Because he drank too much, Yan Yihu slept until 10 o'clock before he opened his eyes. Dai Xue helped him get dressed, wash up, make the bed, and clean the room. She opened the window and a cool autumn breeze blew in. The air in the room was fresh and refreshing. Dai Xue immediately put on his windbreaker and helped him sit on the sofa.
Yan Yihu drank a cup of strong tea and stretched his waist."Dai Xue, accompany me downstairs for a walk!”
Dai Xue had long wanted to go downstairs to see the scenery in the garden, so she said happily,"Alright, we'll set off immediately!"
Dai Xue held his hand and walked on the winding path paved with colorful pebbles. The green trees on both sides were lush and colorful. Dai Xue stopped on a small curved stone bridge and watched the fish in the river. Groups of bright red fish floated in the water like red clouds, up and down, left and right, very beautiful. Walking to a fake mountain, he saw a man-made waterfall pouring down from the top of the mountain and into the mountain stream. It was just like the majestic Huangguoshu Waterfall. None of this attracted Yan Yihu's attention. He pulled Dai Xue straight to the back of the garden and stopped in front of Yan Junfang's tombstone.
The grave was surrounded by fresh flowers. On top of the grave was a large wreath with a diameter of two meters. It was obvious that someone had been here before.
Yan Yihu took a few steps forward and touched Yan Junfang's photo on the tombstone. He took out a handkerchief and wiped it repeatedly for a long time, as if he was caressing her pretty face. He stared at the photo until his eyes blurred. He rubbed his sore eyes and wanted to see her smile again, but he couldn't see it clearly. He recalled the scene of her being brutally murdered on this day last year, and his heart surged with a myriad of thoughts. He could not help but cry.
He hugged the tombstone and shouted Yan Junfang's name. He was so hoarse that he wanted to die. His tears had dried up, his voice was hoarse, and his strength was exhausted. His body slumped down and he sat in front of the tombstone, panting. Dai Xue rubbed his chest and said,"Uncle, you must take care of yourself!" Sister Xiaofang's heart would ache if she cried too much.”
After resting for a while, Dai Xue said,"Uncle, can we take a walk on the hillside?"”
Yan Yihu nodded in agreement. Dai Xue supported him as they slowly walked towards the west. As he walked, he told Dai Xue about their past. As he spoke, he entered a sweet memory. It was a time filled with happiness, happiness, poetry, and romance. They looked around and saw continuous hills, layers of jungle, lush vegetation, and wild chrysanthemums all over the mountains and plains, forming a gorgeous and brilliant painting.
Dai Xue was as excited as Yan Junfang back then. She said,"Uncle, I'll go pick wildflowers and make a garland for you!"”
Yan Yihu said,"Don't go too far. Be careful not to get lost!"”
Dai Xue had run away. He lay alone on the green lawn and let his imagination run wild. It was as if he had returned to a few years ago.
He looked up at the vast sky,
White clouds drift and drift,
The changes of separation and reunion are endless.
He looked at the vast land.
The mountains were lush.
A flock of birds flew up and down,
It flew over his head.
A few bird calls echo in the wilderness,
He woke up from his dream.
A few colorful butterflies chase and circle,
It showed off its beautiful figure.
Wild flowers are swaying in the wind
The fragrance entered his nostrils.
He felt refreshed.
The sight of it makes me feel, my thoughts are like a rainbow,
It was a beautiful dream from a few years ago.
A wisp of autumn wind blew quietly,
She caressed his haggard face.
Endless layers of sorrow
She was filled with endless grief.
The green mountains did not change, and the forest was lush.
The green water flowed and the waves surged.
Butterflies flew and bees buzzed.
Wild flowers covered the ground in brilliant purple and red.
The mountains and rivers are still the same, life is like a dream
Things had changed, and her beautiful face was nowhere to be seen.
I came to the West Mountain again
This was a nostalgic paradise on earth.
He could not help but feel a surge of emotions and thoughts.
On the training ground
Her hearty laughter echoed in the air.
The green shade on the lawn,
Her moving voice echoed.
The singing and laughter
It was still floating in his ears.
On the night of the full moon,
The poems and songs are full of friendship,
Talking about beautiful legends,
The silence of the Moon Palace.
At the foot of the hill the grass grows luxuriantly,
On the mountaintop, hundreds of birds were chirping.
The clouds make a tent, the sky makes a shed,
The earth made the bed, and the stars lit up.
Lying on the lawn, hugging each other,
There was a thousand kinds of love and tenderness.
Strong love, strong meaning,
Emotions were like the deep sea, and intents were like rainbows.
Why should I kowtow three times and bow nine times? -
Let's not talk about vows.
I swear to be with the heavens,
I wish to be with the earth.
Mountains and rivers are the medium,
The blue sky and white clouds were proof.
The spring breeze dresses her up,
The autumn rain painted her red.
White clouds dance in the wedding dress,
Chang'e lit up the stars.
Her heart couldn't help but tremble.
He couldn't stop his blood from boiling.
Two burning hearts,
Melting in the shade of the lawn.
As they talked and laughed, they pointed and said,
He counted the stars in the sky.
