He forgot that a few days had passed and Lian 'er's injuries were almost healed. He stared at Zhu Yutang's face in a daze.
"Do you want me?" He had kept this question in his heart for a long time. Every day, when he hugged him in the courtyard to admire the flowers and the moon, he felt the warmth of his cheeks and his thick chest. He wanted to ask him this question.
Zhu Yutang was shocked. He looked into the pair of calm and clear eyes. He was still sitting on the wooden railing with him in his arms, looking at the morning light streaming through the window.
It had been like this for the past few days. For some reason, they didn't want to talk. They just hugged each other and sat down casually. Time passed between the two of them.
The question came suddenly, but Zhu Yutang, who never concealed his intentions, answered directly. "I do want you. Can you tell?”Was his desire that obvious?
He shook his head. "I just wanted to ask."
"Because none of the men who want you are magnanimous?”With a beauty in his arms, it was not easy to be magnanimous.
Lian 'er smiled at his honesty. "Maybe!"
That was the truth, but because he felt that it was not suitable for people like Zhu Yutang, he did not think so.
"Then why haven't you touched me until today? My injuries are almost healed.”That day, he said that he didn't like young officials, but from his eyes, he knew that he wanted him.
"Aren't you afraid?" Originally, he wanted to wait until he was older, but he realized that Lian 'er's growth had already surpassed children of the same age. Her eyes were pure but no longer naive.
For a Lian like this, time would only bring him physical changes. Psychologically…there was no difference. He's almost fifteen years old, right? A fifteen-year-old body with a standing soul was not a happy thing.
"I'm afraid." He did not want to hide his thoughts. Even though Zhu Yutang was gentle and good to him, he was still afraid of physical contact. Having been in Love Sleeves Lane for nearly nine years, he knew how much pain that incident would bring to his body.
Was he afraid of pain?
No, what he was afraid of was being possessed, being invaded…and the inevitable snatching and giving.
"What are you afraid of? I won't hurt you. I know you're weak, so I'll love you carefully and gently.”He didn't want him to be afraid of him.
Lightly shaking her head, Lian 'er opened her hands to hold that handsome face with a slight mustache. Her eyes almost made Zhu Yutang want to take out a towel to scoop up the glistening water that was about to fall.
His Lian 'er wasn't just a weeping beauty, she was also the most beautiful lotus flower. He was worried that if he accidentally used force, water would come out of her tender cheeks.
"I'm not afraid of pain. I've already endured the painful days. What I'm afraid of is that after I give my body to you, I'll really have nothing left.”He had never been afraid to speak his mind. Even if the result was not like this, it would not change anything even if he said it, so why hide it?
"How could that be? You still have friends, you still have me, and you still have a lot of things, don't you?”
Lian 'er lowered her eyes, causing Zhu Yutang to unconsciously take out a towel. She felt that even if she slightly turned her eyes, crystal tears would fall.
She was both angry and amused as she took the towel from his hand, not letting any more emotions show on her face. "That's right! I still have Brother Hongyu and the others, you, and many, many things…" He knew that he would not understand what he meant. How could a proud son of heaven understand the lowly thoughts of people like them?
Ever since his mother passed away and his father sold him, he had lost all warmth. After being forced to smile, he lost his dignity and innocence. A person who had lost his warmth, dignity, and innocence, all that was left was a scarred heart. That heart was hidden deep in this unbearable body. For people like them, once they were willing to give up, they had to give up their hearts. If they gave up their only heart, they would have nothing.
Hong Yu and the others were never willing to give up their hearts. To them, selling their bodies was just separating their minds from their bodies. They gave their bodies but not their hearts.
He couldn't do it.
When Zhu Yutang had promised him and he had seen him for the first time, he knew he couldn't do it.
Her body and heart were destined to be given to this stalwart man.
The heavens must think that his thoughts were laughable, right? After enduring for so many years, he would rather kill himself than admit that he was a man or a woman. Unexpectedly, all his persistence became the biggest joke after their eyes met. He was like a moth to a fire, desperately placing his heart on a man.
Truly…laughable, he actually placed his heart on a man!
In the end, he was still abnormal…
There was nothing to lose…
She pulled herself up in his arms, her pink lips slowly kissing her chin, cheeks, chin, and lower lip from her warm neck, allowing the moist heat between her lips to invade her lips.
This was his first kiss. It was the first time his lips kissed a territory that did not belong to his body. Only then did he realize that kissing someone and kissing himself felt different.
Kissing her was a comfortable and warm spot. In the winter, he often kissed her cold hands like this to give her a little warmth. However, the target of his lips was Zhu Yutang. The warmth was no longer just on that small piece of skin. The scorching heat seemed to numb his lips from the other party's body, burning every blood vessel in his body.
