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"Wow, you have so many books." Duan Li said while panting.

Jian Chuan looked at Duan Li, who was breathing heavily, and said,""No, it's fine. By the way, why is your hair so wet and your breathing so fast? Are you here for class?”

Duan Li calmed down her rapid breathing, then tilted her head and tried to dry her wet hair with her hands. As he wiped, he said in pain,"Well, you don't know. If we're late for class, we'll be fined.”

"Oh, I see!" Jian Chuan replied indifferently.”

"Let me tell you some of the rules of this class! In this class, if you're a minute late, you'll be fined 50 cents. If you're two minutes late, you'll be fined one yuan. If you're more than three minutes late, you'll be fined two yuan. If he missed a class, he would be fined five yuan. The money that was fined was used as class fees. They were fined for being late. Do you think the school is short of money?”Duan Li explained.

"Oh, I see." Jian Chuan continued.”

Duan Li felt that Jian Chuan was not afraid of the rules in this class at all. She looked at him directly and said,"Why didn't you feel surprised or angry after hearing it?”

" Maybe the form teacher wants us to study better and follow the school's rules and regulations!" Jian Chuan replied calmly.”

Duan Li ignored her wet hair and said angrily,""I don't know if he wants us to study better or not. But I think it's true that he wants to earn some money from us students. I think they think it's easy to earn money from us students, so they made up some bullshit rules and regulations.”Then, she tried to dry her hair and continued,"Your previous school shouldn't have such bullsh * t rules and regulations!”

Jian Chuan was silent for a while. He looked at Duan Li and said sadly,""You might not believe me if I tell you. Since you've asked, I'll give you a simple answer! In the previous school, our class rules were stricter than yours, and it was even more perverted. The punishment for being late was even harsher. Two yuan for a minute late, five yuan for two minutes late, and if he missed a class, he would have to hand in fifty yuan, write a self-reflection, and accept public criticism in class.”

Duan Li paused for a moment when she heard Jian Chuan's terrifying number. She continued to dry her hair and said,""Ah! I thought that your school was more righteous, but it turned out to be even more abnormal than our school.”

"Maybe it's just like you said, it's easy to earn money from students!" Jian Chuan said helplessly.”

Duan Li imitated Jian Chuan's tone and said with a wicked smile,""Maybe it's like what you said. It's to let you study better and follow the school's rules and regulations!”

It was unknown when the form teacher came to the class and said to the students,"It's Friday today. You should move your seats to the left and right. Why haven't you moved?”As soon as the homeroom teacher finished speaking, the students quickly got busy as if they had received an order. The classroom was like a battlefield. The ear-piercing sound of desks rubbing against the floor could be heard. From time to time, the sound of stools falling to the ground could be heard. Sometimes, there would be the sound of books falling, and there would also be the noise of students arguing. In short, a variety of sounds gathered together to form a chaotic and ear-piercing music. As time passed, the classroom slowly regained its peace. Occasionally, it would make that ear-piercing sound. But in the end, it was overshadowed by the peaceful situation.

The homeroom teacher said," When I see that all of you are listless, all of you stand up. Bring out your spirit and sing the song 'For Whom' for me. I think this song is quite nice. Come, let's invite our music committee member to help us start.”The music committee member stood up and started the song cooperatively. We stood reluctantly and sang this old-fashioned song. When she looked up, she realized that the form teacher was already very engrossed in singing.

……

who you are

for whom

My comrade, when will you come back?

who you are

for whom

My brothers and sisters don't cry

Who is the most beautiful

Who is the most tired

My fellow countrymen, my comrades

my brothers and sisters

sisters

The end of the song was replaced by the somewhat frustrated class. The class teacher was explaining passionately, but there were always only a few students who responded to the class teacher. Jian Chuan thought to himself, The stage is better for the masses. There was always a bit of sadness and desolation on a stage where one was alone.”As the bell rang for the end of class, the form teacher said with a helpless expression,"I've only explained a few questions to you, and the bell has already rung the footsteps of farewell. I originally planned to explain a few more questions to you today, but it seems that I can only wait until tomorrow. Alright? Students, rest after class." At this moment, the students cheered up and gave a round of applause. They didn't know if this applause meant that the class teacher had given a very good lecture and that the students were very serious. He still reminded the form teacher that it was time for class to end. He felt a moment of joy for sending the form teacher off.

Duan Li stood up and simply tied up her long hair, saying,"This class is finally over again. I've regained my freedom. Look at how devastated I am. I won't talk about it anymore. To celebrate my freedom, I'm going to the toilet to relax.”

