When love silently came to his side, he had yet to enjoy the happiness that love brought him, but he had to start learning to bear the pain and helplessness that love brought him. Love was like a candy covered in honey, it attracted Xing Lan's attention. When Xing Lan gave up everything and prepared to pounce, love disappeared without a trace. The empty venue only left Xing Lan with a disappointed expression. He could only recall the short and alluring scenes on the spot without the candy.
"You don't have to be like this. It's only been a few days. I really don't understand what kind of person you are.”
At Luo Yao's residence, Xing Lan was sitting quietly in front of his computer. Yu Xuan had been sitting beside Xing Lan. Luo Yao had gone home and would not come back. Gao Wei would not come to Beijing for some reason either. Gao Wei had left Xing Lan that desktop computer and the residence was rented by Xing Lan.
Perhaps it was because he could tell that Xing Lan was unhappy, Yu Xuan, who was beside him, consoled Xing Lan with a puzzled expression. Yu Xuan really could not understand how the calm and collected Xing Lan would become like this after a relationship.
Ever since Yuxuan came here, Xinglan had not taken the initiative to speak to her. Xinglan did not want to speak. He only hoped that work would enrich his brain and that his brain would not recall the days when he had Jinghan.
"How am I? I'm fine.”
Looking at the screen, Xing Lan responded to Yu Xuan's words indifferently.
"It's pretty good. Keep pretending. Who can't tell?”
Yuxuan said with a straight face.
"Seriously, I've only known you for a few days and you've already become like this. Don't tell me you're going to wait forever.”
Looking at Xing Lan, Yu Xuan asked Xing Lan about his future plans.
Xing Lan left the computer and lay on the bed, pondering for a while.""Wait, I'll be fine after she gets married.”
"No way, boss. What if Jinghan meets someone new? You have to know that there are many people chasing Jinghan.”
Yuxuan's words were filled with confusion.
Hearing this, Xing Lan fell into deep thought once again.""Living in this world, we will always meet many strangers, and slowly forget our vows and even the people we once wanted to love for the rest of our lives. We will always care about new feelings and new feelings of liking someone. If we always follow our own feelings, we will definitely fall in love with different people. Of course, we will also fall in love with many people, but love is not like this. Love is perseverance, love is loyalty. An undying love would always bear the weight of time and setbacks, separation and helplessness. The difference was that some people chose the one they loved at the beginning, while others chose the one they loved at the end. I don't belong to either of them. I belong to the one who deserves to be loved. Compared to my life, a few years seem to pass in a flash. Even if she really got together with someone else one day, I would still be very happy. Seeing the person I love happy, you would also be very happy. I only need one. If she isn't married, I can go and find her. But I don't want to feel guilty for the rest of my life. Compared to a lifetime, a few years of unnecessary waiting is still worth it.”
"It's too profound. I still don't understand why you're doing this. You should know that Jinghan only knows how to pursue.”
Yuxuan rubbed his head and insisted on his opinion.
"Love can change a lot of people. It might be a habit that has been around for a long time, or it might be a principle that you will never change in your life. What I want is not for her to change, but for her to be happy and happy. In other words, even if she really gets heartbroken in the future, I can cry and laugh with her without any scruples.”
As Xing Lan spoke, he lit up a cigarette.
"I really don't understand. It's as if you owe her something.”
Yuxuan's face was still expressionless.
"That's right. Maybe I really owe her something.”
Xing Lan did not deny it.
"Sigh, I just don't know if Jinghan will cherish it. That girl doesn't even know what she wants.”
Yuxuan had a regretful look on his face.
"It's good to be owed. I also want others to owe me. Why don't we get along? You don't have to owe me.”
Yu Xuan patted Xing Lan teasingly, but Xing Lan did not reply to her. Xing Lan did not want to joke about this matter.
"She'll be back in two days. What are you going to do?”
After a moment of silence, Yuxuan told Xinglan that Jinghan was coming to Beijing.
"She's still coming? When?”
Xing Lan had a trace of doubt. He had not called Jing Han during this period of time.
"Yes, it's just these two days. I just called her.”
Yuxuan explained.
"I think you don't have to wait. Jinghan won't reject people, so don't insist.”
After a moment of silence, Yuxuan persuaded Xinglan to let go.
Xing Lan pondered for a while. From the moment he returned home until now, even though Jing Han did not say anything, Xing Lan could feel a lot. Perhaps Jing Han was really too embarrassed to reject him. Now, Yu Xuan's words made Xing Lan make up his mind.
"Should I let go?"
Xing Lan was a little uncertain.
"Yes."
Yuxuan said firmly.
"I'll send her a message."
Xing Lan took out his phone as he spoke. He typed a string of words and sent it out.
"We're not suitable for each other. Let's split up. I'll be leaving Beijing in a while. If there's anything, call me.”
Xing Lan sent this message with a trace of reluctance in his heart. He cared about Jing Han.
The phone vibrated during the silence. Xing Lan held the phone and pondered in his heart. He hoped that Jing Han would say something to persuade him to stay, but she didn't. Jing Han appeared very calm.
"Oh, where are you going? Can we still be friends?”
Looking at the text message, Xing Lan had completely given up. He already knew that Jing Han did not love him. Xing Lan did not want to be reluctant to part with someone who did not love him.
"Go to Shandong. There's no need for friends. I don't have any friends of the opposite sex. After all, I still have my own family in the future. If I get entangled outside, it will always attract some criticism. In the future, try not to have too much contact with the opposite sex because you don't know what we will discuss after you leave. Of course, this is just a suggestion.”
