The crowd dispersed. Lin Xinlan suddenly did not want to go back to the dormitory. She walked towards the football field. The school's football field was a large green grass field. The football field at night became very quiet. She walked into the grass field and wanted to find a place to sit down. A black shadow in front of her suddenly attracted her attention. Without hesitation, she walked towards the black shadow. When she got closer, she recognized him. He sat there alone, his lonely back making Lin Xinlan feel a little sad. He didn't send the instructor off, and Lin Xinlan didn't see him in the crowd. But why was he here alone?
"Hey!" Lin Xinlan walked over and sat down beside him.
"Hey!" When he saw her, he did not seem surprised and greeted her naturally.
"My name is Lin Xinlan!"
"I know!"
"You know about it?" Lin Xinlan was surprised that he knew her.
He didn't nod or shake his head. It was a silent agreement.
"Thank you for that day!" Lin Xinlan still felt a little apologetic for not having the chance to thank him.
"I didn't mean it!"
"I know!" She knew because she understood him. Although she did not know what had happened to him.
" Mm." He was a little surprised by her answer. She said that she knew. What did she know?
The sky was too dark and she could not see his face clearly. He had better wear a mask. Even in the dark, he was unwilling to take it off. Even his tone was the same, making it impossible to guess his feelings at the moment. Wasn't he tired? He refused to let her go during the day and had to put up all his defenses at night. What kind of injury had he suffered? What kind of pain could hurt a person so thoroughly?
"They are all going to send the instructor off, why aren't you going?”
"I don't want to go."
"Are you afraid of parting?"
"What about you? Are you afraid?"
"I'm not afraid!"
"Even if you know that parting might be forever, aren't you afraid?”
She didn't know why he would ask that. Was it related to his past? His question made her a little uneasy, but she still answered truthfully,"I don't know, but I know that it's possible. It only represents one of the outcomes. There are other possibilities, right? Therefore, we can't give up on other possible outcomes.”
"What if there is no possibility in my question?”
"Impossible?" She repeated this sentence. If it was impossible, then it was certain. After parting, it was forever! She frowned, as if something had hit her heart hard. Why did she feel heartache after confirming this fact? She knew that he must have been hurt, she knew that he had said that he had unintentionally sent her to the school doctor's office because he did not want her to see through him, and she knew that when he said that there was no possibility between farewell and farewell, he was trying to take off his mask. What she didn't know was that she would feel pain because she knew his pain. What she didn't know was that she was beginning to be afraid of seeing him without his mask.
"It's a little late. Let's go back!”
"Yes!" It was good to go back. She knew that she had hurt him tonight, even if it was unintentional.
He walked out of the football field with her side by side, and neither of them spoke. When they were about to part ways, she suddenly called out to him.
"Silence! I don't know what happened to you, but I want to tell you that the future is very long. Living in the past will only make you suffer more. Also, I know that the real you isn't like this. I hope you can try to let yourself go!”
Lin Xinlan mustered up all her courage and ran back to the dormitory, leaving a speechless silence. In the dark night, no one could see his powerlessness.
"Little Xin, where did you go? You're back so late!"
"Let's go for a walk on the football field!"
Lin Xinlan didn't like to lie, but she didn't want to tell her what happened tonight. She wanted to wait until Mo Jingcheng had truly walked out of the past before telling her. After washing up, she climbed onto the bed and took out her diary from under her pillow.
Mo Jingcheng, I know that you are afraid of parting. I know that you are more afraid that after parting, it will be forever. You must have lost someone very important to you. There is no injury in this world that cannot be healed unless you give up. But I know that you will not give up, because you told me that there is no possibility between parting and forever, even if you added the word "if" in front of it.
Lin Xinlan still could not believe what she had said to him when they parted ways. But tonight, he was also trying to walk out of the past, wasn't he? She should help him get rid of those painful memories and let him face a beautiful future happily. Thinking of this, Lin Xinlan suddenly felt much more relaxed. That night, she slept very soundly.
After a week of military training, most of the students in the class had gotten familiar with each other. They gathered in twos and threes and chatted about everything. Laughter filled the entire classroom.
Lin Xinlan and Lu Xiaoyue sat in the middle of the second row. Lin Xinlan turned her head from time to time to look at the seats that were almost full. Lin Xinlan felt a sense of disappointment. She lowered her head and flipped through the magazine in her hand. The new book had not arrived yet. The teacher said that she had to change seats first today before picking up the new book. The official class would start tomorrow. The homeroom teacher walked into the classroom from outside. Then, the bell rang.
