"How did you know that I was venting my anger on someone else?”
"From the very beginning? All of them."
Under the snow, Yubihama no longer had that domineering look on his face after he left. Instead, he leaned against the wall with his shoulders down, holding the can of black tea that Yubihama had bought. He sipped it and spoke in a slightly low voice.
"From the moment you saw him talk about writing novels, your entire temperament changed. From his original lazy appearance, it was as if he had changed into another person. His entire person had become unstable. Didn't you notice? The eyes were rotting, and they looked like the disgusting eyes of a dead fish.”
"Is that so? At the very least, I hope that you can say something like a gaze as sharp as an eagle.”
He didn't even bother to talk to Under the Snow. He just sat on the chair and looked at the patterns on the ceiling as if he had burned out.
Under the Snow was right, just as she said. The person who understood a person the most was often his opponent. Under the Snow knew exactly what my current state was like. I have to admit that my mentality at that time was definitely not correct.
I'm venting my anger.
Of course I was venting my anger.
I was angry that there was still someone who could walk into the unknown with a smile.
They didn't understand anything, did they? The male high school students who did things based on their momentum had never thought about how much energy they had to put into this thing, how much they had to pay in order to better hone themselves, and how many things they had to study in order to become better. Even if it was just once, he had never thought about what would happen next.
As long as he looked at those smiling faces, his heart would constantly surge with pitch-black emotions. Memories that had been thought to have faded appeared in his mind again and again. He could not help but want to use malice to destroy the smiles of those high school students.
That's right, it was just pure malice.
Although it was a reality, it was just a result of malice.
"In the beginning, you were just a guy who made me hate you, but just now, you've already made me angry. Because what you did was really wrong, Hikiya.”
Holding the black tea can, Under the Snow squinted at the red sunset outside the window.
"I don't understand what you hate at all, because I don't know what kind of person you are. However, just from the perspective of behavior, what you did just now was already wrong. Although reality is cruel, your words and actions are polar opposites. You're killing his dream with your own hands. You know that, right?”
"Yes, of course I know. However, wasn't it a part of the correct process to correct the wrong things? I'm just using words to tell him how to survive in this society. There's nothing worth scolding about, right?”
"Now is not the time for you to pretend to be stupid.”
After placing the black tea on the table, Snow pulled a chair down and sat opposite me.
"I don't know why you're doing this, but please don't forget that this is the Service Department, a place to help others, not a place for you to vent your anger. Do you know that your emotions and behavior are extremely unstable right now?”
She was really angry. Anyone with eyes could tell. Because under the snow, her delicate face revealed her anger. He raised his eyebrows, his eyes did not blink, and his lips were tightly pursed. His facial features were no longer as gentle as before, but rather, they were cold and sharp.
Of course, I can see this because we are the same kind of people. However, it was the extreme opposite.
"You're right. I'm indeed a little emotionally unstable.”
There was nothing to deny about this.
I silently shook the remaining half of the coffee can in my hand.
Although I didn't add my own subjective thoughts to my words, my emotions at that time were undoubtedly pitch-black. I don't like to see such a vigorous fellow, and I also don't like him to walk the same path as me.
This path was not suitable for people like Cai Muzuo. He was not a genius, but an ordinary person. If it was an ordinary person, the time wasted on this path was definitely not something that could be calculated with common sense. Even if he spent ten hours a day studying it, it was impossible to get any good results. This was the reality.
So I advised him to give up. He used the harshest accusations to persuade him to give up this line of work.
"That was his dream. I have no right to criticize such things.”
"You knew, but you still said that?"
Underneath the Snow's brows twitched slightly, as if he was a little surprised by this fact.
Of course I was surprised. Even I was a little surprised. Why do I have to keep the wooden seat alive? Just like under the snow, couldn't he just point out right and wrong? I don't have the right to be angry, do I?
But he still said that. This was the only fact that could not be denied. I still said that, and then I did it. He used the strictest attitude to ask the Wood Seat to face him. Just like what I asked of myself in the past. He knew that such a request was unreasonable and even inhumane, but he still did it.
"Things hurt their kind. This is probably the principle.”
I shrugged helplessly.
Because of this experience, he did not like others to embark on this path. After all, I am still too young. I can't be like those old thieves who turn a blind eye to everything. He would treat this mental breakdown as a form of training for himself.
"Sorry, under the snow. This kind of thing would only happen once. It was just an imbalance caused by his unstable mentality. There was nothing to worry about. In short, I was in a very inexplicable state at that time. How should I put it? It was as if I was possessed by something. Although it didn't make sense, it was true at that time.”
I let out a long sigh and expelled all my hazy emotions from my mind. I smiled awkwardly at the snow.
After all, they weren't from the same dimension, and Yubihama and the others definitely wouldn't agree with my thoughts. I will never agree with their thoughts. The experience I gained in that dream was indeed of great help to me, but it also made me realize how terrifying the disaster that disagreement could bring was. Therefore, at this time, he only needed to admit his mistake. Even though he wasn't at fault, the difference in perception was a mistake in itself.
Hikiya Hachiman was not an ordinary high school student. There were too many things to think about and plan. The missions and connections accumulated in the study made me feel a little unbalanced. However, it didn't matter. This time, it was a good reminder for me, allowing me to clearly see where I stood.
"Then let's go back. It was just a small mistake. I've had such an experience before, but the result wasn't that good. You have to know that people are used to putting their experiences and anger on others, so it was just a mistake.”
I smiled at the snow and turned around to pick up my bag.
Since he wanted to be a Go player, he shouldn't put his feelings on the chessboard. This kind of thing could not be forgotten, but had to be remembered at all times. In particular, he could not forget a place of utmost importance.
Compared to Qigu Hachi Banner, I have no friends.
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