Time passed very quickly in the midst of busyness. Tomorrow was Lu Kai's wedding, and my emotions were very unstable. At lunchtime, Xiao Yang was in a hurry for surgery. Seeing that I didn't go to the cafeteria to eat, he called for takeout for me. I was so depressed that I didn't have the appetite to eat. In order to completely stop Xiao Yang's thoughts, I directly threw the lunch box into the trash can. Xiao Yang didn't expect that I would embarrass him in front of all his sisters. He was so angry that his face turned green, but he suppressed his anger in the end. He only coldly accused me of wasting food and then went to the operating room. After that, I regretted it. I thought about what happened last time. If Xiao Yang hadn't come out to speak up for me, I would have become a negative example for the hospital. However, facing the fact that Lu Kai and Yun Shu were married, my mind was already in a mess. How could I control my emotions?
The person I love wants to marry someone else, but the person I don't love is hanging around in front of me every day. I don't know what sin I've committed in my previous life for the heavens to treat me like this!
Liu Pei saw me throw the food that Xiao Yang bought into the trash can and shouted at me angrily,""Ye Qiu, do you really think you're a noob? Doctor Xiao was the only PhD student in the hospital, and there were a lot of beautiful girls waiting to marry him!”
I didn't expect that Liu Pei, who was my good friend in the past, would speak to me like this because of Xiao Yang. If it was in the past, I would have explained to her calmly, but today, my heart was like thousands of ants crawling in it. I was very impatient and had no rationality or patience at all.
"What did you say? If you're not convinced, you can ask Xiao Yang to send it to you!”I stood up, as if I was going to fight her to the end.
Tian Qian, who was standing at the side, opened her mouth in surprise and muttered to herself,"Are you possessed today?"
"I'm just not convinced. You're just a second-hand goods. What right do you have to be proud?”Liu Pei's loud voice attracted everyone's attention. Her fat body stood in front of me without any intention of losing to me.
Liu Xue knew how to seize the opportunity to add fuel to the fire,""That's right. If she didn't use seductive tactics to seduce Xiao Yang, how could a PhD student like her fall in love with a divorced woman!”
Hearing Liu Xue's words, my anger burned and I completely lost my rationality. I rushed forward and was about to slap Liu Xue. This vixen. The department would be so peaceful without her. I'll enforce justice on behalf of the heavens today and teach her a lesson. Her hand was raised in mid-air, but Tian Qian grabbed it tightly. She shouted,"What's wrong with you today? Was he possessed? What kind of place is this? You still want to fight? Do you want to quit?”
I was awakened by Tian Qian's words and slowly retracted my palm. This is a hospital, how could I be so stupid as to fight at work? If the head nurse saw my violence just now, she would definitely be so angry that she would vomit blood on the spot.
Liu Xue saw that I kept silent and retracted my palm. She became even more interested and continued to fan the flames."Little Liu, you've been taking care of Ye Qiu for so long. She knows that you like Xiao Yang, but she still seduced him.”
When Liu Pei heard Liu Xue's words, a cold light flashed in her eyes. She glared at me fiercely and said,"Ye Qiu, please be careful. Doctor Xiao is kind and innocent, but he can't resist your temptation!”
Seeing Liu Pei's face, I couldn't care less about my past friendship with her. I gritted my teeth and said harshly to her,"I'm not trying to seduce Xiao Yang. It's his business who he likes, but with your looks, I'm afraid you won't have the chance to walk into his heart in this lifetime!”
"What did you say? Am I, a young lady, not comparable to an abandoned wife like you?”Liu Pei's face instantly turned ashen as she pointed at my face like a shrew.
Liu Pei's words were like a clap of thunder in June, slamming into my eardrums, leaving me with nowhere to escape. I sat down on the chair, trembling. The fierceness from before immediately disappeared. She was right. I'm just an abandoned divorced woman. What qualifications do I have to love? What advantages do I have to compare myself to a young lady?
Tian Qian was frightened by my expression. She held my hand nervously and said gently,"Sister Ye Qiu, are you alright?"
I didn't say anything, but tears flowed down my cheeks involuntarily.
"Is he really possessed? He was fine yesterday. Sister Ye Qiu, don't scare me!" Tian Qian muttered to herself and took out a tissue to help me wipe my tears.
Liu Xue and Liu Pei saw that I was like a deflated balloon, without any lethality. They sneered and slowly dispersed.
In fact, sometimes, the fiercer and more powerful the opponent, the more people wanted to continue fighting. Even if they were injured badly by the other party, they had to persist in fighting. However, if the other party suddenly became as weak as a sheep, it would cause one to lose their original passion and determination to continue fighting.
The argument between Liu Pei and I in the nursing room alerted all the doctors in the medical room. I don't know if someone called Xiao Yang or if his surgery was completed very quickly. Just as I sat in the chair and sobbed sadly, he suddenly appeared in front of me and said nervously,"Ye Qiu, what's wrong?"
Without waiting for me to speak, Tian Qian, who was at the side, spoke first,"It's all because of you."
"Me?" Xiao Yang asked.
"They said that Sister Ye Qiu seduced you!" Tian Qian glared at Liu Pei, who was standing in the treatment room, and shouted at Xiao Yang.
Xiao Yang didn't say anything, but looked at me gently.
I didn't want to look up at Xiao Yang's expression, so I just silently wiped my tears. I'm in a bad mood right now. I'm afraid that if I speak, I'll hurt him again.