She really liked this kind of heat. Her body was no longer as cold as when she was alone.
"Do you like it?" Separating their lips, Zhu Yutang lovingly looked at a beautiful face panting in front of him, the fragrance of her breath on his lips.
His Tears Girl had kissed him, but the kiss was more beautiful than any previous contact. His heartbeat seemed to be more than just lust. There was also an unknown disturbance.
Lian 'er didn't know if the expression on her face was like her heart. Years of going against her heart had long caused her face to move and lose its true confession.
"Am I smiling?"
He didn't understand why he asked that question, but he still nodded. He liked that smile that seemed to hide a little satisfaction.
It was great that he was smiling and was in sync with her heart. "That means I like it. I like it when you kiss me like this. It feels very warm, like squatting by a fire in winter. It's very hot, so hot that it hurts a little. However, on such a cold day, this little pain is a kind of happiness.”
The winter in Jiangnan was still very cold. The officials in Love Sleeves Square seemed to be afraid of the cold. He and Hong Yu often gathered around the stove to warm themselves up. Even though their faces were red from the heat, they were still reluctant to leave. Hong Yu said that moths that flew into the fire were like them. They would rather burn themselves than chill themselves.
Pain. She could feel that she was still alive. Her body was cold, and even her senses were numb.
"Is this a kind of happiness?" He untied Lian 'er's waist scarf, and her white unlined garment slid down along with her white embroidered robe, layered on top of each other.
He had always been well-dressed and well-fed since he was young, and he never thought that squatting by the fire would be a happy thing. After hearing what he said, she remembered that when the gardener at home burned the fallen leaves in the courtyard, a group of servants would often surround the pile of burning leaves. Their bronze faces, which were often exposed to the sun, were red from the fire. It was not a pretty color, but it felt very warm at first glance.
Was Lian 'er the same when she was warming herself by the fire?
As he thought of this, his eyes naturally met those watery eyes. Although the weather was a little cold and there was no scorching stove beside her, her clean little face was indeed flushed and beautiful.
Her large palm held the face, sliding down from the baby-like soft cheeks to the clean neck where one could feel the veins underneath. She slowly moved to the smooth round shoulders. She could clearly feel that the delicateness under her palm had raised unevenly after he touched it, and then returned to its original softness and smoothness.
He liked men's bodies more than women's.
Even though Lian 'er had never practiced martial arts, even though his body was thin, the touch under his palm was still a man's unique elasticity. Unlike the woman, who could feel his bones with just a press, it was a kind of elasticity that seemed to suck people in, making people unable to put it down.
His slow movements made Lian 'er curious. He looked like he was worshipping a body, as if he had never touched another man's body. If he hadn't known that this stalwart man was the famous Prince Lian Xiu of Flower Street, he would have mistaken this as not only his first time, but also his first time.
"Your body…is very beautiful…"
The smile lines on her lips deepened, and her hands that were originally resting on Zhu Yutang's shoulders moved to her waist. Lian 'er was surprised at what she felt.
How could such broad and thick shoulders have such a narrow waist? It was not as slender as her own, but a very strong waist. She removed the outer layer of restraint and a pair of small hands slid into his clothes. She felt the smooth and hard expanse.
So this was the feeling of touching a man. It was so comfortable and nostalgic.
He knew how to please a man. When his lips kissed that wide expanse, he loved the heat that his lips felt. Such a hot body, it must be very warm to hug, right?
As he thought about it, his body followed suit. Not only did his lips touch his bronze skin, but even his body leaned against it. Her flat chest was pressed against his firm abdomen, and her hands were wrapped around his back. Every finger was one with him from the palm to the fingertips. She inhaled the fragrance of his grassland and heard the powerful beating like a drum.
What a beautiful and warm body.
He sighed for this wonderful feeling, and his breath rubbed against Zhu Yutang's sensitive skin.
"God, you must not know what you have done to me.”He was actually being teased by a virgin to the point of being unable to endure his passion.
Before Lian 'er could raise her head to see his expression clearly, her lips brushed past the bulge on the flat surface. She heard a rapid gasp and her entire body was lifted up by the pair of strong arms that were hugging him.
"Where to?"
Zhu Yutang, whose face was red, smiled back. "Personally, I prefer a softer and more private bed.”
Her heart skipped a beat because of his words. No matter how many pleasing techniques she had learned, they could not beat a flirtatious sentence. In an instant, her blank mind returned to her senses and she found that the two of them were already lying on a soft bed.
The bed in the Murong family's courtyard was covered with a cushion filled with feathers. Lying on it, one could feel the softness underneath, while Lian 'er could only feel the pressure from above.
He should feel heavy, he was so huge.
