"Xiaoyue? Are you listening?"
"Little Xin, I feel like I'm listening to a fairy tale, but the strange thing is that I'm actually willing to believe that this story is true!”After a long while, Lu Xiao Yue regained her senses and said to Lin Xinlan seriously,""And I think that boy is definitely not just in your dreams. He will definitely appear in your life.”
"Do you also think he will appear? But I can't even remember what he looks like. How do I know when he will appear?”
"Is the place in your dream real?”
"That's where I used to go when I was young. I often stayed there alone.”
"You said that you told him a story about that place. What was that story?”
" That's a story my grandmother told me…"
Lin Xinlan didn't tell Lu Xiaoyue about Silent Cheng. Silent Cheng was the only secret she kept from her. Perhaps every girl would meet such a person in her life. His uniqueness made her unwilling to share it with anyone, even her best friend. However, it might only be a temporary secret.
Lin Xinlan saw Shen Mucheng again a week later. He had disappeared for a whole week!
He sat in the last row of seats against the wall. His expression remained the same. He spoke to everyone indifferently, neither cold nor warm. Every time Lin Xinlan turned her head to look at him, he was always focused on the textbook in front of him with his head lowered, as if he was catching up on the homework he had missed a week ago.
Lin Xinlan turned her gaze to her language textbook, but she didn't read a single word. He was still the same as before. He did not change at all because of her words. How could a person who was used to wearing a hard mask take off his mask just because of a few words from her? She had overestimated herself!
Time flew by as Lin Xinlan and Lu Xiao Yue held hands in class. The higher the class, the more intense it became. If they didn't work hard, they would fall back. Fortunately, Lin Xinlan and Lu Xiaoyue were both students who loved to learn. They did questions together, memorized vocabulary together, and discussed together. Their learning was not limited to time and place. They could line up to get food and argue over a physics problem until they finished eating. They could discuss the solution to a math problem from evening self-study to walking back to the dormitory until the dormitory lights went out. They could even go out shopping on weekends and suddenly think of a problem and argue in other people's stores until their faces turned red. Sometimes, they were like enemies meeting, and sometimes they were like sisters who had the same blood flowing through their veins. In short, in Yang Fei's words, they were a pair of happy enemies. Lu Xiaoyue felt that this statement was questioning her sexual orientation, but she did not reject this statement.
Being busy with all kinds of homework and Lu Xiaoyue's daily life, Lin Xinlan temporarily put down the silent things. She never had the chance to ask him why he suddenly disappeared for a week. Occasionally, she would go to the football field alone. She hoped to meet him there. She knew that he would often find a place with fewer people and spend time with himself. However, after that night, he seemed to be deliberately avoiding her. Sometimes, when they accidentally bumped into each other in the cafeteria, he would pretend not to see her or look elsewhere. Lu Xiao Yue had automatically ignored him after the unpleasant conversation with him in the school doctor's office.
Mo Jingcheng, what should I do? To you, nothing happened that night? Why did you disappear without a word for a week? Why did you deliberately avoid me when you met me? Do you think I'm very self-righteous? I thought that I could understand you. I thought that I could help you face yourself honestly. In your eyes, I'm a fool, a lunatic, an idiot, right?
That night, Lin Xinlan, who rarely cried, wet her pillow and sobbed silently in the middle of the night. That was the first time she had cried because of a boy. She cried so hard and powerlessly.
The next day, when Lu Xiao Yue saw her red and swollen eyes, her heart ached and she scolded her. "Lin Xinlan, do you still treat me as a friend? What happened? Why are you crying under the blanket? Wasn't everything fine when she came back last night?”
"It's nothing! She was just suddenly reminded of the past and felt a little sad!”
"If you feel uncomfortable in the future, don't hold it in alone. I'm your best friend, not a decoration!”Lu Xiaoyue hugged Lin Xinlan, wanting to give her some warmth.
"Yes!" Lin Xinlan was very touched to have her around. Between them, politeness was the most unnecessary thing.
Lu Xiaoyue said that she believed in fate and that every arrangement of fate had a special meaning. Lin Xinlan didn't agree. She didn't like her life being controlled by that thing called fate that was hiding in the dark. Her life should be controlled by herself. But when she accidentally found Shen Moran in the empty classroom, she was extremely grateful to the heavens. Was this the arrangement of fate that Lu Xiao Yue had mentioned?
