"It hurts!" The moment Zhong Yufei opened his eyes, he felt an intense pain coming from his head. It was so painful that he almost could not open his eyes.
"Young Master, you're awake!"
When Zhong Yufei heard this familiar voice, his body moved. His eyes, which gradually became clear, caught the slender figure that stepped into the room.
It was her! Three years had transformed a little girl into a beautiful woman. Yes, she was beautiful. Her delicate facial features had been baptized by time. After removing her youth, she became even more attractive, especially attracting men's gazes.
Her face was no longer as pale as he remembered. Her pink cheeks were a faint pink, and her figure had grown taller. The skinny little girl from three years ago now showed her alluring curves in front of him, making his gaze wander involuntarily on her body. He almost forgot that he did not want to see this person at all.
Yao Yueru didn't notice Zhong Yufei's burning gaze. She lowered her head and wrung the towel dry. Then, she turned around and said to him,""Eldest Young Master, let this servant wash your face!”
Servant? Zhong Yufei's cold gaze was like two cold arrows shooting at her face. "When did you become my slave?”
Hearing this, Yao Yueru couldn't help but cower. "Yes, I went to beg Madam to let me serve Eldest Young Master.”
"I don't need anyone to serve me!" "Get out! Don't make me chase you away!" Zhong Yufei shouted fiercely.”
"Eldest Young Master, please calm down." Yao Yueru kneeled on the ground, her tone panicked. "Please let me serve you, okay? You can hate me, but no matter what, please let me take care of you, because I…"
"Because you have a guilty conscience!" Zhong Yufei looked at her angrily. "What are you doing? Why do I have to let you take care of me? Are you trying to atone for your sins? Do you think I think you killed Yang Yan like everyone else?”
Wasn't it? Yao Yueru looked at Zhong Yufei blankly.
Zhong Yufei looked straight at her. There was no emotion in his eyes. Since there was no emotion, there was naturally no hatred as she had imagined.
Did he hate Yao Yueru? In fact, he did, but he didn't just hate Yao Yueru. He hated everyone. He hated the heavens, the gods in the sky, and the evil ghosts in the earth!
He hated everyone and everything, but he hated himself the most. Why would he let the person he loved the most die in front of him? He could never forgive himself for what happened that day.
For the past three years, he had spent every day without Yang Yan in this situation where he did not understand himself and everyone else. In the past three years, his feelings for Yang Yan had turned into hatred and pain. Life was meaningless to him. He was now just a walking corpse. If his parents were not still alive, he would definitely follow Yang Yan and not stay in this world.
Right now, he disliked everyone, including Yao Yueru. He didn't want to see her, not because of Yang Yan's death, but because he didn't want to get close to anyone, and he didn't want anyone to get close to him.
"You can go now!" He wasn't angry. He just turned his back to her coldly.
"I'm not leaving!" Yao Yueru suddenly had the courage to jump at him and hug his legs.
"You…"
"Eldest Young Master, don't chase me away!" Yao Yueru was crying beside his legs. "Let me take care of you. I know you won't forgive me, but please let me do my best for Sister Yan's sake!”
"What did you say?" Zhong Yufei grabbed Yao Yueru and pushed her in front of him. "What do you mean by doing it for Sister Yan's sake? Explain yourself!"
" Yes…I'll tell you…" Yao Yueru cried and told her everything Yang Yan had told her that day, except for the matter of the Mystic Mirror.
" Yan 'er..." Zhong Yufei let go of her and walked away dejectedly. The wall blocked his swaying body. He leaned against the wall and did not let Yao Yueru see the tears on his face.
His heart ached! No, he could not stay here. He had to go to a place without Yang Yan's memories.
He quickly walked towards the door.
Seeing that he was about to leave, Yao Yueru quickly ran behind him and held his hand.
"Let go!" He turned around and roared at her.
" Eldest Young Master…" Yao Yueru saw the tears on Zhong Yufei's face and shook her head in shock. "No! Unless Young Master agrees to let me serve you.”
"I told you to let go!" Zhong Yufei glared at her fiercely. "Don't use Yan 'er to affect me. I'll say it again. Let go of me. Otherwise, don't blame me for being rude.”He had to leave this place, or he would suffocate to death.
"No!" Yao Yueru didn't let go. She was afraid that if she let go, she would never be able to hold his hand again.
Zhong Yufei's anger reached its peak. He swung his hand and turned around to leave, not even looking at Yao Yueru.
Yao Yueru was sent flying, and her body slammed into the wall.
