" Why isn't Xiaoyan here yet?" Ai Xiqian mumbled after waiting for half an hour. She looked down at her watch.
Seeing Ai Xiqian's anxious expression, Mu Chen decided to go in first even though he wanted to look at her quietly. After all, there would be many days like this in the future if he was willing to work hard.
Mu Chen had always been a low-profile person. He never made much noise when he walked. Ai Xiqian only noticed Mu Chen's presence when he sat down opposite her.
" Mu Chen..." Ai Xiqian was stunned.
" Hehe, it's me, Xiqian. Long time no see," Mu Chen said.
" Why are you here? Where's Xiaoyan? Don't tell me…" Ai Xiqian finally realized what her best friend had done.
"Don't blame Liu Xuyan. I asked her to do it. Xiqian, I came here to talk to you. There are some things I want to explain.”Mu Chen was a little agitated. He held Ai Xiqian's hand that was resting on the glass of orange juice.
"Mu Chen, don't be like this." Ai Xiqian pulled her hand away from Mu Chen's palm and turned to the waiter beside her."Hello, please order a glass of mango juice for this gentleman."
Everything was so natural. It was as if Mu Chen had not held her hand just now.
"Alright, Mu Chen, why are you looking for me this time?”For some reason, Ai Xiqian's calmness was beyond her expectations. "Didn't I want to see him? Why can't I feel anything after seeing him?!”Ai Xiqian was confused. She did not understand her own feelings.
Hearing the calmness in Ai Xiqian's words, Mu Chen suddenly felt that the girl in front of him had matured a lot. However, the sense of alienation in her words made him feel unfamiliar.
"I…Xiqian, let's get back together!”Mu Chen held Ai Xiqian's hand again, but this time, it was another hand.
"Mu Chen, please let go!" Ai Xiqian's tone was terrifyingly cold.
Embarrassed, Mu Chen retracted his hand from the table and held Ai Xiqian tightly.
"What do you mean?" Ai Xiqian raised her eyebrows.
" I don't mean anything. Do you know why I agreed to break up with you back then?" Mu Chen retracted his excitement and straightened his tone. He then immersed himself in his thoughts and started talking.
" I know that you always thought that I was cold to you because I didn't like you. Yes, I admit that I deliberately distanced myself from you." Mu Chen lowered his head and took a sip of mango juice. He paused for a moment. Ai Xiqian did not disturb him and listened quietly.
"Our family has always been happy. Although our family isn't very rich, our parents are very loving. My father is a truck driver. Even if my mother stays at home and plays mahjong, my father's job can support our family of three very well. But..." Mu Chen began to choke up as he said this.
" Three years ago, when I was in high school, I remembered that night when I came home from self-study. It was dark, and there was no one at home. I was wondering why my parents weren't home at night. Not long after, the phone rang. Perhaps my mother guessed that I was home, so she called me. On the phone, my mother's voice sounded hoarse after crying. She only asked if it was me. After confirming that it was me, she only said that she would come to the funeral parlor near our house. At that time, I had a bad feeling. Hehe, as expected, my father got into a car accident that night. He passed away. Because my father drank a little that day, not only did he die, but he also killed someone. All the savings that the family usually accumulated were used to repay the family of that person. They also borrowed a lot of money from relatives and friends to prepare for my father's funeral. In one night, I lost my father and my family went bankrupt. " Hehe." Perhaps this part of the story had brought up Mu Chen's past. Tears flowed out of Mu Chen's eyes and his throat was slightly hoarse. Ai Xiqian quickly handed him a tissue.
" Thank you." Mu Chen gave Ai Xiqian a grateful look. Ai Xiqian only smiled and did not say anything.
"That day, my mother almost broke down. Ever since then, my mother suffered from depression. Not to mention playing mahjong, other than working all kinds of odd jobs outside to support my studies and pay off my debts, she locked herself at home. The physical and mental pressure crushed her shoulders as a weak woman. After that, my mother's health deteriorated. A year ago, when you broke up with me, my mother passed away from illness. Hehe, I really became an orphan at that time. Actually, ever since my father's accident,"I felt that my life was dark. I couldn't play, fall in love, and live as happily as other children my age. I felt that I had let down my father who was already in heaven and my mother who had suffered so much. That's why I lived a cold and lonely life. I didn't make friends, let alone interact with girls." Mu Chen looked up at Ai Xiqian. At that moment, it was the first time Ai Xiqian saw Mu Chen with tears in her eyes. Mu Chen was always cold, as if he could not get warm no matter how hard he tried. It was not an exaggeration to describe him as an iceberg. She did not expect him to have such a sad past. Her heart ached for him.
