Was this really the best ending?
Xue Ru did not think so. She thought that even if Xue 'er was no longer pure, she did not have to be with Yi Xin. She could find a good marriage for Xue' er.
Even though she was a servant girl, she was a servant girl who had married off from Prince Wen's residence. She wouldn't dare to mistreat Xue 'er.
However, Xue 'er was willing to follow Yi Xin's arrangements and become his servant girl. This was something that Xue Ru could not understand.
Of course, Xue Ru couldn't understand. How could she know that Yi Xue 'er had already given her heart to Yi Xin when she gave her body to him?
To Yi Xue 'er, to be able to be with Yi Xin, no matter what the situation was, it was a blessing for her.
Although Yi Xin had taken her body and hurt her, she still couldn't blame him.
Who taught him that he was the person she liked?
Although she was now able to serve him by his side, although it was not a glorious thing for her to sacrifice her innocence in exchange for such an outcome, to her, having such an ending was already the greatest favor that God had given her.
That night, Yi Xin sent someone to bring her to his room.
She stepped into the room nervously. The person who brought her here said,"This servant will take his leave!" Then, he left.
Only she and Yi Xin were left in the huge room.
She was so nervous that she didn't dare to look at Yi Xin who was sitting on the bed. She lowered her head and listened to her own breathing quietly.
"What are you standing there for?" Yi Xin's voice was filled with anger."I asked you to come here to serve me as my servant girl, not to look at me!”
"Yes, yes." Yi Xue 'er had no time to think about why Yi Xin was angry or who he was angry with. She quickly went up to him.
"This servant will help the Baylor take off his clothes."
Yi Xin looked at her expressionlessly and then stood up.
Yi Xue 'er's trembling hands were busy working on his body.
Under the flickering candlelight, Yi Xin's face was still as handsome as ever, but there was an additional sense of majesty that made her feel a strong sense of oppression.
The Yi Xin of the past was hard to get close to; Right now, Yi Xin was even more unapproachable.
After she finished her work with trepidation, she lowered her head and stood in front of him with a frown.
"Take off your clothes too." Yi Xin said.
"Yes, sir!" She followed his instructions uneasily. She thought, Is he going to do that thing again?
Although Xueru had found medicine for her wound, it was impossible for her wound to heal completely in half a day.
When Yi Xue 'er was completely naked, Yi Xin pulled her to the bed.
Caught off guard, Yi Xue 'er let out a soft moan as she was pressed onto the bed.
"Ah…"
A mocking smile flashed across Yi Xin's face. He grabbed her hands and placed them on top of her head.
" Lord Baylor…" Yi Xue 'er's expression was uneasy. Yi Xin's overly cold gaze scared her.
His gaze was as if he was staring at something he hated.
Yi Xin looked straight at Yi Xue 'er's left cheek.
Her face was as ugly as her heart.
He had actually misjudged her and thought that she was an obedient servant, but in the end…
She had taken advantage of Xue Ru's kindness and his momentary impulsiveness. She, a crow, was eager to fly up to the branch and become a phoenix.
She was really amazing. Once she got the chance, she would climb up without caring about anything.
Did she think that she could get close to him just because she had a good time with him? Hmph, she was too naive! If all the people who had physical relations with him were to be responsible like her, the residence of Prince Wen would not be able to accommodate so many people as slaves.
It was this servant's life, so she had to accept it. It was useless to scheme against him like this.
In his eyes, crows were crows. It was impossible for them to become phoenixes.
Seeing Yi Xin staring at her, Yi Xue 'er felt more and more uneasy.
" Lord Baylor." She called out softly.
Yi Xin didn't say anything. He used his actions to let her understand.
There was no foreplay, no caressing. He aimed at her heart and his masculinity went deep into it.
" Wuu…" Yi Xue 'er covered her mouth that was letting out a sorrowful cry. Her large eyes were quickly filled with tears.
The place that had not recovered was torn apart again. His continuous advancement brought her great pain.
Looking at her tears, Yi Xin said coldly,""Why are you crying? Isn't this what you wanted?"
" I…Ah…" Yi Xue 'er couldn't help but scream out loud because Yi Xin's movements suddenly became more intense.
" Ah…" Yi Xue 'er cried out in pain."Lord Baylor, please spare me!"
Her body hurt, and her heart hurt. She didn't know why Yi Xin treated her like this. What did she do wrong?
"Do you think I'll let you off just because you said that?”Her tears made Yi Xin even angrier. Holding her trembling waist, he said mercilessly,"" Hmph, maybe all of this is a trap you set up. You knew I was there, but you made me think that you had accidentally barged in. Your goal was to let me find you, and then you pretended to cater to me so that I could take your body and then cry to Xueru..."
