The Sound of Flying Silenced
Hidekazu had gone to the army and left his wife, Feiyin, at home.
Feiyin felt strange. Her husband Xiuhe was a farmer, but her father-in-law Yuzhong was a landlord. What kind of business was this? She did not understand. If he didn't understand, then so be it. He just had to live his life. However, Feiyin was still very glad. If her husband hadn't become a middle-class farmer, wouldn't she have been kicked out of the house? Her father-in-law would have been kicked out too, and her two sisters-in-law would have been kicked out too.
Half of his father-in-law's house in the rain had been renovated and became someone else's nest. The nest in the rain had shrunk by half. Now, there was still a main house and a side house. There was also a toilet in front of Shi An's main house. The latrine was used to go out and feed the pigs. The side room was used for cooking. There was only one main room in the bedroom. How could this family sleep?
There were four people in Feiyin's family now. Feiyin, her father-in-law, and two sisters-in-law. The fourth sister-in-law was called Meiyu. She was sixteen this year and was about to get married. Her sister-in-law, Jin Yu, was fourteen years old this year. These four people were a man and three women. How could they sleep in one room?
Fortunately, this room was very big. In the rain, she thought of a way to separate the room with bamboo mats. The space between her and her daughter-in-law was smaller, and the space between her daughter-in-law and her daughters was larger. There were two beds in the big room, one for her daughter-in-law and one for her two daughters.
The days passed like this. Feiyin's relationship with her two sisters-in-law was good. The two sisters-in-law called her sister-in-law very intimately. She was actually not much older than her sisters-in-law. Since her sisters-in-law respected her so much, how could she not treat her well? Feiyin respected her father-in-law as well. She had long known that her father-in-law was a well-known Confucian scholar. He had read a lot of books and knew a lot of knowledge. It was not because he was wrong to be labeled as a landlord by the party, but because his fate was not good.
Whether or not there would be peaceful days was not something Feiyin could decide. After Xiu He joined the army, someone in Maple Ridge had been keeping an eye on Feiyin. That person was Xiu You.
The twenty-six-year-old Xiuyou was half-blind in one eye and had a few boobs on her head. She wasn't willing to work, so she was still single at this age.
Xiuyou's mother, Old Lady Yan, said," Xiuyou, you have to be more diligent. Now that you're not working long-term anymore, you're lazy. You don't care about the land anymore. If the grass grows, let it grow. What if I want to eat meat?" You're already twenty-six years old. You have to save some money to find a wife in the future!”
Xiu You said," I want to work hard and save up money. When my family becomes rich, I will be able to carry out land reform in the future. Do you want me to be a landlord?”
Old Lady Yan said,"You should at least have one, right? Am I right?"”
Xiu You said,"Or a daughter-in-law. Isn't there a beautiful woman waiting for me right now?"”
After saying that, Xiuyou went out because he saw Feiyin carrying a bucket of clothes to the pond to wash them, so he followed her to the pond.
"Are you washing clothes?" Xiu You asked.
Feiyin pretended not to hear him and continued washing her clothes.
Xiu You said,"Do you need help washing clothes?"”
"Didn't you see me washing clothes?" Feiyin asked.”
Xiu You said," Of course I saw it. Otherwise, how could I have chased you to the pond? Otherwise, how could I have asked you if you needed help? Do you really think I'm blind?!"”
Fei Yin said,"You saw it and you still asked. Could it be that you want to ask?"”
Xiu You said,"If I didn't ask, how could the two of them have anything to say?"”
Feiyin said," Two people? Who's two people like you? Are you a human?”
Xiu You said,"Of course it's you and me. Why am I not a person?" Look at me, I have arms and legs, a skull on top, and a tube of good stuff below. I wonder if you want to see it?”
Feiyin cursed at him and left with his clothes.
Xiu You followed behind her and sang,""My hair is just covering my forehead, and I'm playing in front of the door. Lang riding bamboo horse, around the bed playing green plum. Living together in Changgan, the two children have no suspicion, fourteen years old as the monarch's wife, shy face has not opened. He bowed his head to the dark wall, and did not answer a thousand calls. At the age of fifteen, I opened my eyebrows and wished to be with the dust and ashes. Always hold the pillar of faith, how can you go to the platform to look at the husband? Sixteen monarchs travel far away, Qu Tang Yan pile. May not touch, ape sound heaven sad. There was a slow movement in front of the door, and green moss grew on it one by one.