It's hard to say, it's hard to say,
Which one was the brightest, which one was the brightest.
Stars twinkled in the night sky.
In the mortal world, people surged.
I don't know.
That one is me, that one is Nong.
I remember,
Sweet potatoes in the wild,
The fragrance assailed his nostrils and the steam was hot.
You take a bite, I take a bite.
They competed to taste it and praised it endlessly.
I remember,
She weaved a beautiful garland,
He wrapped it around my neck.
Picking a wild chrysanthemum
It was stuck on top of her head.
She was so happy that she was jumping around with a smile on her face.
The past is like smoke, the old scenery is like a dream,
The human flow in the mortal world was hurried.
The hearts of lovers are connected,
the fated man's tale finally becomes a tale.
The wind and dew of gold and jade meet happily,
It's hard to cut it off, hard to let it go, it's melted in my heart,
Her beautiful figure could not be erased from his mind.
She massaged with her soft and fair hands.
Give me infinite pleasure and ease.
I can't forget that she helped me bathe,
He scrubbed his entire body clean.
Unforgettable in the gentle village,
They intertwined with each other in a flirtatious manner.
Passion was like fire, and her heart trembled.
They couldn't help but be in love with each other.
Spring sprouts are green, summer grass is green.
Autumn chrysanthemum yellow, winter plum red.
Time and time have passed, and it is hard to part,
in a gentle village I tell my true feelings.
A good night is short, but love is strong.
The endless threads of love are like rainbows.
I can't forget the two of us,
It was like sugar and honey, with an endless aftertaste.
Her alluring scent,
It stimulated every sensitive nerve.
The past is long, the old feelings are like dreams,
Pulling him along
A broken mood.
In front of the dressing table,
She could not see her long hair dancing.
In the mirror of caltrop flowers,
She had lost her beautiful face.
I can't finish telling you how my feelings ripple,
Endless Dao's heart was surging.
Flying away the chirping magpie,
A deathly silence greeted them.
Baihua lowered her head and shed tears.
a hundred birds sleep in their nests without a sound.
Green hills suddenly lose their verdant green,
I look up to cut off the autumn wind.
Dragonflies fly powerlessly,
the colorful butterflies hide among the bushes.
The wind and clouds suddenly changed, and black clouds pressed down on the city.
It was suffocating and driving people crazy.
He shouted himself hoarse, unable to stop.
My heart is in turmoil, my heart is broken,
They cried out to the heavens and earth, wailing.
Little girl! Junfang!
Are you listening?
Since you died for me,
Why should I live in vain?
My soul follows you,
What's the use of leaving your body behind?
It was better to accompany each other in heaven.
Heavens! The earth! Gods!
You guys are too unfair!
Why don't you let me die?
Save the girl's life.
She was a national beauty with a beautiful face.
She was as pure as ice and as pure as jade.
Flowers bloom for her,
All the birds were fighting for her.
Heaven shed tears for her,
The sea mourns for her.
The wind roars for her,
Lightning was shocked by her.
I am old and useless,
In any case, it should be
In my old age,
To save her precious life.
She should not have ruined her young life.
Little girl, little girl!
You never listen to me,
How many times have I reminded you to be careful?
Hooligans always conspire to murder,
The thugs set traps everywhere.
The world was filled with storms and fierce winds.
You shouldn't have taken a bullet for me,
I caused you to lose your life.
I'm nearly sixty years old, old and useless,
You're in your prime, the flowers are red.
How many people are looking forward to your career success,
How many people admire your beauty?
I was the one who should have died long ago.
I shouldn't have been left alone in the world.
I'm lost, I'm lonely
I regret, I grieve!
I can't sleep all night long, my feelings are hard to be exhausted,
My heart and mind are haggard until dawn.
I'm heartbroken.
I regret letting you enter the beauty contest,
He won the championship in one fell swoop and became famous throughout the city.
Trees stand tall in the forest, but they are calculated by people,
His behavior is superior to others and attracts evil wind.
Flowers and brocade are praised by ten thousand people,
The applause brought disaster upon disaster.
I regret throwing you into the sea of trade,
He was able to run amuck in the business world.
Billions of wealth rolled in.
Misfortune was secretly cast.
Fame and fortune swell, and in the end it brings disaster,
Disaster fell from the sky and hurt his life.
I regret that I should not have let you pursue excellence,
He reached the peak of his career.
It's better to live a peaceful life.
Be a well-behaved civilian.
Fame and fortune are all dreams,
Only after waking up from the dream did he realize that it was all in vain.
I regret, regret
His intestines were already green with regret!
The waters of the Three Rivers and Five Lakes are drained,
It's hard to wash away my regret.
Little girl, little girl!
Can you hear me?
I've told you a thousand times, I've reminded you a thousand times,
To comfort your spirit.
Without my care, you must take care of yourself.
How I wish there was an afterlife.
If there really is a next life,
I must protect you all my life
To repay the deep love that could not be repaid in this lifetime.
Just as Yan Yihu was lying on the grass and swimming in his sweet memories, Dai Xue ran over with a garland and said happily,"Uncle, get up quickly. I'll put a garland on you!”