"No, that's not it!" Yi Xue 'er interrupted Yi Xin's words anxiously, shaking her head and saying excitedly,""Lord Baylor, you misunderstood me, I didn't!”
"You didn't?" Yi Xin sneered, pushing his anger into her body.
"No!" She gritted her teeth in pain and helplessness to bear all of this.
Yi Xin's voice continued to ring in her ears,""You clearly know that Xueru has that kind of boring sense of justice. She's so close to you, how could she not vent her anger for you? Just like that, you became the person by my side. Of course, you also gave up your virginity. Otherwise, with your face, how could you become a servant girl of a Baylor?”
"It's not that." Yi Xue 'er's face was covered in tears. She was in so much pain that she could not speak to defend herself.
"Hmph, this is quite worth it for you, isn't it? What was a woman's chastity? To be able to use this to exchange for status, your wishful thinking is too precise!”
"It's not that." Yi Xue 'er stared blankly at Yi Xin's angry face. Her head was spinning and she could barely see him.
Her consciousness drifted away.
Yi Xin looked at her pained and confused expression coldly. The energy inside her body was getting faster and faster.
Yi Xue 'er closed her eyes. The lingering pain in her body was still eroding her.
"From now on, you will serve me every night, do you hear me?”
Yi Xue 'er's tears fell again when she heard the footsteps.
From that night onwards, Yi Xue 'er had been waiting in her room for Yi Xin to return to bed every night.
A candle was lit, and a lonely figure was guarding the window. Yi Xue 'er waited and waited. For several days, she waited here for Yi Xin's return.
Yi Xin didn't assign her any other tasks. This was her job. However, after that night, Yi Xin had never returned to this room.
At first, she thought that Yi Xin had gone on a long trip. Otherwise, no matter how busy he was, he would have gone back to his room to rest.
Later on, she heard from the other maidservants that Yi Xin did not leave Prince Wen's residence and that she could see him sometimes in the day or afternoon. However, after dinner, he was gone.
In that case, Yi Xin only stayed out of the camp at night, and he was still in Prince Wen's residence.
This fact dealt a heavy blow to Yi Xue 'er. Was Yi Xin not returning to camp at night because of her?
She touched the left side of her face and her fingertips touched the scar. If Yi Xin really didn't want to see her, then why did he want her to be his maid? There were many maids like her in Prince Wen's residence, weren't there?
Did he really have no choice? In order to be responsible for her, and with Xueru's pressure, he had no choice but to do this?
" It's snowing…" She looked at the snowflakes that were slowly falling outside the window. It was the first snow of this winter.
She walked into the inner room, where she slept.
She opened one of the boxes, which was filled with the clothes that Xueru had given her. She flipped through it and quickly found what she was looking for.
She was holding the white robe that Yi Xin had draped over her that night.
She had always treasured it, but Yi Xin seemed to have forgotten about it because he had never mentioned it to her.
She carefully put it on and wrapped it tightly around her body. The robe wrapped around her, just like the owner of the robe was holding her in his arms.
She put on her robe and walked out of the room.
Snowflakes fell from the sky. She raised her head and let the snowflakes rest on her face.
Her face quickly became wet.
Was it the snow that had melted, or the tears that were sliding down from the corner of her eyes? Perhaps it was both!
Looking at the white snow in front of her, her heart was filled with endless emotions. In the end, she could not be as pure and beautiful as Xue!
If she had known that her status was low, why would she still tie her feelings to him? She clearly knew that he would not take her seriously, so why did she still shamelessly stay by his side?
Why? Why? There were too many whys, but she did not have an answer. She didn't regret falling in love with Yi Xin. She regretted why things had turned out this way.
Was it her fault? Or was it the fault of the heavens, just like her face?
The snowflakes soaked her beloved robe. As the night grew deeper and colder, she still refused to leave.
When Yi Xin returned to the bedroom that he hadn't returned to for a few days, the first thing he saw was Yi Xue 'er lying on the table.
She was probably asleep because her eyes and mouth were tightly shut.
Yi Xin stared at her quietly, his expression gentle.
He involuntarily reached out to her. Just as he touched her face, he saw tears flash from the corner of her tightly shut eyes. Then, a tear flowed down the left side of her face.
He immediately withdrew his hand, his expression turning cold.
Did this woman not forget to use her tears to confuse him even in her sleep?
At the thought of this, his anger rose and he shook her up rudely.
"Lord Baylor." Opening her eyes, Yi Xue 'er was shocked to see Yi Xin beside her. She was indescribably happy.
She finally saw him. Seeing him, the pain and helplessness of waiting before was nothing!
