It rained for several days in a row. The rainy night in Beijing replaced the usual hustle and bustle. Everywhere was filled with the sound of the rain.
"Swoosh."
Occasionally, a car would pass by quickly on the wide and flat road. Wherever it passed, it would leave two trails of water on the converging stream. The water would drip and disappear in the blink of an eye. The rain was still falling. The converging stream was like an unbreakable soft thread of love, delicate and impeccable.
In the small room, Xing Lan was perfecting his work in front of the screen. Beside him, Gao Wei and Jing Han were playing non-stop. Xing Lan did not know what they were playing, but the two of them would laugh from time to time. They were very happy.
"You haven't finished yet?"
While Xing Lan was deep in thought, Yu Xuan came to his side.
"I'm almost there. What's wrong?"
Xing Lan's gaze never left the screen as he spoke.
"Aren't you hungry? I'm a little hungry.”
Looking at Xing Lan's work, Yu Xuan suggested eating.
Upon hearing this, Xing Lan rubbed his stomach. Because he had gone to work last night, he had slept all the way until the afternoon. At night, because of the rain, the few of them only had a quick bite. Now that he heard Yu Xuan say this, Xing Lan realized that he was really a little hungry.
"What do you want to eat?"
He looked at Yuxuan Xinglan and asked.
"I don't know. Let's go out and take a look."
Yuxuan did not answer directly.
"It's raining so heavily."
Listening to the sound of rain outside, Xinglan went out to take a look. The rain was indeed very heavy. The accumulated rain on the eaves had already gathered into a torrent that flowed straight down.
"Let's go."
Yuxuan urged from behind.
"I left my umbrella in the company and never got it back.”
"We have one in our room."
Yuxuan turned around and returned to his room. When he returned, he had an umbrella in his hand.
Looking at Yuxuan Xinglan, there were many similar feelings in his heart because he had never shared an umbrella with anyone before.
"Let's go."
While Xing Lan was thinking, Yu Xuan urged him again. Xing Lan could only follow.
The umbrella was very small, and the two of them could only hug it to avoid the rain. Xinglan knew that he could not hug it, so he had only taken a few steps when Xinglan was already drenched. Perhaps it was because Yuxuan also felt a hint of intimacy, but the two of them did not speak along the way. The atmosphere was as awkward as it could be.
The scene was a little comical. The two of them held an umbrella in their hands as they walked in the rain. Occasionally, a few young couples would walk past them. Xing Lan could see the shock and astonishment on their faces when she brushed past them. This was because Yuxuan was walking with the umbrella in his hand while Xing Lan had to wipe her face with her hands continuously. She looked extremely miserable. Standing beside Yuxuan, Xing Lan was like a student who had made a mistake.
A row of restaurants could be seen after turning the corner of the accommodation. The two of them walked into one of them. Yuxuan folded the umbrella and the two of them found a seat to sit down. Xinglan kept wiping his face with a napkin. Yuxuan burst out laughing.
"The rain is too heavy."
Xing Lan said.
Yu Xuan did not expose them. The two of them ordered their own dishes while Xing Lan ordered a bottle of beer.
"Do you think Jinghan and Yabin can make it?”
Yuxuan asked while they were eating.
"I don't know. What's wrong?"
After downing the wine in his cup, Xing Lan asked back. Xing Lan could tell that Jing Han and Ya Bin's personalities were worlds apart. Perhaps it was because they had been together for a long time, Ya Bin and Xing Lan had complained a lot about Jing Han. The other Xing Lan could see that Jing Han always chose to avoid Ya Bin. Many times, Xing Lan would see Jing Han washing clothes downstairs, and Ya Bin standing on the stairs, not knowing what to do. Moreover, Gao Wei had also told Xing Lan some of Jing Han's thoughts.
"I don't think so. Jinghan said it in a side profile.”
Yuxuan said vaguely.
"If it doesn't work, then split it. Isn't that simple?”
Xing Lan said indifferently. His understanding of Jing Han and Xing Lan was very shallow because Jing Han gave off an especially open feeling. Xing Lan had many reservations about girls with open personalities, so he did not want to understand her even more.
"You don't know, Jinghan won't reject others. She never says 'no'.”
Yuxuan explained.
"I won't reject people."
Xing Lan asked curiously.
"Yes."
Yuxuan's expression was firm.
"I can't tell."
Xing Lan looked at Yu Xuan's determined gaze. After he finished speaking, he took the wine glass and looked elsewhere in boredom, taking a small sip.
"Aiya, if you don't believe me, then forget it. People like you don't understand girls at all.”
Looking at Xinglan Yuxuan's carefree appearance.
"Yes, I don't understand girls because I can't spend all my time on girls. If I understood girls, do you think I would still be single now?”
Xing Lan defended himself.
"Aiyoyo."
Yu Xuan teased.
"So what if she doesn't refuse? She's playing the disappearing game and making others wait. After that, she'll go and be with another person. Don't you think it's very unfair to the person waiting for her?”
He turned around and looked at Yuxuan Xinglan with an indignant expression.
"Wait? Who in this society is willing to wait? What era is it now? Can you wake up, Boss?”
Yuxuan looked very realistic.
"I can wait, so what?"
Hearing Yuxuan's words, Xing Lan felt very uncomfortable.
"You, right, the songs you listen to make people feel sad. Is there a story behind them?”
Looking at Xinglan Yuxuan, he asked cautiously.
