Drinking alone her tears
17 A soulless doll

Ni Jing

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Ever since Su Zihuan went out that day, she had obviously changed. She no longer smiled or spoke much. She just kept silent and no longer asked to leave. Suo Xin did not even go out of her room.

She was sealing herself off.

"Zi 'er?" As soon as the Tsar entered the room, he saw that she was in a daze, like a soulless doll, unconsciously sitting on a chair in a daze.

"Zi 'er!" What was wrong with her?

"It's you." Her tone was no longer energetic, and she had obviously become thinner. She did not eat much either.

"Are you not feeling well?" It had been three days. He thought she was too tired, but it didn't seem like it.

She shook her head.

The Tsar didn't know that her heart had been torn apart by Xiangyu's words. She was immersed in her own world and had returned to being the dancer Su Zihuan, cold and distant.

"Then tell me, what's wrong?" He shouted nervously, but she did not react much.

"Zi 'er, could it be that you're…pregnant?”It seemed very possible.

Su Zihuan shook her head and held her stomach. Her period was not messed up, so it was impossible.

"Then what happened? Tell me!" The Tsar couldn't stand her silence. It was as if he was deliberately excluding him from her world.

Su Zihuan did not resist his approach. She did not even struggle when he held her in his arms.

However, she did not even look at him. She just looked out the window and kept staring.

The Tsar followed her gaze and shouted in surprise,""No, I won't allow you to leave, do you hear me? I won't allow it!" He ordered her domineeringly again, but she no longer cared.

"Ao?" "Eh? What is it?" He held her face gently.

"Why do you want me to come back?" She thought that he should hate her because of her departure. She had always thought that she must have had other reasons to leave. However, after hearing Xiangyu's words, she was not sure. Perhaps she was really too selfish.

"Why do you ask?" The Tsar did not think this was a problem.

"Can you tell me? Is it because I owe you too much? Will you chase me away after I pay my debt?”Only then did she fix her eyes on him.

"No, you can never leave me. I told you that I gave my heart to you. I want everything you have. You can only stay by my side for the rest of your life.”"Is that so?" It turned out that he really did it for her. He didn't want her efforts to go to waste, so he wanted her back. At this moment, she suddenly thought of something and made a decision in her heart.

"What are you thinking about?" She smiled. This was the first time she had smiled in three days.

Seeing her smile, the Tsar's restless heart finally calmed down.

"There will be a banquet in the organization in a few days. Everyone in the organization will be attending. The people from Sha Ju and Xiang Fang will be attending.”He wanted to introduce her to everyone in the organization.

Su Zihuan's face turned pale because of his words. She didn't want to face a group of people who hated her, but when she saw the Tsar's expectant face, she couldn't refuse.

In the end, she nodded and agreed.

However, she told herself that she had to find the answer.

The day had finally arrived.

Everyone in the organization attended the banquet. There were at least 300 people in total. Su Zihuan stood out among the group because she was dressed in purple. In addition to her clothes, the hair accessories on her head were purple, and the scarf on her wrist was also purple. Standing beside the Tsar, she looked even more petite.

The Tsar was particularly charming today, especially the earring on his left ear, which looked even brighter under the light.

She knew that the key had locked the two of them. If he no longer wore it, the connection between them would be broken.

Once again, she realized that she did not belong here. She felt suffocated.

As long as the Tsar was not by her side, she could hear voices scolding her everywhere, as well as mocking her, and her heart was suffering.

Although the Tsar was very protective of her, he was the master. He had a lot of things to do, so there were many times when he had to leave.

Among them, only Sha Lie and Sha Yi were more cordial to her. Sha Yi was the one who had driven her that day. He knew very well what she had suffered in Taiwan. Sha Lie did not believe that she would betray the Tsar, so he did not reject her.

However, there were so many people, and it seemed that only the two of them talked to her too little. She was very sensitive, really sensitive!

In the end, she couldn't stand it anymore and left her seat. She wanted to breathe some fresh air. Perhaps that would help her get through the night.

At this moment, a waiter came over, so she told the waiter,"Please tell the Tsar that I'm in the garden when he finds me.”She wanted to smile as much as possible.

However, her smile froze when she heard the man's rude reply.

"The Tsar is very busy right now. He doesn't have the mood to pay attention to such trivial matters.”With that, the man left, leaving her standing there in a daze.

She wanted to be strong and walk out as if nothing had happened.

Su Zihuan had just approached a pavilion when she heard voices.

A few people from Xiang Fang were sitting there, and their voices could clearly be heard by her.

Every word pierced her fragile and sensitive heart.

"How shameless. She was the one who wanted to leave back then, and now she's shamelessly coming back.”"Yeah, I really don't know what's so good about her that the Tsar is so reluctant to part with her.”"Did you see the thin chain on her feet? I heard that the Tsar put it on her. Sigh! We don't have a chance now." "Forget it, don't say anymore. Unless that woman leaves voluntarily, we won't have any chance.”Su Zihuan's head hurt so much that her face turned pale.

She couldn't help but lean against the pillar at the side, trying to endure it.

"You guys might not know, right?" Su Zi Huan recognized this voice. It was Xiangyu.

"What is it?" "She's a dancer in Taiwan!" As soon as he said this, the woman's exclamations rose and fell.

"How is that possible?" Everyone was very suspicious.

However, Xiangyu's words shouldn't be wrong, because she was the number one person in Xiang Lane.

"Of course it's true, and the Tsar found her in the hotel. I heard that she was undressing a group of hungry men at that time, and she was extremely horny. If the Tsar didn't bring her back, I think she would still be a dancer!”Xiangyu bluntly stated this fact. At the same time, she let Su Zihuan hear the sound of her heart breaking.