Her right shoulder hit the wall hard, and the strong impact made her faint.
When Yao Yueru opened her eyes, four hours had passed.
This was…She looked around. This was her room!
"Yueru, what do you think?" Pei 'er walked towards her with a bowl of steaming food in her hand.
"Sister Pei 'er, what are you carrying? What about me?"
"Have you forgotten? You fainted in Eldest Young Master's room and your right shoulder was injured. It was Madam who invited the doctor to see you.”
" I fainted..." Yao Yueru's blurry memories slowly became clear. She finally remembered everything.
She moved her right shoulder and a sharp pain spread throughout her body. Her face was twisted in pain.
"Does it hurt?" Pei 'er looked at her with heartache. "Drink the medicine first. The doctor said that you need to rest for a few days and try not to move your right hand.”
Pei 'er fed Yao Yueru the soup. Yao Yueru's eyes became wet after a few sips.
"Sister Pei 'er, you don't blame me, right?”she said hoarsely.
Pei 'er's eyes were also wet. She sniffed and said,"I don't blame you for a long time. Don't cry anymore. Finish your medicine!”
"Sister Pei 'er!" Yao Yueru couldn't help but hug Pei 'er and wail. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry!"
"It's my fault. I shouldn't have blamed you for Miss's death.”
"No, this is my fault. If that day I…"
"Don't say anymore. It's been so long.”Pei 'er held Yao Yueru's crying face and said softly,""You've suffered enough in the past few years. I don't have much time left in the Zhong Residence. In the remaining few days, let's get along well like before!”
Yao Yueru forgot to cry when she heard that. She asked anxiously,""Sister Pei 'er, why do you say that?”
"Madam told me a while ago that she had already helped me find a good marriage partner. The other party is in the cloth business and is thirty years old this year. Although he is a little old, his appearance is not bad and his family is considered well-off. Yesterday, Furen invited that person to the residence to meet me. He is really not bad. He does not have the stench of money that I imagined a businessman to have. He is also very polite in his speech. I think I am not young anymore. Since the other party did not despise my identity as a servant girl, then what else do I have to choose?”
"Sister Pei 'er, have you decided to marry him?" Yao Yueru asked in a daze.”
Pei 'er nodded. "In another five days, I will be leaving the palace. Furen said that she would prepare a dowry for me, and the other party would also use a big red sedan chair to carry me. I feel very happy to be valued so much.”
"Sister Pei 'er, I can't bear to part with you!”She hugged Pei 'er.
Pei 'er stroked her hair. "So am I. Yue Ru, promise Sister Pei 'er not to get close to Eldest Young Master anymore."”
Yao Yueru let go of Pei 'er." I'm sorry, Sister Pei' er. I can promise you anything except this.”
"Why? Do you have to let the young master hurt you again before you realize it?”Pei 'er said excitedly.
Yao Yueru shook her head." I don't care if Eldest Young Master hurts me. What I care about is when Eldest Young Master can become the Eldest Young Master he was before.”
"That's impossible!" Pei 'er didn't have any hope. "If he wants the young master to return to his past self, unless the young miss can be resurrected, or he falls in love with someone else, someone who can make him love her more deeply than the young miss.”
"No one can compare to Sister Yan.”Yao Yueru sighed.
"You think so too, don't you? You'd better give up. Miss won't blame you.”
Pei 'er didn't know Yao Yueru's feelings for Zhong Yufei. In her opinion, Yao Yueru stayed by the Young Master's side to atone for her sins.
Yao Yueru didn't say anything. She knew that Pei 'er wouldn't understand her feelings. She would not give up. She would do everything she could to find the gentle and affectionate Zhong Yufei of the past. If she wanted her to give up, she would have to die!
"Sister Pei 'er, we may not meet often in the future. Promise me that you must be happy!”She said sincerely to Pei 'er.
"I think I will." Pei 'er looked at her worriedly. "You have to be happy too, understand?”
"I will!" Yao Yueru smiled brightly. The happiness of the eldest young master was her happiness, so she would work hard to make him happy.
Five days later, with everyone's blessings, Pei 'er was grandly married off from the Zhong Manor, from a servant girl to a mistress.
On the night of Pei 'er's wedding, Yao Yueru, who had mostly recovered, came to Zhong Yufei's room again.
As usual, Zhong Yufei would not come back until midnight. She took advantage of his absence to do what she should do.
Not long after she finished all her work, Zhong Yufei's footsteps sounded outside the door.
" Eldest Young Master, you're back." Yao Yueru hurriedly stood up to welcome him.