"You still want him." Liu Qingsheng was not surprised at all that he came out of the inner room covered in " wounds ". "Tsk tsk! Could it be that the gentle and lovely Tears Girl was a wild wild cat?”
His cold gaze pierced through Liu Qingsheng's eyes. "You're not allowed to say that about Lian 'er!" There was not a hint of unseriousness on his handsome face, and one could clearly feel how much he valued Lian 'er.
Liu Qingsheng was a little frightened. He had been Zhu Yutang's good friend for so many years, but he had never seen him show such a serious expression. Even during the ceremony to take over the Zhu family, he had never been so serious.
"I won't say it." He did not know if he was thinking too much, but Zhu Yutang's attitude towards that minor official gave him a bad feeling. "When do you plan to return to the north? If you continue to stay, it will be difficult to explain to your mother.”
They had already been out for more than two months. The previous month was still to investigate the economic development of Jiangnan, but the next month was completely extra. It was Yutang himself who said that he had been busy for a month just to have more time to wander around. That was why he brought him to the famous Love Sleeves Square in Hangzhou's Flower Street to have fun. However, there was a problem with this game, and it even dragged on for more than half a month.
When that time came, he would definitely be despised by Matriarch Zhu again. He knew very well how Matriarch Zhu would comment on his "fair-weather friend" behind his back. She thought that the reason why her precious son was so obsessed with being single was all because of him. Every time he went out with him, nothing good would happen.
God knew that the place where he met Yu Tang was at the brothel. At that time, Yu Tang was even crazier than him. It could only be said that although Yutang was a playboy by nature, he always did his job perfectly and was a good son with courage and filial piety.
He didn't care about being the scapegoat! Anyway, he did not have much interaction with Old Madam Zhu. However, as Yutang's good friend, he did not approve of Yutang falling in love with a small official. Nowadays, there were many people who went bankrupt for small officials. He did not wish for Yutang to be one of them.
Zhu Yutang frowned. He knew what he was talking about, especially since his father and uncle had passed away. He was the only male left in the Zhu family. Every time he went on a long journey, his mother would be worried about him. She was always afraid that something would happen to him.
"I'll go back in a few days." He didn't want his mother to worry, but before everything was settled, he didn't want to leave just like that.
Before he sent someone to ask the Murong family if they were willing to sell him the courtyard, Murong Yanhao had already sent someone to tell him that he could use the courtyard for two years. It was as if he had seen through something.
Why? Did he think that he would bring Lian 'er back to the north within two years? Or did he think that he could definitely build a beautiful and luxurious courtyard for Lian 'er in two years?
No matter what the reason was, he couldn't become enemies with someone like Murong Yanhao. It was not that his ability was inferior to his, but that this person's thoughts were strange. If he wanted to fight with him, he would have to rack his brains and rack his brains. Perhaps even if he was white-haired, he might not be able to determine the winner.
"Why wait a few days? We didn't bring anything anyway. We can leave now.”He just did not want Yutang to stay here any longer. Although it was just a premonition, it did not mean that the things he thought about would not happen. It was better to believe it than not.
"How can this be? Lian 'er and the others aren't familiar with this place, and I haven't finished dealing with the matters of Love Sleeve Square. That Ming Yan isn't someone that can be easily dismissed.”After working in the business world for a long time, he could tell at a glance who was cheap and who was greedy. Ming Yan was a greedy person. Receiving such a large sum of money could only satisfy his short-term desires. After a period of time, the loss of business at Love Sleeve Shop would definitely make him have some small ideas.
The Zhu family was far in the north. If anything happened to Lian 'er, he would not be able to rush over in a short time. Presumably, Ming Yan would definitely grasp this and secretly do something. He wouldn't do it openly because he didn't have anyone who dared to touch him. Thus, he would definitely use Lian 'er's kindness or Hong Yu's past.
"I think we should just buy Love Sleeve Shop.”Anyway, he had already bought all five minor officials. Now that Love Sleeve Square was not worth much, even he could buy it.
"Buy it? Not bad! I'll buy it, and then you can explain it to my mother.”If this matter were to reach Mother's ears, it would be terrible.
Liu Qingsheng immediately laughed hoarsely. If he had to explain to Madame Zhu, he would rather swim around the moat. Just the thought of Matriarch Zhu's stern appearance sent shivers down his spine. "Pretend I didn't say anything just now."
"I think we need to find a few trustworthy guards. It's best if Ming Yan doesn't even have the chance to get close to them.”
"Yes, yes!"
"The problem is, where can I find a trustworthy guard?”He was not as familiar with Jiangnan as he was with the North.
"That's right, that's right!"
He glared at his good friend who had been perfunctory ever since he retaliated. "Since you think it's right, then give me an idea!”Don't think that he didn't know that he had secretly gone to play with Hong Yu for the whole night, so he was also involved in this matter. He couldn't escape even if he wanted to.