It was not her fault to be a dancer. She only owed the hospital money, and she wanted to pay it back!

And she did not betray herself, not even in the past three years. She had always loved herself, and the Tsar seemed to understand. He did not ask her about those three years, and he had always trusted her.

" Oh my god, maybe they've already…" Before the woman could finish, the group of women had already started laughing wildly, making Su Zihuan feel ashamed.

She silently retreated to the side and gloomily adjusted her mood.

When the Tsar found her from the outside, she had already armed herself.

"Will you dance with me?" He gazed at her affectionately.

"Yes." Tonight, she wanted to show her passionate side. She wanted the Tsar to see her most passionate side.

The two of them swayed to the music. She leaned against the Tsar's broad chest and hugged him with peace of mind.

Other than being overbearing and threatening, this man was also a man who loved her deeply.

No one present dared to ask the Tsar to dance. He was her dance partner for the entire night, and he belonged to her alone.

Until the end of the banquet, the two of them were still hugging each other, unwilling to part.

"Shall we go back to our room?" The Tsar's low and hoarse voice rang in her ears. His warm breath blew behind her ear, making her tremble slightly.

"I want to drink." "Let's go back to our room and drink." With that, the Tsar hugged her and left the banquet hall. She leaned her face into his arms and did not think much about it or look at it anymore.

As soon as she entered the room, the Tsar couldn't help but start kissing her, kissing her lips deeply, and kissing her tongue, making her lean against him while panting.

But when she saw the key in his ear, she suddenly remembered her decision. "I'm thirsty. Shall we drink?”Su Zihuan didn't know how to drink, but she wanted to use it to boost her courage.

The Tsar did not doubt her motives and quickly brought wine and glasses.

Su Zihuan sat on his lap and tried to entice him to drink one glass after another. She also took small sips.

When the Tsar appeared to be a little drunk, he naturally leaned his head on Su Zihuan's shoulder, asking her to bear his weight.

"You're never allowed to leave me again, understand?”He demanded an answer from her domineeringly.

" Mm..." Her answer was too weak, but he, who was already drunk, did not notice it.

"Zi 'er, touch me." He requested.

Su Zihuan opened her eyes, not understanding what he meant.

"I want you to touch me." The Tsar took her hand and pressed it to the collar of his clothes, asking her to unbutton it.

The desire in his eyes and the intimacy in his words made her obey. This was the first time he had asked her in such a gentle tone. Usually, he would order her around very domineeringly.

Her blushing face was a little unnatural, but she wanted to relax. After all, she was already his, whether it was three years ago or three years later.

She unbuttoned his shirt and slid her hand into his chest, exploring his seductive body. At this moment, she became sensitive and her heart raced.

His chest was so hot that it almost burned her.

In the end, when the two of them cried out because of the climax, Su Zihuan didn't think she could bear it again, but she had to do it.

So she asked again, which made the Tsar even more excited.

The two of them made love again and again, and they spoke lovey-dovey words to each other. The entire room was filled with love, and the murmuring and moaning in the room made people blush and their hearts beat faster.

When everything was over, Su Zihuan thought that she would fall asleep immediately, but she didn't. She was still staring at the ceiling, and she was being hugged tightly by the Tsar, as if he was afraid that she would slip away.

She turned to look at his sleeping face. At this moment, he was like a big boy, not threatening at all, but he still made her intoxicated.

She understood that she loved him regardless of whether she had lost her memory or not. However, she wanted to find out why she had left him back then.

The best way was to leave him and go back to Taiwan. She had to go to the place where the accident happened to recall everything. Perhaps she would really remember everything.

However, this time, she decided not to take anything from him. She wanted to set him free.

Without the key, the chain, and the secrets between lovers, he would be free. She told herself that if she could not remember the past, she would not come back. She would stay far away from him.

Because in her heart, she always felt that she had let him down, especially when he loved her so much. She couldn't help but think so. At tonight's banquet, everyone's words and expressions told her that she wasn't worthy of the Tsar.

Therefore, she mustered up her courage and made this decision on her own. She had to rely on herself for everything that happened next.

She moved his hand away, sat up, and shook him gently. " Ao…Ao…" Seeing that he didn't react at all, she guessed that it must be because he drank at the banquet, drank again in his room, and then went through such passionate love. No wonder he was tired.

Seeing that he was asleep, she boldly reached out and gently took off the earrings on his ear. She sat on the carpet without disturbing him, bent her feet, and carefully used the key in her hand to slowly turn the lock on the thin chain.

Finally, the thin chains that had trapped her for many years fell, and her heart was at ease.

She held it in her hand and looked at it for a while. She placed the thin chain and earrings by the bed. She did not want to take any of them with her. This time, she wanted to leave without any burdens and not let anyone down.

She had to search for her memory. It was lost in a corner of Taiwan.

When she got up and put on her clothes, her gaze fell on his face again, and she couldn't bear to take another look.

Suddenly, she seemed to have thought of something. She walked to the mirror, opened the drawer, and took out a knife.

She hardened her heart and grabbed the long hair. She cut off the long hair that she had kept for three years, tied it with a scarf, and placed it in front of the mirror. Then, she resolutely stepped out of the room.

This place was no longer unfamiliar to her. The last time Xiangyu brought her out, she had explained it very clearly to her so that she knew how to walk so that she would not get lost. Therefore, she followed Xiangyu's words and slowly walked to the main entrance.

Today, the organization was holding a banquet, and no one was guarding her, so she walked out of the sand house, which had trapped her for more than three months.

She took a deep breath. The weather was a little cold in the middle of the night, but she couldn't care less. She left without looking back.

Now, she was going back to Taiwan!

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