It was rare for Zhong Yufei to return to the residence sober tonight. Although he still smelled of alcohol, it was much better than the drunkenness of that day.
"It's you?" Zhong Yufei was expressionless when he saw Yao Yueru. "What are you doing here?" She had not appeared for the past few days, and he thought that he had completely gotten rid of her.
"Young Master, if you don't like to see me, I'll leave immediately.”Yao Yueru had already done what she needed to do. She could disappear from his sight immediately.
"Wait a minute!" Zhong Yufei called out to her. "If you want to go, take this pot of flowers with you.”
Yao Yueru looked at him in disbelief." Eldest Young Master, these are osmanthus flowers! Isn't it your and Sister Yan's favorite flower?”
She remembered very clearly that Yang Yan's favorite flower when she was alive was the fragrant osmanthus. She would often put a pot in her room and also in the young master's room. Perhaps it was because she loved the house and the crow, so osmanthus became Zhong Yufei's favorite flower.
"Take the flowers away!" Zhong Yufei didn't even look at Gui Hua. "Who said I like osmanthus flowers? I hate flowers the most, especially osmanthus!”
"Because osmanthus reminds you of Sister Yan, so you hate osmanthus now, right?”
"What did you say?"
Zhong Yufei's gaze on her was terrifying. Yao Yueru was a little timid, but she still said what was in her heart.
"You can't forget Sister Yan, so you hate anyone related to Sister Yan, especially me. Because I'm the person Sister Yan loves the most, and I'm also related to Sister Yan's death. You think of Sister Yan when you see me, so you don't want me to serve you, right?”
Zhong Yufei stared at her fiercely for a long time before he gritted his teeth and said,""That's right! I didn't expect you to be so smart. You actually know what I'm thinking. Since you already know, then you can get lost, right? I don't have the time to waste on you!”
"Young Master, I can leave, but I have a few words to say to you. I hope you can listen to me.”Without waiting for Zhong Yufei to react, she mustered up her courage and said,"I know that you can't forget Sister Yan. You're in pain, so you went to the tavern to get drunk and to the brothel to have fun. But did you know? What you did after you came back has hurt many people, especially Master and Madam. Their pain is definitely not inferior to yours! And Sister Yan, do you think she'll be happy to see you indulge yourself like this? I'm sure if she were still alive, she would be very sad.”
Yao Yueru had a feeling that Zhong Yufei would be angry at her, but she was wrong.
Zhong Yufei's expression was very calm. He looked at her and said in a tired tone,"The problem is that she's no longer here. It's impossible for her to see me, so it doesn't matter if I'm sad or not.”
"It's not like that!" Yao Yueru was heartbroken when she heard that. She shouted desperately,""There are still people who will be sad! Master and Madam will, and…"
"Who else?" Seeing that she did not say anything, he continued,"Do you want to say that there's still you?" His expression was extremely mischievous.
Yao Yueru only felt a surge of hot air rushing up her body, and she couldn't say a word.
Zhong Yufei walked towards her with a frivolous smile. He held her sharp chin and smiled lightly."Do you really like me that much? What do you want me to do? Do you want me to treat you like a Yan 'er?"
Yao Yueru shook her head in panic." No.”
"No?" Zhong Yufei suddenly moved his face closer to her and quickly kissed her.
Yao Yueru's heart almost stopped beating. She stiffly allowed his mouth to suck on her lips. When his tongue slipped between her lips and teeth and stirred in her mouth, her knees couldn't help but tremble. Her body was filled with excitement.
Zhong Yufei went deeper into her mouth. His tongue glided between her lips and teeth, exploring her sweetness.
" Mm..." Yao Yueru felt that she was running out of strength. She leaned against him weakly, and her breathing became labored.
Zhong Yufei watched her honest reaction coldly. His mouth covered hers, and his hand on her slender waist began to move around her upper body.
"No!" Yao Yueru woke up from her dazed state. She pushed Zhong Yufei away forcefully, raised her hand to protect her chest, and took a few steps back.
"What's wrong?" Zhong Yufei smiled at her. "Didn't you want to replace Yan 'er? Come on, what's there to be reserved about?”
Yao Yueru's eyes were quickly covered with tears. She felt that Zhong Yufei was looking at her as if she was a prostitute. He actually…actually saw her as one of those girls from the brothel who accompanied him to seek pleasure!？
A feeling of humiliation welled up in her heart. She covered her face and turned around to run.
Zhong Yufei watched Yao Yueru leave without a trace of emotion in his eyes.
He picked up the pot of osmanthus and walked to the window.
