Ding Nan suddenly had a strange thought in her heart. Perhaps she could try to give up on Sun Guowei again. Sun Yan was right. There would be no results between us. Why should I be so stubborn?
She let Li Shi hold her hand and closed her eyes. She wanted to use her heart to find a feeling, or rather, she wanted to experience the difference between holding hands with the man beside her and holding hands with Sun Guowei. When she was with Sun Guowei, her heart and her hands were involuntarily trying to please him. But now, she had a trace of resistance and resistance. She felt that it was so awkward and strange.
She slowly withdrew her hand and glanced at Li Shi. She smiled and said,"I'm sorry! I'm sorry, I really can't find the feeling. I tried hard just now.”
Li Shi was a little embarrassed, but then he burst out laughing. He looked at her and said,"Little Yu 'er, Little Yu' er, you're so funny! I like you to be so straightforward. I'm still very happy!”
After that, she met Li Shi less often. Li Shi had asked her out three times, and she would usually force herself to meet him once. On the surface, she would laugh and tease him, but she deliberately kept her distance. She thought that it was not a bad thing to have another friend. Sometimes, when Li Shi reached out to help her, she would suddenly retract her hand in shock. When she was shocked, Li Shi could not help but laugh.
In April after the new year, Rong Xiaozhen divorced again. Two years after his first divorce, he divorced for the second time. He told Ding Nan that ever since the primary school teacher returned home in a fit of pique, they had never been together again. They had only known each other for a short time, and their marriage was also short. They did not have any feelings for each other, and they did not want to keep each other. Therefore, when the primary school teacher sent him the divorce agreement, he quickly signed it. The business of the two physical stores he had opened before was gradually declining. He kept one and returned the other. Then, he started to dabble in online shopping. He registered an online store in Taobao Mall and Paipai Mall. He hired two designers and three customer service staff. He worked in a house he bought in Tongzhou.
In May, Sun Yan told her that after the Spring Festival, her husband was in a hurry to go abroad again. He couldn't wait for her to drag it out and sued her. He wanted a divorce and the child would be his. In the end, he didn't mention her parents. Before this, she had already begun to believe in Buddhism. At that time, she would chant scriptures and pray to Bodhisattva every day. She would also consult a lawyer and hire a lawyer. Later, the court ruled that the child belonged to her, and her ex-husband paid 4,000 yuan a month for child support. Her ex-husband said that he wanted to appeal, but he gave up in the end.
"This is the result of my daily prayers to Bodhisattva.”Sun Yan said.
"Do you really believe this?" Ding Nan asked her with a smile.
"You don't know, but on the morning of the court's ruling, I was in a daze when I heard Bodhisattva tell me that the court had ruled that the child would be yours and that the child support fee would be 4,000 yuan. At that time, my tears flowed down.”Sun Yan looked at her for a long while before shifting her gaze away and said sincerely.
Ding Nan looked at her with a puzzled expression. She couldn't say anything about this, nor could she comment on it. She had always been in awe of religion. She had always believed that if one believed in it, there would be something. If one did not believe in it, there would be nothing.
In June, Ding Nan began to prepare for her graduation thesis proposal in the middle of the month. Because she had spent a lot of time and energy on compiling the art chronicle of Old He, who was working part-time, and her mentor's research project,"The History of Chinese Fine Brushwork Painting," she had almost no time to prepare the topic for her thesis proposal. In her anxiety, she had to listen to Teacher Zhao's suggestion and expand the art chronicle of Old He, which she did part-time, into a case study of painters as the topic of her thesis. Fortunately, during the thesis proposal, after the final deliberation of a few instructors, her topic was finally passed. All she needed to do was prepare the materials to write the thesis.
On the afternoon of the end of the second year thesis proposal report, the campus suddenly became lively. The senior brothers and sisters who usually did not go to the campus or the dormitory all came back. Laughter and long-lost warm greetings echoed everywhere. In Ding Nan's dormitory, the other three roommates were also there. After a day of opening reports, everyone was relaxed and happy. They lay on their beds and chatted about each other's recent lives. Nearly two-thirds of their postgraduate life had passed. In addition to their academic progress, the three roommates also had their own boyfriends. The talented girl Zhang Lili's boyfriend was a talented scholar in the same sect. The good girl Wang Han's boyfriend was a teacher outside the school. The Beijing girl Li Ying's boyfriend was a staff member in the school's administrative office.
At half past five, the four of them lazily got out of bed, took out their meal cards, took their thermos bottles, and went to the cafeteria to eat together. On the quiet third floor of the cafeteria, they took their food and sat around a square table with four chairs. They chatted while eating.
When Ding Nan looked up unintentionally, she saw Chen Bo eating alone at a table three rows away in the southwest direction. He saw her too and waved for her to go over. She said goodbye to her three roommates and went over with a plate and a kettle.
She sat down in front of Chen Bo, put down the plate and kettle, and looked at him.""How was the test today? Is it good on your side?"
Chen Bo moved his plate in front of him to make some space and said,"We focus on our graduation work. The thesis is just a small case. It won't stop us.”