The school building was unusually quiet during the weekend. When Lin Xinlan opened the classroom door with her keys, she saw Shen Moran sitting in the last row with her head lowered. When he looked up and saw her, a flash of surprise flashed across his eyes, but he quickly regained his composure. She wanted to grab a book and go back to the dormitory to do her homework, but she did not expect to see him alone in the classroom.
Was he alone in the classroom every weekend? Was this the reason why she never met him again on the football field?
"Hey!" She tried her best to give him a smile. Even though there were six or seven rows of tables and chairs between them.
"Hey!" He still had his head lowered, so she couldn't see his expression.
"I'm here to get a book!"
"Oh."
"Are you doing your math homework?"
"Physics."
"Oh."
Realizing that she might have disturbed him, she walked to her seat and sat down. She took out her math textbook and began to do the questions. The classroom was so quiet that one could almost hear their own breathing. They didn't speak to each other and just sat quietly in their respective seats to do the questions. The afternoon passed quietly amidst the sound of the pen moving across the draft paper.
He looked at her sitting by the window with her head lowered as she worked on the questions, and he felt a warmth in his heart. He thought that she would leave after taking the book, but he didn't expect her to sit down and do the questions with him, even though they were far apart.
He had wanted to leave the moment she sat down, but he had been longing for the moment of warmth she had given him. He had always been a loner, so he asked the teacher for the classroom key. He locked himself in this empty classroom every weekend, and he was the last to leave after every evening self-study. He was used to being alone.
He thought that if he was alone, he would have nothing to worry about!
Dusk arrived at this time. Lin Xinlan looked at the sky outside the window that was about to be replaced by darkness. She turned back to look at Shen Mocheng who was still doing the questions.
Wasn't he tired?
Lin Xinlan mustered her courage and walked to his table. There were some questions that she had to ask!
"Mo Jingcheng, are you done?"
"I'm done."
"You…"
"Lin Xinlan, I know what you want to say.”Before she could finish, he spoke first. Her words from that night seemed to still be playing in his ears. He was afraid that what she was about to say would make him fall again. "But I don't want to answer any of your questions. Also, I don't think we're familiar with each other.”
"Not familiar?" Lin Xinlan repeated the word in a daze. He said that he was not familiar with her! Indeed, in his eyes, she was a self-righteous idiot! But even so, she still did not want to give up. She did not know what she was foolishly insisting on, but her intuition told her that he was not like this. He was just pretending! That's right, she believed in her intuition. That's why she became a fool that even she disdained time and time again!
"Mo Jingcheng, don't think that I'll back down just because you said that. Let me tell you, I, Lin Xinlan, am not afraid of cold walls. Don't think that you can separate me with a wall. You can say that I'm stubborn and stubborn, but I will insist on tearing down that wall!”
"Lin Xinlan!" He was finally angry and suddenly stood up. "Who do you think you are? You don't have to worry about my matters!" After saying that, he grabbed a book and walked around Lin Xinlan towards the door.
Lin Xinlan clenched her fists and took a deep breath. She turned around and called out to him again.
"Silence! Do you think that you sealed yourself off to protect yourself? You're not honest at all. It's fine if you lie to others, but you lie to yourself. You're clearly afraid of loneliness, but you avoid everyone and pretend to enjoy it. You can laugh and be angry when you want, but you pretend to be distant at all times. You even want to imprison your own sadness and joy. Do you think it's interesting?”
Mo Jingcheng stopped in his tracks and turned his back to her. His expression turned from anger to a complicated one. He knew that the wall in his heart, the hard shell that he had built with great difficulty, had collapsed in front of her. She had actually seen through him just like that! However, even so, he could not admit defeat!
"Lin Xinlan, don't think that you know me very well. You don't know anything and have no right to tell me this!”He coldly said and walked out of the classroom without looking back.
He could not meet her again!
Lin Xinlan watched as his cold figure disappeared through the door. The pain in her chest reminded her that everything that had just happened was so real. Was she really wrong?
Silent Cheng, are you hiding it too well? Or should I not trust my intuition?
Everyone can be a mystery, but my curiosity is only attracted by your mystery.
Mo Jingcheng, if I believe in my past life and present life, then I think I must have owed you in my past life.
Lin Xinlan closed the diary. Thinking of the anger she had felt during the day, she actually felt very good. The always indifferent silence had finally released a kind of emotion. At that time, she still did not know what love was.
"I'm lost. Can you take me out?”
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