He wanted to throw the osmanthus out of the window, but he only looked out of the window. The hand holding the osmanthus did not move.
After a long time, he put the osmanthus back in its original place.
Why not throw the flowers away? Even he didn't know the real answer.
The only thing he was sure of was that when he was about to throw the flowers out the window, Yao Yueru's face flashed across his mind.
It was Yao Yueru's face, not the face of Yang Yan, whom he loved deeply.
Ever since Zhong Yufei forcefully kissed Yao Yueru, Yao Yueru had never appeared in front of him again.
Zhong Yufei thought that he didn't care about Yao Yueru's existence. One day, two days…On the seventh day, when he returned to his room at night and didn't see her, he felt a strange sense of loneliness in his heart.
Yao Yueru had indeed been to his room. He could tell from the changes in the room.
Obviously, she did not give up on the idea of serving him. She just changed her way of doing things for him without him noticing.
He didn't stop her. Even if he didn't agree, he wouldn't be able to meet her, so he wouldn't have the chance to tell her. He had tacitly approved of what Yao Yueru had done. He had thought that it was a trivial matter that would not affect him at all.
In the end, he was proven wrong in just seven days! He didn't know why, but not seeing Yao Yueru made him panic. Even though he was in a brothel, facing those girls, he was thinking about Yao Yueru.
The person he remembered was Yao Yueru, not Yang Yan. This was the real reason why he was flustered.
In order to understand his own feelings, he did not drink or go to the brothel that night. He returned to the residence at midnight, completely sober.
He pushed the door open and entered the room. As he wished, he saw Yao Yueru. Perhaps she was tired, but she had fallen asleep on the table.
He came to her side without making a sound and quietly watched her closed long eyelashes tremble slightly.
What was she dreaming about? Was he in her dream?
In his eyes, Yao Yueru's face overlapped with the little Yueru from three years ago. He was referring to her heart. Of course, her appearance had changed. She had become more beautiful.
What remained unchanged was her pure and kind heart. He had heard a lot about her. Although he didn't say it, he still felt deeply sorry for her.
He didn't take good care of her, did he?
Three years ago, in order to escape the pain of losing Yang Yan, he had abandoned everything and wandered around. At that time, he had lost all hope and was living a life worse than death. He could not even care about himself, so why would he think of that little Yue Ru?
However, Yue Ru's image had never disappeared from his mind for the past three years. Whenever he thought of Yang Yan, he would think of Yue Ru. In his heart, Yue Ru and Yang Yan were one and the same. This was also why he hated Yue Ru for getting close to him. Whenever he saw her, Yang Yan's image would appear in his mind. This made him feel pain, so he rejected Yue Ru more than anyone else.
He thought that his actions were obvious enough. He even kissed her forcefully and touched her all over. He thought that she would back down.
He did not expect Yue Ru to be so stubborn. She insisted on staying by his side and used her kind heart to tolerate him. She protected him without a word of complaint.
"You little fool!" Zhong Yufei moved closer to her face and moved his lips to her tender lips to suck lightly.
He kissed her passionately, deeply intoxicated by her sweetness.
Yao Yueru was sleeping so soundly that she only moaned occasionally. Perhaps, she thought that she was dreaming of being kissed by her sweetheart!
After an unknown period of time, Zhong Yufei suddenly left Yao Yueru's lips. His expression changed drastically, and he let out a painful roar as he retreated.
Yang Yan's figure suddenly flashed across his mind, causing him to be jolted awake. Heavens, what was he doing? He was kissing Yue Ru. He was kissing a woman other than Yang Yan.
The last time he kissed Yueru, it was purely to tease her. As for the prostitutes who accompanied him for fun, he had never kissed them because he believed that he would never kiss any other woman in this life other than Yang Yan.
However, he had kissed Yue Ru, and he had even taken the initiative to kiss her.
How could he do this? He loved Yang Yan, didn't he? How could he betray Yang Yan?
"Eldest Young Master." Yao Yueru, who was woken up by Zhong Yufei's scream, opened her misty eyes and looked at Zhong Yufei, who had a strange expression. Her mind was in a mess, and she couldn't react to what had happened.
"Leave immediately!" Zhong Yufei looked at her and said in a low voice.
"Young Master, I…"
"Get lost!" Zhong Yufei shouted and kicked the vase on the table. The vase fell to the ground and instantly turned into a pile of fragments.
Yao Yueru was terrified. She dragged her weak legs and ran out of the house.