He did not come!
The basis for changing seats was very simple. The form teacher took the name list and randomly called the names. The two students who were called were deskmates and chose their own seats. Lin Xinlan and a little girl called Chen Yu became deskmates. They chose the third row by the window. Lu Xiao Yue and a shy boy sat behind Lin Xinlan and Chen Yu. All the extra tables had been taken away, and there was an empty seat next to a boy who was leaning against the wall in the last row. Lin Xinlan knew that it was his.
Lin Xinlan was in low spirits as she walked back to the dormitory with her new book.
The teacher had asked the boy to help pick up his new book. Why didn't he come and pick it up himself? What happened to him?
Lin Xinlan suddenly remembered what she had said to him last night. Was he avoiding her because she had seen through him?
"Little Xin!" Lu Xiao Yue called out to Lin Xinlan when she saw that she had been silent.
Lin Xinlan seemed to not have heard him as she walked forward in a daze.
"Little Xin?" She raised her voice." What are you thinking about?”
"Ah?" Lin Xinlan finally stopped in her tracks." Oh, nothing much."”
"Nothing?" Lu Xiaoyue tilted her head and looked into Lin Xinlan's clear eyes. It seemed that there was a flash of panic in her eyes. "Little Xin, you're hiding something from me!"
"Xiaoyue, there's something I want to tell you.”
"I knew you had something to do. Tell me, my ears are clean now!”
"Let's take the books back to the dormitory and then go to the football field!”
"Alright then!"
The football field was very quiet during the day, but this quietness was different from that at night. There was always sunlight during the day, and the entire football field was sparsely active with a few people, but it seemed even more empty. There would be more people at night, but it was especially quiet because of the darkness. There were several tall willow trees dancing in the wind beside the football field. The thick trunks showed the vicissitudes of life they had experienced. Lin Xinlan and Lu Xiaoyue sat side by side under a willow tree.
"Xiao Yue, from the first time I saw you, I believed that you would be my best friend. I trust my instincts, so I know that you will be my most trusted friend. Actually, I've been a very lonely and cold person since I was young. Before I came to City G, I didn't have many friends. You're the first person I really want to be friends with. Many things don't have so many whys, but I'm always confused about some things. I hope I can tell you my confusion. I don't want to be alone with these doubts and be unhappy in front of you. Xiaoyue, are you willing?"
"Xiao Xin, everyone has a story. Some stories are sad, and some are happy. You believe in your intuition, but I believe in fate. I believe that every arrangement of the heavens has its own unique meaning. Just like how we were fated to meet and become good friends. You believed in your intuition and became friends with me, while I believed in fate and became friends with you. From a certain perspective, we are the same kind of people. Therefore, birds of a feather flock together, just like us.”
"Hehe, are your ears clean now?”
" Of course it's clean. You may begin!"
"Do you still remember the day after we met?”
"The second day we met?" Lu Xiao Yue paused." I remember now. That day, you talked a lot in your sleep. You kept calling someone's name, but I couldn't hear his name clearly. You kept saying,'Don't go, don't go…' We all thought you were having a wet dream. When we woke you up that day and saw your painful appearance, we didn't dare to ask you what you dreamed of. Xiao Xin, did something unpleasant happen to you?”
"Nothing happened. I was just a little confused. I had a very strange dream, but it wasn't a wet dream!”
"Strange dream?"
"I dreamed of a boy who accidentally got lost in the forest. It was the time when the azalea flowers were in full bloom. He met me in the azalea bushes and asked me to take him out. I didn't agree to it immediately. Instead, I asked him if he liked that place. He said he liked it. At that time, I wanted him to stay and play with me. I promised to take him out as a condition for him to stay and accompany me. He didn't refuse. Later, I told him a story that my grandmother told me about that mountain forest. That day, I didn't bring him out until the sun went down. When he left, he told me that he would definitely return to that place because he found that he liked that place very much. But when I saw him leave, I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my chest, and then I woke up in pain. In fact, this dream has been with me since the first time it appeared. It has been nearly a year. It appears from time to time, and there seems to be no pattern. It was the same every time, the same scene, the same dialogue, the same pain. What was even stranger was that the dream had repeated many times. I clearly felt that I had imprinted that boy deeply in my mind, but every time I woke up, I couldn't remember what that boy looked like. No matter what, I couldn't remember! Xiaoyue, don't you think it's a little unbelievable?”Lin Xinlan kept talking and didn't get a response for a long time. She turned her head and realized that Lu Xiaoyue was in a daze. She pushed her.
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