Jian Chuan muttered to himself,"You can go to the toilet by yourself. Tell me. You even made such a big fuss, as if you were afraid that the world would not know that you went to the toilet alone.”A girl on the left of Jianchuan smiled and said,""Her! Just like that, she said whatever she wanted to say. She never cared about others, nor did she ask others, nor did she care about their feelings.”

Jian Chuan looked at the girl and felt a little regretful that he had met her earlier. He gave her a thumbs up and said,""Gao, do you really know her?"

The girl looked into Jian Chuan's eyes and replied without any modesty,""Hehe, it's alright. By the way, I haven't told you my name yet. I'm Mei Jiao. They call me Xiao Mei or Jiao Mei.”

Jian Chuan said,"Mei Jiao, what an elegant name."”

"Thank you," said Mei Jiao happily. Very few people use such a fitting word to describe my name. Did they all like to call Mei Jiao by her name? Calling Jiao-mei coquettish?"

"Don't you feel angry when they call you that?"”

Mei Jiao said,"What's there to be angry about? A name is just a form of address." Besides, when someone called you that, you wouldn't feel disgusted. Instead, it felt appropriate.”

"That's right," Jian Chuan said in confusion.”

" There's a saying," Mei Jiao explained." The more familiar you are with someone, the more perverted his behavior will be." So, the person who dares to address you like this can't be a stranger, right?”As she spoke, she let out a pleasant sound.

Duan Li came back from the toilet and looked at Mei Jiao.""Hey, coquettish, you're smiling so innocently while I'm not around. Are you hitting on your new deskmate? " Do you want to…" Jian Chuan's face turned as red as an apple when he heard Duan Li's words.

Mei Jiao saw the change in Jian Chuan's expression and said,""Duan Li, look at you. How can you bully a new classmate like this? Look at her blushing face. You can't do this.”

Duan Li lowered her head and looked at Jian Chuan.""Why is your face so red? Did you catch a cold? Could it be that you're shy about what you said just now? No way! You're a big boy, yet you're blushing." Just like that, Jian Chuan was treated as a joke by the two deskmates. Fortunately, the bell of the class interrupted their conversation. Mei Jiao handed over a note and said,"Just now, I was joking with you. Don't take it too seriously."”

Jian Chuan opened the note, looked at it, and replied,""No, nothing. Just listen to the class!”

Duan Li tilted her head and chuckled softly.""I didn't know you were so shy.”

Jian Chuan looked at Duan Li and said with a smile,""There are still many things you don't know. You will slowly find out in the future.”

"Hehe, is that so?" Duan Li laughed evilly. Then I'm looking forward to it."

"That person?" Jian Chuan asked Duan Li softly. Who was it? Why does he look so young?"

"Which one is he referring to?" Duan Li pretended not to know.”

"That's right. Which teacher is on the podium? What's his name?"”

Duan Li glanced at the podium and said slowly,""Oh, him? He is our geography teacher. His surname is Xu, and his name is Saint."

Jian Chuan said,"Xu Sheng, hehe, why not Xu Bai?"”

Mei Jiao whispered,"If you're not afraid of being heard, then continue to speak boldly!"”

Jian Chuan looked at Mei Jiao and found that there was only a book on music on her table. She had nothing else. She was holding a nail clipper in her hand, burying her head in the ground to trim her long nails. From time to time, she would blow on her little hands. "It's time for class. Why is there nothing on your desk?" Jian Chuan whispered. Aren't you afraid that the teacher will find out and scold you?”

"He won't care about us," Mei Jiao said indifferently. As long as we don't speak loudly during class, he won't pay attention to us. That's why I think he's very good.”Jian Chuan looked at Mei Jiao, then at the teacher on the podium, and slowly lowered his head.

Xu Sheng was 1.75 meters tall. He is our geography teacher. He looked to be around 25 or 26 years old. Perhaps it was because he had just graduated from a teacher's college and did not have enough experience in teaching. He was also not used to dealing with and coordinating with his classmates. Therefore, his classmates felt very relaxed in class. However, he only had one request for his students, and that was to not make any noise during class.

" Ding, ding, ding." As the bell rang for the end of the class, the classroom was filled with noise that had not been heard for a long time. When Teacher Xu heard the bell ring, he did not say anything. He only looked at the students below with a helpless expression and walked straight out of the classroom.

Mei Jiao said happily,"Oh my, class is finally over again."”

"Yeah, that's right!" Duan Li also said casually. The class was finally over. It had only been a few minutes, but it felt like a century had passed.”Then, she stood up and stretched.

Mei Jiao looked at Jian Chuan, who had his head buried, and said,""You're still so serious after class. Seriously, why are you working so hard? How good would it be to be free like us, to learn if we want to, to relax if we don't want to, and to listen to music?”

