"Auntie, what exactly do you want to say to me?”
"Xin Lan, I can tell that you're a kind child. Auntie will never force anyone. Auntie just wants to ask you one thing. You don't have to consider anyone's feelings. Just follow your own heart. Tell auntie, do you like Mocheng?”
"Auntie, you…"
"Everything Auntie did was for Mocheng. As long as he's happy, it's fine. "Moreover, Auntie said that I was also at your age. I know better than you how important it is to follow your heart. Whatever you want the most in your heart, you can do it without hurting anyone.”
"But Auntie, what if what you want to do will hurt others?”
"Xin Lan, there is no such thing as perfection in this world. Some injuries cannot be avoided, and what we need to do is to think of a way to minimize the damage.”
"Auntie, can I really?"
"Mocheng also asked me the same question. I told him that if you think you can, then you can! So, Xin Lan, ask your own heart, can you do it?”
"Auntie, I…"
"Xin Lan, perhaps Auntie is being selfish by doing this, but please believe Auntie and believe in Mocheng. He is not a bad boy who doesn't know anything, so he will definitely not affect your studies. I'm telling you all this today because I hope that Mocheng can have someone who understands him by his side. After all, I'm an elder. Moreover, he spends most of his time in school. I don't have enough time to accompany him.”
"Auntie, can you give me some time? I need time to think about it."
"There's no hurry. Go back and think about it. Auntie will wait for your reply!”
"Yes, thank you! Auntie!"
Lin Xinlan quickly left the pavilion and ran all the way back to school. Her heart was beating rapidly. She ran to the place where she had separated from Lu Xiaoyue. Lu Xiaoyue was still sitting there.
"Xiaoyue!" Lin Xinlan called out to her as tears started to well up in her eyes.
Lu Xiao Yue turned around and saw her." Xiao Xin, you're back."”Seeing the tears in her eyes, she stood up and walked to her." Xiao Xin, what's wrong?”
Lin Xinlan just stared at Lu Xiaoyue, letting her tears fall from her eyes.
Lu Xiaoyue suddenly became anxious and quickly asked,"Little Xin, what's wrong with you? What happened?"
Lin Xinlan hugged Lu Xiaoyue and said emotionally with a sobbing tone,"Xiaoyue, I know! I know everything!"
"What do you know? What did Mo Chencheng's aunt say to you?”
"I know what silence is now. Xiaoyue, it turns out that he has always been unhappy because his mother passed away when he was seven.”
Lu Xiaoyue let go of her." You're sad because of this?”
"I'm not sad, Xiaoyue. I'm not sad, I just feel sorry for him. His mother must have loved him very much, so he couldn't get over it even after she passed away for so many years. He had always shut himself away and was not happy at all. I cried because I finally knew about his past. I finally confirmed that the original me had never been self-righteous. I had always understood him, so I finally had no reason to give up on my determination to cheer him up and make him happy. Xiaoyue, do you know? The thoughts that had always made me nervous and suspicious in the past can finally disappear. However, how should I tell him my feelings?”Lin Xinlan kept talking about her excitement and conflicted feelings, completely unaware that the ever-changing and extremely complicated expression on Lu Xiao Yue's face slowly turned into disappointment and self-mockery.
"He's cold, he's eccentric, he's mysterious, he's unhappy, he's arrogant, and all of this is because his mother passed away when he was seven? You feel sad for him, sad for him, and happy for him because you finally know the reason why he had shut himself up for so many years?”Lu Xiaoyue threw out these two questions in one breath. Then, with a bitter smile and self-mockery, she said,"Lin Xinlan, I, Lu Xiao Yue, am really a fool. How did I become good friends with you? Why would you fall for such a useless person?”
Lin Xinlan looked at Lu Xiaoyue in disbelief." Xiaoyue, you, what did you say?”
A certain fragile place in her heart finally collapsed. Lu Xiaoyue held tears in her eyes. She was not the kind of person who shed tears easily, but something was slowly turning into tears and wetting her eyes. She tried her best to endure it and continued,"His mother is dead. What's the big deal? The sky hasn't fallen. Why did he seal himself up for so many years? To announce to the world that he was a dutiful son and then win the world's best dutiful son award? His mother was dead. Why did he have to keep a straight face all day long, as if the whole world owed him? In my eyes, he is a good-for-nothing trash. And my best friend actually fell in love with such trash!”And she, too, fell in love with him. At that moment, Lu Xiaoyue felt that she was really a joke.
"Lu Xiao Yue, how can you say that about him? I won't allow you to say that about him. You don't know him at all!”Lin Xinlan said loudly. At that time, Lu Xiaoyue was so unfamiliar to her.