Xing Lan knew what Gao Wei, Peng Liang, and the others were discussing. Of course, Jing Han didn't know about this. Xing Lan just didn't want her to be like this anymore. The phone became silent and Xing Lan didn't touch it anymore. Xing Lan had already given up.
"Are you going to see her again?"
Seeing Xing Lan throw his phone to the side, Yu Xuan asked Xing Lan about his future plans.
"I've already quit my job. There will be news soon. I'll leave Beijing and go to Shandong.”
Xing Lan did not hide his whereabouts at all.
In the end, Xing Lan still met Jing Han. When he arrived in Beijing, Jing Han gave Xing Lan a call. Jing Han had brought two friends with her, and they were both men. Jing Han told Xing Lan that they were her classmates who had come to Beijing to play. As they had nowhere to stay, they needed to stay at Xing Lan's place for a night. Xing Lan did not reject them and went to the station to pick them up. During the first meeting, Xing Lan took the initiative to shake hands with the other party to express his good feelings. One of them enthusiastically greeted Xing Lan while the other brushed them off. Xing Lan could tell that his temper was probably the impatient type. At home, he should be a proud son or something. Xing Lan did not care about it nor did he dislike it. Everyone had their own unique habits and self. The difference was that there were some who went along with the individual and others who went along with the masses. Towards everyone, Xing Lan had a smile on his face.
Xing Lan brought them to a northeastern restaurant for a meal. The owner of the restaurant had never accepted Xing Lan's money because he was very familiar with Xing Lan. Actually, Xing Lan did not care about the money. After all, he was Jing Han's friend.
As Xing Lan had already finished his meal, he left halfway. After all, there was still a work that needed to be perfected. The other Xing Lan had nothing to do with Jing Han herself, so she felt that it did not matter. Jing Han very sensibly asked Xing Lan to go back. Xing Lan did not think too much and directly returned to his residence.
The next day, Jing Han brought the two of them out to play for a day. Before they returned, Yu Xuan was playing on the computer at Xing Lan's residence.
"You said that it would be fine if we didn't meet, but now that we see each other, we miss each other.”
Lying on the bed, Xing Lan's eyes were wide open with a conflicted expression.
"You deserve it. I told you not to see him, but you just didn't listen.”
Yuxuan's face was filled with hatred as he gritted his teeth. Xing Lan did not respond to Yuxuan's cannibalistic expression. He was only thinking about Jinghan's smiling face. He was only thinking about how to reject Jinghan.
The sky was already completely dark. In order to resist the cold from outside, the pedestrians on the streets all wore windbreakers. These two days were indeed very cold and the wind was very strong. In the morning, one could even see white yells. Lying on the bed, Xing Lan was deep in thought when his phone vibrated. Xing Lan opened it to take a look. It was Jing Han's. Because she was staying at Xing Lan's house, Jing Han had taken a key and said that she wanted to return it to Xing Lan.
"Jinghan, give me the key."
Xing Lan sat up and looked at his phone. After he finished speaking, his expression turned conflicted again.
"I don't care about you. I'm leaving."
Yu Xuan rolled her eyes at Xing Lan as she walked out of the room. Xing Lan did not send her off and was only thinking about what to do.
"No need. You can take it. I have another one here.”
After thinking for a long time, Xing Lan still told Jing Han that she didn't need to come. Xing Lan didn't want to see her, or he was afraid of seeing her. Yes, he was afraid. Xing Lan was afraid that the longer he spent with Jing Han, the more he would forget her.
After sending this message, the phone went silent. Xing Lan stuck his fingers into his hair, looking very painful. At a certain moment, he stood up and walked out of the room. His heart was very annoyed and chaotic.
The narrow and mottled street was still crowded with people. The neon lights outside the restaurants and hair salons on both sides of the street flashed rhythmically. From a stall not far away, the ear-piercing sizzling sound of fried food could be heard from time to time. The food on the iron plate rose into the air as the boss pressed down forcefully. Walking in the middle of the dense crowd, Xing Lan suddenly did not know what he wanted at this moment or where he wanted to go. He was very confused. The street was too narrow. As a result, passersby would brush shoulders with him from time to time. There were men, women, children, and even the elderly. With both hands in his pockets, Xing Lan's face was expressionless. He raised his head and scanned the dense crowd as if he was looking for something, but it was not.
Less than 20 meters to the left of the mansion was the main road. There were all kinds of vehicles on the main road. The buses stopped at the bus stop from time to time. Every bus was crowded. Because it was rush hour, there were often several buses stopping at the same time, like a train on the road.
" Hello, we have arrived at ** station. Please show your ticket if you are getting off, passengers without a card..." An electronic announcement came when the bus stopped. Accompanied by a beautiful female voice, the door opened, and a group of people flocked out as if they were in a hurry to go home. In fact, they were hoping to get out of the suffocating crowded bus. Because they had to take care of the pedestrians passing through, the speed of the vehicles on the main road was very slow.
Xing Lan had his hands in his pockets as he looked at the people who were in a hurry. He looked at the car that was driving slowly and honking from time to time. It was windy tonight, and there was also a hint of coldness. The cold wind would blow Xing Lan's long hair from time to time, revealing his left eye that was often hidden under his hair. His eyes were filled with loneliness and desolation. After a while, Xing Lan turned around and walked back. Because he was only wearing a pair of slippers, his toes that were exposed in the air could already feel the icy-cold.
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