01
He didn't know that the insignificant despair that he could feel just by doing this was something that he couldn't understand or explain. In this world, there were things that could not be taken back no matter how hard one struggled, and there was also despair that could not be shaken off.
Would there be a time when the thing you wanted to protect was mercilessly taken away, and you would go crazy and resist that person?
It was the same for life and ideals.
The soul is hurt, and the pride is insulted. So please don't trample on everyone's pride and soul!
02
Mogarahan Xiao sat on the crystal chair at the top of the big spot. His head was lowered and his hands were crossed. No one knew what he was thinking. Every time he was alone around Mogarahan Akatsuki, he would go back to the past. From the time he was five years old, there were only hellish memories. At the age of five, he endured the pain and carved those scars into the shadows of his memories. Tears fell, and no one pitied him until he was strong enough to eat those guys, as well as those who were in hell with him. He had become a magnificent Mei Jue, drawing out the most bloody scenery that belonged to him, but he had stepped into eternal loneliness, jumping into a trap that was carefully designed by others, and could not get out.
He had always thought that he hated all living things!
03
Until now, Li Yinwu was still feeling very uncomfortable. She felt like she was going crazy. The bugs were biting the surface of her heart, making it difficult for Li Yinwu to even breathe. It was as if she was suffocating.
There was no substance, no food, nothing that could make Li Yinwu's heart feel happy. She wanted to die. She didn't want to live in this suffocating world. She wanted to escape, but she couldn't. She couldn't leave them. When they existed, Li Yinwu's life would definitely be filled with the word " tragedy ". If she was the main character, then her story would definitely make every living thing cry.
Mogarahan Xiao sat there with his eyes closed. His consciousness could see Li Yinwu's appearance. Looking at her huddled in the corner, Mogarahan Xiao felt angry. He hated the weak faces of others, but he liked to see the twisted faces of others.
"I seem to have overestimated you, Li Yinwu. Is that cowardly look really your nature? How disappointing, hehe…Hmm?”
Li Yinwu heard Mojirahan Xiao's voice and covered her ears in pain.
I don't want to hear it, I don't want to see it. Please don't come looking for me. I'm not an angel, please don't look for me, please don't look into my eyes, I'm a monster!
The world in his heart collapsed, and countless memory fragments played in his mind. The second happy smile in middle school, the first despair when he was young, the beautiful cherry blossoms that passed away, and then the tears that fell, the sadness that flowed into a river…
"I hate this. I think that sadness is so dazzling!”
"You don't understand, so I won't do it. This is why you hate me, but I don't care because you never understand!”
There was no more sound in Norda's palace. The coldness added a hint of color to the palace. What was left was the atmosphere of freedom and coldness like spring water. It was clear but bone-chilling.
The light footsteps did not have the steadiness and confidence of Mogarahan Dawn. Instead, they were filled with caution. Li Yinwu deduced that the owner of the footsteps was not Mogarahan Akatsuki, but she did not dare to determine that the owner of the footsteps was Aisin Gioro Jing.
He didn't know when Li Yinwu had learned to judge everything steadily, confused and cautious. He closed his eyes to increase his hearing. She didn't dare to look at it, afraid that she wouldn't be able to accept it.
He grabbed the heart, wanting to crush it, but he did not have the strength. He bit his lips tightly, and blood kept flowing out. She wanted to sleep, but she didn't know where to start. Li Yinwu had never slept seriously before, and she was still naively fantasizing about the sweet dream she had when she was young."Silly!"
Her calm and elegant voice and rough movements shattered all her flawless fantasies.
The pain in her hand made her lose a piece of meat. Her pale green eyes looked at him in horror as she chewed on her piece of meat hungrily. Li Yinwu didn't feel disgusted at all. She looked at the hand that had seen the bone pillar. Bright red blood kept flowing out, but Li Yinwu didn't feel anything.
Li Yinwu looked at him and wanted to break his arm. Li Yinwu scratched and bit him crazily. She closed her eyes, and as long as she caught something, she would send it into her mouth, not giving him a chance. She was crazy and ruthless, but she closed her eyes.
Li Yinwu was crying. The seed looked at Li Yinwu in shock. Li Yinwu was a ghost eater, and he was a seed. How could he be killed so easily? When her tears fell into his wound, the pain was triggered. When he lost the pain, he knew that he was really dead.
