"It's nothing." She blinked hard and squeezed out the tears in her eyes. She hated it when others saw her weakness, especially when this person was a " colleague " she often saw." Don't you have class today?”
"I don't have classes." "Lin Xinlan, you, we can be considered friends, right?”
Lin Xinlan knew what he wanted to ask and knew that he was actually concerned about her. However, how could she just tell him that she had such a painful memory? It was a memory that only belonged to her, even if it hurt her to the extreme.
"Thank you for treating me as a friend, Chi Shengrui. I know you want to ask me why I'm crying and why I'm making a snowman here alone. I really appreciate your concern, but please forgive me, I don't want to say it.”
"It's okay. If you don't want to say it, then forget it. Lin Xinlan, we're in the same office after all. Although we haven't known each other for long, you can treat me as a friend. There's no need to be polite between friends, okay?”
She smiled lightly. Her nose was red from the cold and she was breathing white air. Her fair face was as pale as snowflakes." They all say that I'm very cold, very proud, and not easy to get close to." You're still willing to treat me as a friend? What are you thinking?”
"Lin Xinlan, would you believe me if I told you that the you in my eyes is different from the you in others 'eyes?”He wasn't joking. He looked into her eyes and said something that he didn't even realize.
It sounded like a confession, but Lin Xinlan was already past the age of love. When she heard this, her heart was as calm as still water.
She looked at his slightly evasive eyes and asked lightly,"Chi Chengrui, can you not make me misunderstand your words?”
"Oh, this sentence is indeed very easy to misunderstand, but don't misunderstand. I don't mean anything else. What I mean is that when others see you as cold and aloof, it's because they haven't interacted with you before. They don't understand you, so they say nonsense. But you're my colleague. We work together, so I naturally know you better than they do. Actually, you're not as cold as you look on the surface. You're still very enthusiastic. You're very enthusiastic, very patient, and very responsible for your work. Therefore, the you in my eyes is naturally different from the you in the eyes of those who don't know you. Lin Xinlan, I really want to treat you as a friend. To be honest, aren't you lonely when you're alone?”
"Chi Shengrui, I'm used to being alone. Besides, I have friends. My friend is at F University. It's just that she's been busy recently, so we rarely see each other. I don't want to have too many friends now. I'm sorry.”She rejected him. Even if they were just ordinary friends, she did not want anyone to ruin her peace." Also, thank you for today.”
She left after she finished speaking, leaving Chi Chengrui with an umbrella and a face full of surprise and confusion. For the first time, someone refused to be friends with him. Perhaps, what they said was right. Lin Xinlan was a proud and eccentric person. She was indifferent to everyone and had nothing to do with herself. However, why was she crying in the snow today? Why did he feel nervous and upset for no reason when he saw her torturing him like that?
He looked at her thin and lonely back as she left. A part of his heart began to question whether what he was doing was right. Or wrong? Wasn't it a little cruel to drag her, who seemed to be full of scars, into his game?
"Xin Lan, I haven't seen you in a long time. Are you free this weekend?”Lin Xinlan had just returned to the dormitory when she received Chen Yu's text message. She stared at the phone screen for a while before dialing Chen Yu's number.
"Xin Lan, I thought you were in class.”
"I don't have class today."
"Are you free this weekend? We haven't seen each other for a long time. I miss you a little.”
Lin Xinlan held onto the phone. When she heard the words " I miss you ", her nose turned sour, as if all the emotions she had been suppressing during this period of time were about to explode. However, this was the dormitory, and she could not expose her vulnerability in front of her roommates who she had just met. She walked to the balcony and looked at the gray sky as she said softly to her on the other end of the phone,"I have to work on Saturday. I'll come to your school to look for you on Sunday.”
"Really? Alright, I'll wait for you!”
"Okay, then we'll see you on Sunday."
"Okay, okay. See you on Sunday. Bye!”
"Bye-bye!"
On the other end of the phone was Chen Yu's almost excited voice. She took a deep breath as if she had been relieved of a heavy burden. Fortunately, in this unfamiliar city, there was still a friend who knew her well and a friend who would contact her from time to time. If it were not for Chen Yu, she thought, she would have lived on her memories. In this world, other than her parents and her, who was far away, she had nothing left to remember.
