Spring and summer were the most beautiful seasons in this courtyard. The trees were lush and the flowers and plants were flourishing. Butterflies, dragonflies, birds, and all kinds of strange and unknown insects were the most active elves in this courtyard. Lin Xinlan grew up here. She remembered that when she was young, her mother would often scold her for being naughty, but she would not restrict her freedom. As long as she did not cause any damage, she could set foot in the entire courtyard. On summer afternoons, she would play happily among the flowers and plants. Her mother would sit on the chair under the lampstand tree and be busy with some trivial things. Later, when she went to primary school, she would do her homework under the grape rack, and her mother would sit beside her and take a nap... Those were all memories of her childhood. She did not know when it started, but she and her mother had never been so harmonious.
Lin Xinlan recalled those distant memories and pulled her gaze away from the grape rack, realizing that someone was looking at her. In front of the door, Du Qinru stood quietly, looking at her daughter without saying a word. Lin Xinlan was also looking at her. Her mother, the person she loved the most. However, she still couldn't go up to hug her excitedly and tell her that she was back.
"Mom, I'm back." It was a sentence without any emotion. It was just a light sentence, simple and distant.
"Yes." Du Qinru also replied indifferently," The food is ready. Come in and eat."”With that, she turned around and entered the house.
Lin Xinlan walked in silently and went straight to her own room. The small room was still the same as when she left. No one had lived in it for half a year, but there was not a speck of dust. She knew very well that it was her mother who had helped her clean it. For a moment, she wanted to let herself cry loudly, but she couldn't. Du Qinru hated tears the most. After putting down her luggage, she walked out. Du Qinru was already sitting at the table waiting for her.
"Mom, when is Dad coming back?" Lin Xinlan walked over and sat down. She picked up the food and asked.
"I called yesterday to say that the train will arrive tomorrow night!”
"Oh."
Du Qinru ate the rice in her bowl, feeling bored. Her daughter had grown up and had her own ideas, so she could no longer interfere. When Lin Xinlan was still in primary school, she would run home excitedly every day after school, helping her with the housework, chasing butterflies in the yard, or sitting beside her doing homework while telling her how good the teachers were to her and how fun her classmates were...
However, after Lin Xinlan entered junior high school, Lin Deyan, Du Qinru's husband and Lin Xinlan's father went out to work. The originally happy family was separated because of this. The daughter stayed at home for one night in half a month and then left, while the husband returned home once a year for the New Year. Du Qinru stayed at home alone, busy with the trivial matters of the house. She went in and out alone, lonely and lonely, like a shadow, day after day, year after year. The long-term loneliness finally made Du Qinru, who was not good at expressing herself, develop the habit of silence, but it also made her tenacious.
When Lin Deyan left for the first time, Lin Xinlan cried her eyes out. Although Du Qinru was upset, she didn't cry. She even scolded Lin Xinlan not to cry," Instead of crying to death, it's better to focus on your studies!" Don't disappoint your dad!" Lin Xinlan still remembered what her mother told her when she first sent her father to the car.
Later on, Lin Xinlan really studied hard and did not disappoint Lin Deyan's expectations. Du Qinru also felt gratified. However, her daughter would not tell her the truth anymore, and she did not ask about her daughter's life anymore. Gradually, the distance between mother and daughter grew further and further, until Lin Xinlan had to stand at the door of the house every time she went home. Du Qinru picked up the phone every time she wanted to call her daughter but hesitated. Lin Xinlan didn't know what to say when she dialed the home number. In Lin Xinlan's memory, she had talked to her mother less than ten times after she entered high school, and each call lasted less than three minutes. In her memory, her mother had never asked about her studies or her life.
In junior high, a girl in the same dormitory had a stomachache. She called her mother and cried. The next day, her mother rushed over to ask about her well-being. In the end, the girl had her first period. Her mother helped her buy sanitary pads and told her a lot of things to take note of before leaving. Later on, Lin Xinlan also encountered the same thing, but she did not have the courage to call her mother. Fortunately, Lin Xinlan was already in the third year of junior high school. The experience of the other girls in the dormitory allowed her to handle these things independently. Du Qinru had missed out on a very important event during her daughter's puberty. Perhaps, many missed opportunities had caused them to be estranged from each other, so much so that now Lin Xinlan and Du Qinru would feel awkward when they were alone.
"Mom, why did Auntie Lian come to our house just now?”
"She wants to knit a sweater for Zhiwei.”
"Oh, Zhou Zhiwei is back?"
"Yes."
"When did you come back?"
"Yesterday."
"Oh." There was a long silence.
The mother and daughter ate awkwardly.
