Qin Yue placed Lele on the ground and looked straight at me."Do you really not know or are you just pretending to be dumb?”This time, I really didn't know what she meant. I looked at her in confusion and shook my head."I really don't know what happened. Hurry up and say it." I put on an impatient expression.
"I like you." Qin Yue looked into my eyes and said these words to me seriously.
I leaned back on the sofa and asked her calmly,"And then?"
Qin Yue didn't know how to continue. She just looked at me without saying anything. After a while, she said to me,"Do you still remember what you said three years ago? You said I was your woman. In these three years, I didn't have a boyfriend because of what you said! I've waited for three years! Today, I just want you to know that I like you.”
I couldn't bear to hurt her, but I didn't want to lie to myself. "I'm sorry, I was just drunk back then." So…" I tried my best to reject her with some tactful words, but it still hurt her. Qin Yue was trying her best to hold back her tears, but tears of grievance still flowed out of her eyes. Qin Yue stubbornly wiped away the tears on her face and asked me,"Can you give me a reasonable reason?”I took a deep puff of the cigarette and pressed the cigarette butt into the ashtray. Two columns of smoke came out of my nostrils."Actually, I had a girlfriend in university. Although she has broken up with me, I still can't forget her. I can't forget a girl in my heart. It's unfair for me to accept you.”What I said was the truth. Qin Yue's emotions stabilized a lot. She asked me again,"Do you like me?" I didn't dare to look into her eyes. I looked elsewhere and thought about it seriously. I nodded heavily and admitted,"I like it. It's just that before I completely let go of the past, I won't accept a new relationship. I'm sorry. I can only apologize to you. Now, I really can't accept it."
Although my answer didn't satisfy Qin Yue, it didn't make her sad. "Alright, I'll keep waiting." Qin Yue said.”
"Is it worth it?" I asked Qin Yue. Qin Yue wondered why I asked this question. She said, I don't understand what you mean."
I thought of Luo Xiaoqi and the mistress I beat up…Wang Lei! Rather than saying that the beating of Wang Lei tore apart the fairytale love that had been perfect for more than ten years in Luo Xiaoqi's heart, it was better to say that I personally destroyed all the faith and affirmation of love in my heart. Before that day, I still firmly believed in the existence of love. I even firmly believed that our breakup was because love had lost to distance and time. But…However, the final ending told me that there was no love. I had no love. The so-called " love " that I once believed in was just a gorgeous stage play. From the beginning, there was a moment of curtain call. What I didn't expect even more was that even if the love that I believed in was a stage play, the sad thing was that the male lead wasn't me. At most, I was just an extra! She would do her best to prepare for every scene for the male lead's appearance. Then, as the male lead made his grand entrance, I dejectedly left the stage. I don't even have the qualifications to enjoy the finale of this stage play…This is the love I once believed in!
Everything was fake! Qin Yue said that she wanted to continue waiting. I don't know how long she can wait for me. Maybe she can wait for another three years, maybe two three years, maybe many three years…I believe she can do what she says, but I really don't know if it's worth it for her to wait like this. I've been with Luo Xiaoqi for so long, but she concluded that she was a demon, a criminal, and a murderer. I really don't dare to think about what conclusion Qin Yue would give me! Would it be more cruel than this? I didn't dare to believe in anything. In terms of love, I couldn't even believe in myself.
What I want to tell Qin Yue is that if you wait for a completely unfamiliar me, will you think that your wait is worth it? But I didn't say it out loud in the end. Instead, I said something else to Qin Yue."I mean, do you know me? Are you sure you can wait for me?"
Qin Yue insisted on her own thoughts and firmly said that she was sure. I believed her. I opened my arms and hugged Qin Yue tightly. Qin Yue was stunned by my sudden hug. She didn't resist or break free. After a long time, she came back to her senses. She hugged my waist and buried her head in my neck. "Qin Yue," I whispered into her ear. I'm sorry, I don't want to hurt you. You're still young. You'll meet better boys than me. You've waited for me for three years, but what you've waited for is a me who no longer believes in myself or love. Do you still think your wait is worth it?”Qin Yue didn't say anything, but I felt a warm sensation on my neck. Her tears burned me so much. I gently pushed her away and wiped away the tears at the corner of her eyes. I looked into her eyes and slowly moved my lips closer. Qin Yue didn't expect me to kiss her. She closed her eyes tightly and her long eyelashes fluttered like two small fans. She clenched her hands nervously, waiting for my kiss to land on her lips. Our faces gradually approached each other. I could even see the fine hair on her face. Qin Yue bit her lips tightly. It must be the first time she had such intimate actions with a boy.