He woke up from his memories. He slowly stood up and looked at Dai Xue, who was beaming with joy, as if he had returned to a few years ago. She put the garland around his neck and clapped her hands in praise."It's so beautiful! It's so beautiful!"
Yan Yihu plucked a flower from the garland and placed it on Dai Xue's head. He also said happily,"Dai Xue looks better! Flowers matched with beauties, and beauties were even more beautiful!”
A few years ago, Yan Junfang had made a beautiful garland in this place and put it around her neck. Now that there was a cute little girl around him, like a beautiful butterfly fluttering, he felt a joy that he had not felt for a long time. He asked Dai Xue,"Can you sing a song for me?" I really want to hear you sing!"
Dai Xue said,"I haven't sung for a long time. I'll practice my voice today!" What song are you singing?"
Yan Yihu thought to himself,'I miss you every day. I want to shout' I really miss you'. After learning this song, I want to sing it to you every day.”So she said,"I really miss you. I'll learn from you."”
She cleared her throat and sang,
"I really miss you.
I call for the dawn in the night.
The moon-chasing clouds also know my heart,
Silently sending me warmth.
I really miss you,
I call for the dawn in the night.
The stars in the sky know my heart,
I only have you in my heart.
How can mountains and rivers stop my love for you
Under the moon, gently floating,
My love.
I really miss you,
You are my bright dawn.
The cold winter has long passed,
May spring fill your heart.
Your smile is like a song,
It moistens my love.
Your shadow is like a river,
It moistens my heart.
I really miss you,
You are the dawn of my life.
The cold winter has long passed,
May I stay in your heart.
……”
Yan Yihu couldn't remember the lyrics clearly, so he could only hum along with Dai Xue. For some reason, he was very emotional when he sang this song, and his heart was filled with endless longing. Dai Xue looked into his eyes and felt that his eyes were filled with melancholy and confusion.
Returning to the old place, things were still the same and people had changed. Endless longing tortured his heart. He led Dai Xue on the hillside to search for the ruins left behind in the past. They found the place where they used to burn sweet potatoes. Dense grass grew on the black soil. He lowered his head and picked up a charred branch, remembering Yan Junfang's expression when she was burning the fire. The flickering flames reflected her pretty smile, and a string of bell-like laughter dispersed the fatigue of the day. How happy they were!
Yan Yihu sat on the grass and told Dai Xue stories of the past in high spirits. Dai Xue leaned against him and listened to his story like a child.
Yan Yihu was tired of telling stories, so he simply lay down and stared at the vast sky without saying a word. She held his cold hand and asked,"Uncle, you miss Sister Xiaofang again, right?"”
Yan Yihu nodded with a helpless expression.
Dai Xue said,"Uncle, if you don't mind me, let me be your daughter!" I've wanted to call you daddy for a long time.”
Yan Yihu suddenly sat up from the grass with a happy expression. He immediately agreed,"Alright! It's great that I have such a gentle and beautiful little daughter!”
Dai Xue immediately knelt on the ground and kowtowed."Father above, accept my daughter's bow!”
Yan Yihu immediately pulled Dai Xue up from the ground and said,"I'm not in the mood to kneel now. Daughter, get up quickly!”
Dai Xue stood up from the ground and buried her head in his arms. Tears welled up in her eyes."President Han and President Qin both call you dad. I've wanted to call you dad for a long time, but I was afraid you'd be unhappy.”
Yan Yihu said,"I'm an old man who can't live for more than a few days. I'm afraid I'll implicate you and affect your future."”
Dai Xue said,"It's my blessing that you can take me in. What future do I have? As long as I can serve you by your side, I'll be satisfied.”
Yan Yihu said," I'm an old man. I'm old, ugly, lazy, and dirty. I have a strange temper and many problems. I'm afraid I've wronged you."”
Dai Xue said,"The first time I saw Dad, I felt that Dad was the best person in the world.”
"How can you be so sure that I'm a good person when we just met?" Yan Yihu asked.”
Dai Xue said,"I've seen a lot of men in the karaoke room. They tortured me like hungry wolves." However, we were together for two hours and you didn't take the initiative to hug or kiss me. You're a gentleman who doesn't get flustered. I respect you from the bottom of my heart and like you. You're like my elder, like my family. You think about me in every way. You helped me with no selfish motives and solved my problems. A good person like you is hard to find in the sky, hard to find on earth, and rare in the human world.”
"Dai Xue, you're wrong! Everyone had flaws and a dark side. You still don't know me very well. You only see the bright side of me and don't realize that there is a dark side in my inner world. However, I've learned my lesson. I'll definitely be a good father.”
Dai Xue said,"I will definitely be a good daughter and serve my father forever."”
Yan Yihu thought to himself, I don't have a biological daughter in this life, but I actually have three beautiful adopted daughters serving me by my side. This is also my blessing.”Thus, his sorrowful mood was temporarily relieved, and a smile appeared on his face. He stroked his long, silky hair and said,""You're my biological daughter!"
Dai Xue jumped up and down happily. She held Yan Yihu's hand and said,"Daddy, I want to sing, I want to dance, I want to shout, I'm so happy!”
