"She's always been like this. I'm used to it.”
"Auntie, Xin Lan wasn't like this in the past. Did something happen?”
"Nothing happened. Maybe she has grown up, or maybe I failed as a mother. Time will always change many things, and we can't do anything about it.”
"Auntie, I still don't quite understand.”
"One day, you will understand. Haven't you grown up too? You're no longer the Zhiwei you were when you were young.”
Zhou Zhiwei suddenly understood. That's right! Time would change many things. He had grown up. He was no longer the mischievous and insensible Zhou Zhiwei. He was no longer the Zhou Zhiwei who only protected Lin Xinlan as his sister. As for Lin Xinlan, she was no longer the Lin Xinlan who chased after him all day and called him Brother Zhiwei. She was no longer the Lin Xinlan who did not dare to tell her mother when she made a mistake and secretly told him to keep it a secret. In five years, he had changed, and so had she. However, he still wanted to protect her, but not as her brother. He was very clear about this in the five years after they parted. But for her, he knew nothing about the changes in her in the past five years. He was not sure what position he held in her heart.
It was already late at night when Lin Deyan came back. Du Qinru was sitting on the sofa with her legs curled up, waiting for him. Seeing him open the door and come in, she heaved a sigh of relief. Her hanging heart finally relaxed.
"There was a traffic jam on the way, so I came back late! Is Xin Lan back?" Lin Deyan looked at his wife who was waiting for him to come back late at night. His heart warmed up, and his fatigue was instantly relieved. She asked Du Qinru when she didn't see her daughter.
"Xin Lan came back yesterday. It was too late, so I let her sleep first. Are you hungry? The food is ready. Sit down and rest for a while. I'll heat up the food for you.”Du Qinru took the bag from her husband's hand and gently dragged his suitcase to the side.
"Yes." Lin Deyan sat down on the sofa and looked around the familiar room. Everything was the same as when he left. Nothing had changed at all. After wandering outside for so long, he was finally back. Although it was only a short reunion with his family, he was extremely gratified.
"Dad, you're back!" Lin Xinlan hadn't fallen asleep. When she heard the commotion outside, she knew that her father had finally returned.
"Yeah, you're still awake?"
"I can't sleep." Lin Xinlan walked to the sofa and sat beside Lin Deyan. "You haven't eaten yet, right?"
"Your mother went to prepare."
"It was done in the afternoon. I've been waiting for you.”
"There was a traffic jam on the road and it took a long time.”
"We can eat now!" Du Qinru came out of the kitchen with two plates of dishes, her face full of smiles. This family was finally reunited.
That night, Lin Xinlan tossed and turned in bed. Their personalities were so similar. Her parents were not good at expressing themselves, but she could express her true feelings and thoughts to friends, classmates, teachers, and even strangers. The only thing she couldn't do was to face her parents, who she loved so much, but she couldn't tell them. Ever since she was sensible, she had spent very little time with them. Perhaps it was because of the long period of alienation that she had never learned how to communicate with them. The long period of alienation had caused her to drift further and further away from them.
A person's life was nothing more than a struggle between three emotions: family, friendship, and love. Many people were deeply concerned about the kinship that they were born with, but Lin Xinlan's chapter was completely blank. She was afraid to get along with the person she loved the most. On the long road of life, finding a close friend to be with, how fortunate was it? Lin Xinlan thought of Lu Xiao Yue. At the beginning of their acquaintance, the illusion of deja vu was not without reason. As for love, Lin Xinlan was filled with endless longing for the lovestruck man and lovestruck woman who were mutually dependent on each other in the mortal world. The dream that kept appearing, the boy who gave her an uncertain promise, often appeared in her mind. Although the person she loved and depended on had not appeared yet.
The winter night was exceptionally quiet. The endless darkness silently engulfed the small mountain town. The cold air filled the small room, and it was dark outside the window. Lin Xinlan tightened her blanket, but she was not sleepy at all.
A young girl's heart was always soft, like an untimely evening primrose, quietly blooming in the dark night. Lin Xinlan thought of Shen Mucheng on such a night. That mysterious boy that she couldn't understand entered Lin Xinlan's heart in the cold and dark night.
Unease, frustration, anxiety…
Lin Xinlan, who had always been calm, was suddenly entangled by all kinds of inexplicable emotions, causing her to be unable to sleep. She got up and turned on the light. She took out her diary from under her pillow. She was clearly frustrated, messy, and complicated, but how could she describe her feelings?