"Damn it!" A vase was not enough, so Zhong Yufei began to smash things in the room. The entire room kept making loud sounds of things hitting each other.
Yao Yueru was in a particularly low mood today.
Because today was Yang Yan's birthday, a day she would never forget.
In the afternoon, she went to Yang Yan's grave to pay her respects and even brought her favorite osmanthus flowers.
"Sister Yan, do you know? Sister Pei 'er is getting married. I saw her husband at the wedding. He looked very gentle. I think he will treat Sister Pei' er well. Sister Yan, you must bless Sister Pei 'er and make her happy!
Sister Yan, I have to tell you something. I'm so stupid. I always make Brother Zhong angry. A few days ago, I accidentally fell asleep in his room. He was so angry that he broke everything in the room! After that, Madam also scolded me and forbade me from getting close to Brother Zhong. I haven't seen him for a few days, but I miss him so much. Sister Yan, what should I do? If I can't do what I promised you, will you be angry with me? I've really disappointed you, haven't I?”
Just like that, Yao Yueru stayed in front of Yang Yan's grave for two hours and told her many things that were on her mind.
This made her feel better. After returning to the Zhong Manor, she returned to her room.
Now, Mrs. Zhong forbade her from getting close to Zhong Yufei, but she didn't assign any other work to her either, allowing her to live very leisurely during this period of time. She didn't look like a servant at all.
Although she was forbidden from looking for Zhong Yufei, her longing for him was increasing day by day, especially today. Today was Yang Yan's birthday, and she was already so sad, let alone him. The person who was the most sad should be him!
She waited until night fell and everyone had fallen asleep. Finally, she could not resist the longing for Zhong Yufei and secretly came to his room.
She thought that Zhong Yufei had gone out to get drunk and hadn't returned yet. She didn't expect that there was actually a dim candlelight in the room. Could it be that Zhong Yufei didn't go out tonight?
She tiptoed to the door and pushed it open with the softest voice.
She was right. Zhong Yufei was indeed in the room. His upper body was leaning on the table, and there were empty wine bottles everywhere on the table and floor. It seemed that he did not go out to get drunk, but was drunk at home.
She looked at his sleeping face with pity. His sleeping face was not calm. His thick eyebrows were tightly knitted and his face was full of sorrow. She thought that he must be in pain on this night without Yang Yan.
She patted him gently. Seeing that he did not respond, she boldly grabbed his hand and placed it on her shoulder, using all her strength to support him up.
Phew, so heavy! When she staggered and pushed him onto the bed, she used up all her strength and lay on top of him, unable to get up for a while.
Her face was leaning against his chest. She could smell the strong smell of alcohol on his body and the scent of a man.
It was not easy for her to have this opportunity. She kept looking at him, wanting to look at him until she was satisfied!
As she looked at him, she couldn't help but approach his face and touch his lips.
His lips were wet and there was still the smell of alcohol. She kissed him gently and felt as if she was drunk.
She was probably drunk, or else she wouldn't have kissed a man so boldly.
"Yan 'er." Zhong Yufei moved his lips and suddenly called out these two words.
Poor Big Brother Zhong! Yao Yueru was not angry. Her eyes were filled with pity for him.
Just as she was looking at Zhong Yufei affectionately, Zhong Yufei suddenly opened his eyes. Her first reaction was to escape.
"Don't go!" Zhong Yufei grabbed her hand and stared at her half-awake. "Don't go, Yan 'er, I beg you!”
"Big Brother Zhong." Yao Yueru felt her heart ache. She knew that Zhong Yufei wasn't sober. He thought that she was Yang Yan.
"Yan 'er, you've returned to my side.”Zhong Yufei touched her face lovingly, over and over again.
Yao Yueru didn't move at all. She didn't have the heart to shatter his beautiful dream.
" My Yan 'er..." Zhong Yufei, who was deep in his dream, wrapped his arms around her shoulders and kissed her lips affectionately.
"Ah!" Yao Yueru couldn't help but moan. She curled up in his arms and let him kiss her mouth and face.
" Yan 'er, my Yan' er..." Zhong Yufei kept kissing her soft little face, from her forehead, nose, mouth, and finally stopped at her neck.
He sucked hard on the tender skin on her neck, leaving behind a mark of his longing for Yang Yan wherever his lips touched.
" Big Brother Zhong..." Yao Yueru's hot body kept twisting.
"Call me cousin." Zhong Yufei did not realize that the girl in his arms was not the person he missed. His heart refused to find out who she was. He trusted his feelings deeply.
It was as if in a dream, he and she had become one and went to the palace of lust together…
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