Not a single star could be seen in the pitch-black night sky, just like Hao Yun's current heart, which could not see a trace of light.
In the room that had lost its mistress, Hao Yun faced the table full of empty bottles and drank the wine that he didn't know how many glasses he had tonight.
Wine was his good friend. Without it, he wouldn't have been able to hold on until now. He would have died of heartbreak from losing Chaoyan.
It was because he had wine that he could live on in this world.
But tonight, no matter how many cups he drank, his head was still clear, so clear that he could not forget the pain.
He did not expect that he would suffer for a woman other than Chaoyan. He thought that it was impossible, but Xiyan had done it so easily.
That's right, he had been drinking for 10 days without Xi Yan.
It was not to celebrate that Xi Yan was no longer pestering him, but that losing Xi Yan made him only able to use alcohol to numb himself.
Although he was in so much pain that he wanted to die after losing Chaoyan, he still survived.
Now that he had lost Xi Yan, he felt the same pain. However, this time, he did not want to live anymore because he did not know who he was living for.
How did it become like this? He loved Chaoyan, didn't he? Now, why did he not want to live without Xiyan?
" Xiyan..." Hao Yun muttered Xiyan's name. With his half-closed eyes, he seemed to see Xiyan standing in front of him.
It was the ten-year-old Xi Yan. She always chased after him, and he would never forget the way her small figure chased after him.
Then, he saw the 13-year-old Xi Yan. She looked so cute when she pouted. He still remembered that he was often only focused on talking to Chaoyan and ignored her. She was never angry, but the way she pouted made his heart ache.
The memories he shared with Xiyan were all beautiful, and he only realized it now. Regardless of whether he was ignoring her on purpose or because Chao Yan had no choice but to ignore her, he could not forget her smile and every action she made. Over the past six years, her figure was much clearer than Chaoyan's in his memory.
Hao Yun suddenly felt his heart ache when he remembered Xi Yan calling him.
Damn it! Why did he only realize how important she was when he lost her?
No, maybe he knew how important she was to him, so he was so cold to her. He didn't even care that she was hurt because of him. He was afraid to admit the fact that he had fallen in love with her for a long time. He refused to admit this fact!
It was because of his damn self-esteem that he did not allow himself to fall in love with a woman other than Chaoyan. Because he could not control himself, he blamed his dissatisfaction on her and treated her even more coldly.
Hao Yun angrily swept away the wine bottle in front of him and hugged his head tightly.
He finally understood! Poor Xiyan. What kind of man was the one she had risked her life to love?
Now that he thought about it, perhaps he had fallen in love with Xiyan a long time ago. This was not impossible.
Because she was always so frank. She never hid her love for him. She always let him know that she loved him at all times.
Compared to Xi Yan, he was so weak and unbearable!
Because he refused to admit that he was not perfect, refused to admit that he had feelings for his sister and sister, he made Xiyan suffer so much.
" Xiyan, Xiyan..." His heart ached when he heard Xiyan's name! Oh my god, what did he do? After losing Chaoyan, he actually chased Xiyan away with his own hands. He actually chased the person he loved out of his life with his own hands!
Right now, he couldn't tell which of the two sisters he loved more. He only knew that he couldn't lose his sister as well.
If he really lost Xi Yan, his life would no longer be meaningful to him. Even if he survived, he would definitely spend the rest of his life in regret and self-blame.
The one who took Chaoyan away was God, so he couldn't blame anyone. However, he was the one who had chased Xi Yan away, so he could not forgive himself.
Unless he found Xiyan, he would never forgive himself!
Prince Yi Residence
Xi Yan, who was sitting alone in the back garden, looked at the blooming flowers in front of her. Time passed so quickly. It had been ten days since she returned home.
The days after she returned home were very peaceful. Her parents were considerate and did not ask her much. They used the greatest tolerance to accommodate her scarred and bruised daughter.
Therefore, in order to repay the kinship of the two elders, no matter how difficult it was, she had to think of a way to forget Haoyun.
She had chosen this path herself. Since she had already made up her mind to leave him and had already left, she should not think of Haoyun anymore.
