Ding Nan sat at the dining table near the window of Jinguan Residence. She looked out of the window and at her phone from time to time. Her demure and dignified face was a little twisted because of the anxiety of waiting.
"I'm dizzy. What's going on? Men are always waiting for women on dates, but he made me wait for him for half a day. What was going on? Go crazy." She grumbled in her heart, and her nagging almost jumped out of her chest.
After a while, she caressed her chest, closed her eyes, and opened them again. She told herself, Don't be so impatient. Be patient and have self-restraint. You're still an intellectual woman. Come, relax and maintain your elegant intellectual beauty!
Finally, it was quiet. She took out a small mirror from her bag and looked at her makeup. She smiled and was satisfied, so she sat up straight and waited.
Eight years after the divorce, she started going on blind dates.
In the previous seven years, she had spent one year preparing for her exams, three years studying for postgraduate studies, and three years in between.
Of course, in these seven years, other than the two failed relationships, she also had some small relationships. For example, she had been with a single father for half a year but did not hold his hand once, and she had met another single father six times and held his hand once. A gap period wasn't an absolute gap period. She had liked someone before, had been infatuated, had a crush on a married man, and had the chance to be in a relationship with a brother and sister. However, due to various reasons, she had never started a relationship. All of them were left unsettled.
Had she ever loved anyone? She should have, but she didn't seem to have. She had never said " I love you " to anyone. Modern people rarely said " I love you." Although they knew deep down that it was love, they still refused to admit it. They were only willing to say that they liked you because they were afraid of being hurt. Occasionally, when someone told her "I love you", she would say "Oh, really?”，Then, he changed the subject. She believed in beauty, but she no longer believed in love.
What exactly was love? Sometimes, when you liked someone deeply, you wanted to get married to him immediately. You wanted to grow old with him overnight. You wanted to use this method to fix everything so that you could avoid the changes, changes, and variables in the long years to come. You wanted to grow old with him. However, love really needed the right time, place, and people. When the conditions were not ripe, love would become a worldly possession and gradually fade into nothingness. That was why there were so many helpless ghosts outside the siege of marriage.
Even so, she still wanted to find someone to love her. She was not a woman, she was just a weak little woman. After so many years, she was physically and mentally exhausted.
She had carefully measured herself. Although she was not very beautiful, she was elegant and dignified. She had a postgraduate degree and was not lacking in intellectual beauty. She also had the unique delicate femininity of a southern woman. She was a professional editor. Although her job was not satisfactory, she was still decent.
In private, she often pretended to be hysterical to her best friend. F * ck! An outstanding woman like me can't find a man! Heavens! Where was the justice? Go crazy!
Indeed, for someone like her, it was not difficult to find someone with similar conditions. The difficulty was that she was a single mother with a child. Men nowadays were all so realistic. Who would be willing to find a burden? Society was under so much pressure, and she was even anxious to raise her own child.
Of course, there were also men who said to her,"As long as you're good and have a small tail, it's fine.”However, she did not like that kind of man. She felt very wronged when she imagined the scene of the two of them together. In this day and age, she had yet to meet a good man who was tolerant and responsible. Most of the men who could accept her little burden were those who were also miserable. She didn't want to make do.
"If you find someone like that, you might as well die. Why do you want to get married for the sake of getting married?" After countless blind dates, she had completely collapsed. However, after adjusting and recovering, she had no choice but to cheer up and regroup.
"There is always the right person waiting for me. It's just that the time hasn't come yet.”She comforted herself like this every time.
The reason why she was in such a hurry was that she was no longer young. In her mother's words, she was already in her thirties. After eight years of wandering and wasting eight years of her youth, her intestines were green with regret. She was upset that she did not make good use of this golden time and did not successfully promote herself. Eight years. Just thinking about it made her want to slap herself.
Thirty something, this was really an awkward age. You said that you saw through everything, but in fact, you might not. You said that you were no longer confused and had thought it through, but that's not necessarily the case. You are unwilling to lose your youth and always want to prove that you are still young. You often dress up in flat shoes and jeans, but you feel that old age is coming and you are in danger. You are also unwilling to waste your good years of mediocrity, rolling in the world of mortals. You still yearn for romantic and passionate love. The dream of immortality is still flickering in your heart, but you have no way to live a wonderful life.
Since everything was so illusory and helpless, the only real path was marriage. To her, it was remarriage.
A small portion of the men she met on blind dates were introduced to her by her friends, and most of them were met through the dating website. During the Spring Festival this year, she frantically applied for and registered as a member on several famous dating websites. Although she hesitated for a while because she needed to pay, she thought about how she needed to invest in her marriage. She gritted her teeth and transferred the money.
Jinguan Restaurant. To be more precise, it was the restaurant near her residence. Every time she met a man on a blind date, she would choose this place.
