Xia Yufeng didn't have many things, just a few clothes and daily necessities. It was quite easy to organize. It was done in a short while. Xue Hairuo said that she would come up to call him when she went out, so she simply turned on the computer and prepared to wait while surfing the Internet.
There were many messages on QQ. One of them was from Ah Qin." Ah Feng, I can't get through to you. What's wrong? Are you okay?"”Xia Yufeng had lost his phone and hadn't bought one yet. It seemed that he really had to buy one as soon as possible. Otherwise, it would be troublesome if Xue Hailiang couldn't find it.
Xia Yufeng immediately left a message for Ah Qin to tell her that he was fine. He had lost his phone and would often go online in the future. When the time came, they would contact each other online.
Just after replying to Ah Qin's message, a red avatar was flashing. When Xia Yufeng saw this avatar, his heart couldn't help but ache.
When he opened it, there was only one word: ”However, this short word made him feel extremely heavy.
The last time it happened, he had no choice but to leave quietly. He had cruelly cut off all contact with the girl he had been in love with for more than a year. Every time Xia Yufeng thought about it, his heart ached. But what else could he do? He would rather be called heartless by the girl he loved than let her waste her time and energy on him. After all, it was better to suffer a short pain than a long one.
Although Xia Yufeng loved her very much, Xia Yufeng also clearly understood that love needed an equivalent exchange. If he didn't have any bargaining chips, he wouldn't be able to afford it. This was a very realistic and cruel fact. Even if there were many years of relationship foundation, it could not be changed. In addition, he had witnessed his parents 'relationship for more than 20 years disappear like smoke. He had even less confidence. Therefore, giving up was the best choice.
However, after seeing the message from the girl he loved deeply, Xia Yufeng realized that he had overlooked a problem. Her stubbornness and stubbornness. Her silent departure was far more difficult to let go of than telling her that they had broken up. If they broke up, they would at most ask for the reason. With the reason, they would have an excuse to give up and regret. However, being silent was nothing. It would only make people worry more and unable to let go.
After thinking this through, Xia Yufeng made a prompt decision. He wanted to take this opportunity to lay his cards on the table with her and end it completely, even if he was reluctant and heartbroken.
"Ni, I'm here. I haven't contacted you in a long time.”Xia Yufeng thought about how to start. After hesitating for a long time, he only typed a short line of words.
"Kaede, there's finally news of you.”
"Where are you? Are you doing well?"
"Do you know how much I miss you?"
"Why haven't you contacted me?”
"Don't you know that I'll be worried about you?”
After Xia Yufeng sent the message, Guo Ni immediately sent several messages. Xia Yufeng only looked at them but did not know how to reply. Looking at these words and imagining Guo Ni's expression at this moment, Xia Yufeng, who had just made up his mind to officially end their relationship, could not help but feel his heart twitch. His emotions instantly surged and he could not calm down for a moment.
In the past few months, Xia Yufeng deliberately didn't think about her and deliberately deleted her contact information, forcing himself to completely forget about her. Gradually, as he was busy with work and had no time to care, he did not miss her so much. He had thought that he had almost forgotten about it, but after experiencing it for himself, he suddenly realized that he was not as strong or determined as he had imagined.
" Ni, I'm sorry." Xia Yufeng didn't know what he was feeling when he typed these words, and how much emotion he was feeling. He just wanted to answer instinctively.
"Do you only have one apology? Back then, you were the one who said that no matter what happens in the future, we must always be together. Back then, you were the one who kept saying that you would not let me be alone. But how did you do it?"
Xia Yufeng really wanted to say,"I'm sorry, I don't love you anymore." However, she felt that this nonsense couldn't be any more fake. Even if she had to find a reason, if she had to find such a nonsense as a reason, Guo Ni would never accept it. So after thinking about it again and again, Xia Yufeng still said truthfully,""Ni, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have left without saying anything, but I had no choice at that time.”
"Kaede, I know about you, but I'm your girlfriend. Shouldn't you tell me? Do you know how much I hated myself when you left without a sound? I hated myself for being useless. When you were at your saddest, I couldn't be by your side. I couldn't even give you a word of concern or comfort."
Guo Ni's words deeply hurt Xia Yufeng's heart. He could feel how many sad and helpless tears Guo Ni had shed for him during this period. He could also guess that Guo Ni must have been quite haggard during this period of time. Thinking of this, Xia Yufeng slapped himself hard.
Then, two streams of tears flowed down his cheeks. He didn't know if it was because of pain or not. No one knew.
"Ni, don't blame yourself anymore. It's my fault. I didn't tell you because I love you. I can't bear to let you worry about me, do you understand?”After typing this line of words, Xia Yufeng's tears fell like rain.
"I love you, Feng. I really love you. Don't leave me, okay?”
When the words " I love you " appeared on the screen, Xia Yufeng almost twitched in pain. These three words were extremely precious to Guo Ni. In Xia Yufeng's memory, the only time Guo Ni had said it since they started dating was on Guo Ni's 20th birthday. Xia Yufeng gave her a surprise and romantic candlelight dinner. She said it after she was touched.
At this moment, Guo Ni said two sentences in a row without hiding anything. Xia Yufeng knew how deep Guo Ni's love for him was. At the same time, Xia Yufeng was even more depressed. For a moment, his determination weakened.
"Ni, thank you for loving me so much, but, but I'm afraid that I can't give you happiness. I don't know where my future is. How can I love you and how can I give you happiness? Do you understand?”
Saying these words to the person he loved, and the person who longed to live for a lifetime, Xia Yufeng's heart seemed to be bleeding. The word 'pain' could no longer be described.
"I don't care. I just want to be with you. Even if it's a simple life, I feel very happy with you by my side, because I only want you."
"Ni, can you be more realistic? I can't accept the woman I love to suffer with me and not be happy. If that's the case, I'll never be at ease for the rest of my life."
"I can only be happy when I'm with you. Do you understand? We're still young, we can't create anything, as long as we're together, as long as we work hard "
"Ni, don't be silly."
"I've already given my heart to you. I can't love anyone else.”
"Xiao Xia, can I come in?" At this moment, Xue Hairuo knocked on the door and asked. Xia Yufeng quickly wiped the tears on his face with his sleeve and replied.
"I'm surfing the internet. Are you chatting about Q?" After Xue Hairuo came in, she found Xia Yufeng sitting in front of the computer with a chat window hanging on the screen.
"Yeah, I haven't been online for a long time," said Xia Yufeng.
"Oh, if that's the case, then you can continue. I'll come to you later.”After saying that, Hai Ruo turned around and prepared to leave.
"No need. Anyway, there will be more opportunities to go online in the future. I'm not in a hurry. I'll go shopping with you first.”
" Let's go then." Hai Ruo left the room and closed the door. When Xia Yufeng turned back to look at the screen, he saw that Guo Ni had sent him a few more messages, but he really didn't know how to answer her. It was useless to persuade her. Xia Yufeng couldn't find a reason to convince himself to agree to her.
"Ni, I have to work. I'll get off first. Take care of yourself.”After Xia Yufeng typed this sentence, he did not wait for a reply and quickly closed QQ. She turned off her computer and left the room. She waited at the door for her car.
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