The moss is too deep to sweep away, and the autumn leaves fall early. In August, the butterflies are yellow, and the grass in the West Garden flies in pairs. Feeling this sad concubine heart, sit sad beauty old.
In the morning and evening, he went to Sanba and reported to his family in advance. It's not a long way to meet you, until you reach the sandstorm.”
By the time Xiuyou finished singing Li Bai's " Long Gan Xing," he had already followed Feiyin into Shi Antang's room. Feiyin was already filled with anger, so he casually took out a hand from his clothes bucket and threw it at Xiuyou's feet. Xiuyou saw it right, and when he saw that the hand was coming, he jumped and dodged.
Feiyin said,"Who's the concubine? Who's the man? Shameless thing!"”
Xiu You laughed and ran away. He said,""You're a concubine, I'm a man.”
Feiyin was drying clothes in the backyard and cursing,"Hooligan, hooligan, shameless thing!”
Jin Yu came out and saw her sister-in-law scolding people. She thought to herself, sister-in-law never scolded people. Why did she start scolding people? Who angered sister-in-law? "Sister-in-law, who offended you?" Jin Yu asked.”
"Who else? Blind Xiuyou!" Fei Yin said.”
Jin Yu said,"How did he offend you? Tell me and let me deal with him."”
Feiyin said,"What the hell are you cleaning up for? You're just a child. You're useless!"”
Jin Yu said," Don't say that I'm young. I can't beat him in a fight. I can scold him. I'll scold him for being blind and for cultivating his body."”
Feiyin said,"What's the use of this? The wind has already blown it away."”
Jin Yu said,"Then let's tell Old Master and let Old Master teach him a lesson. He's still Old Master's disciple."”
Feiyin said," That's even more useless. The current master is no longer the teacher. Who still remembers that he's his disciple? Everyone only knows that our master is a landlord. Can a landlord teach a poor farmer a lesson?”
Jin Yu was in a difficult position. She said,"That's true. Then I have no other choice. It's all up to you."”
After Feiyin finished drying the clothes, she picked up the flower basket and went to the field to pluck the pigweed. She walked past the pond, crossed the Camphor Ridge, and came to the field in the middle of the Golden Needle Ridge. The broad bean flowers were in full bloom. The bees were buzzing on the flowers, and the fragrance of the flowers filled the air.
Xiuyou saw Feiyin walk past the pond and caught up with him. He started singing beside Feiyin."The broad bean flowers are fragrant, and the bees are busy picking flowers. They fly here and there because of the fragrance of the tofu pudding.”
Feiyin ignored him, and Xiuyou bent over to pick up the pigweed as well. As he did so, he said,""Sister Feiyin, your Xiuhe is not at home. You must be lonely and bored.”
Feiyin didn't say anything and continued to do his own thing.
Xiu You said," Actually, missing a man is an easy thing to solve. There are men everywhere. They're far away and right in front of me. Aren't I a man?"”
Feiyin couldn't help but say,"What kind of man are you? You're a stinky man."”
Xiu You said," Why do you say I'm not a man? You haven't tried. How do you know I'm not a man?" I have everything a man has. I have a can of water. If you don't believe me, you can try it.”
Feiyin said,"You're not only a stinky man, but also a shameless man!" All the men in your family are like this. Your brother took Mei Jun's wife, and you harass me and have designs on me. When my man comes back, I'll ask him to shoot you.”
Xiu You said," Aiyoyo, why am I harassing you? I'm just concerned about you!" Your man left and no one cared about you, so I came to help. If your husband finds out, he won't be able to thank me enough!”
Feiyin said,"A dog's mouth can't spit out ivory. Are you a dog's mouth?"”
"Did I say something wrong?" Xiu You asked. Look, your husband has only been married to you for a few days and he's already gone. You've just woken up from your lust and your husband is gone. Isn't he trying to harm you? You must be itching, scratching your heart with a hundred claws. You must be thinking about a man doing his homework until you can't sleep, right?”