"Ye Qiu, I'm sorry. It's all my fault. Don't take their words to heart.”Xiao Yang continued to gently enlighten me.
I slowly looked up and saw Xiao Yang's eyes full of love. Tears flowed out again. I was fantasizing about how good it would be if the person in front of me was Lu Kai, but reality told me that it was just a wishful thinking. The man I liked would already be someone else's husband tomorrow!
Seeing that I was still in tears, Xiao Yang frowned and felt his heart ache. He pulled me up from the chair and said gently,"I'll take you to a place!"
Before I could think about it, he had already dragged me out of the department with his strong hand and walked straight to the balcony on the top floor of the hospital. Standing here, I could overlook the prosperous scene of the entire city. The whistling wind instantly cleared my mind, and the tears in my eyes dried up in an instant.
"How do you feel? Do you feel more open-minded?" Xiao Yang looked at me seriously.
I pulled my arm out from Xiao Yang's warm palm and closed my eyes to take a deep breath. I felt much better. The thousands of ants in my heart seemed to have been swept away by the cold wind. My heart was unusually calm.
"I often come here when I'm unhappy. The wind here can take away all my troubles!”Xiao Yang said to himself as he looked at the bustling street below the tall building.
"Thank you for bringing me here!" I looked at Xiao Yang gratefully. I've been working in the hospital for three years, but I've never been to this balcony. As the saying goes, the higher you stand, the farther you see. Today, when I stand here and look down at everything, I suddenly feel open-minded. Some things couldn't be taken too seriously. Letting nature take its course might lead to unexpected results.
"Is my love bothering you?" Xiao Yang saw that I had calmed down and boldly said what he had hidden in his heart. At first, he thought that I was avoiding him because of a woman's reservedness, but later he realized that it was not the case. His love seemed to have become a burden on me, and it made me feel a little breathless.
In order not to hurt Xiao Yang, I chose to confirm his thoughts with silence. There was nothing wrong with loving someone, but if one loved the wrong person, then both parties were destined to suffer and feel pressured. In this relationship, Xiao Yang was full of enthusiasm for me, but I was simply an insulated body. If this continued, I would definitely suffer from schizophrenia between loving and being loved by others.
"Actually, I knew that you didn't like me, but I couldn't let go. I didn't expect my love to make you suffer so much!”
"I'm sorry. If you had appeared in my life seven years ago, I believed that I would have fallen in love with you. However, you were seven years late.”I don't want to hurt Xiao Yang. Pushing the blame to time might make him feel better.
" Seven years? Is that your first love?" Xiao Yang was very interested in my seven years of love and asked tentatively.
I originally didn't want to tell him about my ethereal story with Lu Kai, but in order to make him give up, I still told him about my silly secret love history.
Xiao Yang's expression was complicated as he looked at me seriously."Why do you continue to wait foolishly for a man who doesn't care about you?”
"This is a kind of faith, a kind of persistence. Although he's going to marry someone else tomorrow, his figure has always been stationed in my heart!”I said to Xiao Yang while trembling. Even though I know that the love I yearn for is illusory, I still foolishly persevere to the end.
"Faith? Perseverance? Are you deceiving yourself? He doesn't love you at all, but you're infatuated with your fantasies!”Xiao Yang sneered and exposed my love.
I widened my eyes in excitement and shouted,"You're wrong. He loves me. That woman saved his father. He married her to repay her kindness. Do you understand?"
"Ye Qiu, wake up. If he loves you, how could he not have any reaction when you had a crush on him for seven years? If he only wanted to repay a favor, why would he disregard everything and marry a dying person?”Xiao Yang grabbed my shoulder and looked straight at me, making my weak soul unable to escape from his eyes.
I was at a loss for words and didn't know what to say. I only shook my head in panic and helplessness."Impossible, Lu Kai really loves me!”
"Alright, stop lying to yourself. Face life and the people who love you. You'll feel very happy!”Xiao Yang wanted to pull me into his arms and let his love melt my frozen heart, but I pushed him away rationally. I admit that I really need a man's love and comfort now, but this man is definitely not him. I can't let a moment of carelessness cause the consequences to be difficult to resolve in the future.
"I will let you slowly accept me. I have all the time in the world. Your love for him can last for seven years. I believe I will last longer than you until you forget that he has fallen in love with me!”Xiao Yang looked into my eyes seriously.
"It's getting late. We should go back to work!”In order to avoid Xiao Yang's heat, I left this sentence and quickly left the balcony. I didn't expect Xiao Yang to love me so deeply. After I rejected him like this, he still loved me regardless of everything, even if the hope was slim.
Due to my rude behavior in the department today, everyone looked at me in a new light. My originally gentle and refined image was destroyed in a flash. I was so embarrassed that I wanted to find a hole to hide in. I covered my face with a mask the entire afternoon and didn't dare to look up at everyone. When I got off work, Tian Xi asked me why I was so angry. I wanted to tell her the truth, but I thought that telling her would only make her sad for me. In the end, I attributed the reason to Xiao Yang. When Tian Qian heard what I said, she actually sympathized with me. She said that when she was in school, there were also boys who chased after her until she had nowhere to run, causing her to almost give up her studies. If she didn't like him, she didn't like him. Love definitely didn't dare to have pity. I nodded in agreement with Tian Qian's point of view. Love must be mutually pleasing. If you give love to others with a pitiful attitude, it will eventually hurt others and yourself.
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