Yan Yihu said,"There are only the two of us in this vast wilderness. You can vent your anger!"”
Dai Xue looked up at the sky and shouted,"I, Dai Xue, have a father! I have the best father in the world! Dear Daddy! I love you!" A clear and loud shout echoed in the hills and plains, waking up the birds and beasts in the wilderness. A group of birds circled above their heads in response to Dai Xue's shouts, forming an interaction between the ground and the sky.
Dai Xue pointed at the birds in the sky and said,"Dad, look, the birds have heard our good news and are singing and dancing for us. I'm so happy today!”
"Dai Xue, let's rest for a while before shouting!" Yan Yihu said. Your voice is a little hoarse."
Dai Xue stopped shouting and realized that a BMW was driving over. It turned out that Qin Ruyu was here to pick them up for dinner.
They took the bus back to the villa's dining room for dinner. Before dinner, Yan Yihu announced that Dai Xue was his adopted daughter. Qin Ruyu and Han Changhe were very happy. Dai Xue was even happier. From now on, she was no longer a nanny or a family attendant. She was already a member of this family. She repeatedly called him " Daddy,"" Big Sister," and " Big Brother." The whole family was very happy.
At night, Dai Xue helped Yan Yihu take a shower and let him go to bed early. After Yan Junfang left, Yan Yihu developed the habit of sleeping early. Strictly speaking, it was a habit of lying in bed early to rest. Because it took two hours to really fall asleep. He spent the past two hours reminiscing about the past and missing his life with Yan Junfang. As she thought about it, she fell asleep.
Dai Xue finished washing her clothes and tidied up the house. After watching TV for a while, it was already 10 pm. Before going to bed, she would check to see if he had covered himself with the blanket, if he wanted to drink water, and if he wanted to go to the bathroom. She quietly walked to his bedside and saw that his eyes were still open. She asked,"Daddy, do you want some water? Do you want to go to the bathroom?"
"No, no!" Yan Yihu shook his head.”
"Why isn't Daddy asleep yet?" Dai Xue asked.”
"When people get old, they sleep less. People often said that if one couldn't wake up in the first 30 years, one couldn't sleep in the next 30 years. You're a child, so sleep a little longer!”
Dai Xue said,"I'm not sleepy. Let's talk for a while!" Dad fell asleep after talking to me.”
"As long as you don't mind me being long-winded, let's chat casually for a while!" Yan Yihu said.”
Dai Xue said,"Daddy, rest for a while. I'll accompany you after I wash up."”
Dai Xue went to the bathroom to wash up, changed into her pajamas, and crawled into Yan Yihu's bed.
"Why didn't you sleep on your bed? Why did you sleep under my blanket?" Yan Yihu asked in surprise.”
Dai Xue smiled and said,"It's not convenient for us to talk because we're too far away." It was too strenuous to speak loudly, and it was hard to hear clearly if one spoke softly. It was still more convenient to be in the same bed.”
"I'm used to sleeping alone. I can't sleep well when you crawl into my bed," Yan Yihu said.”
"Last night, you hugged me and slept soundly. Why couldn't you sleep?" Dai Xue asked.”
Yan Yihu tried his best to recall what happened last night. After thinking for a long time, he vaguely remembered a little. He said,"I'm sorry. I thought you were the girl Junfang yesterday." Did I lose my composure?"
"No, no," Dai Xue said. He just hugged me and said a lot of things, and then he fell asleep.”
Yan Yihu seemed to have been relieved of a heavy burden and said to himself,""Good, good. I'm relieved that you didn't lose your composure.”
Dai Xue burrowed into his arms and said,"Daddy, let's continue talking today!"”
Yan Yihu pushed Dai Xue away.”
"You could hug me to sleep yesterday, so why can't you do it today?" Dai Xue asked.”
"I was drunk yesterday, so I didn't know it was you.”
"Sister Xiaofang, you can hug me, but why can't you hug me?" Dai Xue asked.”
"Because she's my daughter," said Yan Yihu.”After saying this, he felt that it was a little inappropriate. He regretted it a little. He was afraid that Dai Xue would pick a fight, so he looked at his expression.
As expected, Dai Xue said,"Sister Xiaofang is your daughter, and now I'm also your daughter." Don't you have a daughter in your heart?”
"You're my good child too. Don't think too much about it." Yan Yihu immediately explained. It's just that you've only been with me for a short time, so you're not used to it.”
Dai Xue said,"That's easy. From now on, I'll be by your side every day. I'll get used to it very soon." Hug me and get used to it now!”As she spoke, she burrowed into his arms.
Yan Yihu pushed her away again and said,"Although I'm your father, I'm still a man." Can you fall asleep in a man's arms?”
Dai Xue said,"In my heart, you're just a father without a gender. I've never treated you as a man. Besides, what can you do to me when your body is so thin?”
"Of course, I'm old. I don't have the passion and impulsiveness of young people," said Yan Yihu. However, I'm a man after all, and I have a man's physiological reaction. When I hold you, my heart beats faster and restlessly.”