I gave up the idea of kissing her lips and only planted a light kiss on the corner of her mouth.
Qin Yue's face was flushed red and she looked extremely cute. She slowly opened her eyes and looked at me who was smiling in front of her. She licked the corner of her mouth that I had kissed and said,"Handsome, your kiss is sweet.”
I reached out my finger and tapped her small nose."Girl, you're fine. When I walk out of my sadness, I'll come back to find you.”
Qin Yue clenched her right fist and extended her pinky finger in front of me."Pinky swear!"
I pinky swear with my pinky.
"Pinky swear, hang yourself, and don't change your mind for a hundred years! Otherwise, it's this!" Qin Yue pointed at Lele, who was sleeping soundly on the ground.
"Yes, I am. You can't change for a hundred years, or you'll be a puppy.”I said.
"Handsome, your hair is so long!”Qin Yue scratched my long left sideburns and accidentally saw the hole in my left ear. Do you have pierced ears?"
I touched my left ear and smiled."If you didn't mention it, I would have forgotten.”Qin Yue removed the two earrings on her ear and put one on my left ear. She put the other on her left ear and stared at my ear for a while."It's quite nice. Like a girl. Handsome, did anyone say you look like a girl?”
It had been a long time since I wore an ear stud, so I wasn't used to wearing it today. I touched the ear stud and said,"In university, I was mistaken for a girl several times. Just as I finished speaking, Qin Yue reached out and lifted my chin. Then, she narrowed her eyes and pretended to be manly."Little girl, smile for me!”I pushed her hand away and glared at her."Don't mess around. You're the chick, okay?" Qin Yue chuckled and said to me,"If you don't smile for me, I'll smile for you.”I found a girl, no matter how cool she is! She was still as mischievous as a child in front of the boy she liked.
" Handsome, I can…" Qin Yue hesitated.
"What do you want to say?" I asked her.
"Can I take a look at your tattoo?" Qin Yue asked.”
I said,"What's there to see?"”
However, Qin Yue refused to give up. I was afraid that she would tear the roof off, so I agreed. I was about to roll up my sleeves when Qin Yue asked me,"What are you doing?"
I said,"Didn't you want to see the tattoo? If you don't roll up your sleeves, what will you think?”
Qin Yue wanted to say it, but she was too embarrassed to say it. She stammered for a long time before she managed to say a complete sentence."You…take off your clothes…take them off?”Qin Yue's face turned red as soon as she said the last word. Not to mention her, even I feel embarrassed."This…isn't good? I can see it even if I roll up my sleeves.”
"No!" Qin Yue insisted that I take off all my clothes. I began to suspect that she had long planned to steal my body tonight. I couldn't persuade Qin Yue, so I had no choice but to force myself. Qin Yue covered her face with her hands."Don't worry, I won't peek." You're not peeking? If you don't peek, you should cover it up! Such a wide gap between his fingers, hypocritical!
When I stood in front of Qin Yue with my upper body bare, Qin Yue saw my strong chest muscles, dozens of hideous scars on my body, and of course, the wolf tattoo on my left arm. She opened her mouth in surprise. Her hands gently stroked every scar on my upper body, and her slightly cold fingers brushed past my chest bit by bit. In the end, her hands passed through my armpits and hugged my back. She pressed her face against my chest and kissed the dark red scar on my chest with trembling lips. She muttered,"What kind of past have you experienced? What kind of danger had he endured? What kind of man are you?" I rested my chin on the top of her head and listened to her whisper in my chest. A strange warmth flashed through my heart. Then, small waves of warmth gathered in my heart. Slowly, my entire heart was drowned by the warmth. Suddenly, I felt a pain in my chest. I looked down and saw two rows of teeth marks on my chest. Blood was seeping out bit by bit. Qin Yue stood in front of me with her head lowered. She whimpered softly as tears fell to the ground.
I wanted to hold her face and ask her what was wrong. She buried her head in my chest and tears flowed out unbridled. They dripped onto my chest and slowly flowed down along the lines of my abdominal muscles. I hugged her and asked her gently,"What's wrong?"”
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