Yes, it was a flaw.
In fact, Ji Yun was a person with a tenacious mind in his two lifetimes. He had swept away the demonic barrier in his heart twice during his trip to Chu State. In addition to Chu Nan Gong's guidance and study of the Yellow Stone Heavenly Book, his mental state cultivation could be said to be extremely high. It was already extremely close to perfection.
However, it was not perfect. Chu Nan Gong had long seen through the flaws hidden in Ji Yun's heart, but the latter had never taken the initiative to mention this matter. In fact, he had even tried to change the topic several times. Seeing Ji Yun's reaction, Chu Nan Gong could only shake his head and sigh. After giving a few reminders, he no longer asked about the matter.
However, Ji Yun didn't pay much attention to Chu Nan Gong's reminder. Although he also knew the dangers of having a flaw in the heart, the cultivation of the heart, although it was always said that the ultimate goal was to achieve perfection without leaving any flaws, how many people could do that? No, it wasn't that there were a few who could do it, but that it was impossible for anyone to do it.
Because as long as it was a normal person, there would be people they cared about, things they cared about, things they wanted to obtain, and goals they wanted to achieve. These were obsessions, or rather, human 'desires'. In fact, although these 'desires' were the driving force behind people's strength, they were also the flaws in that person's mind.
Therefore, in Ji Yun's opinion, the only way to achieve a flawless state of mind was if the person had no desires. But was there such a person? Ji Yun could answer with certainty, no. Even if the saints in myths and legends claimed to have no desires, didn't they also fight for the sake of face and inheritance? If he cut off all emotions and desires, he might be able to achieve it, but could he still be called a human?
Ji Yun knew very well that there were some people and things that he couldn't let go of, and didn't want to let go of. These were the reasons why his state of mind couldn't reach perfection, and the two biggest flaws were his mother Gongsun Yue and Xiao Wu, who had protected him for a short time.
Towards Xiao Wu, Ji Yun felt both pity and guilt.
Together for twenty years, Xiao Wu had even taken care of him for sixteen years, not really helping each other in the same breath, but absolutely also helping each other in the same breath. In the end, when he became a cripple, Xiao Wu still did not abandon him. Ji Yun would never be able to repay this deep affection in his lifetime.
Moreover, be it the 24 years in his previous life or the 14 years that had passed in this life, almost everything that Ji Yun had done was right. He had never regretted it. The only thing he regretted was how he had handled Xiao Wu in his previous life, and it had been extremely ridiculous.
As for his mother, she was Ji Yun's greatest regret.
In his previous life, Ji Yun had everything. Even though he was initially annoyed that he couldn't practice martial arts, because of Xiao Wu's existence, even if he later became a cripple, he could still face life with a smile.
However, he had never met his mother and enjoyed her love. This was the biggest regret in Ji Yun's life. And his mother had passed away for no reason because she gave birth to him. This was the pain of Ji Yun's life.
This was also why Ji Yun lost his cool instantly when he saw the image on the white screen. He even lost his mind in the end.
Similarly, when Ji Yun " woke up " to see his mother hugging him, he was so excited that he didn't even notice the strange situation around him, nor did he think about whether it was true or not.
After that, he was forced to sleep by his father. When he woke up again, the first thing he saw was his mother by the bed. Her hands were holding his left hand, and his father was standing not far away. At that time, Ji Yun, who was slightly calmer, immediately thought that this was fake, but the warm feeling from his left hand told him that it seemed to be true.
'Is this true? Or was he dreaming? Or was he reborn and returned to when he was three years old?'
At this moment, Ji Yun was confused. He remembered that he had entered the forbidden area of the Yin-Yang School to participate in the trial. Why was he here?
When Ji Yun unconsciously said something related to his previous life, he realized that his father and mother were very anxious. His mother hugged him and cried non-stop, which made him feel a trace of doubt. However, after the doctor came to treat him, Ji Yun found out that his parents were nervous because of his "nonsense" and were worried about his health. It turned out that his brain had been stimulated by something unknown, causing his mind to be a little chaotic.