It had only been ten days, but she still couldn't stop thinking about him. After all, he was the person she had been in love with for six years. After all, he was once the person she loved the most. It was impossible to immediately cut off her thoughts and love for him.
She could only hope that time would heal her and that she could slowly forget that person.
" Brother Haoyun…" She couldn't forget Haoyun, so she couldn't help but blurt out the name that she had been thinking about. She was probably talking to herself, but a voice responded to her.
"Xiyan, are you calling me?"
Xi Yan stared at Hao Yun who suddenly appeared in front of her.
"You…Why are you here?”she gasped.
Hao Yun smiled and said,"You were thinking about me, so I came."”
Xi Yan was speechless. She just looked at him with her bright eyes.
She had never seen Haoyun like this. He looked haggard, his eyes red and his cheeks sunken as if he had been seriously ill.
"What are you doing here? We have nothing to do with each other anymore.”Xi Yan said lightly.
"Who says we don't have any connections?”Hao Yun reminded her,"Don't forget that you're still my wife. I haven't given you the divorce papers yet."”
Hao Yun, who had been blaming himself, felt that he had finally done something right. He did not write the divorce papers. This meant that his conscience was still there. He was not a cold and heartless person.
"So what?" Xi Yan asked. " It doesn't matter if there's a divorce certificate or not. What's important is that you treat me…"
"I love you!"
"Eh?" Xi Yan looked at Hao Yun in shock. At this moment, she thought she had heard wrong.
How could it be "I love you"? Haoyun would never say that to her. The only thing he would say to her was," I hate you!"
"I love you, Xiyan." Hao Yun's eyes flashed with a familiar gentleness.
She had seen it many times. Every time Haoyun looked at Chaoyan, his gaze was like this.
Xi Yan could not help but cry. This was the gaze she had dreamed of! For six years, she often dreamed that he looked at her the way he looked at Chaoyan. She had been looking forward to it for a long time, but her dream had never come true.
She didn't expect that when she gave up waiting, she would actually receive such a gentle gaze from Haoyun. At this moment, her feelings were mixed, and she couldn't tell whether it was sweet or bitter. Perhaps it was both. Sigh.
Was she happy or not? No matter what, what had passed could not be repeated. She could no longer turn back.
What beautiful tears! Hao Yun hugged Xi Yan tightly to his chest. Humans were really strange animals. In the past, he would only find her tears annoying. But now, he couldn't help but pity her. It was clearly the same thing, but there was such a big difference in his different state of mind.
"Xiyan, I love you. It wasn't easy for me to know that I love you!”he said excitedly. "Please forgive me for all the nonsense I've done to you. I know that I've hurt you too deeply. It's only right for you to give up on me. But I don't want to let you go. I know I can't live without you. Please come back to me. I beg you. I can't live without you!”
Xi Yan was shocked. She shouted at Hao Yun in disbelief,""Brother Haoyun, what happened to you? Why would you say such a thing to me? I'm Xiyan, not Chaoyan!" She thought that Haoyun was drunk like last time and mistook her for Chaoyan.
Hao Yun hugged her tighter and said anxiously,""Of course I know you're Xi Yan. I love Xiyan, not anyone else!”
Tears welled up in Xi Yan's eyes and she was speechless. Was she dreaming that her Brother Haoyun said he loved her? Could she really be this happy?
She shook her head at Hao Yun, still unable to believe it. "But, don't you love my sister? You must be trying to trick me into coming back to your side, right?”
"No, these are all my heartfelt words!”
Hao Yun shook Xi Yan's body. Her suspicious eyes made him anxious.
"Xiyan, what do you want me to say for you to believe that I love you? I love you not because you're Chaoyan's sister, but because you're Xiyan! The one who was willing to sacrifice everything for me, the one who was willing to give up her life for me. Do you understand what I'm saying?”
Xi Yan felt dizzy from Hao Yun's shaking, but she felt real.
Looking at Haoyun's serious eyes and tone, she knew that her brother Haoyun wasn't lying. What he said was true.
"What about Sister?" She looked at him worriedly."You love my sister too, don't you?”
Hao Yun looked at her deeply and said clearly,""I want you!"
At this moment, he clearly knew who he loved the most.