Liu Qingsheng shrunk his neck guiltily. Sometimes, he felt that his good friend's gaze was really scary, as if he could see through all the bad things he had done. Yesterday, when he and Lian were "busy", he couldn't help but look for the lovely Hong Yu. He didn't expect to be seen through by him.
Strange, how did he know? He remembered that he had left the room earlier than him. How could he have known that he had played with Hong Yu?
" That... I think..." Liu Qingsheng did not dare to move his eyes casually. He stared at the scenery in his sight. The elegant garden could be seen to have been designed by someone... Someone... Right! How could he not have thought of it!
"I think the one who is most familiar with Jiangnan and has the most power is the Murong family. Since he's willing to lend you his courtyard, it shouldn't be difficult to borrow a few more guards. Moreover, the Murong family was so mysterious. It was obvious that they had done a good job of keeping secrets. They must have hired quite a good expert.”
He had never troubled others. Since he was young, he had to be responsible for what he did. He had never asked for help.
But…
Thinking of Lian 'er's face, asking for help did not seem to be a difficult thing.
"I'll personally go and tell the Murong family.”
"He treats you very well." Hong Yu smiled faintly as she helped Lian 'er put on her clothes. Lian 'er's already shockingly beautiful face now had a touch of innocence and an indescribable mature charm. After experiencing love, it turned out that not only women could become more beautiful, even men could be the same.
Lian 'er casually put on her soft shoes and moved to the porch with some difficulty. A gust of wind blew, causing the branches and leaves to sway.
Humans were really small. No matter what earth-shattering things happened to them, the world was still the same. "He treats me very well."
"You're not satisfied?" Hong Yu could tell that there was no satisfaction in his words.
He grabbed the swaying branches and leaves and rubbed the tender green of the newly born branches and buds. "No, this is enough. I don't want more. Hongyu, you know better than me. What else can people like us ask for? This is already the best."
Hong Yu smiled bitterly. This really didn't sound like something a child who wasn't even fifteen would say. "Don't forget that I'm also a human. If it were me, I wouldn't be satisfied because of this. I would want more and more.”Pulling back his hand that was still caressing the leaves, she turned his body so that their eyes met. "Lian 'er!"
"Hmm?" Even though she was looking at that pair of serious beautiful eyes, Lian 'er's half-opened eyes were still at a loss.
"You know what?"
"Know what?"
"I would rather you kill yourself with a knife that day than come to this point.”If time could go back, would he still hope that Zhu Yutang could reach out and save Lian 'er, and then…then walk back to the same place?
How ridiculous and contradictory!
Lian 'er chuckled, her clear voice echoing in the corridor. "Isn't that simple? Give me a knife and I'll kill myself again.”His bumpy steps stepped onto the grass outside the corridor. His soft shoes were stained with wet mud. Even though there was a layer of cloth cushion between them, they were still wet and cold.
"Lian 'er!"
"Don't be angry!" Her hair fluttered in the air, and her petite body was neither male nor female. Her toes stepped on the round stones of the lawn, trembling as she danced on them.
His body was small and his movements were nimble. Ming Yan suddenly wanted him to learn how to dance, just like a dancer in a theater. She even specially found a master for him, hoping that he could become like the Han Palace's Flying Sparrow at that time. Even in a place as big as a palm, he could dance like a butterfly.
As he danced, many years had passed. He no longer understood what it meant to be a real man. He had forgotten that he was also a man.
"Hong Yu." Dance over a round stone, then jump over another round stone, even if the moss is wet and slippery, it can't stop the moving dance. "At first glance, I lost everything. A long, long time ago, I asked myself, what is a real man? Was he like those benefactors, fat in the head and sleazy in the eyes? Or the cowardice of a gentleman who couldn't promise or bear the consequences. I had been describing a man's appearance in my heart. As time passed, I no longer knew if I was describing the person I hoped to become or the face I hoped to meet.”
"In the end, you met Zhu Yutang." Not just Lian 'er, but also the man they had pictured in their hearts.
"Yes, I met him." She stopped dancing and smiled. " Then, I looked at him and myself. I finally understood that I would never be the man I described. Look at this body…" She pulled open her clothes, revealing her naked body. " Other than this flat land, other than the thing between his legs, there's nothing else that looks like a man. Even here…" She pointed at her heart, and her beautiful eyes glistened again. "The image I have in my heart would never give all my heart to a man at first sight. Even this place, the only place she could keep, was no longer under her control. It was given to a man, just like a woman.”
Hong Yu was silent as she stepped forward to help Lian 'er put on her clothes. Her slender fingers skillfully tied his belt.
A drop of water fell onto the grass and wet the soil.
He, wasn't he…#
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