This way, everything seemed to make sense. For a long time after that, Ji Yun could not tell what was real and what was illusory.
If he said that he was in a dream, everything here was so real. There was his familiar home and family. Everything felt so real here. He could feel joy, anger, sorrow, happiness, warmth, and pain…
However, if the home he was in was real, how could he explain the " memory " in his mind? Was it really as his parents had said? Was it because his brain had been stimulated by an unknown factor, resulting in an additional " memory " that did not exist? Or was it because of the stimulation that he had an incomplete prophecy in his mind?
Ji Yun walked around the house and met everyone. He realized that compared to his " memory ", the only difference was that there was one more person in his family. His mother, Gongsun Yue, who should have died after he was born. Another thing was that he, who should have been terminally ill, was actually healthy and did not seem to be out of place at all. Other than that, there was no difference in this family at all. There was also everyone in the Ji Family and his relatives. They were exactly the same as in his 'memory'.
In the end, Ji Yun listened to his mother's words and stopped thinking about these things and lived a peaceful life.
After that, everything seemed to go according to his " memory ". His aunt, Ji Xueqin, returned to the Ji Family, and Xiao Wu was sent over by the Gongsun Family…
However, as time passed, Ji Yun finally confirmed that what was fake was his current life, and the memories in his mind were real.
Every time he threw away all his doubts and immersed himself in this blissful life, the Ji Family's inheritance necklace hanging around his neck would emit a cold chill. Ji Yun still remembered that when his grandfather gave him the necklace, he had told him about the effects of this necklace. This was one of the effects of the necklace, and it was called Ice Heart. When the wearer was trapped in an illusion, the necklace would emit a cold air to stimulate the wearer's heart and brain to wake them up.
Another point was that this blissful life had already appeared in his memories, and the place where it had appeared was in his fantasy in his previous life. Therefore, Ji Yun was certain that all of this was just a test, a test of the heart.
Ji Yun had long learned from Yan Yu and the other two that the trial would temper one's heart. However, he did not expect that he would receive the "tempering of the heart" as soon as he entered the forbidden area. Moreover, it was so ferocious that it directly attacked the biggest flaw in his heart and even brought him to this "real illusion".
However, such a warm life was too rare for Ji Yun. In his previous life, he often fantasized about it, which showed how much he yearned for it. Because of this, even though Ji Yun knew that this was a fake illusion, he was still immersed in it and did not want to wake up.
Ji Yun had been avoiding this illusion for several years. He knew that he had to leave this illusion as soon as possible because the cold air released by this necklace had become colder and colder, and it appeared more and more frequently. Ji Yun understood that this was the result of him becoming more and more addicted to this illusory life. If he didn't leave now, he would truly be lost in it forever.
Should he stay in this illusion or choose to leave and accept reality? Ji Yun struggled, but he ultimately chose to leave after today. The reason why he chose today was because today was his mother's 30th birthday. This day was of great significance to him.
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Ji Yun collected his thoughts and really played with Xiao Wu like a child. He told her many stories and said many things. The laughter in the jade pavilion never stopped. Then, the two of them watched the sunset together. They stayed until the sunset completely disappeared in the sky before they went downstairs to the dining room. No, it was more appropriate for Ji Yun to carry Xiao Wu.
Tonight, the Ji Family was unusually lively. Not only were all the members of the main branch of the Ji Family present, but even the important members of the Gongsun Family were present. Such a gathering was rare for the two families, and the person who caused this phenomenon was Ji Yun. Ji Yun, who had been appointed as the next head of the Ji Family, had already sent out this notice a month ago. It was also the first notice after he had been internally decided. Otherwise, even if it was Gongsun Yue's birthday today, the two families would not have gathered together like this.
When Ji Yun appeared in front of everyone with Xiao Wu on his back, everyone present burst into laughter. Ji Yun wasn't affected by this at all, but Xiao Wu was extremely embarrassed. After struggling for a while to no avail, she could only bury her face in Ji Yun's neck.