On Saturday, when Lin Xinlan opened the office door, Chi Shengrui was leaning on the sofa diagonally opposite the desk, resting with his eyes closed, just like the first time she saw him. It was rare to see him arrive at the office earlier than her, so she was obviously stunned. However, she didn't call him. She walked to her desk and sat down. She turned on her computer and began to prepare for the day's work.
Chi Chengrui opened his eyes. In fact, he hadn't fallen asleep. He had just woken up early in the morning and was a little sleepy. When he arrived at the office and saw the sofa, he couldn't help but fall on it. He heard the sound of Lin Xinlan opening the door but did not open his eyes immediately. He wanted to see her reaction and whether she would wake him up. However, he waited for a long time, but she didn't seem to want to wake him up, so he simply stopped pretending.
When he woke up, he looked unhappily at Lin Xinlan, who was working in front of the computer and ignoring him. One second, two seconds... one minute, two minutes passed, but she still did not respond to his gaze. A nameless anger jumped up and down in his chest. He could no longer sit down like this without a sense of existence. He stood up, but his eyes were still fixed on Lin Xinlan, who was completely ignoring him. He walked straight to her and placed his hands on the desk, looking down at her. He did not believe that she could ignore him like this.
Lin Xinlan stopped what she was doing and raised her head to look at him. She took a document from the side and threw it to him, saying lightly,""Make fifty copies." Then, she lowered her head and started typing on the keyboard.
Seeing that she was still indifferent, Chi Chengrui completely exploded. He pressed his hand on the pitiful document with a " pa " sound, and his eyes seemed to be spewing fire as he stared at Lin Xinlan, who continued to ignore him. Finally, he shouted her name in a low voice,"Lin Xinlan!"
She raised her head again, her expression unchanged. No matter how mad he was, she was still calm, composed, and fearless. She said indifferently,"Is there a problem?"
This time, it was his turn to be speechless. Yes, was there a problem? What was the problem that made him so unhappy? What was it that made him want to strangle her at that moment?
The two hands pressed on the table slowly shrunk into two fists, and the knuckles gradually turned white. He continued to stare at her, taking in everything that she couldn't see.
"I'm fine." He retracted his hand and picked up the document on the table that he had almost crushed into waste paper. He said in a very strange tone,"Fifty, right? I'll go right away!" With that, he turned around and walked out of the office.
After watching him leave, Lin Xinlan leaned back and took a deep breath. It wasn't that she didn't see his anger, and she didn't mean to ignore him. However, she couldn't understand why he was angry and why he had an expression that wanted to tear her apart. Was it because she ignored him after entering the office? But she had always been like this. He should have gotten used to it, shouldn't he? Or was it because she had rejected him at school that day?
Was she really cold?
This adjective seemed to be what she used to describe him back then. Now, had she become the same person as him? He became the one who kept others a thousand miles away, ignored everyone, and built a hard door in his heart. Others could not enter, and he could not come out. Was that so? Did he reject her time and time again with such feelings and grief? Because there were too many fragile things in her heart, she did not want to become unbearable in front of others. Because she could no longer love, she did not want to involve too many people. It turned out that he was in so much pain back then.
However, he was no longer around. In this world, there was no one who could give her happiness, but she was still alive. She could not let go of many of her worries in this world. She could still bring happiness to others, could she not? Why did she have to become him at that time? Why did she have to be like him, rejecting everyone's care and concern? Why did she have to live in such pain alone and let others live in such pain? Even if she was like him, she had long foreseen that she would not live long, but she could not let down those who cared about her.
However, she was different from him. If she was really like him, knowing that she did not have much time left, she might be more fragile and pessimistic than him.
On Sunday, Chen Yu and Lin Xinlan sat opposite each other in a small cafe. Lin Xinlan kept stirring the coffee but did not drink or speak. Chen Yu picked up the coffee and took a sip. He put down the cup and looked at Lin Xinlan, who had a lot on her mind. He broke the long silence." Xinlan, is there something on your mind?"”
"Ah!" She raised her head." Not really. It's just that there are some questions that I can't figure out."”
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