Feiyin was so angry that she turned around and wanted to go home. She carried the flower basket and left. There was not enough pigweed in the basket. She had no choice but to leave. Seeing that Feiyin was about to leave, Xiu You stopped him and said,""What are you going to do? I haven't even pulled out a basket full of pigweed.”
Feiyin still wanted to leave. Xiuyou blocked her way, so she went that way. Xiuyou blocked her way again, just like how children blocked sheep. Feiyin reached out to push Xiuyou. Xiuyou casually pulled Feiyin into her arms. Feiyin had sharp eyes and quickly lifted the flower basket between the two of them. Xiuyou's head fell down and she ate a mouthful of pigweed.
Feiyin laughed and said,"Pig, pig, you are a pig!"”
Xiu You said,"I am a pig, and a strong boar." You are a sow, and a sow in heat. Can you reject me, a boar?”
Xiu You's hand still hadn't let go. He pulled Feiyin's hand toward him. Feiyin put down the basket and slapped Xiu You's face, leaving five fingerprints on it.
Xiu You covered her face." You really did it, you poisonous girl. Is there anyone like you?"”
Feiyin said,"I'm warning you. If you touch me again, I'll cut off that thing below you and feed it to the dogs. I'll make you a father-in-law."”
"Aiyoyo, do you really think I'm afraid of you? Do you really think I can't beat you?" You're a woman. I'm giving in to you. I'm not afraid of you!”
Feiyin still managed to escape. As she walked, she looked behind her to see if Xiuyou had followed her. If she didn't, she would hide in another field and pull the pigweed for a while.
Xiu You covered his face and went home. As he walked, he said,""She really treated her good intentions as ill intentions. If it wasn't for the fact that she was pitiful, I wouldn't have bothered her.”
When they got home, Old Lady Yan saw a mark on her son's face and asked Xiuyou,""Who hit this? Who has the guts to hit my son? My son is priceless!”
As she spoke, Old Lady Yan went up and touched it with her hand, saying,"Quickly tell me who hit him. I want to break his fingers, I want to gouge out his eyes, and make him blind.”
Xiu You said," I didn't hit anyone. I accidentally bumped into a corner in the alley."”
The sixteen-year-old Xiu Wu said," Don't listen to me. Second Brother didn't go to the alley to play. He went to the field at Golden Mouth Ridge. Feiyin went to pull the pigweed. As soon as he left, Second Brother followed."”
Old Lady Yan said,"So this is Feiyin's doing!" Why did he hit you? A woman's hand couldn't even touch a man, let alone hit him!”
Xiu You said," You're wrong again. I can't wait for that Feiyin to touch me all day long. How comfortable is that?!"”
Old Lady Yan said,"You deserve it, you cheap bastard. I originally wanted to seek justice for you, but now I've decided not to." You're just like your boss. If you can't find a wife, you'll go and steal chickens and dogs and do some despicable things. If your master was still alive, he would break your legs.”
Xiu You said," Mother, you're wrong again. Boss and I have inherited our old master's morals. Didn't he sell water in Yue Yang for decades? Do you know how many times he has been to a brothel? Only you don't know about this. Everyone in Maple Ridge knows about it. Uncle Plum Blossom has a book about it.”
Old Lady Yan said," Is that true? No wonder that person with an exploding belly doesn't live long. He should die a horrible death for doing such a heinous thing!"”
Xiu You said," You're wrong again. A person's lifespan has nothing to do with doing good or bad. It's predestined. If God wants you to live long, then so be it. If God wants you to live short, then so be it.”
Old Lady Yan said,"Why are you always going against me? I didn't say that you would die a horrible death!"”
After a few days, Feiyin carried a basket to Maple Ridge to chop firewood. This time, she learned her lesson and brought her sister-in-law, Jin Yu. Firstly, she had a companion, and secondly, it was easy for the two of them to chop a full load of firewood.
After crossing Maple Ridge, they arrived at Dong Jiapo. This was a very long and large hillside. There were dense firewood growing on the mountain. After putting down the dustpan, the two of them started to chop. Before they could chop their hands, Xiuyou stuck to them.
Xiu You said,"Feiyin, you're chopping firewood here. Sister Jinyu, you're here too?"”
Jin Yu said,"Aren't you asking the obvious? What nonsense are you spouting?!"”