When I first learned about the pain of being separated from my loved ones for a long time, I understood for the first time that life was not that easy and simple. When I first faced a strange environment and a strange crowd to live alone, I entrusted all my feelings to friendship and ignored the family that should not be ignored in this world. When I first understood the loneliness of my mother and the hardships of my father, I was no longer qualified to live a carefree life.
When my so-called best friend threw away my birthday present in disgust and finally said that she hated me, I realized that I had always been a clown, playing the most insignificant role in other people's lives. Finally, I lost my friendship. His mother was always busy with all kinds of household chores and trivial matters, and his father was always far away from home. Finally, I'm the only one left in my world. From then on, I gave my time and thoughts to my studies. I hid my thoughts, my sadness, and my happiness. I successfully locked the door to my heart.
Along the way, Gu Shang was like a maggot attached to his bones, like a shadow following him. Who would have thought that I would meet you, who was equally lonely, in the midst of millions of people? Xiaoyue said that it was fate that brought us together. From now on, I will no longer be alone. I would rather believe that it was fate that allowed me to meet you, but can I make you no longer lonely?
I know that you, who has always been indifferent, actually don't like being alone at all. So, silent, I still don't want to give up.
Zhou Zhiwei would come to Lin Xinlan every day. After Du Qinru's approval, he would take Lin Xinlan out for a stroll on the streets. Occasionally, the two of them would go out on a bike ride. Sometimes, Zhou Zhiwei would also bring his winter vacation homework to Lin Xinlan's house to do with her. Zhou Zhiwei was never careless in his studies and his results had always been good. Therefore, Du Qinru was also very willing to do homework with Lin Xinlan and give her some necessary tutoring. With Zhou Zhiwei's company, Lin Xinlan had a relaxing and happy winter break.
Silent Cheng's winter vacation was very monotonous. He stayed in the study every day and read all kinds of books, but he didn't feel bored or bored. Chen Muyun had wanted to take him out on a trip and take a look around, but he had rejected her. He said that he preferred to stay at home. Chen Muyun naturally obeyed him and continued to take care of him meticulously. Sometimes, she even brought food to the study for him. Silence became more and more silent, but learning became more and more desperate. Shen Tianling saw this and felt pain in his heart. He knew why his son was studying so hard. However, he could not help him. He was also powerless against fate.
Lu Xiaoyue prayed every day that school would start early. The most boring day was to repeat yesterday's events every day. Lu Xiaoyue's winter vacation was to eat, sleep, do homework, and watch TV with her grandparents every day. Life during the winter vacation was as calm as a pool of stagnant water. There was no wind or waves, and no waves.
The winter vacation was finally coming to an end with Lu Xiaoyue's prayers. Zhou Zhiwei was only a few months away from the college entrance examination. School started early, so he left right after the new year. Lin Deyan also hurriedly boarded the train to leave his hometown after the New Year. Lin Xinlan and Du Qinru stood by the station, watching the train getting further and further away until it disappeared. This kind of scene played out every year for the mother and daughter. The sadness of parting had long been numb.
A few days later, Lin Xinlan also boarded the train to leave home. Du Qinru sent her to the car and told her to take good care of herself at school. Lin Xinlan only nodded and finally said when the car started," Mom, you have to take good care of yourself at home and take more rest!”Du Qinru smiled and nodded.
The car finally started moving. Lin Xinlan leaned against the window and looked through the window at her mother who was still standing there, becoming smaller and smaller until she became a dot. She finally understood her mother's forbearance and determination over the years. Every time she sent her husband away with her daughter, she would watch her daughter get further and further away from her. Then, she would be the only one left. She would wait and wait unwaveringly. Women who were lonely all year round were the most likely to become the protagonists of gossip fabricated by busybodies. In that isolated mountain town, Du Qinru often became the laughing stock of people after dinner. However, Du Qinru didn't explain herself. She just silently endured and remained strong.
As soon as Lin Xinlan entered the dormitory, Lu Xiao Yue ran in front of her and hugged her tightly.
"Little Xin, I finally see you. I miss you so much! Do you miss me?"
"Xiaoyue, I know you miss me very much, but do you have to be so exaggerated?”
"How is it exaggerated? One day apart feels like three years. How many years has it been since we last saw each other? I'm just hugging you to express my many years of longing!”
"Alright, alright, alright. Then I'll reluctantly let you hug me as much as you want.”
"Little Xin, you don't care about me at all!”
"How can I not care about you? Do you want me to kiss you to show that I care about you?”
"I'm very happy to!"
"I say, can you two pick a secret place to be intimate? This is the dormitory, and there are still four of us here. Can you be more disgusting?”Xie Yun's indifferent voice rang out, and Lin Xinlan noticed that everyone else in the dormitory had arrived.
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