that I'll be hurt again, right?”Sometimes, love was also a kind of hurt. Cruel people chose to hurt others. Kind-hearted people chose to hurt themselves.
Su Jie smiled lightly and stroked Song Moqing's soft long hair with her warm hands. She said slowly," A truly cruel person doesn't care if they're kind or not. As for you, aren't you…" Holding Song Moqing in her arms, Su Jie gently patted her back. Her palm could clearly touch her thin and protruding spine. She felt even more upset and could only comfort him in a low voice," Moqing, fate is not something we can control. The only thing we can do is to fulfill our own happiness.”
Song Moqing slowly mulled over these words in his heart. To fulfill his own happiness? I always feel that happiness is billions of light-years away from me. She said quietly," I've already forgotten what my happiness is.”Then, she silently sprinkled her tears on Su Jie's shoulder, and a sad atmosphere spread. The breeze outside seemed to be telling a sad fairy tale from a long time ago. It was distant and blurry. A migrating bird on the horizon! Do you know what this burning sadness tastes like?
Song Moqing thought that he would never know how much pain she felt when Tang Yu simply said that he didn't love her. Even so, she still chose to walk away from him silently and use another method to keep Tang Yu in her life. She was like an injured beast, running into the cave alone. If you didn't care, she would be able to persevere and heal herself. However, when you gently ask her about her well-being, she will lose her calm and will not be able to withstand the loneliness. No matter how indifferent she was and how much she could endure loneliness, she still yearned for someone to protect her. Just like the day they broke up, she knew that when she walked away with difficulty, she prayed in her heart that Tang Yu would ask her to stay. However, he did not. Therefore, she could only hide her sadness and pretend to be strong and travel alone. In a place where she could not see him, she guarded that beautiful memory and could not forget it.
She had thought about whether there would be a good ending if she chose to start over. However, she was so afraid that she didn't dare to take another step. She really wanted to tell Tang Yu how determined that indifferent woman called Song Moqing was to fly away from him like a little bird. She had flown for so long and so far, but she still flew back. Because she was afraid that if she flew too far and too long, she would not be able to find her way home…
Unfortunately, the past was gone, and tomorrow was empty.
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