After leaving the ball, Shen Xiangmi discussed asking Mu Zixi to accompany her to the internet cafe. The two of them squeezed for an hour on the bus to reach the fashion sharing internet cafe.
It was the weekend, and there were many people online. When they arrived at the internet cafe, there was only one empty seat. Mu Zixi recharged her VIP card and let Shen Xiangmi use it. She stood beside Shen Xiangmi and accompanied her.
"Xiangmi, you've finally decided to confess.”
"Yes, alright." Shen Xiangmi made up her mind and said firmly. The current situation was beyond her control. If she did not get a result, she would definitely lose sleep. Although she had no choice, she kept encouraging herself along the way, telling herself that this day would come sooner or later. The sooner she settled down, the better.
Shen Xiangmi logged into her account and opened the window to find that Jiang Qing was online. Her heart was pounding. His hands trembled a few times as he typed a line of words. He changed it over and over again. He felt that it was not appropriate, so he was still considering and changing it. In the end, Mu Zixi couldn't stand it anymore and said that it wasn't bad. She had just decided on these few words and read them for a long time before her heart sank and she sent them over.
Nanshan Jiaoyang: Forgive me for disturbing your life, but I have no choice. There are some things I have to tell you today. Otherwise, my thoughts will torture me until I can't sleep or eat. I've liked you for many years, and I've been desperately hoping that you'd give me a chance. But if you already have a girlfriend, pretend I didn't say anything. Please tell me in time. I won't disturb your life.”
Seeing that Shen Xiangmi had finally sent it over, Mu Zixi heaved a sigh of relief. She took the opportunity to go to the front desk to see if there were any empty seats. Shen Xiangmi stared nervously at the computer screen without blinking, letting her heart beat wildly. However, one point, two points, ten points had passed. Even when Mu Zixi returned empty-handed, the other party still did not reply. Although it was not a long time, it felt like half a century to Shen Xiangmi.
"How is it? Did he reply to you?" Mu Zixi asked before he even got close.
"Not yet." Shen Xiangmi replied dejectedly.
"Don't worry, maybe he's not by the computer.”Before Mu Zixi could finish speaking, coughing sounds came from the computer. Shen Xiangmi's heart almost jumped out of her body. She nervously and hurriedly went to check the news.
Northern Sea's Cold Rain: " Shen Xiangmi, you're not my type. I'm sorry. Besides, I already have a girlfriend. Please don't disturb me."
A line of beautiful words in the purple dialog box was printed in front of Shen Xiangmi's eyes. It stung her eyes. She only felt that the words were constantly enlarging until they were so big that they were blurry. She could no longer see them clearly. This was the first time she had chatted with him in EFL, and it should be the last time. However, she did not expect that in an instant, she would lose the emotional support she had for so many years. They were impossible. She should not love him anymore. Loving him had become her habit for many years, the joy of life, and even her greatest dream and hope in life. Now, all her usual thoughts were about to change. Her heart had really left her. She did not know what to do next.
Shen Xiangmi sat in front of the computer in a daze and did not look at the computer screen. She only looked at her slender hands and tears flowed down. After a long time, she raised her weak hands and mechanically wiped her lifeless eyes.
Mu Zixi immediately understood when she saw this scene. Her confession had failed, so she immediately moved closer to see the details. She was very upset when she saw the conversation on the computer. For a moment, she was at a loss and did not know how to comfort her. However, she was very calm. Her mind was spinning rapidly as she thought of all kinds of possibilities. Her hard work paid off. Finally, she thought of a more reasonable one.
"Xiangmi, maybe it wasn't Jiang Qing who replied? It was possible that someone had used his QQ as a prank! Cheer up and ask again."
"One day, I saw him walking with a girl. I thought I was wrong, but I saw his QQ and knew he was in Xiangfu City. " Looking at his reply now, I'm sure that the back view I saw at that time was him. Also, that girl was very thin. She might really be Long Manqin. Perhaps the Jiang Qing you saw that day was him.”Shen Xiangmi said with tears in her eyes.
"Even if he is, he might not be married yet. You still have a chance, don't you?”
Mu Zixi recalled the couple she saw before the car crash. Although she was not sure if the man was the Jiang Qing that Shen Xiangmi loved, she had only seen photos of Jiang Qing in middle school, and the man had also looked from afar. However, when she thought about how she seemed to have seen it herself, and how her words were obviously lacking in confidence, and how she did not believe it, she really wanted to comfort Shen Xiangmi, so she said these words. She felt that she was stupid when she said them.
"Zi Xi, you know that I'm not that kind of person. I…"
"You've misunderstood me. What I meant was that you should find a time to ask him out and confirm it in person.”
"No need, I want to go home." Shen Xiangmi's face was covered in tears, and she forgot to wipe them away.
"Alright." Hearing Shen Xiangmi's words, Mu Zixi quickly logged out of her account, turned off her phone, and dragged her home. The two of them were silent. Mu Zixi knew Shen Xiangmi well. She was not someone who could love someone so lowly. She would not lose her dignity for love. Since she had been rejected, she would not pester him anymore. However, this did not mean that she did not love him deeply. It was often more difficult for such a person to heal the pain in her heart.
A week passed, two weeks passed, and just as Mu Zixi had expected, Shen Xiangmi still had not recovered from the pain. She was still like a zombie going to and from work, daydreaming, and writing in her diary.
