The only thing that could be called eternal in this world was probably time. The wind and clouds changed, the sea turned into mulberry fields, things remained the same and people changed. Many people gathered and dispersed, many people came and left. Only the four seasons changed and remained unchanged. This was the so-called compliance with heaven's will.
It was the same strange city, the same hot and chaotic September weather, the same lonely and lonely woman who dragged her suitcase and stood in the crowd of strangers. However, in these many " same " scenes, she would never meet him again. She no longer had him in her world, and he was no longer in the whole world. She would not meet her again, and she would not have that feeling of familiarity.
Her university was in a city that was further away from her hometown and City G. In this strange city, she was also alone. She pushed open the door to the dormitory. It was empty. She was probably the first to arrive.
She put her suitcase aside and sat on the wooden bed to rest.
The future seemed to be a very long and distant term, but it also seemed very close to her. Sometimes, she felt that she was a person with no goals because she had no desires.
People who had no wishes were very pitiful, because if they had too many wishes, they would become extravagant wishes. She had always thought so. Perhaps it was not because she had no wishes. If she had to make a wish, she would definitely have a lot of wishes to fulfill. The heavens would definitely be too busy, so she simply did not have any extravagant hopes.
In the past, she had always lived her life step by step, listening to her parents and teachers. She studied diligently and fulfilled all their expectations of her. She had never thought about the future, never thought about what the future would be like. She met him, fell in love with him, and got together with him. This was probably the bravest thing she had done in her life without telling her parents. She once naively thought that they would be together forever, but in the end, he still abandoned her and went to a place called " heaven " alone, separated from her.
She met her and became her best friend. They had spent a long, happy and unforgettable time together, but in the end, they were still separated. She did not even know where she was or what kind of life she was living. They used to be inseparable and promised to be good friends forever, but now, she no longer knew if she was doing well.
A completely unfamiliar environment, exactly the same as three years ago. Unfortunately, she would never meet the two people in her memories again.
Her university life was very simple. After some changes, she became even more silent. She went to class alone, went to dinner alone, went to the library alone, shuttled through the streets and alleys of the city alone…she was lonely and silent. She didn't join any clubs and didn't like any public activities. She was always alone.
It wasn't that she liked others to isolate her, nor did she want to seal herself off. She always felt that other than the two people who had left her, no one else could enter her heart. Perhaps her thoughts were a little too extreme, but she really couldn't quickly blend into the crowd.
Life in university was free, undisciplined, and rich. Her life, on the other hand, was relatively monotonous. She liked to sit alone in a corner of the library with a book in her arms when there were no classes. She would sit there for the whole day. That was perhaps her only interest. She wanted to find a world that resonated with her in other people's words, and then create a literary world that belonged only to her.
She liked to write. She spread out a small notebook on the table, held a pen in her hand, and wrote quickly on the pure white notebook. That was probably the only thing that could make her forget all her pain and worries.
When it came to friendship and love, after the person she loved the most and her best friend had left her, Lin Xinlan had thought that she would meet someone like them in university. However, there were no such coincidences in this world. She was such a stubborn person. Once she had decided on a feeling, once she had decided on a relationship, it was very difficult to change it. Perhaps, she was destined to pay the price for her naivety and weakness back then.
They were sitting in the last row of the bus by the window. He suddenly lowered his head and whispered into her ear,"Lin Xinlan, do you dare to make a bet with me?”
She only felt a tingling sensation in her ears. She turned her head to look at his mysterious expression and asked curiously,"Bet? What bet?"
"Do you see that couple in front?”
She followed his line of sight and saw a couple holding the armrest and whispering to each other. The man placed his hand on the woman's waist and hugged her in his arms. He did not pull the armrest and left his safety to his boyfriend." I saw them. They're very loving."”
He chuckled softly. It sounded very strange to her. She asked curiously,"Is there a problem?"
He said very firmly," Do you believe that when I count to three, the woman will immediately break free from the man and argue with him? Then, at the next stop, the woman will get off the bus!”