Dai Xue said,"What I mean is to chat with you. I don't want you to be lonely and depressed, so I can keep you in a happy mood. You'll definitely sleep soundly with me in your arms.”
"Dai Xue, I appreciate your kindness. I'm afraid that something will happen if I hold you for too long.”
Dai Xue said,"We're all sleeping with our clothes on. Besides, your character and self-control are no worse than Liu Xiahui's. What's there to be afraid of?”
"Dai Xue, you're wrong! I'm not Liu Xiahui. I don't have the willpower to stay calm. Even if Liu Xiahui was still alive, hugging a beautiful woman to sleep every day would also cause him to lose his mind.”
Dai Xue said,"You are my father, and I am your daughter. I believe that no matter how I approach you, you will never molest me.”
Yan Yihu said," The fundamental difference between humans and animals is that humans not only have innate emotions and acquired rationality, but animals only have emotions and no rationality. Humans had propriety, righteousness, integrity, and moral sentiments, while animals had nothing. Only when people's behavior was controlled by morality and sentiment and restricted by laws and regulations could the relationship between people be harmonious and society stable. Therefore, people must be rational and have the ability to control themselves. There was an innate kinship between father and daughter, mother and son, and brother and sister. This kind of kinship was unbreakable. It was like the 'steel armor' on a person's body that was not easily penetrated by sexual impulses and not easily melted by the flames of love. Therefore, a family would never cheat on each other even if they lived together through thick and thin. There was kinship between the father and the adopted daughter, and they also had 'armor' to protect themselves. However, the defensive ability of this 'armor' was far inferior to that of the biological father. What I mean is that we should keep a proper distance between us to prevent things from being unignited.”
Dai Xue said,"Daddy is worrying too much! In my heart, Daddy is Daddy. Daddy can't become my lover. I only have kinship for you, and it's impossible for me to have love. The reason why I got close to you was mainly to give you more warmth and happiness, to free you from loneliness and depression.”
Yan Yihu said,"You're right. You won't fall in love with me. I'm mainly worried about myself and setting up a line of defense for myself. Because you're young and beautiful, it's easy to move people. What I said just now was rationality. Reason is like a barrier, and emotion is like a burning flame. Without rational control, the emotional flames would spread endlessly until the fire spread, and the consequences would be unimaginable. Normal men had male hormones, and with hormones, they would have sexual urges. Both men and women had a layer of 'armor' covering their bodies. With this kind of 'armor' protection, it was not easy for them to cheat. No one should overestimate their willpower. When his mind was clear, he had to wear the armor to prevent himself from losing himself.”
Dai Xue smiled and said," Dad's theory is very fresh. I've never heard it from anyone else. It makes sense." However, this theory was definitely not suitable for his father's life. No matter what, I don't believe that you will hurt me.”
Yan Yihu said," In the universe, everything changes with time, place, and environment. Nothing stays still. Therefore, your thoughts must adapt to this change and protect yourself from harm.”
Dai Xue said,"We have to be careful when living together as a family. Isn't it a little too paranoid?"”
"Don't be nervous," Yan Yihu said."All in all, I'm a good person. However, I'm not as good as you think. Everything and everyone had to be divided into two. There were always two sides. You only see my kind and sunny side, not my ugly and dark side. So, you treat me as a gentleman and a saint. Everyone had flaws and mistakes. Even the great leader had some shortcomings, let alone us ordinary people.”
Dai Xue said,"No matter what, in my heart, you're the best person in the world. You're my idol." In the past, I treated you as my benefactor. Now, you're my family and my father. No matter how much you belittle yourself, you can't change your glorious image in my heart.”
Yan Yihu thought to himself, Dai Xue's state of mind was so similar to that girl's at that time. What a good child! I'll definitely learn from my past experiences! We can't harm her!"
Yan Yihu said helplessly,"It's hard to understand the truth in a few words. Let me tell you the story of the girl!"”
Dai Xue said," Sister Xiaofang is also my idol. I really want to know his story. Daddy, tell me in detail!"”
Yan Yihu glanced at Dai Xue and closed his eyes again to reminisce about the past. The past was like smoke, and the old love was like a dream. His heart was in a mess. Before she could speak, tears rolled down from her eyes. He wiped the tears from his face and sat up against the headboard."Dai Xue, put on your clothes and listen to me slowly tell you the story of the girl.”
Dai Xue got out of bed and put on her clothes. She made a cup of hot tea and handed it to Yan Yihu."Daddy, drink some water first!" Then, she moved a chair to sit by his bed and waited for his story.
"It's a long story. The girl is not my biological daughter.”
"What did you say?" Dai Xue asked in surprise. I didn't hear you clearly. Say it again!”
Yan Yihu said,"The girl is not my biological daughter. I only adopted her in 1997." Her original surname was Liu, Liu Junfang. Later, she changed her surname to Yan Junfang. Her hometown was Lushan Village in Fengyang County. Her ancestors were honest farmers who farmed for a living. In the summer of 1996, the house collapsed due to heavy rain, and his father's leg was broken.……”
Yan Yihu's voice became softer and softer after talking for half an hour. Dai Xue quickly helped him lie down and covered him with the blanket.