She had considered everything before choosing this place. This place was very close to her current address, so she didn't have to run too much. The dining environment with usable space had a good style and ambiance. The decoration was also very warm and felt like home. The flavor was her favorite, the strong flavor. She liked salty and spicy. Most importantly, it was not expensive and the price was reasonable. The first time they met, it was usually the man's treat. She did not want to take the opportunity to rip them off. It wasn't easy for anyone these days.
She was no longer a young girl. She had been divorced once and had a son who was neither too young nor too young. She weighed her weight and knew how to choose a man carefully and choose a married man. She didn't need to put on an act. Time was really precious to her now.
"F * ck! For an unfortunate woman who still had a bit of her youth, was there anything more shameful than wasting time?”She often reflected deeply on herself and teased herself on Weibo.
The men she chose to meet were all of the same age. Sometimes, there were even older men, but they were all of the same type as her. To be exact, because she was a single mother, the men she chose were all divorced. It would be best if they were single fathers with children. This way, both sides would be able to balance out a little. Otherwise, it would be very easy for their relationship to change and cause all their previous efforts to go to waste. This was because of her sense of time. She did not want to waste her time doing something that she was not sure of.
Generally speaking, she was more afraid of widowed men. She always felt that it was related to death and was inevitably unlucky. As for unmarried or divorced men with no children, she was less confident and impatient. She was always afraid that if she talked about it halfway and invested too much in her relationship, they would eventually mind the trouble of having children and choose to give up or run away. She had suffered in this aspect before.
She had once been entangled with an unmarried man who was four years older than her and had good conditions in all aspects for three years. The two of them loved each other to death, and their love was engraved in their hearts. Their tears were about to collapse the Badaling Great Wall. However, in the end, he still minded that she had a child and ran away. In the end, he found an unmarried fat woman who was much worse than her in all aspects, got married, and had children.
Based on her many years of love experience and a woman's unique intuition, coupled with the love experience of her close girlfriends, she divided the men she met into four categories: Those who didn't feel the right conditions, those who didn't feel the right conditions, those who felt the right conditions, and those who felt the right conditions.
The first type of men were those who were not suitable and had no feelings for her. They would be directly rejected and not considered at all.
The second type of men were those who were suitable but had no feelings for him. They would keep him as a spare tire and keep in touch with him at a distance. They might look for him one day.
The third type of men were those who were not suitable but had feelings for each other. They would let nature take its course and see how deep their relationship would be in the end. They would see how reluctant they were to part with each other and how willing they were to be together forever. They would see if they would change their nature at that time and whether they would be willing to give up material things in reality for the sake of great feelings.
The fourth type of men were those with suitable conditions and feelings. This type of man was a woman's dream to get a good marriage. He was a good stock in the stock market. He was not the best among men, but he was also a top grade. He could be encountered but not sought. He had to grasp it well, but he had to be treated with caution. He had to invest more time and energy, but he had to invest in the right amount of feelings. He had to avoid investing too much to prevent the other party from withdrawing first and hurting himself.
In this day and age, whoever invested more would be injured more. Everyone in the world knew this.
Of course, this condition was a virtual standard that she had come up with after considering her own hardware and software scores. It was not absolutely unshakable, but it varied from person to person. It could be flexible and flexible depending on the quality of the talent. For example, if he had a handsome and energetic appearance, good affinity with people, good temperament, good academic qualifications, and no requirements for a car or a house, it would be better if he had one, but it wouldn't be too bad if he didn't. Her image and temperament were a little bad, but she looked good. She was passable and did not add to the crowd. She could make do with it. Her educational background and ability were moderate. She had to have at least one car and house. If the image and temperament were below average, but not too annoying, then it was necessary to have a car and a house.
In short, if the software was a little worse, the hardware would be more demanding. On the contrary, if the hardware was poor, the software requirements would be higher. Otherwise, how could they seek balance and harmony? Now, the entire country was advocating harmony, demanding the establishment of a harmonious society, harmonious communities, and harmonious families. If the big environment was like this, then the small environment of a two-person world should be even more so, right? Otherwise, how could a trickle gather into a sea?
It couldn't be helped. Nowadays, people had to be realistic. If they weren't realistic, they wouldn't be able to live. However, feeling was also necessary. If they didn't feel anything, it would be worse than death.
Therefore, this was difficult. It was difficult for ordinary people, not to mention that she was a single mother.
The man she met this time was someone she met on a matchmaking website. He was slightly older than her, ten years older than her. He was a single father, and his daughter usually lived with her mother. She would go home to visit him on the weekends. He had a car and a house, and he was from a research institute in Beijing. He had a Beijing residence, but his ancestral home was from a southern province. They were considered to be from the same hometown. Because of this, she was willing to see him. So be it. Besides, although the few people she met before were young, they were the same age as her or one or two years older, but their financial conditions were not good. They were average in other aspects and it was difficult to get them. In this day and age, it was hard to earn money, and it was even more difficult to find someone who could do both.
There seemed to be a ringtone mixed with the vibration of the bag on the table. She quickly unzipped her bag and took out her phone. She saw the man's name " Chi Zilan " flashing on the screen, so she pressed the answer button.
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