Xiu You said," That's how people talk. They talk too much nonsense and don't talk too much. If we don't talk nonsense, how can we have so much to say?" For example, I saw you eat, but I still asked you if you had eaten.”
Jin Yu said,"You're still talking nonsense. Go away, go away. Don't hinder our martial arts."”
Xiu You said," I'm here to help. It's so difficult for you two girls to chop a load of firewood. Besides, even if you chop a load, how can you carry it? Can I not come?"”
Xiu You went to take the chopper from Feiyin's hand. Feiyin didn't let her, so she pushed Xiu You away and said,""Get up, get up, you useless piece of cake. Don't get in our way.”
Xiu You snatched the chopper from Jin Yu's hand and said,""Go and rest. Your sister-in-law and I will chop firewood together. You just need to pretend to be a dustpan and don't interfere with our business.”
Wherever Feiyin chopped, Xiuyou followed. He was really a good hand at doing things, chopping firewood quickly and big. Feiyin ignored him and went about his own business.
Xiu You said to Jin Yu,"Don't follow us. Your sister-in-law and I will go to the slope over there to chop for a while."”
After saying that, Xiu You dragged Feiyin over. Feiyin raised the chopper and said,""If you touch me again, I'll kill you, dig out your eyes, and feed your heart and lungs to the dogs.”
Xiu You stuck out her tongue and said," You're so vicious. I'm here to help, but you still want to kill me."”
Jin Yu said," You have ill intentions, right? We have two sisters-in-law, and you still want to take advantage of us. You're really too bold. For no reason, why are you helping us?”
Xiu You said," Why would I have bad intentions? Look at how pitiful your sister-in-law is. Your brother left her alone and went to enjoy himself. Your sister-in-law has just tasted the sweetness of being a woman, and no one cares for her. Why can't I care for her?”
Fei Yin said,"Jin Yu, don't waste your breath on him. Take the carrying pole and drive him away."”
Jin Yu took the carrying pole and chased Xiu You. As she chased, she said,"Wild boar, let's go!"
Xiuyou could only leave. Feiyin had his sister-in-law's help, so he couldn't do it. It was useless to stay any longer.
That night, Feiyin couldn't fall asleep no matter how hard she tried. She couldn't figure out whether she couldn't fall asleep because she was thinking about Xiuhe or Xiuyou. Although Xiuyou's words were teasing, there was a certain logic to it.
Thinking about how the rooster had crowed thrice, Feiyin had an idea. She would go to Yue Yang tomorrow to look for Xiuhe. She would ask him not to be a soldier and come home to spend the rest of his life with her. When her husband came back, no one would bully her.
The next day, Feiyin told her father-in-law that she was going to Yueyang alone. She found the military unit according to the address in Xiuhe's letter and met Xiuhe. The moment she saw her husband, she started crying.
Xiu He said,"Why are you crying? This is the army, not home."”
Feiyin said,"You say I'm crying? I'm a weak woman, how can I cry?"”
Xiu He said," If you have something to say, just say it. Can crying solve the problem?”
Feiyin said,"Don't be a soldier anymore. Come back with me!" When you go back, I'll have the courage. I won't be afraid of doing things or sleeping. Even if I dream, there's nothing to be afraid of!”
"Aren't you joking?" Xiuhe asked. The army was not a game. They could come and go as they pleased. If I go to North Korea, where are you going to find me? If I kill him in North Korea, where will you find him?”
"So you don't want to go home with me?" Feiyin asked.”
Xiu He said," How can I go home with you? I'm a soldier, do you know that?”
Feiyin had no choice but to come back alone. Along the way, she was very depressed. She didn't feel anything when she saw anyone or anything. She only thought about her dirty things.
Feiyin could not stay at home for two days. She only wanted to do things outside. Besides, if she did not do anything, things at home would get out of hand. With this thought in mind, Feiyin went out. She carried a flower basket and went to the broad bean field in Jinzui Ridge to pull the pigweed.
The broad bean flower was withering, the broad bean fruit was already taking shape, and the pigweed was also beginning to age. The color of the Gerian Grass had become darker, and the cotton grass was no longer exposed. Such pigweed was no longer the favorite of pigs.
He had no choice but to pull out the pigweed and bring it home.