Ding Nan nodded and placed the plate in the middle. He took out his chopsticks and asked,"What are your plans for the next few months? Where should I focus my energy?"
Chen Bo raised his head to look at her." Finish your thesis during the summer break. Next semester, you'll be working on your graduation work and taking your PhD. At the same time, you'll be looking for a job and focus on taking your PhD. Did you take the PhD?"
Ding Nan could not help but be stunned. Many people in the same sect had asked her this question. She felt that she did not have enough energy and did not want to take the exam. However, she felt that the employment situation in recent years was not good and her future was uncertain. She was very confused. "I haven't thought about it yet. I might not take the exam."”
The two of them lowered their heads and ate. "Have you been home recently?" Ding Nan asked after some thought. How's your relationship with your wife? Are you feeling better?"
Chen Bo stopped and looked at her. After a few seconds of silence, he said,"It's like that. It won't get better. It was getting worse and worse. Not only did they hit each other, but she also hurt herself. Last week, when she returned home, she had stabbed her arm with scissors.”
Ding Nan was instantly stunned and muttered,"Crazy! Heavens, why was this? Is he threatening you?"
Chen Bo laughed bitterly." As long as I mention divorce, she'll throw a tantrum. She'll go crazy and hysterical. If you say you don't want a divorce, you can't get along with her. That woman is not gentle and stupid. You won't believe me if I tell you. We haven't had that kind of husband and wife life for a few years. I get annoyed when she comes close to me.”
Ding Nan was a little shy. This was their first time talking about sex, but they were both adults. Although she did not tell Chen Bo that she was divorced and had a child, she did mention that she had a boyfriend. She thought for a moment and asked,"I don't understand. What's the problem between you two?" It didn't sound like there was any major issue of principle. It was just saying that you didn't love her, didn't like her, said that she wasn't good, and said that it was annoying to see her. Tell me, what's wrong with her? It made you feel that there was no room for improvement.”
Chen Bo coughed lightly." I think she's a little simple-minded. She can't do anything well. Let's just talk about a few small things." My phone rang and I was on the phone. She was clearing the table beside me, making a " pitter-patter " sound. I was angry and said that you couldn't see me on the phone. Can't you do it later? Also, she's studying in Beijing. She said that she couldn't get the teacher's phone number several times. She said that he wouldn't give it to her. I just don't understand how that's possible. I went over, handed him a cigarette, and said a few words. He quickly gave me his number. She didn't buy anything for my parents before the new year. I reminded her later, so she bought it. After she bought it, she told me about it. This is your duty. What's there to say? Are you buying it to take credit for it? He never shows weakness or concedes, he doesn't know how to be gentle…"
Ding Nan pondered for a long time before looking at Chen Bo and saying,""I find that you're a little naggy. What you said is not a big problem. Women are cute when they are stupid. Besides, your wife is a middle school English teacher. How bad can she be? It's just that you don't love her and have been looking at her through colored glasses. You don't like her at all.”
"How is she cute?" Chen Bo said disdainfully. Don't spoil the word cute. I just feel that she's not cute at all, so she can't arouse my feelings of love.”
Ding Nan stared into his eyes and said,"Have you ever reflected on yourself? Perhaps you're too selfish."
"This is the first time someone has said that about me," Chen Bo said with a smile."Why do you say that?”
Ding Nan took a deep breath and thought about the wording in his mind. He said slowly,"Is it her fault that you don't love her? I feel sorry for your wife. No woman is a fool. You've treated her so coldly and scolded her for so many years. It's impossible that she doesn't know that you don't love her. She still doesn't divorce you because she loves and hates you. On the one hand, she loves you. She's unwilling to let herself down after so many years of hard work and investment! On the other hand, she hated you for letting her down. She hated her for letting her down in this marriage that she had invested so much in. That's why she wanted to hold you back and not leave you. Since you can't get a divorce for the sake of the child, why don't you think of treating her better and improving your relationship with her? You're being so cold to her, beating and scolding her. You're hurting her and being so selfish.”
Chen Bo looked at her for a long time and smiled." I admit that what you said makes sense. However, although I often want to get a divorce, for the sake of responsibility and for the sake of the child, I chose not to get a divorce. This is very selfless. This can't be considered selfish, right?”
Ding Nan nodded and smiled." A man sacrifices himself because of his responsibility. He doesn't want to get a divorce. This is indeed very selfless!" But why can't you continue to carry forward this selflessness and continue to improve your relationship with her? Because you don't love her, you're as cold to her as ever. You even beat and scolded her. This is very selfish!”
Chen Bo lowered his head to look at the plate in front of him, then looked up and smiled."Men can be selfish, but can't women be selfish?”
Ding Nan thought for a moment and said,"Everyone is selfish. Men and women are the same." However, a woman would not be selfish to the man she loved. A woman could give up everything for love and forget herself for the sake of her lover. Men wouldn't. Men couldn't forget themselves. Most men would only think about themselves. They wouldn't put so much importance on women's feelings.”
Chen Bo fell into deep thought and stopped talking.
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