Lu Xiaoyue suddenly smiled bitterly and said,""Lin Xinlan, how dare you say 'not allowed' to me because of a coward? I, Lu Xiao Yue, was wrong about you, but I still have to say that you are too stupid to fall in love with that kind of person. You are too sad to be sad for that kind of person! The person I, Lu Xiaoyue, hate the most in my life is the kind of person who is silent and wants to die after the death of a mother!”As she laughed, she cried.
"Shut up! You haven't experienced it, so you have no right to say that about him!”Lin Xinlan suddenly shouted. Lu Xiaoyue's strangeness made her sad, and her silence made her even more unbearable.
Lu Xiaoyue sniffed and wiped away the tears on her cheeks. She looked at Lin Xinlan and said calmly,""Lin Xinlan, I am the only one in the world who is qualified to call him a coward. Because he is not even as good as me!" Lu Xiaoyue turned around and left after saying that.
Lin Xinlan stood where she was, watching her leave, her heart aching slightly. Lu Xiaoyue's last words were still ringing in his ears.
She said that he was not even as good as her.
She also said that she was the only one who had the right to call him a coward.
When Chen Muyun returned to the apartment, Shen Mocheng was still reading in the study. Chen Muyun had washed some fruits for him.
"Mocheng, I met Xin Lan today.”
When Shen Mucheng heard that it was Lin Xinlan, he raised his head and asked,"You asked her out?"
"Yes, I called her."
"Then what did you guys talk about?"
"Besides talking about you, what else can we talk about? I also told her about your mother. But don't worry, I didn't say anything about you.”
"Aunty, I don't want you to interfere in our business.”
"Youngest aunt only plans to intervene this once. I can see that Xin Lan is a pretty good girl.”
"Thank you, Auntie!"
Chen Muyun's understanding had always made Silent Cheng grateful. However, he didn't want Chen Muyun to interfere in their matters. He was sure that he liked her, but it was precisely because of this that he didn't want her to be sad. At least, she wouldn't be sad because of him.
They finally ignored each other. In the same classroom, in the same dormitory. They tacitly avoided the possibility of meeting each other. She woke up early, she woke up late, she ran in the morning, and she read in the morning. After the evening self-study session, she would leave, she would stay, she would sleep early, and she would return late.
Chen Yu and Xiao Hongyu were silent about their breakup. Room 321 suddenly became gloomy. Mo Jingcheng naturally noticed their changes, but he was still a bystander. Of course, he didn't know that their breakup was because of him.
Lu Xiaoyue and Xiao Hongyu were still getting along as before, occasionally quarreling and occasionally fighting. However, Xiao Hongyu no longer dared to mention Lin Xinlan, and Lu Xiaoyue no longer poked Lin Xinlan's back with a pen to ask for help. It was just that Lu Xiaoyue would often not say a word for a long time, staring blankly for a long time.
Lin Xinlan and Chen Yu were the same as usual. However, Chen Yu would wait for Lin Xinlan to go for dinner after school and wait for her to go back after evening self-study. However, Lin Xinlan spoke less and her expression became much more indifferent.
It happened so suddenly that before Lin Xinlan could figure out the meaning of the last sentence she said to Lu Xiaoyue, the quarrel between Lu Xiaoyue and Xiao Hongyu gave her the answer. At that moment, her world turned dark.
That day, after class, Xiao Hongyu suddenly mentioned Mo Jingcheng. He leaned over to Lu Xiaoyue and said,""Lu Xiao Yue, I don't understand. What's so good about that silent Cheng? What do you like about him? If your parents knew that you only had such taste, wouldn't they be furious? I really feel sorry for your parents!"
"Xiao Hongyu!" Lu Xiaoyue suddenly stood up and shouted at him,""I don't have parents. They're already dead, so you don't have to feel sorry for them! Are you satisfied now?" She used all her strength to shout these words and ran out of the classroom.
The originally noisy classroom was instantly silent.
Xiao Hongyu sat in his seat in a daze. He immediately rushed out of the classroom. Lin Xinlan heard Lu Xiaoyue's roar, and so did Silent Cheng. The whole class heard it.
Everything was clear now. Lin Xinlan hurriedly ran out of the classroom, and Shen Mucheng followed behind her.
Lu Xiaoyue ran with all her might, from the teaching building to the field, and then to the empty path behind the laboratory building. She finally stopped and sat on the grass by the side of the road. There was no one around, so she could finally cry to her heart's content. She had had enough of all the gloominess in recent times, she had had enough of her gloomy mood, she had had enough of burying her unfamiliar parents in non-existent memories, she had had enough of seeing Lin Xinlan lose her smile like her every day, she had had enough of her silence becoming as expressionless as ever, she had had enough of her originally optimistic and strong self suddenly becoming extremely fragile...
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