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There were two kinds of people who chose to be lonely. One was voluntary, and the other was involuntary.
When you count how many leaves there are on the tree outside the window, when you figure out how many steps it takes to walk from the hut to the tunnel, when you grind the golden plum as thin as a cicada's wing, you will know what loneliness feels like.
Li Yong was a lonely person.
At five o'clock in the morning, he woke up from the wooden bed in the simple hut. He flipped through the book and ate while reading.
There were oil stains, fruit pulp, saliva, and semen on the book.
His daily job was to inspect the railway. He had to walk in this place where no one would appear from morning to night, rain or shine.
Because once there was a problem with a section of the railway, it was very likely that all the people on the train would die. It took two hours to walk from the cabin to the tunnel, and it took two hours to walk from the tunnel to the cabin.
He walked twice a day, once in the morning and once at night.
Fifteen years into his career, he found out that his wife was having an affair with someone else, so they divorced.
That year, his son turned thirteen and became a bastard. Eating, drinking, gambling, and taking drugs, Li Yong hit him for the first time.
He looked at his son, who was only shorter than him, and was silent for a long time.
This was his first time being someone else's father. He had never had a father since he was young, so he did not know how to be a father. He didn't know how to smoke, his son did, he didn't know how to drink, his son did, his son knew how to prostitute, but he didn't, because he couldn't even keep an eye on his wife.
At that time, he had written in his diary,'Hehe, sometimes, I'm the son.'
There were only two kinds of people who chose loneliness. In the first fifteen years of Li Yong's job, he was forced to choose loneliness. In the next five years, he chose loneliness voluntarily.
He lived here from morning till night. He bought instant noodles for a week and vegetables for a week, even though the vegetables would wither the next day.
If you don't know how to face someone, the best way is not to face them.
That was what Li Yong did. For five years, other than putting money and drugs into his son's room on the 1st and 15th of every month, he never went back.
Ever since the divorce, she had never seen her son again. If it weren't for the fact that the money and things he put on the table were taken away every month, he would have thought that he had never had a son.
If a person could live alone for five years and rarely communicate with others, then that person was either a madman or a genius.
Everyone who faced loneliness had to have a way to vent. Some people liked to watch movies when they were lonely, while others liked to listen to music. Li Yong also had his own way to vent.
Three years ago, Li Yong had a sudden idea. He tried to walk on the train tracks while walking. During this time, trains passed by in front of him one by one. Sometimes it was day, sometimes it was night. Every time the train roared past him, Li Yong would spit out his saliva. He felt a special sense of excitement. This was the bravest moment of his life.
At this moment, he had the courage to beat up the adulterous couple. He had the courage to slap his son and tell him who his father was. He became the bravest person in the world.
He cursed at everyone on the train.'F * ck all of your mothers, I'm your f * cking father.'
Then, he became Li Yong again. He knocked on the railway and used his ears to hear if there was anything wrong with the railway. In the long five years, Li Yong had actually thought of committing suicide.
He knew how powerful the train was. He knew that as long as he went on the railway, everything would be over.
He thought for three minutes and gave up. He did not dare to live, and he did not dare to die.
One night two years ago, when Li Yong was checking the train tracks and doing it with his hands, he saw a woman. He suddenly wondered why he had to do it with his hands. That woman could steal men, so why couldn't he rape her?
Hence, he smothered the woman to death for the first time, and then he started to rape her. That was probably the most comfortable time for him.
However, after that, he turned back into the cowardly Li Yong. He killed someone. What should he do? He had to pay with his life, but he didn't want to die yet.
Then he thought of the train. The train could completely destroy the body.
The next day, Li Yong reported to the company that there was a woman who was run over on the train. Two years ago, there was no railway network in that area, so it was not strange for a train to kill someone. Moreover, the body was completely minced into pieces, so there was no way to see anything, so it did not attract any attention.
After that, Li Yong did not take the initiative to attack, but he also raped and killed four women. These women came here on their own. The same method, the same result.
After that, the person in charge of the railway station felt that this couldn't go on, so he installed a railway network in that place. After that, such a thing never happened again.
Li Yong kept suppressing his desires, and he did it.
But last night, a woman appeared in the storm.
Perhaps it was just one look or one action that made Li Yong feel that this woman was his ex-wife. For the first time, Li Yong was enraged. For the first time, he had a strong desire to kill. If it wasn't for her, he wouldn't have become like this. If it wasn't for her, his son wouldn't have become a bastard.
He decided to kill this woman and give her a nightmare. He had been here for 20 years. He knew every detail of every passageway and every road here.
He waited on the path that he had to pass through. Then, the woman walked over. He opened the passageway, dragged the woman in, and knocked her out.
Don't you like to cheat on men? " I'll satisfy you." Li Yong used the underground passage to throw the woman into the gathering place of the homeless and let them have sex with her.
Then, he brought her back and gave her drugs. He was prepared to kill her one knife at a time. He vented all his cowardice and pain in the past 20 years on her.
Just as he was about to make a move, he vaguely saw someone walking over. In his panic, he did not have time to take the wooden board and chair away. He could only hide in the passage and observe. Then, he saw something he would never forget in his life. He saw a tramp standing in front of a woman and eating her internal organs.
Li Yong vomited. Compared to this person, Li Yong felt like a child.
The person ate for a while and seemed to be full. Then, Li Yong saw with his own eyes that the other party dug out the eyes of the corpse and ate them.
Li Yong felt like his heart was about to jump out of his chest. This was the first time he had seen someone eat someone.
After a while, that person left.
Li Yong knew that if he didn't take the chair and the plank away, the police would find him.
He cleaned up the footprints around him and buried the chair, the wooden board, and the internal organs left on the wooden board under the tree of the simple hut. He thought about it for a long time. This was the first time he drank. He felt that he had taken revenge and it was time to atone for his sins.
There was a lot of white wine in his simple house, but he had never drunk it.
The reason why he had prepared wine was because someone told him that when he was patrolling at night, he must drink.
He was puzzled and asked why. The other party said that there were dirty things in the dark night and that drinking would boost their courage. Li Yong chuckled. He was most afraid of humans in his life, not ghosts.
After that, he kept the wine in the house until today. He took out all the wine and drank it all.
He should have committed suicide, because at the end of the notebook, it was written that he finally dared to die today. He had taken revenge, so he had to atone for his sins.
Li Yong had two workbooks. One recorded his daily work in detail, and the other recorded his daily mental journey.
We learned about this in the second workbook. If a person can't tell others what's on his mind, he'll tell himself.
Li Yong recorded everything he wanted to say every day in this notebook.
There was a good saying that people would rather care about the daily life of a third-rate actor than to understand the inner world of an ordinary person, even if this ordinary person was someone close to them.
If it wasn't for the murder case, Li Yong would never have appeared in Bai Qin's sight. He was destined to be forgotten.
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