Just as he was pulling hard, Xiuyou came again. When he saw Feiyin, he smiled and said,"I haven't seen you for a few days. Where have you been? I heard that you went to Yue Yang to look for your husband, right? Did you sleep with him?"
Feiyin didn't say anything and continued to pluck his own pigweed.
Xiu You said," Do you know that I feel terrible when you've been gone for a few days? I'm afraid that you won't come back once you leave. I'm afraid that I won't be able to see you again."”
Feiyin didn't reply and continued to pluck his own pigweed.
Xiu You said," Do you know? I miss you so much. I miss you day and night, especially at night. I miss you so much that I can't sleep. Your face is like a flower, and your body is like a bamboo." Even though I couldn't see what was inside the clothes, I could tell what it looked like. What should be a small hill must be a small hill, and what should be a deep stream must be a deep stream.”
Feiyin still didn't answer, and continued to pluck his own pigweed.
Xiu You said," My imagination is very rich. When I sleep on the bed, I think that you're either lying on my left or right. The two of us snuggle up to each other. The two naked bodies seem to become one person. I can't tell you from me. I still imagined that we had such a tacit understanding when we did that. When we should go in, we would go in happily. When we should come out, we would come out dripping wet.”
Feiyin still didn't answer and continued to pluck his own pigweed. However, she was already crying. He didn't know why he was crying.
Xiu You clearly saw Feiyin's tears, so he judged that his words had moved Feiyin. With this judgment, he became brave. He walked forward and pulled Feiyin's hand over. He held Feiyin tightly. Feiyin couldn't struggle, so she didn't struggle anymore. She began to cry and her body was soft in Xiuyou's arms.
Xiu You said," Good child, don't cry, don't cry. It's okay if Xiu He is gone. I will take care of you."”
Feiyin was crying harder and harder, and her entire body was trembling.
Xiu You said," I'll really take care of you. I'll help you do things during the day and warm your bed at night. I'll make you so happy that you want to die." Look at how my big brother treats Yan Ai 'ai's sister-in-law. The two of them are our role models. We have to learn from them.”
As Xiu You spoke, she reached into Feiyin's clothes to feel around. As soon as she lifted her clothes, Feiyin bit her arm. It wasn't just for show. She bit her arm with all her might. Xiu You cried out in pain. He quickly let go of Feiyin's hands and jumped on the ground, trampling a broad bean seedling to death.
Feiyin relented, and Xiuyou's two shirts sank into her teeth. Xiu You said," A woman's heart is the most poisonous. I treat you so well, but you bite me so hard. This is unfair!"”
Feiyin spoke at this moment. She said,"If you continue to harass me, I will gouge out your blind eyes and bite off your penis, turning you into a eunuch.”
Xiu You left. He knew that he couldn't succeed this time. However, he had another judgment. Feiyin looked fierce, but he was tempted. He would succeed after two more attacks.
Feiyin returned home, still feeling depressed. In the evening, she went to the Refinement Hall, wanting to have a chat with Mrs. Chrysanthemum.
Chrysanthemum married Lan Xin and was already Lan Xin's third wife. Lan Xin's first wife died in childbirth, and her second wife also died in childbirth when she gave birth to her second child. Thus, Chrysanthemum married into the family. Chrysanthemum was Feiyin's sister-in-law, so Feiyin thought," Who else can I talk to if not my sister-in-law?"
Feiyin said to Chrysanthemum,"Sister-in-law, I have something to say to you. Let's find a quiet place."”
Chrysanthemum brought Feiyin to the room at the top. She lit a water wick and vegetable oil lamp, and the two of them sat down. Feiyin told her everything about Xiuyou harassing her and Xiuhe's attitude. His purpose was to ask her for advice.
Feiyin said," Sister-in-law, look at how difficult it is for me. I can't stay at home all day. I have to go out and do things!" This Xiuyou is like a thief watching my every move. When I go to the pond, he will follow me. When I go to the field, he will follow me. When I go to the mountain, he will follow me. His goal is to get me. Can I let him do it? However, Xiu He's attitude was like this. Sister-in-law, tell me what I should do. I think I'm going to die.”
Chrysanthemum said," Sister, you can't think like that. In my opinion, you should still go and find Xiuhe. He is your man. If you have difficulties, he should think of a way to solve it. Either you let him go home with you, or you live with him in Yue Yang."”