Dai Xue said softly,"Dad should rest. Let's continue talking tomorrow."”After she heard the even snoring, she lay down beside him and slept.
From then on, Yan Yihu told Dai Xue the story of Yan Junfang every night. One of them liked to talk vividly, while the other was willing to listen with relish.
Dai Xue broke into Yan Yihu's life and improved his mental outlook. She was like a ray of bright sunlight that shone into the dark house and brought light to it. She was a blade of grass in the Gobi Desert, bringing life to the hungry and tired pedestrians. She was a fresh flower on the prairie, adding luster to the earth. Dai Xue served Yan Yihu every day. She played chess, played cards, flew kites, and told stories with her. Yan Yihu loved to hear her sing. Her beautiful voice could make him forget the loneliness and troubles in his heart. He didn't want to look for the girl Junfang immediately. He still wanted to continue listening to Dai Xue sing.
In the blink of an eye, a few years had passed. Qin Ruyu and Han Changhe's daughter was already three years old. Yan Yihu named her Han Xiaoyu. Xiao Yu was smart and quick-witted, just like her mother. "Grandpa, Grandpa!" The cry brought him family happiness again.
However, Yan Yihu's body was getting weaker and weaker.，The function of the taste nerve was gradually lost, and whatever he ate had no taste. Poor digestive function, loss of appetite, indigestion, and frequent diarrhea. His weight dropped from 80kg to 40kg. His legs were weak, and he needed someone to help him out when he went out for a walk. Dai Xue had to wait on her even when she went to the bathroom and took a shower. He was getting more and more inseparable from Dai Xue. Back then, Yan Yihu was too embarrassed to let Dai Xue see his lower body. After a long time, he did not care anymore. However, he set a bottom line for himself and never looked at her body. Dai Xue was her daughter. She felt that looking at her body was an insult to her daughter. He liked Dai Xue very much, but he was determined to learn from the past and prevent a tragedy from happening to Dai Xue.
Retiring was a turning point in one's life. Without a career, without love, without hope, without the pursuit of a better life, it was easy to feel empty and dispirited. Moreover, Yan Yihu had suffered a serious psychological trauma, and he felt even more haggard and depressed. Dai Xue would play cards with him every day, take a walk, watch flowers, and feed birds according to his mental state. Sitting in front of Yan Junfang's tombstone for two hours every day, Yan Yihu talked endlessly about his life experiences. When an old man was about to reach the end of his life, his heart would often show scenes of his past life experiences. Nostalgia became an obvious psychological trait. He took out his diary and told Dai Xue his story endlessly. Dai Xue was like a primary school student who was listening attentively. She looked at his face, sometimes happy, sometimes sad, and sometimes tearful.
Yes, Yan Yihu was an intellectual full of traditional ideas. The word 'traditional concept' was originally a neutral term. In a society where materialistic desires were rampant, mutual deception and moral decay, it was already synonymous with loyalty, honesty, and obedience to the rules. His ideology was filled with traditional moral values, and he always used moral values to regulate his behavior. He always thought of others, was strict with himself and lenient with others, and was afraid of offending the interests of others. He was always too soft-hearted and indecisive. He could not bear to see others cry and could not bear to make things difficult for others. He wanted to keep his heart pure and lofty, but there would be many insurmountable obstacles in front of him if he wanted to succeed in his career. Unusual measures were needed to remove these obstacles. The competition in the market was very cruel. It was not something that a bookish gentleman could do without hindrance. As an ordinary citizen, he was undoubtedly a good person, a very good person who was respected by others. As a business leader, an entrepreneur who struggled in the business world would not be able to adapt to the new trend of social development. It would be impossible for him to be like Yan Junfang in the business world. However, such people were also indispensable to society and beneficial to society. The big society was like a play. It needed all kinds of characters to work together to complement each other. Only then could the play be played well.
After Dai Xue heard Yan Junfang's story, she said,""Dad, I didn't expect you to have such an extraordinary life experience. Can you write a story about your experience and share it with everyone?”
Yan Yihu's eyes showed hesitation. He glanced at Dai Xue and said,"You're the only one who knows the true story between me and the girl. I feel ashamed just thinking about it. How can I write it into a book for everyone to read?”
Dai Xue said,"Dad, you're wrong! I think you've made two mistakes. First, you and Xiaofang are not related by blood. She only calls you dad. It's definitely not incest. Second, you're 35 years older than Xiaofang. You feel that you're from a different generation. You've let her down. Actually, Sister Xiaofang loves you very much. If she didn't love you deeply, she would never die for you. If you insist on not accepting Sister Xiaofang's love, you'll be letting her down. Although Sister Xiaofang died young, she used her youth and life to save the person she loved the most. She would be very satisfied in the afterlife.……”
Yan Yihu listened to Dai Xue's words and pondered for a long time. He was wondering if Dai Xue's words really made sense.
Dai Xue saw that he was silent and said,"Love is the most sacred emotion in the world." It was not restricted by age, wealth, occupation, or belief. It was the most beautiful symphony in life. Don't think that falling in love with a little girl means you're morally corrupt. Don't endlessly regret and blame yourself as you struggle in sin. Raise your head and face all this bravely. You will definitely be able to throw away your burden and obtain spiritual liberation.”
