Instead of saying that Ding Nan wrote a long letter to Sun Guowei, it was more like an article. She knew that she had a specialty. The articles she wrote were emotional and touching. She could often move herself first before moving others. The fact that she had been praised and won countless awards since she was young gave her this confidence. Why did he bother to write it? Perhaps, she wanted to take a gamble. She still wanted to fight for it. Even though she did not have much feelings for him, the conditions were too tempting. She knew the convenience of being a soldier. Moreover, he was not bad.
She had a feeling that Sun would contact her again. As for how their relationship would develop, she was not sure. She could only watch as she walked. But she was willing to lose! She was young then and had some courage to gamble and fight for it.
For those three nights, she did not receive his messages as usual. For some reason, she felt a little disappointed. She could only comfort herself that he needed time to think about it. This was not a small matter. On the fourth and fifth night, everything was still silent. Her heart lightened and she began to shift her thoughts to the revision for the postgraduate entrance examination.
On Saturday evening, she was calmly doing English reading comprehension when her phone on the bed lit up and rang. She walked over and picked it up. The screen flashed with the words " Sun Guowei." She hesitated for a moment before answering the call.
"Are you at home?" His voice was soothing and gentle, a pure baritone tone. His tone was the same as when he spoke, without any difference and without any shock. However, since this was the first time they had talked, she still felt a little unfamiliar. They had been communicating through text messages before.
"I'm here." she said.
"I'm near your house. Come down. Let's meet at the place where we ate last time and have a meal together. I'll go over and wait for you."
"Alright then."
Sitting in front of him, she was a little shy and embarrassed to look into his eyes. Previously, he had not given her a buffer, so she did not know what he would say.
"How was your week?" he asked as he called for the waiter to bring over the menu.
"It's alright." She glanced at him and tried her best to make her smile look natural and light.
"I've read the email. I really didn't expect it to be like this."
"Why do you still want to see me?" She looked at him and asked. She decided to be brave and not be shy.
"Some things cannot be erased. At worst, we can still be very good friends. I think we get along very well." He said it honestly, without giving her any guarantees or promises. Of course, he could not give her feelings, and she did not need them.
"Oh, yeah." She suddenly felt relaxed. There was no need to think so much. It was indeed not bad to be friends. The two of them had never had a beginning. No matter what form their relationship was in, it was actually easy. They were afraid that if they were close to each other, it would be very painful and helpless to return to being friends.
Her favorite pickled fish was served. He picked up the small bowl in front of her and filled it up for her. Then, he brought it over again. His eyes were filled with pity as he said,"Eat more, eat more. You're too skinny. The last two times I saw you, you looked like you were eating cat food.”
She smiled and lowered her head to drink the soup.
After that, just like before, he would send her a message every night. It was still a lukewarm greeting," What are you doing?”"Did you read books today?" " The weather is cold, wear more when you go out." Her heart was also calm. Every night, she methodically reviewed her English and planned to sign up for a sprint class in the near future.
Every Saturday, he would ask her out. Sometimes, he would invite her to his office to play, and sometimes, he would ask her to accompany him to the National Library. At that time, he was editing a textbook and would often go there to look up information. It was then that she found out that soldiers did not have ID cards. Their military ID cards were their ID cards.
That feeling was the feeling of companionship. She felt that it was also very good. He did not have a girlfriend, and she did not have a boyfriend. Moreover, they got along well. Wasn't it a warm thing for the two of them to be together as companions?
Do you like each other? Of course, she liked him. Otherwise, why would she spend so much time and energy to accompany someone she had nothing to do with? However, to Ding Nan, that kind of love was not the kind of crazy devotion that could not be controlled like a moth flying into a flame. She had slowly become rational, indifferent, and realistic. It was better to have him. Without him, she would not look forward to it or feel disappointed. However, she was still gambling with him. She wanted to use this method to gamble on his feelings and gamble on his future.
Perhaps he felt that he owed her, or perhaps he still pitied her. When the two of them spent money together, he never let her pay. Even though her salary was actually higher than his, he always said that his company's welfare was good and he had nowhere to spend the money he earned. He would give her all the benefits from the unit. She said no, no, but he still brought it up. He said that he did not need anything to eat in the canteen as a single person. He would also ask her to buy more revision materials and electronic dictionary. He would also ask her to issue an receipt and say that his unit could reimburse her.
Her heart also began to soften. Sometimes, she would invite him to her place to cook for him. At the end of autumn and the beginning of winter, she stood in front of the window and looked out at the misty night sky. Occasionally, she would feel melancholy and confusion. What would happen in the future?
Recently, Ya Jing and Fang Yuan had been looking at houses everywhere, mainly in the surrounding areas of Tongzhou. Considering that it was convenient to look at houses and move, the young couple planned to choose a smaller house and pay for it before getting married. Rong Xiaozhen's wife had given birth to a child. He often went back on Fridays and rushed back on Sunday. Every time he came back, he would be beaming with joy. It was a son, very much like him.
Most of the time, she was the only one in the three-bedroom apartment. It was empty. She had already registered for the postgraduate entrance exam online and confirmed it on the spot. She had applied for the art history theory direction of the city's National Normal University and followed her undergraduate major. She wanted to apply for a Chinese related major that she liked, but she was really not confident. Every night, she was divided into three parts. While she was revising her English, she also began to revise her politics and major.
Sun Guowei's information began to shift from the trivial details of life to the topic of postgraduate entrance examination. There were several colleagues around him who were taking the postgraduate entrance examination. He knew a little about it. He would tell her where his colleague, Wang Shuping, who was also taking the postgraduate entrance exam this year, had signed up for and how the results were. He would also tell her how his other colleague, Huang Kai, had quickly made a breakthrough in politics. He would also tell her that the postgraduate entrance exam had entered the most critical revision stage and that she should focus on preparing for the exam. He was afraid of disturbing her, so they would not meet again after seeing each other twice. They would meet again after she finished the exam.
Once, he sent a message saying that he seemed to be starting to rely on her a little and was used to having her in his life. She was silent. She was the same. When she did not receive his message, she would start to let her imagination run wild.
Perhaps the true meaning of love was companionship and habit, nothing else. The essence of falling in love and falling out of love is habit. Habit has you, and habit doesn't have you. However, when it comes to relationships, we want it to last forever. This is the last time, and there won't be a next time.
On the second Saturday of November, they went shopping in the city and bought some books at Xidan Book Building. In the evening, they went back to the Sichuan restaurant in Tongzhou for dinner. Then, as usual, he went back to his dormitory and she sent him off. They stood by the roadside waiting for the bus.
"Have you ever loved anyone?" He turned around and asked her.
"I did, but I've never said 'I love you' to anyone. Those three words were only worthy of those who were worthy. I'm afraid I'll regret it if I say it." she said, her eyes fixed on the ghostly building under construction on the other side of the road in the hazy night, not looking at him.
"It's quite profound. I think so too." he said as he glanced at her and followed her gaze to the other side.
For a long time, the two of them did not speak and were silent.
Two yellow beams of light shot over and poured down on the road in front of them like water. The car he was waiting for was slowly approaching.
He looked at the car and then at her. She was about to wave goodbye to him when he instantly pulled her into his arms.
He whispered in her ear,"But I think I'm in love with you. I'm a little scared."”
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