There were no lavish cocktail parties or balls. It was just a very ordinary family meal with ten people at a table. It had a somewhat ancient flavor. The joyous atmosphere of the meal lasted until ten o'clock at night. During this time, Ji Yun disobeyed his parents for the first time and drank. He even toasted table after table with wine glasses and chatted a lot with the elders at each table. After a round of more than 20 tables, Ji Yun's face was only slightly red. His alcohol tolerance made everyone speechless. They secretly thought that he was indeed a monster. He was amazing in everything.
In the Ji Family's central residence, in the small courtyard where Ji Qianhe's family lived.
Ji Yun and his parents were sitting at a stone table in the courtyard. Gongsun Yue was wiping Ji Yun's face gently with a silk scarf while scolding,""I told you not to drink, but you insisted on drinking.”
However, even though it was a scolding, his tone was filled with love and heartache. At this moment, Ji Qianhe also asked,""Yun 'er, you're not acting normally today. Did something happen to you?”
Hearing her husband's words, Gongsun Yue was also anxious.""Yes, Yun 'er. If there's anything, tell Mom and Dad. We'll think of a way together.”
Ji Yun reached out his left hand to hold his mother's hand that was wiping his face, and then used his right hand to hold his father's hand that was placed on the stone table." Father, mother, do you know how much I yearn for this scene? Holding my mother with one hand and holding my father with the other is what I want to do the most in my life.”
Ji Yun's eyes were slightly moist as he said excitedly,""But such a simple thing is a regret that I will never be able to achieve in my entire life!”
"Yun 'er, what's wrong? Aren't we all here? Could it be that she was hallucinating again?”Gongsun Yue asked worriedly. At the same time, he wanted to touch Ji Yun's forehead, but he didn't.
Ji Yun held his mother's hand tightly and shook his head vigorously. Gongsun Yue wanted to say something, but she was stopped by Ji Qianhe.
Ji Yun seemed to be talking to the two of them, but he also seemed to be muttering to himself,"Mother, did you know? When I was born, you passed away. You didn't even have the time to see your son. And because of your death, father seemed to have changed into a different person. He no longer had any high-spirited spirit, and all that was left was sadness.”
"My son is a genius of the Ji Family, but he is also a pitiful person with an incurable disease. He is also a pitiful child who has no mother and rarely sees his father. My family and grandpa's people are very good to me, but I still want to be with my parents like an ordinary child.”
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Time slowly passed. Ji Yun kept talking about all kinds of things in his previous life, as if he wanted to pour out all the grievances in his heart. Gongsun Yue and Ji Qianhe were also the most loyal listeners. They listened to Ji Yun's story silently without interrupting.
Unknowingly, it was already past midnight, and a new day had arrived. Ji Yun stopped talking, and the courtyard fell silent.
After a long while, Ji Yun smiled bitterly." Actually, I have to thank this 'heart tempering' for fulfilling my long-cherished wish. These five years will be the most precious memories of my life!”
Ji Yun released their hands and stood up. He took two steps back and knelt on the ground. He kowtowed heavily to his parents and said through gritted teeth,""Father, mother, I'm sorry. I'm unfilial. I'm leaving.”
Gongsun Yue's eyes were already filled with tears. She suddenly stood up, walked to Ji Yun, and pulled him into her arms. With tears streaming down her face, she said,""My son is the best. Mother is proud of you.”
Ji Qianhe also walked over and hugged the mother and son. He said in a deep voice,""Indeed, the son of Ji Qianhe and Gongsun Yue must be the strongest! Yun 'er, go and complete your mission!”
In the arms of his parents, Ji Yun's eyes finally flowed with tears. However, he still reached out his hands to his chest, held the necklace around his neck, and circulated his internal strength.
"Father, Mother. Goodbye!"
In an instant, Gongsun Yue, Ji Qianhe, the courtyard, the pavilion, and everything in the world seemed to have been frozen.
"Bang!"
With a sound that sounded like a mirror shattering, everything turned into countless fragments. Ji Yun once again fell into darkness.
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