He didn't want to see it, not because he felt disgusted, but because he was afraid of seeing the truth. He grabbed her ruthlessly because of her heart. Madness was an action, because his heart was getting hungrier and hungrier. Tears were passive.
The dazed Li Yinwu had already been transferred to the main hall. She did not look at Mogarahan Xiao's expressionless face. Tears kept falling, but her eyes were still closed. He covered the wound on his right hand with his left hand and sat on the ground. He lowered his head and cried. She had already lowered her voice to the minimum, and all that was left was a whimper. It was depressing, painful, broken, sad, and unacceptable.
"Li Yinwu, look at me!"
His dark blue and blood-red eyes met Li Yinwu's light green eyes. He did not feel anything, nor did he have any expression. He frowned deeply and watched the light green eyes turn from deep to confused, from confused to deep. His expression was different. Tears and blood had stopped.
The color of the cloth was from dark red to fresh flowers. It was a very eye-catching color, even more bright red than Lingji's.
In the cold palace, the wind blew past, blowing the tears on her face. The cold wind approached Li Yinwu bit by bit, but she could only avoid and stay as far away as possible from Mojirahan Xiao.
Mogarahan Xiao looked at her and shifted his gaze to Li Yinwu's face. Her face that was not covered was covered with scabs. It spread to the undisclosed. Mogarahan Xiao knew that it was his own steel flag that had flowed down. He also knew that women cared most about their appearance. Li Yinwu's expression was so serious that Mogarahan Xiao found it hard to imagine that Li Yinwu would face it calmly.
Perhaps the strong were lonely and always wanted to have fun. Just like Aisin Gioro Jing, he was so sad that all living creatures wanted to pity him.
04
Don't look at me, don't look for me. I don't want to face this collapsing world!
Li Yinwu, who was on the verge of a mental breakdown, calmed down a lot, and her mind became much clearer. She looked at Morgarahan Xiao's face and did not move away. She watched everything with the mentality of admiring a beautiful scenery.
05
In the dazzling palace, the golden throne made of crystal was the complete opposite of Mojirahan Dawn. Aisin Gioro King's throne was more like a king's throne. Mogarahan Xiaochong only felt lonely in his heart, and the other feelings he gave were indescribable.
"Tell me, why do I feel so lonely?”
His extremely indifferent tone was no longer as cynical as before in front of Mogarahan Xiao and Li Yinwu. There was only the loneliness of a pure expert, endless like an abyss. Weaklings would never be able to show their loneliness. They were so lonely that even bystanders wanted to hug them. However, because they were born extraordinary, no one who cared about them dared to approach them.
Aisin Gioro Jing sat alone on the throne at the top. There was no one left or right, and he looked down at the Seed Food who were standing neatly below. He frowned deeply because the Seed Eaters could not answer his question. A feeling of loneliness overwhelmed him, suppressing the uncomfortable feeling that lingered in his chest. His eyes were red and wet. Aisin Gioro Jing was so sad. He was born strong, but he had to bear endless loneliness alone.
She had clearly faced this kind of thing many times, but her eyes still moistened. The tears did not fall because Aisin Gioro Jing knew that he could not cry. He was the strongest core of the Food Seed, and his identity was much more noble than that of Mogarahan Akatsuki. He thought that he had won, but he did not expect to lose completely.
"I want you to answer! Answer me! Answer me! Say something! Why? Why? Why do I feel so lonely? Why…"
Aisin Gioro Jing stood up from the throne angrily and glared at them with his purple eyes. Seeing that they had lowered their heads and did not dare to look at him directly, he fell back on the throne weakly and closed his eyes.
"A bunch of damned people, none of them can answer this king's question!”
Aisin Gioro Jing murmured and slowly fell asleep as time passed.
The Seed Food people with extraordinary titles looked at Aisin Gioro Jing who had fallen asleep on the throne and sighed. They knew that perhaps he would not be alone in his dreams.
A few of the older Seeds had watched Aisin Gioro Jing grow up. Aisin Gioro Jing had only been in this world for a short 17 years, but he had experienced something that ordinary Seeds had never experienced since birth. No Seed had accompanied him until now. He had always been lonely. They knew but did not say," This was the pain of the strong!
One of the Demon Nobles jumped onto the ground and covered Aisin Gioro Jing with a blanket. Then, he dismissed all the food seeds gathered in the hall.