To be honest, he had no way of telling if his feelings for Chaoyan and Xiyan were different or if he loved one more.
He only knew that he could not lose Xiyan. He could lose everything, but the only thing he could not lose was Xiyan.
In the end, he still betrayed Chaoyan. He was destined to live with the guilt and apology he felt for Chaoyan for the rest of his life, but he did not regret it. Compared to the pain of losing Xiyan, he felt that no matter how painful it was, he could bear it.
"No!" To Hao Yun's surprise, Xi Yan's face turned pale and she shouted,""You can't have me. I can't snatch yours from my sister!”
"Xiyan…"
"I never intended to snatch you away from my sister.”Xi Yan choked. "When my sister comes back, I'll return you to her. That's what I've always thought.”
"But that's because you think I don't love you, isn't it?”
Haoyun wrapped his arms around her slender waist, and their lower bodies were tightly pressed together. His scorching skin made Xiyan blush involuntarily.
Hao Yun whispered in her ear,"Because you think I don't love you, that's why you're so generous, right?" Now that you know that I love you, do you still need to return me to Chaoyan?”
"But I…"
"The person you love the most is me, isn't it?”Hao Yun looked at her affectionately and said gently,""Don't you love me more than anyone else? I can even convince myself to betray Chaoyan. You can definitely overcome your psychological barrier and stop running away from the fact that you stole my sister's lover. You can definitely do it!”
"No, I can't do that!" Xi Yan shook her head in fear.
The fear on her face made Hao Yun's heart tighten. He hugged her lovingly.
"I'm sorry, I said the wrong thing. You're not wrong. I betrayed Chaoyan. This has nothing to do with you. You didn't snatch me away. I fell in love with you myself.”
He shouldn't let Xiyan feel guilty. She had already suffered so much for him. He should bear all the sins alone! If Chaoyan wanted to blame someone, she could blame him!
Xi Yan closed her eyes, and her trembling body gradually calmed down under Hao Yun's gentle embrace. Leaning against his firm chest, she still felt like she was in a dream.
She felt that she was too blessed. Could she really be so blessed?
She was deeply immersed in this happiness until Chaoyan's resentful face appeared in her mind.
Sister! Her entire body shook and she struggled out of his embrace.
"Xiyan?"
"I can't let Sister down!" Xi Yan cried. "And I don't believe you. If one day you start to despise me again, I won't be able to live!”
"Why don't you believe me?" Xi Yan's repeated rejection pushed Hao Yun's patience to the limit. Because he loved her, he was anxious and impulsive.
Without thinking, he grabbed her hand and locked her in his arms.
"It hurts!" Xi Yan struggled in pain.
"What do I have to do for you to believe me?”Hao Yun shouted angrily. "Why? Why didn't you give me a chance?"
"Brother Haoyun, what are you doing?”Xi Yan screamed. Hao Yun pressed her against a tree, and his men stood behind her.
"I want you to know that I love you now!”
Since she refused to listen to him, he could only prove it with his actions.
"You're so awesome!" Hao Yun kissed her small mouth that was panting non-stop, and then helped her put on her underwear.
Xi Yan did not move and let him do whatever he wanted. When he let go of her, she immediately slapped him.
"Xiyan?" Hao Yun stroked his fiery left cheek in astonishment.
"You're so despicable!" Xi Yan was so angry that she cried and glared at him. "How could you do this? How could you do this to me in my house?”
Xi Yan was angry and embarrassed. She was angry that Hao Yun had actually done this to her. She was even more angry that she had not resisted him and let him do whatever he wanted to her. She felt that she was very shameful.
"Of course I can do this to you because we're husband and wife, right?”Compared to Xi Yan's excitement, Hao Yun was calm.
Xi Yan was so angry that she almost fainted. "You…you're so shameless!"
Hao Yun smiled at her. "As long as I can make you change your mind, I'll do anything a hundred times more shameless than this.”
"You…"
"Xiyan!"
Why was it him? Hao Yun frowned as he looked at the uninvited guest running towards them. To be able to come and go freely in Prince Yi's residence, it seemed that Bei Zi Yuan Heng had been coming to find Xi Yan frequently these days!