" You're angry?" Duan Li also looked at Jian Chuan and said," Are you angry because I made a joke with you just now?" Are you going to ignore us just like that? Aiya, you're really a little…"

Jian Chuan slowly raised his head and looked at Duan Li and Mei Jiao. Then, he said,""What's next?"

"Rest on your own," they replied.”

"What? Rest by yourself?" Jian Chuan asked in confusion.”

Mei Jiao explained," In the teacher's words, it's to revise by yourself. Do you understand now?"”

Jian Chuan looked at Mei Jiao and said,"Oh, I understand."”

" I really hope we can go to class earlier next time," Duan Li said to Mei Jiao." That way, we can go back to sleep earlier."”

"That's right, that's right." Mei Jiao clapped her hands. Aiya, I suddenly feel that today has passed so quickly. If only every day was like this.”

"Aren't there four classes at night?" Jian Chuan interrupted them.”

Duan Li reached out and touched Jian Chuan's forehead, then touched her own forehead and said,""No, I don't have a fever! Why are you talking nonsense! What do you mean by four classes in the evening? We're already exhausted from three classes, and there are still four classes? Isn't that asking for our lives?"

"I don't think you still treat our school as your old school, do you?" Mei Jiao added. You were so pitiful in the past. Now, do you realize that our school is very good?”

Jian Chuan quickly waved his hand and said,""Go, go, go." Then, he looked at Mei Jiao with a bitter smile. Fortunately, time passed quickly and classes started again. Mei Jiao was reading her music book, humming a tune from time to time. Duan Li took out her literature book and read it quietly. Sometimes she smiled, and sometimes she looked sad.

"Are you free after class?" Jian Chuan asked Mei Jiao.

"Yes, why are you looking for me?" Mei Jiao asked in surprise.”

"Then let's find a place to chat after class. How about that?"”

"Alright!" Mei Jiao quickly agreed.”Mei Jiao continued to hum the tune after she finished speaking. Jian Chuan continued to read his book. After an unknown period of time, class finally ended. Some of the students in the classroom left the classroom one after another, while some volunteered to stay behind to read and study. Duan Li said goodbye to Jian Chuan and Mei Jiao before disappearing from the classroom.

Mei Jiao looked at Jian Chuan and said,"What do you want to say to me?”

"Why? Do you like music?" Jian Chuan whispered. When I saw you just now, I realized that you were very intoxicated in it. I called you a few times and you didn't answer me. You enjoyed the feeling of music very much.”

Mei Jiao rubbed the back of her head and said with a strange expression,"I'm really sorry. I was a little engrossed just now and didn't affect your studies.”

Jian Chuan replied,"No, the song you were humming was very beautiful and pleasant." I just feel that there is a trace of sadness in your humming, and that sadness seems to be telling you about your own past. Why? Was there something unhappy in the past?”

"Sad?" Mei Jiao asked doubtfully. Past? Unhappy? Why do you say that? Do you know music too?”

"As the saying goes, happiness comes from the heart. Just now, I accidentally heard you humming a tune, and there was a trace of sadness in every part of it. Moreover, your expression also seems a little sad, so I feel that you're a little unhappy!”

Mei Jiao replied," Hehe, happiness comes from the heart. It's a pretty good phrase. I guess your language is very good." Actually, what you said was just my expression when I imagined that I was the one who finished the song. It doesn't mean that I'm unhappy. However, this place did tell a little of my past, and it also contained a little bit of my own sad feelings.”

Jian Chuan: " Your past???"

"How is it? Do you want to hear it?" My…past."

"If it's possible, I really want to hear it." But…I'm afraid you won't be willing to tell me.”

She took another deep breath and slowly exhaled."The past is really nostalgic. Yesterday was really beautiful, but today is a little regretful.”

Jian Chuan looked at Mei Jiao and said hesitantly,""In the past? Nostalgia? Yesterday? Beautiful? Today? Regret?"

Mei Jiao was silent for a while before she said,"Actually, I'm a transfer student like you." In my previous school, there were no friends who liked music like me. We discussed music every day, and music was the bridge between me and them. Every day there was especially happy. However, because I loved music too much, I neglected my studies. I did badly in an exam. My teacher enlightened me and told me to study hard. Then, the teacher told my father about my situation in school. So my father didn't ask me anything and thought that I had made some bad friends. So he helped me with the transfer procedures without telling me. Then, he said to me,'Perhaps I would be better off in a different environment.' At that time, I could only stare at him blankly and could not say anything.”

Jian Chuan said," It seems that you really like music. You like that place from before. No wonder there was a lot of sadness in the tune you hummed just now." I think when you heard that your father had already completed the transfer procedures for you, you must have felt a lot of reluctance. It might even be a little painful!"