Yan Yihu carefully savored Dai Xue's words and felt that Dai Xue's words made sense. But now that the girl was gone, everything was no longer important. Even if he died to atone for his sins, it would not be of any benefit to the girl. What was left was endless longing. He tossed and turned in bed, unable to fall asleep. The scenes of the past flashed before his eyes, affecting his broken heart. He looked up at the clock on the wall and saw that it was already 11:30. Dai Xue fell asleep beside him like a kitten. Looking at her peach blossom like face, he felt that she was like a cute child. He wanted to ask her to go back to her bedroom to sleep, but he didn't have the heart to wake her up. He placed her hand under the blanket and crawled into it to sleep.
He unknowingly fell asleep. He looked up at the sky and saw a white cloud floating over. The white cloud floated closer and closer, and he was pleasantly surprised to find a girl in green gradually appearing from the clouds. The girl's long dress with wide sleeves and long black hair fluttered behind her back. She looked graceful and elegant, as if Chang'e had descended from the moon. A refreshing fragrance assaulted his senses and shook his long silent soul. He rubbed his blurry eyes and carefully looked at her beautiful face. It was the girl he had been thinking about day and night, Junfang. That's right! Smelling this familiar fragrance, he could confirm that it was indeed Junfang. A sense of longing rose from her heart, and excitement made her tremble. He had not seen his little darling for a few years. Now that she had suddenly appeared in front of him, he did not know what to say. He could only look at her beautiful and familiar face in a daze.
The girl smiled playfully at him and asked,""Daddy doesn't recognize me anymore? Why are you ignoring me?"
Yan Yihu looked up and down carefully and said,"How could I dare to recognize you when I see you dressed like a fairy? I think it's more pleasing to the eye to wear ordinary people's clothes.”
The servant girl said,"The mortal world often says,'When in Rome, do as the romans'. If you dress like a mortal in the mortal world, you dress like an immortal in the immortal world. Why make a fuss?"”
"What does the Immortal World have to do with you being my daughter?" Yan Yihu asked in surprise.”
The servant girl smiled indifferently and said,"I was originally a gentleman orchid fairy. I came down to the mortal world to fulfill my wish for the sake of your love." Now that their love had come to an end, they could only return to the Immortal World. What made me worried was that my father was obsessed with this love and couldn't get over it. However, this earth-shattering love was just a dream. Since it was a dream, there would be a time to wake up from it. She hoped that her father would be able to let go as soon as possible and spend the rest of his life happily and easily.”
Yan Yihu muttered," You were killed when you just turned 22 years old. It made me feel so much pain. Why did you take a bullet for me?" Why don't you let me die? Child, you're too pitiful!"
The servant girl said," Life and death in the human world have a fixed fate. I came down to the mortal world to fulfill my wish to pass on your happiness and eliminate your disaster. Only in this way can I repay your love debt." We only had five years of fate, and now that fate has come to an end, we don't have to worry about each other.”
Yan Yihu's eyes turned red, and tears welled up in his eyes. He wiped his tears and said,"The girl is too pitiful. She left at such a young age. How can an old man like me live?"”
The servant girl laughed playfully. He was very familiar with this clear and loud laughter. Her voice and smile brought her back to the comfortable nest from a few years ago, making her imagination run wild and unable to speak for a long time.
When the servant girl saw that she was deep in thought, she said," I'm a flower fairy who has cultivated for thousands of years. I only became your daughter after I descended into the mortal world. In terms of age, I'm more than a thousand years older than you." Your decades of life are just a fleeting moment. You don't have to be sad about my early death. Forget it! After all, this was a dream, a dream of three rivers.”
Yan Yihu looked at her beautiful face and cried,"How can you forget the deep feelings that are engraved in your bones? You left and took my heart with you. What's the use of leaving a zombie behind? Take me with you!"
The flower fairy saw that he was so sad and couldn't help but feel a little emotional. She inherited her past habits and wanted to wipe his tears. She raised her handkerchief and took a few steps forward. She did not expect the true energy in her body to force him back. At this moment, she realized that they were no longer a warm and harmonious family. Immortals and mortals could not get close to each other.
The Flower Fairy sighed and said,"It's not that I'm heartless, but I really can't take you away!" Your life is not over yet, and there is still love in the human world.”
"I don't care about life or death," Yan Yihu said. Since I've seen you today, don't leave me alone. I must go with you!”
The Flower Fairy shook her head helplessly and said,""It's already been a few years, but you're still so infatuated. It seems that it's very difficult for me to comfort you. Let time heal the wounds in your heart!”After saying that, he waved his hand at Yan Yihu and was about to leave.
Seeing that she was about to leave, Yan Yihu hurriedly rushed in front of her and grabbed her hand. He couldn't grab her hand because of the True Qi blocking his way. The strong airflow blew up her skirt. Yan Yihu reached out and grabbed the long skirt belt without letting go. He felt as light as a piece of paper as he floated up into the sky with her. Suddenly, the skirt in his hand slipped and fell from the sky. He woke up in a cold sweat.