Du Qinru put down her bowl after she finished eating and walked into the kitchen. Lin Xinlan quickly finished the rice in the bowl, cleaned up the dishes and leftovers on the table, and followed her into the kitchen. Du Qinru was boiling the water for washing the dishes.
"Put it in the sink!"
"Mom, go and rest. I'll wash up!”Lin Xinlan placed the bowl and chopsticks in the sink.
"You just came back. Go and tidy up your room. The winter quilt and blanket are in the cabinet.”
"Yes." Lin Xinlan knew Du Qinru's temper. She would do whatever she was told to do.
Lin Xinlan left the kitchen and returned to her room, heaving a sigh of relief. "Daddy will be back tomorrow. Lin Xinlan, don't be discouraged.”
Lin Xinlan took out a thick quilt and blanket from the cabinet and changed into them after changing the thin blanket and bed sheets. Then, she fell onto the bed. It was not that she had not thought about home after leaving for half a year, but she was afraid that she did not know how to get along with her mother. Now that she was finally back, she still couldn't be a caring daughter. She suddenly missed Lu Xiao Yue and wanted to tell her how she was feeling right now. They had only been apart for two days, but she felt like they had been apart for a long time. She had never told Lu Xiao Yue about her mother. When they were together, they had never talked about family. It was as if the two of them were deliberately avoiding the word "family".
At this time, Lu Xiao Yue was sitting between the two elders of the Lu family, chatting happily with them.
"Grandpa, Grandma, let me tell you. I made a good friend in school. Her name is Lin Xinlan. I like her very much. She's very nice and treats me very well. We hang out all day. We eat together during class and after class. Many people in our class are very envious.”
"Yue Yue, you two hang out all day. Don't delay your studies!”When Old Master Lu heard Lu Xiao Yue say that she and Lin Xinlan were "hanging out", he immediately became nervous.
"Aiya, old man, don't you know Yue Yue's temper? Our Yue Yue is so obedient and sensible. How can she delay her studies? With a good friend with her and studying together, our Yue Yue won't be lonely. Isn't that great? What are you worrying about?"
"Yes, Grandpa. Lil Xin and I, also known as Lin Xinlan, get along very well. We often discuss our studies together. Also, Lil Xin's grades are better than mine and she can even help me with my tuition!”
"I was thinking too much. Yue Yue, it's a good thing to meet such a good classmate in school. I hope you can learn from him and get into a good university in the future.”
"Yes, sir!" Lu Xiaoyue saluted her grandfather very seriously, then held her grandparents 'hands and continued to chat.
"Grandpa, Grandma, let me tell you a joke. Lil 'Xin told it to me.”
"Alright, Yue Yue, tell us. We'll listen!”
"Once upon a time, there was a scholar…"
Late at night, Lu Xiaoyue returned to her room and buried herself in the quilt. "I don't know what Lil Xin is doing now. She might be sleeping like me, but she's been away from home for so long. She should still be chatting with her parents!”
mom and dad
Lu Xiaoyue softly called out these two unfamiliar names, and memories surged like a tide.
"Wild child! Wild child! Lu Xiaoyue was a wild child without parents!”A group of children chased after Lu Xiaoyue and shouted. At that time, Lu Xiaoyue was only four years old. Not long after she entered kindergarten, someone said that she had no parents. Later on, the children in class always bullied her. Every time, she would run home crying and ask her grandparents if she really had no parents. The two elders of the Lu family did not know how to answer her. They could only tell her that her parents had gone far away and would come back one day. Little Lu Xiaoyue had always believed that her parents had just gone far away. One day, she would have parents.
At that time, she began to learn to be strong and to protect herself. When a four-year-old child was bullied, she would tell the teacher until the teacher punished the children who always bullied her. This alerted the parents, and some parents complained about the teacher. Four-year-old Lu Xiao Yue even held her head high and argued with the adults. She had parents and was not a wild child. She could not let their children bully her. Although her domineering attitude made the parents laugh, they had to warn their children not to cause trouble again. After that, Lu Xiaoyue lived a peaceful and stable life. However, she had no friends. Fortunately, her grandparents loved her very much, so she could grow up without worries. However, her parents had never appeared. The first word she learned was not " Mom " but " Grandma ". The first person she knew to rely on was not " Dad " but " Grandpa ".
She had never called anyone her parents since she was fifteen. She was not stupid. She knew that her parents were definitely gone. Ever since she grew up, she had never asked her grandparents where her parents had gone. Her grandparents never mentioned it again. She knew that they were afraid that she would be sad. Actually, she had already guessed that her parents had gone to heaven and would never come back. However, all of this was just what she thought. The truth was often crueler than she thought.
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