"Sister-in-law, I'm afraid that the method you suggested won't work either. Can I talk to the government?" Feiyin said.”
Chrysanthemum said," How are you going to tell the government? It's Xiuyou and the others 'world now. No matter how bad Xiuyou is, the government won't punish them." Just look at his older brother, Xiuxin. Xiuxin had taken over Yan Aiai, but the government turned a blind eye to it. They even made him an active member, a leader of the peasant association, and even a member of the party. Don't look at how Xiuyou treats you now. He will be an active member in the future and will join the party. Do you know why? They are poor farmers!"
Feiyin said," The government is always a reasonable place. My husband is still an active soldier. The government won't just ignore it, right? Sister-in-law, your statement is too negative. I still want to give it a try."”
Chrysanthemum said,"It's not impossible for you to try. I'm afraid it'll be a waste of time." The government will say that Xiuyou only harassed you and didn't rape you. There's no such thing. How do you expect us to deal with it?”
Feiyin said," This is a bandit's logic. If you insist on a tragedy happening, then you should only care about it. Why can't you stop the tragedy from happening? Why can't you prevent it in advance?”
"How to stop it? How to prevent it?" Chrysanthemum asked. Sister, don't be naive. In my opinion, you should go find Xiu He and ask him to come up with a solution.”
Feiyin said,"Finding him is a dead end. I think I only have one dead end."”
Chrysanthemum said,"Sister, don't think like this. It's better to live than to die." You're so beautiful, it's normal for someone to love you. Your husband is not at home, so it's normal for someone to harass you. You have to wear something.”
Feiyin said," Sister-in-law, look at how I feel. I can't be as shameless as Yan Aiai. I value my reputation more than my life. I can't ruin my reputation."”
Chrysanthemum said,"Sister, you are wrong. I am not asking you to cater to Xiuyou and satisfy his desires." I'm asking you to look at this matter more naturally and think of a better way to deal with this pervert.”
"Alright, then I'll go to Yue Yang."”
The next day, Feiyin went to Yue Yang to look for Xiu He. Xiu He said,"Why are you here again? You've only been back for a few days?”
Feiyin said,"If I had a way, would I have come? I came to Yue Yang to ask you to think of a way?"”
"Are you calling me home again?" Xiuhe asked.”
"That's right, either you go home, or you arrange for me to follow the army in Yue Yang."”
Xiu He said,"You're talking nonsense. I can't go home with you, nor can I leave you in Yue Yang."”
Feiyin said,"Do you know why I called you home? I didn't tell you the truth the last time. Ever since you joined the army, that hooligan Xiuyou has been harassing me, just wanting to get me. If you had gone home, this wouldn't have happened. Do you know that?”
Xiuhe said,"Ah, I see." This kind of thing couldn't be done with two hands. If you weren't in heat, where would there be a dick sniffing behind your butt?”
Feiyin said,"Are you still my husband? Are you even human?" According to what you said, I was the one who lured Xiuyou to harass me. It was my fault and my responsibility. If it was really my fault and my responsibility, would I still tell you? Do I still need you to think of a way? Isn't it good for me to learn from Yan Aiai? I'm a person who cherishes my reputation. It's fine if Xiuyou ruined my reputation, but you also ruined my reputation with him. Are you still human? What's the difference between you and that hooligan Xiuyou?”
Xiu He said," Wifey, you have to be more open-minded. You're a woman now, not a girl. You have to be more realistic in everything." It's understandable that Xiuyou loves you and touches you. You're so beautiful. It's impossible for men not to be tempted when they see you. Actually, it wasn't a big deal. After all, there was still one eye left after pulling out the radish.”
When Feiyin heard this, tears came out. She said,"You're not a man, you're just a beast. I'm not going to live with you anymore. It's fine if you die, what's the point of living?”
Feiyin left without looking back. Xiuhe stood there in disappointment. He didn't know what he had said to offend his wife, and he didn't know what his wife's words meant.
On the night she returned home, Feiyin went to the Refinement Hall to look for Chrysanthemum. She repeated the conversation she had with Xiuhe during the day and finally said,"Sister-in-law, I have no other choice but to die. This is my life. Look at how bitter my life is. I found such a husband, and he even joined the army and left me. This house actually gave birth to a hooligan like Xiuyou. These two men are my nemesis. They are my nemesis!”
