Watching Yun Shu end his young life, I felt as if a thin layer of frost had fallen on my heart. It was cold from my blood vessels to every pore on my skin. It was not as pleasant as I had imagined. Especially when I saw Yun Shu's tears in the emergency room, my body couldn't help but tremble. My heart was filled with deep self-blame. I've let Yun Shu down. I didn't tell her my true feelings. Actually, before she entrusted Lu Kai to me, I had already fallen in love with her husband.
Feelings are selfish. Because I like Lu Kai too much, I once fantasized about how my relationship with Lu Kai would develop after Yunshu left under Yanzi's bewitchment. Would he love me as much as he loved Yunshu? But I knew that it was just my wishful thinking. Lu Kai loved Yun Shu so much, so how could he let Yun Shu leave this world? As a doctor who saved lives and healed the wounded, I still hoped that Yun Shu could overcome his illness and grow old with Lu Kai. That way, I wouldn't see Lu Kai sad and disappointed because he lost his beloved. However, good wishes couldn't win against the cruel reality. In the end, death still took Yun Shu's young life. At the moment when Yun Shu was dying, my love for Lu Kai had long paled. I really hoped that there would be a miracle in life so that Yun Shu could stay and accompany Lu Kai until he grew old. I hated myself for not learning enough medical knowledge. I hated myself for having cancer in Yunshu's body. I hated the heavens for being blind and not being able to see the love between a couple. I hated…
Life was a beautiful beginning, and death was the conclusion. This life should have been a long one, but life was sometimes as fragile as a candle at night. A cold wind would silently extinguish it, and the ideals of the past would lose their direction in the darkness. In the cycle of life and death, love and hatred would have long disappeared.
" Yunshu, wake up from your sleep, and we'll still be a loving couple." Lu Kai's words to Yunshu's body in the morgue echoed clearly in my ears at this moment, and I couldn't help but laugh coldly. What do you mean by 'we'll still be a loving couple after we wake up'? I'm afraid that Yunshu won't know who Lu Kai is even if he's in a bowl of Granny Meng's soup. I could understand Lu Kai's pain at this moment, but after all, Yun Shu would never come back. Why did he still have to come up with all kinds of fantasies to deceive himself? I tried my best to save Yunshu the entire afternoon and silently accompanied him. However, in the end, because of a few misunderstandings from Yunshu's mother, he wanted to cut ties with me. I really didn't know if I should say that he was sentimental or heartless. Yun Shu's death was a huge blow to him, and it would be difficult for him to recover from his grief in a short period of time. Since he didn't want my existence to hurt Yun Shu's mother, I would do as he said and put aside my passionate love for him for the time being. Let's calm down for a while. Perhaps after he gets out of this sad marriage, we will have a better start.
I was thinking about a lot of things, and the corners of my eyes were wet. I drifted to the corridor of the department. In order to prevent my colleagues from seeing my weak appearance, I quickly took out a tissue from my pocket and carefully wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes. Then, I smiled at the mirror-like wall. Fortunately, I had always been able to control my emotions. Although my smile was a little forced, I definitely wouldn't let others see through it. Yun Shu is no longer around, so all the self-blame and sadness are unnecessary. From now on, I have to cherish my body and live every day to the fullest. Only then will I not let Yun Shu down and have the chance to win Lu Kai's attention and become the woman who will truly grow old with him.
"Ye Qiu, you're finally back. How's the patient?”Zhang Yu saw that I had returned and quickly walked to my side, asking with concern.
I smiled bitterly." I'm useless. She has been sent to the morgue."”
Zhang Yu knew that the patient I rescued this afternoon was not an ordinary patient. He hurriedly held my hand and comforted me gently,"Alright, Ye Qiu, don't blame yourself. If we could save every patient, wouldn't the earth have collapsed long ago? It's time to get off work. Hurry up and change your clothes and go home!”
I saw that Zhang Yu had already taken off her work clothes, so I reluctantly nodded and smiled at her, then quickly went to the changing room to change. I want to go home and have a good sleep. Perhaps everything today will be like a nightmare, and it will all disappear at dawn tomorrow.
In the changing room, Tian Qian, Liu Xue, and a few other nurses were changing their clothes. Liu Xue saw me coming in and raised her eyebrows. She complained loudly,"Ye Qiu, it's already so late and you still know how to go back to the department. We've been so busy the entire afternoon.”
This afternoon, I followed the emergency department to save Yun Shu. I specially applied for leave for the head nurse. I was busy for the entire afternoon, but I couldn't save Yun Shu. I was already depressed and uncomfortable. Now that Liu Xue wanted to find fault with me, the anger in my heart couldn't help but surge.
"I was approved by the head nurse to save the patient in the Emergency Department. Moreover, my patient is taken care of by Zhang Yu and Tian Qian. They didn't even complain that they were tired, so why are you shouting?”I took off my nurse uniform and hung it on the hanger as I glared at Liu Xue.
Liu Xue didn't know that I was going to the Emergency Department for a house call in the afternoon. She wanted to scold me in front of the other nurses so that she could regain the face she lost when she argued with me this morning. However, she never expected that I would not be in the department in the afternoon. I actually got the nurse's permission to go out and save the patient. Liu Xue saw the nurses staring at her with strange eyes, and her face turned green and white. However, she immediately smiled and said gently,"Aiyo, that means you've worked hard for the whole afternoon. Is the patient still alive?”
Liu Xue's question hit my sore spot. My face turned pale and my head drooped down.