"Yuan Heng, you're here?" Xi Yan looked at Yuan Heng and thought about what she had done with Hao Yun just now. She could not help but blush even more when she thought about how he might have almost seen her.
He didn't expect Hao Yun to be present as well. Yuan Heng's smiling face immediately collapsed.
"Xiyan, what's wrong?" he asked Xi Yan with concern. "Your face is so red. Did you cry?”His voice rose in surprise.
"I…I'm fine." Xi Yan shook her head and blushed even more.
Yuan Heng did not believe Xi Yan's words. He glared at Hao Yun angrily. "Prince Haoyun, aren't you satisfied with what you did to Xiyan? How much do you want to hurt her before you let Xiyan go?”
Yuan Heng's eyes were filled with anger, but Hao Yun's eyes were filled with coldness. "What right do you have to say these words to me?”
"Of course there is." Yuan Heng looked at Xi Yan, who was at a loss. "Xiyan has already agreed to consider our marriage. Xiyan, please tell him I'm telling the truth.”
Hao Yun's face turned pale. "Xiyan, you…"
Hao Yun's shocked expression made Xi Yan's heart ache. She didn't mean that. She just felt that Yuan Heng was too good to her and couldn't bear to hurt him, so she agreed to consider it.
"Yuanheng, I only said that I wanted to think about it. I didn't…" Xi Yan shouted anxiously.
"But at least I have this chance, right?”Yuan Heng looked at Hao Yun with a cold smile. "Unlike him, he has no chance at all. You gave him a chance, but he didn't want it!”
Yuan Heng was angry when he saw Haoyun. It was fine if he did not treat a cute girl like Xiyan well, but he even made her suffer for him. If it was not for Xiyan, he would have beaten this heartless man up long ago!
"Xiyan, is what he said true?”Haoyun did not listen to Yuan Heng. He wanted to hear it from Xiyan herself.
Xiyan hung her head sadly. She did not know how to tell Haoyun.
It seemed that what Yuan Heng said was true! Although Xi Yan did not say a word, her expression was enough to explain everything.
Hao Yun silently walked in front of Yuan Heng and suddenly said,""In that case, I can only challenge you.”
Challenge? Xi Yan was shocked and looked at Hao Yun in confusion.
Hao Yun did not look at Xiyan and continued to tell Yuan Heng,""I can let Xiyan go as long as you do one thing for me.”
"What is it?"
"Compete in archery with me. If you beat me, I won't say anything else and I'll hand Xi Yan over to you.”
Yuan Heng immediately nodded. "Alright, it's a deal!" Everyone knew that Hao Yun's archery skills had deteriorated a lot. Yuan Heng was confident that he could beat him.
"I disagree!" Xi Yan stood between them and shouted. "I'm not a thing. You don't have to decide who I am.”How could she let them do such a thing? It was too dangerous!
"Don't bother!" Hao Yun said in a tough tone. "This is between me and this kid. It has nothing to do with you!”If he did not let Yuan Heng admit defeat, he was afraid that Yuan Heng would not let go of Xi Yan.
"Brother Haoyun…"
Hao Yun ignored Xi Yan and walked forward without looking back.
In order to win back Xi Yan's heart and regain his dignity as a man, he had to win this match.
The competition was in three days, and the location was a mountain forest more than 20 miles away from Beijing.
This was usually the place for hunters to hunt, and there were many wild beasts. Hao Yun and Yuan Heng planned to have a showdown here.
They were competing to see who could hunt the most prey within a limited time. They were not the only ones hunting here. There were other people hunting too, so they did not inform Xi Yan because it was too dangerous for her, who was weak.
They did not let Xi Yan know, but Xi Yan still sent someone to inquire about this news.
She was worried about their safety, so how could she sit idly by? She rode a horse to this mountain forest without telling her family.
Looking around, she saw rows of tall trees standing in front of her. Xi Yan was stunned. She did not expect the forest to be so big that she could not find the end.
She didn't know if she would get lost or how long it would take her to find them.
She took a deep breath. For Haoyun, she had no choice but to continue moving forward.
She let the horse walk slowly for a long time. Suddenly, the horse she was riding neighed and struggled.