"Are you alright?" Ai Xiqian asked tentatively,
"Hehe, it's fine. Let me finish!”Mu Chen signaled Ai Xiqian with his eyes.
" Yes, you can continue." Ai Xiqian was no longer as cold and distant as before.
"Until I met you. Actually, we already knew each other before my family got into trouble. When we were in the same class in Year One, we were in the same class. At that time, I noticed you. However, I had always been a reserved person, so I didn't show you any friendship that was beyond that of a classmate. However, after that, especially when my family was destroyed, you kept surrounding me. Hehe, please forgive me for being so clingy."Because at that time, you were really annoying to me." Mu Chen smiled at Ai Xiqian.
" I'm not as clingy as you make me out to be, okay?" Ai Xiqian pouted in dissatisfaction.
" Haha." Ai Xiqian's expression amused Mu Chen.
"You pestered me every day. At first, I was a little disgusted. I felt that my life was so miserable that I could only make up for it by studying hard. On the other hand, you had time to pester boys every day. At that time, I didn't agree with your outlook on life. However, later on, I slowly realized that you were actually a very cute and innocent girl. You were silly. When I was with you, I could let go of a lot of burdens, the burdens that others gave me and the burdens that I gave myself. Therefore, I slowly liked being with you. I always enjoyed being with you. When you suggested being together, I was very happy. However, after we got together, my mother's illness became more and more serious. I wanted to treat you well, but my personality and my situation at that time did not allow it. I always felt that I had stolen my parents 'happiness! Guilt and self-blame always revolve around me. Only when I distance myself from you do I feel that that's the life I deserve. I really don't deserve the happy you! "But I can't bear to break up with you." Mu Chen felt a little helpless.
"As I said before, because you proposed to break up at the same time as my mother passed away, I had no hope for the world at that time, and you left me at that time. Of course, I wouldn't stop you. Since you proposed it, I didn't have the capital to save you at all. Since I can't give you happiness, why not let go and give you to someone who can!”At this moment, Mu Chen's tears had dried up, but there were still tears at the corners of his eyes.
"But, Xiqian, after we broke up, I realized that I was in even more pain. I lost my parents and I have no one else in my life except you!”At this point, Mu Chen was a little excited. His hand that was holding the cup was trembling.
" I've been studying to numb myself. I'm already in my third year and can start my internship to support myself. I recently signed a contract with a company that asked me to go there directly after graduation. The salary is very high, so I feel that I'm qualified to love you. I believe that with my hard work in the future, I can definitely give you happiness. Most importantly, I really can't leave you. In the past year, I've missed you so much that I've gone crazy.”As he spoke, Mu Chen wanted to hold Ai Xiqian's hand again. This time, he really could not help it.
"Mu Chen, calm down! " Actually, I've always hated you. I hated you, but I also loved you. I always thought that I hated you, but the moment I saw you, before I heard you say so much, I stopped hating you. Actually, in my heart, I should have forgiven you a long time ago," Ai Xiqian said calmly, using a tone that she had never used before.
"I finally know what the emotion that has been hiding in my heart is! "It's not love, nor is it hate. It's just unwillingness. I'm unreconciled to the fact that you didn't give me anything in return for all I've done. I'm unreconciled to the fact that you don't even care about the scarf that I've practiced knitting over and over again. I'm unreconciled to the fact that I can't even get a single day of your gaze in exchange for waiting day after day. Actually, I'm just unreconciled." Ai Xiqian's emotions were also fluctuating.
"Thank you for coming over today to tell me so much. I'm very touched. After a year, you finally told me the real reason why you broke up with me back then. I'm also very grateful and happy that when I loved you, you happened to love me too! At that time, I wasn't as lowly as I thought." Ai Xiqian took a sip of orange juice and continued,"
" I'm really heartbroken about what you've been through. If you had told me the real reason within a month or two after we broke up, our ending might have been very different. Why didn't you tell me back then? It turns out that you've always been... suffering so much," Ai Xiqian said, choking up.
"At that time, as your girlfriend, I was like a fool. Every day, my mind was filled with how to play with you.
"But, Mu Chen, I already have a boyfriend now. We like each other now. We might really
The human heart is the most subjective thing. A change is a change. I can never return to the past. Mu Chen, my heart has changed!”Ai Xiqian shouted at Mu Chen.
Suddenly, everyone in the cafe looked at him strangely.
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