06
There were blue flowers that looked like ghosts outside. They had no names. In private, many people had given it names, and the meaning behind it was even broader. Aisin Gioro Jing called it the Dark Tears. Mojirahan Dawn called it Blue Sorrow. Ling Ji called it the Blue Flower…There were all kinds of it. It was a strong flower, a flower that could still grow strong in blood, unyielding. It was the flower that all the Seed Eaters called " strong ", the most ordinary flower in the Seed Eater world.
07
There were many items in the bubble, and they were the most colorful, but they could only exist for a moment. The colorful things could only bloom for a moment before disappearing.
Prosperous as water, but ultimately unable to resist the passing of life.
"Poor child."
Mogarahan Xiao pinched Li Yinwu's chin. His strength was not gentle at all. It was as if Li Yinwu would be crushed by Mogarahan Xiao in the next moment.
"Do you still believe in this world? He still couldn't tell the direction. Was he still purely believing?”
He cupped Li Yinwu's face with his hands and stared at her with wide eyes, trying to see if there was any remorse in her eyes.
Was Mogarahan Xiao too confident? Or was the charm of the world too great? There was no trace of remorse in Li Yinwu's eyes, only a faint confusion. Was Li Yinwu desperate to the limit?
"Are you curious why there is no repentance in my eyes?”
Li Yinwu looked at Mogarahan Xiao as if she had seen through something. She lowered her eyebrows sadly and no longer looked at Mogarahan Xiao.
"I guessed it right!"
Mogarahan Xiao was stunned. He didn't ask Li Yinwu. Instead, he chose to look into Li Yinwu's eyes silently. From confusion to disappointment, the disappointment was obvious from between his eyebrows. Mogarahan Xiao looked at her, but he did not understand why Li Yinwu was like this. She was just a ghost eater, a ghost eater that he could not understand, a ghost eater that still had some consciousness left.
Hen Hen shook his face away and stood up. Mogarahan Xiao hated this feeling.
The cold air blew past silently. The silence around them made Li Yinwu and Mogarahan Xiao feel as if all the creatures in the world had died.
"Do you think that you are the most poignant beauty in this world? I'll tell you, you're not! You are just a living creature, a pitiful living creature!”
The last few words were so soft that Li Yinwu almost couldn't hear them. Mogarahan Xiao's lips were moving, his eyes were smiling, his hands were trembling, his heart was wavering, his mask was shattering, and the world was collapsing.
He turned around and saw blue and red liquid falling down. He didn't wipe them off. His hands were shaking not because of the cold, but because of his hesitation. Memories were a bad thing. Mogarahan Dawn did not want to have them, but the world was against him. Once he had them, he could not get rid of them.
Without thinking about anything else, he walked out of the hall alone. When Mogarahan Dawn walked out, he remembered that there were no flowers or grass here, and he could only continue to feel hesitant. There were many bad memories. The world was filled with blood, and violence ruled everything. Tears were just a sign of weakness. In the end, they could not be pitied. He was just not recognized. If it weren't for them, there wouldn't be a pitiful bastard in this world!
Squatting down, he pressed his hands on the ground, and the two liquids dripped onto the ground separately. Mogarahan Dawn was so sad. He hated all living things. He hated the fact that this world had betrayed him!
Ling Ji walked up and half-knelt in front of Mogarahan Xiao. Her fair and slender hand brushed across Mogarahan Xiao's face, and she smiled charmingly. She looked at the ground that was rapidly sucking up Mogarahan Xiao's blue and bloody tears. Her eyes were as calm as still water, and she was not surprised at all.
"Mei Jue Shi King, the most pitiful child Ling Ji has ever seen, is crying in despair.”
His hands brushed past Morgarahan Dawn's face, inadvertently brushing past the liquid on his face.
Mogarahan Xiao did not feel anything from Ling Ji's actions and ignored the hands that were moving around his face. The pain in her heart increased bit by bit, and she became more and more lonely. She hid in the lonely world and could not come out. She lost her way like a child, sitting on the ground and sobbing helplessly.
He hated every living thing, including his parents, who he had longed for since he was young to stand up for him. Mogarahan Dawn hated them for abandoning him. He hated them forever!
This was the punishment the world gave to every living creature!
08
The cold wind was piercingly cold, and there was only emptiness. Li Yinwu had lost all hope in this world, so much so that her heart had stopped beating. All that was left was her pulse.
Li Yinwu had no idea what she had transformed into. From the moment she crazily ate the " Seed " level Food Seed, the truth was right in front of her. It was the Food Seed in Sakura Natsu's manga. The truth was so obvious in front of Li Yinwu, but she still chose to close her eyes. She was afraid that she would not dare to face it bravely when she raised her head and puffed out her chest. However, only tears fell.