Chrysanthemum said," Sister, you must not seek death. This won't do, that won't do. There's still one last way, and that is divorce! It's a new society now. Divorce is not a scandal. You can still marry again after divorce!”
Feiyin said," Whatever new society or old society, it's all the same to me. The most important thing for a woman is her reputation. A virtuous woman should not serve two husbands. How can I get a divorce? How can I remarry?" Unless Xiuhe wrote a divorce letter, I would only take the divorce letter and commit suicide. I would never marry a second man!”
Chrysanthemum said,"Then you have other ways. You can go back to your mother's house to hide and wait for Xiuhe to be discharged before coming back to live."”
Feiyin said," Why should I go to my mother's house to hide? I didn't do anything bad. If I go to hide, people will think that I did something shameful. Besides, I'm a member of the Liu family when I'm alive, and I'm a ghost of the Liu family when I die." As for what you said about waiting for Xiuhe, listen to what he said. Is that even human? Is there any point in me waiting for him?”
Chrysanthemum said,"Anyway, you can't seek death. It's good to be alive!" If you think you can't live in Gaoshan Temple, then move to my house. I'll protect you.”
Feiyin said," Sister-in-law, I thank you for your kindness. I'm Mister Yuzhong's daughter-in-law, and you're Uncle Wanren's daughter-in-law. I have a family. How can I move into your house?"”
Chrysanthemum said,"You're too stubborn. I can't do anything to you."”
Feiyin said," I've thought it through. I'll just die. Sister-in-law, don't try to persuade me. I'm just here to tell you."”
Feiyin went back to his room in Gaoshan Temple. Chrysanthemum told Lan Xin about Feiyin. Lan Xin was also helpless after hearing it. He felt that Feiyin was a good woman and a fierce woman. Such a woman was born and also acquired. Lan Xin thought that Feiyin's fate was tragic. She married the wrong person and was born in the wrong era. The problem was, who would marry and which era would give her a good fate? Lan Xin couldn't find an answer either.
Lan Xin didn't tell her father at Gaoshan Temple about this, nor did she stop Feiyin from seeking death. She felt that all her efforts were in vain. Whether she went or not, the outcome would be the same. Feiyin would definitely die. She had no future, and there was only darkness and a bottomless abyss ahead.
After sleeping for a night, Feiyin got up and went back to her parents 'home. She didn't go into the house but went straight to the ancestral grave. She knelt in front of her parents' graves and cried for four hours, saying that her parents shouldn't have given birth to her and raised her, that she shouldn't have married Xiuhe from Maple Ridge, that she shouldn't have looked like a flower, that God had given her bad luck, that she had to die, and that life was only this long.
After crying enough, Feiyin went straight back to Maple Ridge. She still did not go to her parents 'house to see her two brothers and their relatives. She did not go back to Gaoshan Temple either. Instead, she went to a hillside called Wanshuiwa, where she plucked 30 coptis roots and ate them.
Feiyin returned home, took a shower, changed her clothes, and told her father-in-law about eating Chinese goldthread. She said with tears in the rain,""Child, why are you so stubborn? Did I offend you?”
Feiyin said,"Master, you didn't offend me. It's just that my lifespan is up. The King of Hell has come to claim my life."”
"I'm only forty-four this year. How old are you? You're still a child. The road ahead is very long. You should live on and live your own good life."”
Feiyin said,"Master, take care of yourself. I can't be filial." How can I have a good life? Good days belong to others. I've eaten a stomach full of coptis. There's no way to save me. Don't find anyone to save me.”
After saying that, Feiyin moved a door and set up a footboard in the hall. She slept on the footboard with her eyes closed as if she was already dead.
In the rain, he moved a chair and sat in the middle of the hall. Tears streamed down his face as he watched his daughter-in-law die on the steps. Fei Yin's two sisters-in-law fell to the side of the pedal and cried. Jin Yu said,"This is all because of Xiu You, that bastard. I want to kill that bastard."
The goldthread was stuck in Feiyin's intestines, and her intestines were finally burned. Feiyin died from the pain, and her tongue was stuck out. She died in an ugly way. She was no longer a beauty.
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