"Do you even know your place?”Yi Xin was not as happy as she was. He said angrily,""Are you listening to me? I told you to wait for me to come back, but you actually want me, your master, to wake you up from your sweet sleep!”
"I'm sorry, I didn't do it on purpose.”Yi Xue 'er said fearfully. She really didn't fall asleep on purpose. She was just too tired from waiting…
"What is this?" Yi Xin saw the robe she was wearing and became even angrier." Are you trying to remind me of something by wearing this?”
" Lord Baylor, I…No!" Yi Xue 'er looked at Yi Xin's robe in shock.
Looking at the robe in his hand, Yi Xin's memory of that night in the pool came back to him.
Yes, it was a memory that he regretted.
If he had known that he would be pestered by this woman, he would never have touched her that night!
He looked at her with disgust and then tore the robe in half.
Under Yi Xue 'er's shocked gaze, he flung his robe onto the ground as if he was throwing something off.
Looking at the robe lying on the ground, her heart was torn into pieces.
Looking at Yi Xue 'er's sad face, his heart twitched for some reason. But he didn't care because he felt that it didn't mean anything. Leaving Yi Xue 'er behind, his tall figure disappeared from the room again!
The originally lonely room returned to its original solitude.
Xue 'er didn't know how long she stood there. When she regained consciousness, she was already kneeling in front of the robe.
She carefully held the robe in her hand, which was no longer intact. She looked at the torn cloth in her hand and her tears fell onto it drop by drop.
The next afternoon, Xue Ru came to visit Yi Xue 'er.
Seeing her haggard appearance, Xue Ru knew how she was doing without asking.
"Sigh!" Xue Ruzhi sighed. "I really don't know what Big Brother is thinking. If he wants you, he has to treat you well, but…"
"Ge Ge, don't worry about me. I'm fine.”Yi Xue 'er forced a smile. "Look, I don't have to do anything here. It's really easy. I just have to…"
"As long as you suffer my big brother's anger, right?”Xue Ru looked straight at her." Xue 'er, you know that I can help you. Just say the word and I'll immediately tell Yang to let you go back to my place. I can make sure that you won't be bullied by him!”
Yi Xue 'er shook her head and smiled weakly,""I appreciate Ge Ge's good intentions, but I still want to stay here.”
Xue Ru didn't know if she should be angry or pity her. She pouted and said angrily,""I don't know why you're so attracted to my brother. Do you like his handsome face? But this appearance can't be used as food. He doesn't take it seriously at all, right?”
"I don't know myself." Yi Xue 'er lowered her eyes and whispered,"" I know I'm not worthy of him, but I just can't help but notice him. I don't know why I'm so shameless…"
"Wait a minute, why are you blaming yourself?”Xue Ru said hurriedly. "I'm not blaming you! I'm a strange…Sigh, forget it!" She sighed dejectedly." I'm not qualified to speak. Only you know about this relationship. I can't blame anyone.”
She had never fallen in love with someone like Yi Xue 'er, so she did not know what it felt like.
Seeing how Xue 'er had no regrets, she knew that she could not underestimate love. Perhaps one day, she would also fall in love with someone. Perhaps she would be even crazier than Xue' er!
"Forget it, let's not talk about my big brother." Xue Ru shook her head and said,"Xue 'er, let me ask you, do you know a person named Yu Qi?"”
"Yuqi?" Yi Xue 'er trembled slightly when she heard this name.
Yuqi, is it the Yuqi that Yi Die 'er likes?
"Do you know this person?" Xue Ru asked again.
"Yes." Yi Xue 'er did not know if Yuqi had said something to Xueru. She looked at Xueru uneasily.
" Ge Ge, you and Yuqi are…"
"Actually, I know him, but we don't usually interact, so we can't be considered friends! Xueru looked at her and said," It's like this. Didn't I go out to attend a banquet yesterday? I met him at the banquet. As soon as he saw me, he asked me if you were with me. I felt strange, so I asked him how he knew about this. In the end, he refused to tell me anything. He only said that if I mentioned his name to you, you would know who he was. Oh right, he even begged me to take you to meet him! The time is in two hours."
Yu Qi wanted to meet her? Yi Xue 'er was confused, Yu Qi wanted to see her for what? They had only met once!
Could it be…she had thought of it, could it be that something happened to her father, so Yuqi came to look for her?
That's right, that must be the case! Nianyu and her daughter wouldn't want to look for her. The only one who would look for her was her father. Father would ask Yuqi to come forward, but he didn't act personally. Something must have happened to him!
She panicked and grabbed Xueru's hand, shouting,""Ge Ge, please take me to him. I beg you to help me!”
