I asked Buddha: How to make the heart no longer feel lonely?
Buddha said: Every heart is born lonely and incomplete. Most of them spend their lives with this kind of incompleteness, because when they meet the other half who can make it perfect, they either miss it or lose the qualification to have it.
I asked Buddha: What if you meet someone you can love, but you're afraid you can't grasp it?
Buddha said: leave the world how much love, welcome the floating world thousands of changes; Do happy things with a lover, don't ask if it's a calamity or fate.
We are all ordinary people. We don't have that kind of extraordinary perseverance. We don't have the divine foresight of the Great Immortal. We are just us. All we can see is ourselves. All we can do is to make ourselves happy. We can't even do such a simple question. I don't know why?
Sometimes, we don't need to care about what we say or think. All we can do is to make ourselves happy. This way, those who care about us can also be happy. Shao Yang, who was far away in Beijing, bought a plane ticket back to Qin City that night after hearing the news of Bai Mengfei's hospitalization. When he returned, it was already early in the morning. When he arrived at the hospital and saw the poor person on the hospital bed, his heart broke.
Her brother, Bai Shiqi, was by her side. Both he and her father chose to remain silent about what happened tonight. Therefore, after his father came to Shaoyang, the hospital arranged for the best ward, the best doctor, and the best nurse before he went home.
Perhaps tomorrow, he would tell his wife that his daughter was hospitalized, but he did not dare to do so at night. He was afraid. His wife had been working hard with him all these years. She was sick all over. It was not easy for her to have some free time. Now that her daughter was suddenly hospitalized and scared her out of her wits at night, their family would be completely finished. Bai Shiqi's heart relaxed a little when he saw Shao Yang enter the ward. He didn't tell Shao Yang why she was like this.
Actually, he did not know. The teachers in the school only told them that Bai Mengfei had run to the field alone. It was raining outside, and no one knew how long she had been in the rain. Because it was Saturday today, everyone in the dormitory thought that she had gone home. Coincidentally, a teacher passed by and saved her. Just now, the teacher was sent to the hospital. When they wanted to thank Ren Zhong, he had already left.
"Little Yang, I don't know what happened between the two of you. I don't want something like this to happen again. I know you like my sister very much, but as her brother, I really can't bear to see her like this. I'd rather lie here? Not her."
"Brother Xiaoqi, I know that it's useless no matter what I say. You're right, it won't happen again. "Actually, I don't know what happened between us recently. Every time I call her, she's always absent-minded. We always chat without saying anything. I thought that she had made a new friend and ignored me. I once called their dormitory to ask, but they all said no. I admit that I'm more paranoid, but I really like her. Since we were young, you and Brother Qingyang used to take care of her. Ever since Brother Qingyang left, I've been taking care of her." You said that you would rather lie here and replace her, but I don't want to be the one lying here. I can bear everything for her. If I hurt her, then I beg for your forgiveness. You promise that there won't be a second time, but this time, I really don't know why she did it. Why are you torturing yourself like this?"
"Little Yang, there are some things that you can't do as you please. As my brother, I've seen all the things you've done for my sister. I often wonder what my sister has done to deserve you to protect her like this. Did you know? You might laugh at me. Really, I remember when we were young, something happened to Qingyang's family. We didn't know why his family became like that. In the end, he left for no reason. We were all very sad, especially my sister.”
" Ever since Qingyang left, she didn't say a word all day and locked herself in her room. In the end, she fell ill and had a high fever of more than 40 degrees. She had a fever for three days. No matter how much we coaxed her and persuaded her, she refused to take her medicine or get an injection. She always said that she would only get an injection when Brother Qingyang came back. We couldn't do anything about it. In the end, she couldn't take it anymore and fainted. The doctor gave her an injection. I remember that I was only in high school at that time. I was scared and anxious. I hugged my sister all night. At that time, the doctor said that if she had been a little later, she would have lost her life. At that moment, I hid in the toilet outside the ward and cried for an entire afternoon. I couldn't allow myself to lose her. If I had to exchange my life for it, I was willing. She's my sister, my biological sister."
"In the end, I don't know what method you used to coax her to make her happy. From then on, she has been sticking to you. You guys went to school together, played together after school. At that time, our family was very happy and thought that she would get better. Looking at her pale face, I really wanted to cry. Little Yang, I'm not blaming you. I know you have a way. As long as she was happy, nothing mattered. Do you understand?"