On this day, the two of them had dinner and washed up. Shen Xiangmi was writing in her diary again with tears in her eyes. Mu Zixi couldn't stand it anymore. She tried to persuade her," Xiangmi, you and Jiang Qing might have really misunderstood each other. Try contacting him again. It's nothing. Why don't you give me his contact information and I'll contact him? I don't know him anyway, so it doesn't matter."”
"I couldn't contact him. He deleted me. On the 15th, I went to the EFL and found that I couldn't find him in my EFL.”
"Maybe someone else deleted it. Add it again and give it a try.”Mu Zixi was not a person who would leave everything to chance. It was just that Shen Xiangmi was in too much pain, so she wanted to give her some hope.
"Don't comfort me. Perhaps he never liked me at all. It's just my wishful thinking all along. I can't even be considered to have fallen out of love.”Shen Xiangmi mocked herself.
"That concerns your happiness for the rest of your life. Shouldn't you work harder? Alright, even if you don't work hard, you have to prove it, right? At least you can make yourself willing, at ease, and without regrets!”
"Zi Xi, forget it. I don't want to disturb his life. I said it that day. If I continue to pester him, he will only be more disgusted with me.”
"That's not pestering. I just want you to confirm it. Since you want to see it that way, forget him completely and start over. I really don't like the current you.”Mu Zixi pretended to be very angry.
"I didn't want to do this either. It's just that my heart hurts so much that I can't control myself.”
"Xiangmi, actually, I heard you say that you barely have any interactions with him. Perhaps he's not as good as you think. You're so outstanding. You'll definitely meet someone better in the future.”Mu Zixi saw that persuading him was useless, so he changed direction.
"No, my heart is dead. He is the person I have set my mind on in this life.”Shen Xiangmi shook her head and shed tears.
"For the time being, you can't let go of him because you haven't met a good person. If you did, you would definitely let go.”Mu Zixi indeed had no experience. She had only seen it from others and thought about it herself. In her view of the world, whoever left would be able to live well.
"No, you won't understand.”Shen Xiangmi said stubbornly. This was the first time Mu Zixi had seen her so stubborn. She had thought that a gentle person like Shen Xiangmi would not be as stubborn as her fiery temper. It seemed that she was wrong. Everyone had persistence, but the targets were different.
"In the past, you didn't like anyone else because you had him in your heart and had hope for him. It's different now. You'll give up on him, and others will be able to enter your heart.”Mu Zixi's stubbornness also came out. She did not give up and advised.
"Zi Xi, you haven't loved someone as deeply as I have. You won't understand.”Shen Xiangmi was even more annoyed when she saw Mu Zixi nagging at her. For the first time, she said something that she thought was unpleasant to Mu Zixi.
"Alright, you can vent your anger or calm down for a while!”When Mu Zixi thought of Guo Lijian, her heart ached. If she had the chance, she would love someone as deeply as Shen Xiangmi, but she had not met him yet. However, she knew that Shen Xiangmi was too sad and spoke without thinking. She did not mean to hurt her. She did not blame her and just walked away after saying that.
Mu Zixi was very upset that Shen Xiangmi was like this. To Mu Zixi, love was only a part of life. It was not as important as her career, her love for her mother, or the proof that her adopted daughter was not worse than her adopted son. However, Shen Xiangmi was different. From the moment she met Jiang Qing, she could not help but treat love as the most important thing in her life.
Mu Zixi was very annoyed and didn't know how to persuade her. Now, she needed someone to talk to, encourage, and comfort her. However, she did not have such a person. She hid her pain and only hoped that Shen Xiangmi would get better. Her current job was not as she wished. She had to suffer a lot of pressure in the company every day and was looked down upon by many people. She didn't know who had revealed her third-rate college degree, who had said that she didn't finish her work successfully on the first day and had to work overtime pitifully, and who had mocked her for being a lackey. In any case, there were often people who brought up some things to chat about her, belittle her, and make fun of her. It was just that she, Mu Zixi, told herself not to care. She was determined to take root in the Long family. One day, those superficial colleagues who only recognized her academic qualifications and judged her based on her internship would regret their current comments. She had to prove that she was a valuable person and not a bottle for others to laugh at. She had to be stronger than them and make those people regret their shallowness.
Thinking of this, she thought of the word "regret". Mu Zixi's eyes suddenly lit up. She had found another good way to comfort Shen Xiangmi. If Shen Xiangmi could pull herself together and find someone better than Jiang Qing in the future, would it be enough to make Jiang Qing regret her decision? Would she slowly regain her usual calmness and get better? However, she immediately denied it. In Shen Xiangmi's heart, Jiang Qing was the most outstanding man in the world. Moreover, Jiang Qing did not dump her. They were not a couple in the first place! It was inappropriate. In the end, she felt that even if she wanted to persuade him, it would be better to wait a few days. Given Shen Xiangmi's current situation, persuading her now would only make her feel worse.
Mu Zixi finally stopped thinking about her. She had forgotten that she was too busy worrying about Shen Xiangmi today and had not reported to Lu Wanli. He looked at the time and wondered if Lu Wanli had already gone to bed. But if he didn't call her to report Long Fei's schedule, would she keep waiting and blame her? What if he hit her and disturbed her beautiful dream? She frowned and was in a dilemma. She suddenly raised her eyebrows. Yes, it was Sunday today. She didn't have to report to her. It was a false alarm. She could only blame herself for seeing Long Fei at the banquet today. Later, she was heartbroken and confused. Mu Zixi finally heaved a sigh of relief and fell into a deep sleep.
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