She was curled up in the corner of the wall with her eyes closed. The colorful cloth on her head was messy. The cloth on her body was the same as before, wrapping her whole body, but the color was darker. Her honey-colored long hair was exposed because of the loose wrapping.
She was tired. She wanted to sleep, but when she closed her eyes, she would see a scene that made her heart wander endlessly. That scene was the pain in her heart. She stood on the verge of collapse. When the sunlight appeared, she lay on the ground in pieces. The sharp claws of the steel flag moved around every part of her body. There was a trace of coldness and no warmth.
Li Yinwu didn't know when it had been, but it felt like a century had passed. A long, long time ago, Li Yinwu had become the division leader of the tragedy. Dragged into hell by the demons, living a life worse than death, there was a remnant of self-awareness in his brain, so low that he could not sense it.
"Thank you for sleeping. It seems like…I haven't slept for a long time. However, when I wake up, am I still Li Yinwu?”
Li Yinwu muttered to herself. It was indeed as he desired in his heart. If he woke up, would he still be Li Yinwu? The second-year high school girl was in a daze. Her hands were not stained with blood. She was as innocent as an angel. She and her deskmate, Seto Mifan, went to school without worry and worked all over the university. However, was it really possible? Li Yin knew everything and dared to guess.
Her heartbeat was still, but her heart was still beating. It comforted her remaining consciousness. She slowly closed her eyes in disbelief. No matter how many images made her heart panic, she ignored everything and really fell asleep. She only hoped that she could get what she wanted.
Li Yin knew that once something was lost, no matter how hard you tried, you could not get it back. There was also despair that you could not shake off no matter how hard you struggled.
Li Yin's restless heart kept deceiving her own consciousness, telling herself that she was dreaming. She never thought that when she woke up from the dream, she would only feel even more despair.
09
I stood in this turbulent and distorted world, and gradually, I couldn't see anything clearly through the gaps.
It was already beyond recognition. Helplessly, the two of them entangled with each other and died.
All living beings were like this. They were clearly standing in a world that was turbulent and distorted to the point of despair, but they still turned a blind eye and continued to fall into the darkness. However, the world was the source of darkness.
10
Aisin Gioro Jing was still lying on the throne that symbolized endless power in the bustling and quiet palace. He was breathing slowly, and there was no expression on his face. It seemed like he was dreaming, but it also seemed like he was not dreaming. His breathing was smooth…
In this dream, This King had many things that This King wanted to have in the cruel reality: Kinship, friendship. The so-called "friends" in the dictionary. This is a distinct word that this king has seen in the dictionary. The years are long, and this king is proud of it, the loneliness beneath it. Without using any violence to prove it, I made all the other food seeds regard me as their king. I surpassed the existence of the Mei Jue and ate human flesh without using my status. This was a special precedent that was born.
This king's name is Aisin Gioro Jing, the name given by the oldest elder of the Demon Duke. It symbolizes the most beautiful scenery in the history of the Food Seed. Aisin Gioro·Jing, the most distinct existence of the food species.
He used his strongest power to enjoy endless loneliness. Even this king asked,"Why is this king so lonely?" I asked repeatedly, but no one answered me. Does this king not know that they are afraid of me? Or did he not know the answer?
He slowly opened his eyes. His purple pupils looked down and there was nothing else. He didn't frown. He just glanced at it indifferently and lifted the blanket...
Aisin Gioro Jing's palace had belonged to him since it was carved out. No one lived with him, not even his mother and father, who had given birth to him with great difficulty, were qualified to live in this palace.
Aisin Gioro Jing also knew that when they became humans and gave birth to him, they also lost their infinite lives. Somewhere in the world, they were gradually deprived of their lives by time. Aisin Gioro Jing had never seen them since he was born.
The palace had belonged to him, Aisin Gioro Jing, from the very beginning. It was filled with only lonely cries.
Walking out of the main hall and standing on the balcony, the sunlight was as gentle as water, making Aisin Gioro Jing feel a little pity. However, the sunlight did not belong to anyone.
11
The world was cold and merciless. It was constantly changing, changing in a direction that others could not fathom. It spun without listening, and every living thing in the extremely blurry world was living helplessly.
The garden inside the sapphire would eventually be destroyed!
"It's not you who's changing, but the world!”
Dumbfounded
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