Mei Jiao looked at Jian Chuan and nodded,""Yes, I like music very much. Music is my everything. I can use those songs to express the feelings that I lack in reality. I even treat them as my spiritual pillar. When I heard that my father had completed the transfer procedures for me, I cried at that moment. I cried very sadly because there was no one I liked, no memories of me, no reluctance to part.”As she spoke, she seemed to be twitching a little.

Jian Chuan took out a few pieces of paper from under his desk and handed them to her, saying,""I'm really sorry to have reminded you of your sad past.”

Mei Jiao wiped her red eyes."No, I'm sorry for disturbing your studies just now. I'm really sorry to have you listen to my sad stories now.”

" It's okay," Jian Chuan said." We just met not long ago, and I'm already able to hear your sad stories. I also know that you and I are transfer students. I'm touched and honored."”

Mei Jiao held back her tears and forced a smile."Can I ask you a few questions?”

"Why are you so polite all of a sudden?" Jian Chuan asked.”

"Do you think that our studies are really useful?" Mei Jiao said slowly. What is the purpose of our studies? Could studying really change one's fate?”

"How should I answer your question?" asked Jian Chuan after thinking for a while.”

Mei Jiao slowly put down the music book and took a deep breath. Then, he looked up at the ceiling, then at those who were still studying after class, and then at Jian Chuan,""Don't you think that they, including me, don't feel tired when their daily lives are filled with eating, sleeping, and reading?”

"Do you feel tired?" asked Jian Chuan.”

Mei Jiao: " Tired. I feel very tired. I hate this kind of life. I don't like this kind of life even more. However, I didn't have much of a choice.”

Jian Chuan looked at the students in the front row and replied,""Choice? Tired? In fact, many times, we don't have many choices. Look at them. They chose to study hard, so they accepted the tiredness. I think in their eyes, this kind of tiredness is very meaningful.”

"Tired? Meaningful? Then what was their purpose? Was it to win the teacher's favor and win the praise of the students? Is studying really that important?"

Jian Chuan looked at Mei Jiao and pointed at the students in front of him.""Perhaps, in your eyes, studying is not that important. They studied so hard to win the favor of their teachers and the approval of their classmates. More importantly, they carried the vision and hope of some people.”

"What's the point of forcing yourself to do something that you don't want to do with the eyes and hopes of others?"”

"It's meaningful to do what you want to do." However, do we have a choice sometimes?”

"Choice?"

"Hmm, choice?" We don't have many choices in the face of many meaningful things now? Because, more or less, we all carry the vision and hope of many people. Perhaps, choosing to do something meaningful was important to oneself, but life was not just about living for oneself, but also living for others.”

"Is studying really useful?" Can studying really change our future?”

"This question?" Jian Chuan looked at Mei Jiao blankly. I don't know now? I'm also looking for an answer."

"Then you have an answer. Can you tell me?"”

"Definitely."

Mei Jiao: " You said that they studied so hard just to get two more points. Is that interesting?"”

"Do you think it's interesting?"”

Mei Jiao: " I don't think it's interesting at all. It's already over and they're still reading. They'll become nerds in the future. Let's see if they still read."”

"You think it's meaningless?" Perhaps they felt that it was meaningful. From the scores, they could get indirect satisfaction and even discover their own self-worth. Only then would they have the confidence and courage to continue working hard. If they didn't have points, they might think that everything they did was in vain. They might even lose themselves and find no direction in life.”

"What you said tonight has made me understand a lot.”

"Is that so?" Haha."

"Yes! Yes, it was. I still have something to do, so I'll leave first. You should go back and rest early."

"Okay, be careful on the road."”Then, Mei Jiao left the classroom. Tan Junyu walked down and looked at Jianchuan.""Let's go! After chatting with the beauty, we went back to the dormitory together.”

"Okay," replied Jian Chuan.

"What were you talking about with Mei Jiao just now? Why aren't you interested in her?"”

"You're so nosy."

Tan Junyu might have realized that he was being a busybody, so he didn't say anything and just waited for Jian Chuan. Jian Chuan tidied up his books and left the classroom with Tan Junyu. Back in the dormitory, Jian Chuan continued to think about Mei Jiao's words. Can studying really change one's fate? At this moment, Jian Chuan was really conflicted. If that 'incident' had not happened, he would have told Mei Jiao in a firm tone. However, he didn't know how to explain it to her now. That night, Jian Chuan thought about many things. He thought about the new form teacher and the teachers here. He didn't know if he had made the right decision to transfer schools. He soon fell asleep in a daze.

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