The cry in her sleep woke Dai Xue up. Dai Xue panicked. She wiped his sweat and asked,"What's wrong with Daddy? Did you have a nightmare?"
Yan Yihu sat up and leaned his head against the headboard as he recalled the dream. After a moment of silence, she said,"I dreamed of the girl Junfang."”
Dai Xue looked at his face and asked,"Sister Xiaofang is your relative. What's so scary about dreaming about her?"”
"I miss her every day. How can I be afraid of her?" Yan Yihu said. I just find it strange."
"What's so strange?" Dai Xue asked.”
"She said that she was a flower fairy who had cultivated for a thousand years and was reincarnated into the human world. Do you think there are immortals in this world? Is my dream true?”
Dai Xue said," When I was in school, my teacher said that there are no immortals or monsters in the world. They are purely stories made up by people. Dreams were even more unreliable. It was easy to dream of whatever he thought during the day. You think about Sister Xiaofang every day, so it's natural for you to dream about her at night. Don't take what happened in your dream to heart.”
Yan Yihu said," A few years ago, the girl said that she was a flower fairy who had descended to the mortal world. I didn't believe it at all and criticized her for having feudal superstitions. In the dream just now, I saw very clearly that she was indeed a very beautiful fairy. She floated in and out.”
Dai Xue said,"You're thinking too much about Sister Xiaofang. Don't believe this." Sister Xiaofang, you still have me to accompany you. Don't be sad.”
"Yeah!" Yan Yihu said. With you by my side, I won't be lonely.”
Dai Xue said,"Daddy, go to sleep! Look, it's already two o'clock in the morning."
"Dai Xue, go back to your room and sleep!" Yan Yihu said. You can't sleep well here."
Dai Xue said,"Daddy, sleep! I'll go back when you're asleep."
Yan Yihu got into bed and closed his eyes. Dai Xue gently patted his stomach and sang a lullaby as if she was coaxing a child, waiting for him to sleep. She fell asleep before she finished singing the song.
It was difficult for Yan Yihu to calm down. Yan Junfang's shadow was still lingering in front of him. He also found it strange. He was a highly educated intellectual. He had never believed in God in the past, but now he subconsciously hoped for the existence of God, hoping to satisfy his desire to miss his loved ones through the cycle of life and death. This kind of self-deceiving thought controlled his own thoughts and consciousness. As time passed, his brain would gradually wake up, and the scars in his heart would gradually heal.
I'll sing a long song and cry until the pain stops. In order to express his longing for Yan Junfang, he was determined to write down this dream. However, he was old and his vision was blurry. His thoughts were chaotic, and his mental strength was haggard. He was no longer able to write a thousand words in one stroke. However, he had already left his job. He did not have to worry about the development of the company or the problem of making money. He had plenty of time to enjoy life. He didn't treat writing as a burden. He could make it a spice to his life, a pastime that melted into his life. Through recalling the dream, he could enrich his life and express his grief for his loved ones. At the thought of this, his heart surged with emotions. He picked up a pen and wrote the three words "Dream of Three Rivers" on the paper, muttering to himself to express his generosity.
"Life is like a dream, a dream is like life!
Who could tell if it was a dream or a dream?
The vast sea of people, the endless sentient beings,
To make a fortune, to work hard,
They fought for power and profit, and they could not stop.
Fame and fortune are all dreams,
However, waking up from the dream was in vain.
I wish I would not wake up from my long dream,
Immersed in this sweet dream forever!”
Yan Yihu actually fell asleep at the table and snored after sending out this generous message. Dai Xue couldn't bear to wake him up, so she covered him with a towel and let him sleep for a while. After tidying up the things on the table, he held the piece of paper that Yan Yihu had written with " Dream of Three Rivers " in his hand and looked at it again and again. He felt that the words were filled with his unforgettable longing for Sister Xiaofang. She recalled the story that Yan Yihu had told her and felt a wave of excitement. This soul-stirring love story made Dai Xue's heart unable to calm down for a long time. She thought to herself, If only I could write down this true story! Unfortunately, he was too old and weak to write, and he did not have the ability to write himself. What should we do?"
Yan Yihu opened his eyes and saw Dai Xue sitting beside him in a daze. He asked,"What is Dai Xue thinking?"
Dai Xue said,"The story between you and Sister Xiaofang is indeed very touching. It would be great if you could write this story down!"”
Yan Yihu said,"I'm old and weak. I don't have this ability anymore. This task will fall on you."”
Dai Xue said disapprovingly,"I only have a junior high school education. How can I be competent for this arduous task?"”
Yan Yihu said,"If we write a story according to the standards of literary creation, neither of us is good enough. However, it was not a problem to narrate the true story in common language. I'll tell the story, and you can write it down.”
Dai Xue said,"Yes! We don't need gorgeous and profound literary vocabulary, nor do we need to embellish and embellish it. We just need to tell the true story in the language of the masses.”
"Yes!" Yan Yihu said affectionately. While we were telling the story, we were also expressing our grief for the girl. My girl, my Junfang, rest in peace! I will always miss you, you will always live in my heart!”
(Finale)
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