Because the horse was moving too much, she was shaken off the horse because she couldn't hold the reins!
"Ah!" She fell heavily on the mud. She thought it would be very painful. Fortunately, the soil under her was soft, so only her skin hurt. She did not fall or break her limbs.
The horse ran away after it dropped her, and the dust it raised made her cough non-stop.
She finally stopped coughing and was about to get up when she heard a sound coming from the grass in front of her.
The next moment, she screamed in fear. Heavens! She actually saw a bear, a black bear!
The black bear's eyes were fixed on her, and she did not dare to move.
When the black bear pounced on her, she closed her eyes and hugged her head. "Brother Haoyun!"
At this moment of life and death, she could only think of one person.
She thought she was going to be torn apart. She closed her eyes and opened them quickly when she heard the bear's wail.
She saw the black bear running away, as if there was an arrow stuck in its body.
"Xiyan!" The next moment, she was hugged into her familiar embrace and heard Hao Yun's angry voice ringing in her ears.
"You big idiot! If I had come a step later, you would have been eaten, do you know that?”
Hao Yun was really scared out of his wits. If he hadn't heard Xi Yan's voice by chance, she probably wouldn't have been able to escape this calamity.
"Brother Haoyun?" Xi Yan stared at the man who was hugging her. "Is it really you? You really came to save me!" She touched his face and cried and screamed.
Haoyun hugged Xiyan tightly and did not speak. He was really shocked. He was now sincerely thanking the heavens for not taking Xiyan away from him.
"I heard you call my name.”He held her face and gazed at her gently. "Tell me, why did you call my name?”
" Because…" Xiyan smiled."Because I love you, Brother Haoyun.”
Haoyun hugged her, touched. Xiyan hugged him tightly too. At this moment, words were superfluous.
Not far away from them, Yuan Heng watched this scene silently.
He had discovered that Xi Yan had been attacked by the black bear a step later than Haoyun. If Haoyun was not around, he would have saved Xi Yan in time.
However, he did not make a move in the end. It wasn't that Haoyun had made a move earlier than him, but that he didn't have the confidence. He was afraid that he would accidentally hurt Xiyan, which was why Haoyun had to perform alone.
In other words, if Haoyun was not present, he would most likely watch Xiyan get hurt by the black bear.
Other than Haoyun's archery skills being better than his, Haoyun's feelings for Xiyan were also far better than his!
His love for Xiyan did not give him enough courage to take the risk and shoot this arrow, but Haoyun did it!
Looking at the two people hugging in front of him, he shook his head at himself and then quietly left them.
He had lost. Whether it was archery or love, he had lost to Hao Yun.
He admitted defeat. He admitted defeat willingly.
At this moment, Hao Yun and Xi Yan did not know what Yuan Heng was thinking. They could only see each other and did not even realize that Yuan Heng had been near them.
After hugging each other for a long time, they finally let go of each other's hands.
"Brother Haoyun, don't leave me again!”Xi Yan said with red eyes.
"I will never leave you." Hao Yun looked at her affectionately. "What about you? If Chaoyan comes back, will you still return me to her?”
"No!" Xi Yan smiled cutely. "Sister dotes on me so much. I think she will definitely understand us.”
"Yes, I am!" Hao Yun agreed with her. "If you're really worried, I've thought of a good idea. I guarantee that Chaoyan will understand us.”
"Oh, what is it?"
" That's right…" Hao Yun smiled and leaned close to her ear. "Just hurry up and give birth to a baby. For the sake of the child, no one will blame us.”
Xi Yan blushed and looked at the ground shyly. "He's talking to you about something important. Why are you so indecent?”
"Brat, what's there to be ashamed of?”Hao Yun smiled and carried her, striding forward.
"Brother Haoyun, where are we going?”
"Where else can he go? Of course, I'm going home!" Hao Yun gently kissed her lips and said with a smile,""If we don't go home and do serious things, where will our baby come from?”
"Annoying, you're bullying me again!" Xi Yan buried her face in his arms shyly.
" Haha..." Hao Yun laughed loudly and started running. He couldn't wait to return to their home and continue their love!#
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