"Really?"
"One, two, three…"
She kept staring at the couple, as if she really believed what he said. Then, the moment to witness a miracle arrived. The woman really broke free from the man's embrace and quarreled with him. Then, the " next stop " arrived and the woman got out of the car...
She watched the whole process in a daze and turned to look at him in disbelief." It's unbelievable. How did you know they would fight?”
"Would you believe me if I told you that I have the ability to predict the future?"”
Her curiosity was not satisfied, so she hit him decisively and threatened him, pretending to be angry." Only a fool would believe it! Are you going to tell me or not? If you don't tell me…"
"What if you don't say it?"
She turned to the side angrily." Forget it!”
Seeing how adorable she was even when she was angry, he smiled again." I guessed!”
"Guessed? You can even guess such a thing?"
"Not exactly. To be exact, I know them. They often quarrel like this. Every time a quarrel was about to break out, the man would have a strange and helpless expression. Then the woman would ignore him and quarrel with him. Then the woman would get off the bus at the stop and take the next bus alone. I'm already very familiar with their quarreling habits, so…"
When the bus reached the terminal, they got off the bus and walked back hand in hand.
This was a reality that had been repeated many times. It was the fact that they were in love. But now, it could only appear in her dreams. When she woke up, she realized that the pillow was wet and her eyes were swollen.
She took out a diary from under her pillow and habitually recorded every dream about him. This might be the only thing she had left for him.
October 3rd.
I woke up in the morning, not knowing whether the weather was sunny or not. I thought I was woken up by my own tears, because when I woke up, I found that my face was covered in tears. My eyes were probably only a slit, and I was afraid of light. The dormitory was extremely quiet. They are still sleeping. I am afraid that if I make a sound, I will wake them up. At the same time, I am afraid that I will wake up you, who is still so clear in my mind. I can feel that at this moment, you are very close to me. You are still in my dream and haven't left. I can see your smile as soon as I close my eyes. Silence, a world without you makes me afraid, so please don't leave my dreams. I beg you, don't deprive me of my last way of missing you.
If you once loved someone deeply, that person would exist in your life as if he had melted into your blood. Even if one day, he left, he would still appear in your life in various ways, affecting your every breath, as if he had never left.
Silence was such an existence for Lin Xinlan. Her love for him, her longing for him, and her obsession with him seemed to have been poisoned. It was as if she was addicted to him. She could not be cured, and she could not quit.
People who were no longer around could never come back. However, would she be able to return to the person who was still alive and separated from her? If she could make a wish, she wouldn't dare to ask for too much. Just one would be enough.
Can you give her another chance to say to the girl far away,"I'm sorry!"”，And say,"I miss you very much!"
She thought that those three years would become a memory that would never be mentioned and buried in the depths of her mind. She thought that when she arrived in another unfamiliar city, she would treat everything in that city as the past and never think about it again.
She worked hard every day to live, study, and forget. He thought that this way, he could truly bid farewell to the past and start a new life. However, when she accidentally bumped into Chen Yu, who had been sitting at the same table as her for three years in this new city, she finally understood that many things were fate, and she could not escape or forget them.
It was a normal weekend. Lin Xinlan took a long bus ride to the biggest bookstore in the city. She liked the atmosphere in the bookstore, which was very different from the silence in the library.
Perhaps, in her subconscious, she was also maintaining a habit that she had developed with him in high school. When she took the bus, she would never get tired of the scenery that she had seen countless times outside the window. Then, she would step into the bookshop with a strong smell of books. She could quietly stay in a corner and read for the whole morning, or she could search among the bookshelves for a new or old book that she had been looking forward to for a long time.
Lin Xinlan met Chen Yu when she was putting the book back on the shelf after reading it. She was a loner to begin with, and after she went to university, her personality became more withdrawn and silent. She seemed to be the only person in his world, so she was always indifferent to things around her that had nothing to do with her.
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