"Don't worry, Brother Xiaoqi. I'll make her happy. I remember what you said. You're afraid of losing her, but I'm even more afraid. She's like my family. I treat her life as more precious than mine. At that time, I watched the doctors rush in and out, but she still didn't take medicine or injections. I waited outside the ward for three whole days. My parents finally dragged me away, but when dawn came, I still ran over.”
" Looking at her in the ward, I kept crying. I pulled the doctor and asked if she would die. The doctor smiled and told me that she was just having a fever and was fine. I didn't dare to leave because I was afraid that she would leave us for no reason like Brother Qingyang. I went to ask my grandfather and he told me that Fei 'er's heart was tied to Brother Qingyang.”
" I understood. I told her that Brother Qingyang had gone overseas, and then I imitated Brother Qingyang's handwriting to write her a letter. At that time, how could she have thought that I had asked my grandfather to imitate that letter? She had always thought that it was Brother Qingyang who had written it to her, so she liked to play with me. Until we were in middle school, she found out once. I was afraid that she would blame me, but she smiled at me and said,'It's okay. Actually, she already knew about it a long time ago. She just didn't want us to be sad.' She pretended not to know. I know that all these years, she has always treated me as Brother Qingyang's substitute, but I still like her and am willing to let her treat me as a substitute. This way, at least I can be by her side to take care of her.”
"Last year, I filled in the same university as her, but who knew that my father would secretly change my choice? I know they're doing this for my own good. They want me to go into politics in the future, but this is not what I want. I just want to be with Fei 'er, even if it means being a substitute. Don't laugh at me for being stupid. In fact, is there anyone in this world who isn't stupid?”
Listening to the conversation between Bai Shiqi and Shao Yang, Ren Zhong's heart tightened. Fei 'er, have you not forgotten me? Have I really become a knot in your heart?
Back then, I had no choice but to leave. Forgive me, please forgive me. Ren Zhong had already left after seeing Bai Junfeng and Shao Kang in the corridor. When he returned to the school apartment, he lay on the bed but could not fall asleep. His mind was filled with Bai Mengfei's unconscious appearance. After trying a few times, he simply sat up, put on his clothes, and went to the hospital. He knew that there were not many people in the hospital at night, so no one would see him.
He also knew that Bai Shiqi was accompanying Bai Mengfei in the hospital that night. He had known since he was young that Bai Shiqi loved his sister very much. He remembered one time when Bai Mengfei was beaten up by a child. Bai Shiqi dragged her to that person's house and almost got into a fight. If Bai Mengfei fell or touched him, Bai Shiqi would feel guilty for a long time. Sometimes, they would joke that Bai Shiqi had a sister fetish.
Bai Shiqi didn't deny it. He always said," You should find a sister and try this feeling!" They had spent their childhood and teenage years playing around. It was a wonderful time. Shao Yang and Bai Mengfei followed them around like two little bugs. However, the past could not be returned. What could they do? When Ren Zhong heard that Bai Mengfei had fallen ill after he left, he even wanted to kill himself. He could torture himself however he wanted, but he would not allow Bai Mengfei to be wronged. No one could do that.
The person standing at the door and the two sitting in the ward each had their own thoughts. They just stood guard. The person on the hospital bed was still lying down, breathing evenly. She had no idea how many people would not sleep because of her tonight. She was still having her dream, the dream that belonged to them. The person in the dream changed from Liu Qingyang to Wang Yifan, then from Wang Yifan to Ren Zhong, and then to Shaoyang. Why?
Who did you give your love to? We are all repeating the story of love. We all believe that although this secular society has long buried true love, we are still willing to believe that true love exists.
No matter who he was, whether it was Liu Qingyang, Wang Yifan, or Shao Yang, as long as they loved him, they would believe that true love existed. No matter who Bai Mengfei chose in the end, she would not care. We all believe that the others will send their deepest blessings.
However, the world has changed. We mortals can change, but we are always passively accepting it. If Liu Qingyang hadn't been forced to leave, would he be with Bai Mengfei now? If it wasn't for his grandfather's little trick, would Shao Yang have coaxed Bai Mengfei?
If it weren't for that damn trip, would Bai Mengfei have met Wang Yifan? All of this was like a movie. There would always be an end to a movie, but life was still playing out various versions. Who should we blame?
Who is directing this tragedy? Who is planning our lives? How should we face it? Can we accept all of this? No one can tell us the correct answer.
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