Tian Qian saw that I didn't speak and said anxiously,""Sister Ye Qiu, say something. How is the patient? I heard that she's a radiologist in our hospital, and she's the wife of your old classmate!”
When I left in the afternoon, I only told Zhang Yu about the relationship between Yun Shu and me. I didn't expect Tian Qian to be so well-informed. She knew everything.
"Iris is a good doctor in the radiology department and a good wife to my classmate. I respect her very much!”I tried my best to control my emotions and recalled the first time I met Yun Shu. Her pale and thin face was as beautiful as a lily in my eyes.
"Sister Ye Qiu, someone you respect must be very outstanding. Can you bring me to see her later?”Tian Qian smiled.
Hearing Tian Qian's words, Yun Shu's beautiful face slowly blurred in front of me, and I couldn't help but shiver. Yun Shu was dead and could never come back. Her love for Lu Kai could only dry up in the cycle of life and death.
When I thought of the reality of Yunshu's death, my heart felt empty again. All the sadness and self-blame immediately turned into two streams of tears. I shouted in a trembling voice,"I'm useless. You'll never see her again!”
Tian Qian saw that I was sad and blamed myself. She regretted that she shouldn't have been in a hurry to ask me. She stuck out her tongue and whispered,"Sister Ye Qiu, don't be sad. Her situation is special!”
I was afraid that Liu Xue and the other nurses would laugh at me for not being able to see through life and death after being a nurse for a few years. I hurriedly turned around and secretly wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes. I forced a smile and said,"I'm fine. I just feel that Yunshu is too young and regretful.
When Liu Xue heard my conversation with Tian Qian, a strange smile appeared on her face. She turned her head and glanced at me before coldly laughing."Aiyo, so it was all for nothing. I thought that Ye Qiu was 100% confident that he could save the patient with the Emergency Department!”
When I heard Liu Xue's words, I was furious. I shouted,"We're all ordinary people. No one has the ability to revive every critically ill person!”
Tian Qian also shouted angrily,"Yes, do you have the ability to revive the dead?"”
Liu Xue wasn't angry at my confrontation with Tian Qian. Instead, she looked at me with a pleasant expression and said,"Actually, you shouldn't have participated in this rescue. Without you, Yunshu might have been able to live for a few more days.”
I didn't understand what Liu Xue wanted to say next. I glared at her and said coldly,""What do you mean?"
"Because you're an unlucky woman. You brought bad luck to Yunshu!”Liu Xue suddenly said to me coldly.
Liu Xue's words were like a thunder in the summer, making me tremble. My legs went weak and I almost fell to the ground. Yes, I am indeed an ominous woman. When I was young, I heard my neighbors say that my father died because of me, and that my grandmother's departure seemed to be related to me. However, every time I wanted to find out the truth from my mother, my mother would say that the neighbors were lying and that my father and grandmother's departure had nothing to do with me. Later on, I met Gu Cheng and started a beautiful marriage with him. I felt that I was the happiest woman in the world. When I heard my neighbor's words when I was young, I had long forgotten about them. But my happiness didn't last long. Gu Cheng cheated on Yao Rao, and we became passers-by. I couldn't help but start to wonder if I was really an unlucky person. Now that I heard Liu Xue's words, the self-blame in my heart became even stronger. I regretted being so anxious to think for Lu Kai and participating in the emergency department's rescue without thinking. Perhaps, as Liu Xue said, Yun Shu could have lived a few more days without this ominous woman.
Tian Qian saw that I was extremely depressed. She glared at Liu Xue and said loudly,"What nonsense are you talking about? I think you're the unlucky one. As long as you're in the department, no one will be able to live in peace!”
"Tian Qian, you're just a new student and you dare to talk to me like this. Do you still want to stay in the department?”Liu Xue didn't expect Tian Qian to stand up for her. She was so angry that her face turned green.
Tian Qian was not someone to be trifled with. She said loudly,"I've long wanted to quit. If you have the ability, get the director to fire me tomorrow!”
"You!" Liu Xue pointed at Tian Qian and was so angry that she was speechless. Although she had a good relationship with the director, Tian Qian did not make any mistakes at work. How could she really let Tian Qian leave?
At this moment, my mind was in a mess. Hearing Tian Qian and Liu Xue open fire, I felt even more annoyed and uncomfortable. I shouted loudly to stop them from continuing to quarrel. Liu Xue's goal was very obvious. She wanted to see me suffer. Now that her goal had been achieved, there was no need for her to be entangled with Tian Qian. Zhu coldly snorted and glared at Tian Qian. She then twisted her slim waist and walked out of the changing room. She hadn't walked far when she suddenly stopped. She turned to look at me seriously and said,"I just called Liu Pei and told her that you asked her to meet you. As for whether she will come or not, I don't know!”
Only then did I remember that I still had to meet Liu Pei at the cafe after work. I hurriedly controlled my emotions and looked up at Liu Xue."I know. Whether she comes or not, I will wait for her there.”
Liu Xue smiled scornfully,"I hope you really want to return Xiao Yang to Liu Pei!"”After saying that, she walked out of the changing room in her six-centimeter high heels.
I shook my head and sneered. Do you need me to return Xiao Yang to Liu Pei? He is a man of flesh and blood, with his own opinions and feelings. No one can control his love. Moreover, I have never thought of possessing him. Moreover, Liu Pei is not the person he originally liked. The person I love is Lu Kai. Yun Shu is no longer around. I have to do my best to make Lu Kai forget his sadness and start a new journey. I won't be at a loss because of Liu Pei's misunderstanding.
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