Hearing this, Xing Lan became very silent. For some reason, Xing Lan really wanted to tell the things that were hidden in his heart. Only three people knew about this matter. Even Xing Lan did not know why he had to tell this impetuous 18-year-old girl in front of him.
"I…I loved someone.”
After Xing Lan finished speaking, he drank the wine in his cup with a smile.
"She should be very beautiful, right?"
Yuxuan said rashly.
"She's studying at the aviation academy, don't you think?”
Xing Lan blended in with his own story and did not pay attention to the meaning in Yu Xuan's words.
"A stewardess."
Yuxuan was a little surprised.
"I call her every day, and every time, she'll act coquettishly with me. She looks very special when she's angry, so cute that it makes my heart ache.”
Xing Lan recalled everything in the past, and the corners of his mouth could not help but curl up into a smile.
"Then how did you guys split up?"
Yu Xuan asked. Xing Lan became quiet and his smile froze on his face. It was still raining heavily outside, and Xing Lan was not moving at all, as if he had returned to a long time ago.
"How…did you guys…separate?”
Looking at Xing Lan's current expression, Yu Xuan's tone had a hint of caution.
"She asked me if I would still want her if she gave her first time to someone else.”
After a moment of silence, Xing Lan finished the wine in one gulp and poured another cup. His tone was calm, as if he was telling a story that had nothing to do with him.
"So we parted ways."
Putting down the wine bottle, Xing Lan's expression was very calm.
Yu Xuan did not say anything else, only looking at Xing Lan.
"I left quietly without leaving a word. Every time I recalled the dirty scenes of her in bed with someone else, I could hear the sound of my heart breaking. However, the longer I was apart, the more I realized that I was used to living with her. I couldn't let go of her. I rejected every relationship because I believed that she would come back.”
Xing Lan took a sip of wine and continued his story,""Three years later, when I was drunk, I couldn't control myself and added her on QQ. She only said QQ to me once, but I remember it very clearly. After three sentences, she called out my name.”
"She still loves you, right?"
Yu Xuan asked curiously.
"She told me a lot of things, all filled with guilt. She said that she had been looking for me for three years, but to no avail. She had no choice but to give herself to someone else. She said that she was a woman and that she had desires. The most she said to me was that I was her greatest regret in her life.”
Without directly answering Yu Xuan's words, Xing Lan's expression was still very calm.
"I've been waiting for the next three years. I'm thinking that even if she says that she'll leave with me, I won't care about accepting her like before. But don't think about it the wrong way. If a woman we met by chance tells me something, I won't even want to get to know her because I'm not a trash acquisition station, hehe.”
Xing Lan laughed softly, his expression appearing cold and heartless to others.
"Now that I think about it, it's been a full six years. It turns out that I've already forgotten about her unknowingly, or let go of her. At the very least, I don't have any feelings when I think about her.”
Xing Lan smiled again after he finished speaking.
"Do all men care that much?"
Yuxuan asked in confusion.
"Of course. If you don't like it very much, who would want a pair of shoes that someone else has worn?”
Xing Lan blurted out. However, he immediately felt that something was wrong. He raised his head and saw Yu Xuan looking at him with an angry expression.
"(*^__^*) Heehee…Don't be angry, I misspoke.”
Xing Lan giggled as he apologized. Only then did Yu Xuan stop hitting Xing Lan's hand.
"You're wrong. You should have accepted her.”
Yu Xuan said after a moment of shock.
"Yeah, that's why I waited six years.”
Xing Lan said indifferently.
Yu Xuan fixed his gaze on Xing Lan,"" But that's true. It's been six years. I really admire you. I couldn't even wait for my partner for ten months. Six years. Have you ever thought that she has already gone far? Or perhaps she has already forgotten about you. What are you waiting for? Besides, don't you feel lonely during these six years?”Yuxuan's tone was filled with confusion.
"How could I not have thought about it? But feelings are a very strange thing. Waiting, in my opinion, is the lowest choice in a relationship. In fact, many people are waiting, but in different ways, so their purpose of waiting is also different. For me, I should wait for her to give up and wait with a clear conscience. At the very least, I won't feel guilty when I think about it in the future. At the very least, I gave her a chance. As for the loneliness you mentioned, hehe, if I'm not lonely, can it still be called waiting? To me, loneliness is a habit. Once you get used to it, you'll get better.”
Xing Lan smiled after he finished speaking.
"Then have you met anyone better than her in the past six years? Or have you met anyone who can move your heart?”
Yuxuan asked.
"Love is the most unclear thing. In this world, everyone wants perfection, but there is no perfect person. A beautiful love is to make an imperfect person perfect in another person's heart. I already have the perfection in my heart, so how can I see someone better than her? Once I have someone in my heart, all the beauty is just fleeting in my eyes.”
Xing Lan's words were very frank.
"You're really strange."
After a moment of silence, Yu Xuan muttered.
"Let's go. It's getting late."
Xing Lan suggested to go back and Yu Xuan agreed.
The rain continued to fall. Xing Lan refused to share the same umbrella as Yu Xuan and walked straight into the rain. In the blink of an eye, the rain soaked him. Xing Lan did not quicken his pace. In the rain, Xing Lan listened to the different sounds of the raindrops falling. His heart was at peace. This was the rhythm that originated from nature. This feeling was pure and filled with artistic conception. Xing Lan had never told anyone that he liked to be drenched in the rain. He had always liked it.
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