Under Xue Ru's lead, Yi Xue 'er successfully left Prince Wen's residence.
The air outside made her miss it. Thinking about it, ever since she entered Prince Wen's residence, she had not left the house. It was no wonder that she felt nostalgic.
Xue Ru brought her to an inn. The waiter led them to a guest room.
After sending the waiter away, Xue Ru said to her,""He's not here yet. Let's wait for him here!”
" Yes." Yi Xue 'er waited anxiously.
After a while, someone knocked on the door.
"Miss, I've brought you the things you ordered.”
Although Yi Xue 'er heaved a sigh of relief, she was still nervous.
" Ge Ge, please have some tea." She poured some tea for Xue Ru.
"You drink too." Compared to Yi Xue 'er's nervousness, Xue Ru was calm.
"Ge Ge." "Why didn't you ask anything?" Yi Xue 'er finally couldn't help but ask.”
Xue Ru smiled gently." What's the difference? If you want to tell me, you will naturally tell me. If you don't want to tell me, why should I force you?”
" Ge Ge…" Yi Xue 'er looked at her, touched. Ge Ge trusted her so much, yet she hid many things from her. She felt very sorry for Ge Ge.
This time, there was another knock on the door. "Ge Ge, it's me!"
"Come in!"
The door was immediately pushed open and Yuqi appeared.
It really was him! Yi Xue 'er stood up and watched nervously as he walked towards her.
" Xue 'er, it's really you!" Yuqi looked very excited. His eager eyes stared at her the moment he came in.
"If you have something to say, say it quickly. I'm in the room next door.”Xue Ru did not make things difficult for the two of them. She left after saying that.
After Xueru left, Yuqi closed the door and turned around. "Xue 'er, do you know how hard it was for me to find you?”
He began to describe how he found out that she was taken away by Aunt Li, how he found Aunt Li, and finally made Aunt Li tell him where she was.
Yuqi said in detail, but this was not what she wanted to know. What she wanted to know was her father's situation.
"Yuqi, do you know my father's recent situation?”She interrupted him.
Yuqi looked straight at her." What do you think? His own daughter disappeared for no reason. Do you think he'll be fine?”
" Father…" Yi Xue 'er closed her eyes in pain. "Is he sick? Or…"
Yuqi shook his head." He's not sick, but he seems depressed. He doesn't even bother to quarrel with Madam Yi."”
"Is that so?" Yi Xue 'er thought that this was good too. Without her, the family would be much more peaceful.
Moreover, she believed that as time passed, her father's longing for her would be diluted by time, and he would not be as sad as he was now.
"Xue 'er, I really don't know what you're thinking.”Yuqi's tone suddenly became serious. "Is it better to be a servant in the wangfu than to be a miss in your own house? You don't have to suffer like this.”
Xue 'er lowered her head and did not speak.
"Xue 'er, let's go home!" Yuqi's voice was filled with emotion. "You have to go back sooner or later, don't you? Don't let your father worry anymore!”
"I can't go back!"
"Why?"
"I just can't go back!" Yi Xue 'er shook her head in pain. "Yuqi, I am very happy that you came to find me, but please don't say anything about me going back.”
"No, I want to say it! I want to say it!" Yuqi suddenly grabbed Yi Xue 'er's shoulder and pulled her towards him.
"Yuqi?"
Looking at Yuqi's excited expression, Yi Xue 'er was stunned and forgot to struggle.
"Just do it for me, okay?" Yuqi looked at her affectionately. "Xue 'er, I can't take it anymore. I miss you. When you weren't around, I missed you every day. Other than persuading you to go home, the main reason I came today is to let you know that I like you. You're the person I like the most so far!”
"No!" Yi Xue 'er shook her head and muttered in disbelief,""How is that possible? Why do you like a disfigured woman like me?”
"I won't allow you to talk about yourself like that!" Yuqi roared angrily. Then, ignoring her struggles, he pulled her frail body into his arms.
"Let me go!"
Yi Xue 'er was terrified. She desperately wanted to break free from his embrace.
"I won't let go unless you let me finish!”Yuqi hugged her tightly and said quickly,""Xue 'er, don't look down on yourself, and don't not believe what I say. I've already fallen in love with you, even though we've only met once. No matter how many scars you have on your face, in my eyes, you will always be the most beautiful and pure girl. No one can compare to you.”
" No!" Yi Xue 'er pushed him away forcefully. The word' pure 'hurt her deeply.
In pain, she forced out these words to him."Yuqi, please forget me! There are many girls better than me, I'm not worthy of you!”
With that, she covered her face and ran out of the door.
She was not worthy of him.
She wasn't worthy of him in the past, let alone now that she was no longer innocent.#
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