Tong Zhen's luck was pretty good. She only waited for two days for Tong Chen to go out. On this day, Tong Shan wanted to bring Tong Chen out to visit some old friends. Even if Tong Chen didn't want to go, he had to.
Of course, Tong Chen knew that Tong Zhen would sneak out when he was not around. He also knew that even if he sent someone to guard her, it would be useless because no one dared to offend Tong Zhen. In the Prince's mansion, he was the only one who could control her.
As soon as Tong Chen left the Imperial Residence, Tong Zhen followed him out of the Imperial Residence and headed straight for the Lou Residence.
She had only found out about the Lou family's location and Lou Yuxuan's background in the past two days.
Her intuition was right because Lou Yuxuan was not an ordinary person.
His father was called Lou Shiyan, a scholar and one of the military ministers. He was also a favorite of the Emperor. Although Lou Shiyan did not have a title, compared to Tong Shan, who was a prince in name but not in reality, Lou Shiyan's ability to call the wind and rain in the capital far exceeded Tong Shan.
With an outstanding father, his son was naturally not much worse. Lou Yuxuan was also highly regarded by the Emperor. He had previously been the prince's study companion, and now he heard that the Emperor wanted him to enter the palace to be a royal guard. It was a royal guard. No wonder he could take care of those four villains in a few moves. This was simply a piece of cake for him!
The Lou Mansion was not far from the Prince Tong's Mansion. She soon arrived at the luxurious mansion that was not inferior to the Prince Tong's Mansion.
"Zhen 'er, I'm so happy to see you." Lou Yuxuan immediately came out to meet her as soon as he received the notice. "Does Tong Chen know you're coming?"
"He's not here, so I can come.”Tong Zhen immediately told him the reason for her visit. "Yuxuan, I'm actually here to look for your sister. Is she here?”
Lou Yuxuan did not seem surprised by her request at all. "I knew you would want to see her. I think you must have a lot of questions for her, right?”
"Yes." "Will she see me?" Tong Zhen asked in an uneasy tone.”
"I think so." Lou Yuxuan sighed. "In fact, after I came back from your house that day, I told her about us. Of course, I also told her about me meeting Tong Chen. I thought she would be very excited, but I didn't expect her to be so calm. I think she must have given up on Tong Chen. This was good too. She had only lived for Tong Chen these past few years. Now, she could finally live for herself.”
Tong Zhen was silent. She hesitated whether she should meet Lou Xuening.
If Lou Yuxuan was right and Lou Xuening had really forgotten about her big brother, would her appearance remind her of the sad past? However, she really wanted to know about Lou Xuening and her brother's past. But if her appearance would make her sad, then shouldn't she not see her?
"Yuxuan, I think I should go back.”
After thinking about it, she still felt that it was better for her not to appear.
"Why? Don't you want to see my sister?”Lou Yuxuan could see her hesitation from her expression. He comforted her,""Don't think too much. I'll ask her. If she really doesn't want to see you, it's not too late for you to leave. If she's willing to see you, then you can see her!”
"Yes." Tong Zhen nodded and accepted his suggestion.
Tong Zhen waited in the hall for Lou Yuxuan to return.
She was very uneasy. She was both afraid and looking forward to the answer he brought back.
Lou Yuxuan returned very quickly with good news.
Hence, Tong Zhen followed Lou Yuxuan to Lou Xuening's room.
Along the way, Tong Zhen was imagining Lou Xuening's appearance. Was she beautiful at the age of twenty? Lou Yuxuan was so good-looking. As his sister, she shouldn't be too bad! However, this was not absolute. Eldest Brother was very good-looking, but she was just passable. However, this should also have something to do with them being half-siblings.
"This is the place." Lou Yuxuan stopped in front of a door and knocked on it. "Sister, I brought Tong Zhen here."
"Come in!"
What a nice voice! Tong Zhen couldn't help but say to Lou Yuxuan,"I didn't expect you and your sister to have such nice voices besides your poetic names."”
"Thank you for the compliment." Lou Yuxuan smiled." Go in alone. I think my sister must have a lot to say to you."”
Tong Zhen nodded. She took a deep breath before stepping into the room.
This is…She looked at the person in the room in shock…How could there be such a beautiful woman in this world!
Her hair was black and beautiful, her skin was white and sparkling, and her curved eyebrows matched her slightly raised phoenix eyes perfectly. Her nose was pretty and straight, and her lips were so red that people couldn't help but want to bite them. Moreover, her face was already breathtakingly beautiful, but her figure was not inferior to her beautiful and flawless face. Her figure was exquisite and exquisite, like a piece of art, so beautiful that people couldn't take their eyes off her.
She was a woman and she already had this feeling. If it was a man, he would definitely be even more fascinated by her.
"You're Tong Zhen, Tong Chen's sister?”Lou Xuening smiled at her.
"I'm Tong Zhen. Are you Lou Xuening?”Tong Zhen couldn't help but suspect her identity because she didn't believe that this beautiful woman would be abandoned by her big brother. It was really hard for her to imagine that her big brother would be willing to abandon such a beautiful woman.
"Yes." Lou Xuening smiled elegantly. "Gege Zhen, sit down and talk."
"Thank you." Tong Zhen's eyes were fixed on her face.
Lou Xuening touched her face and asked in confusion,"Princess Zhen kept looking at me. Is there something on my face?”
"No, it's because you're too beautiful that I can't help but stare at you.”Tong Zhen said embarrassedly.
Lou Xuening suddenly sighed. "Sigh! What was the use of being beautiful? It's not like I can't get his heart. If I can get his heart, even if I have to be ten times uglier than I am now, I'm willing.”
Tong Zhen looked at her emotionally. "Sister Lou, you still can't forget my brother, right?”
Lou Xuening raised her eyes and said sadly,"I don't want to deceive myself. Yes, I can't forget him, but what's the use? Tong Chen never had me in his heart. Even if I still loved him, he would never return to my side.”
"You mean that my brother fell in love with someone else back then, so he left you?”
Lou Xuening shook her head. "It's not like that. When we were together, he always looked unhappy. At that time, I suspected that there was someone else in his heart. As I expected, when we broke up, he told me that he could not forget that person no matter what, so he could not be with me. At that time, I realized that I had never gotten his heart. His heart had always belonged to someone else.”
Tong Zhen was stunned when she heard this. If Lou Xuening hadn't told her this, she might never have known that her brother's emotional world would be like this. This was really something she couldn't imagine.
Who was that person? Big Brother would actually give up Lou Xuening's love for that person. Moreover, this person had existed long before he met Lou Xuening. Who could it be? Was it someone she knew?
"Don't tell me you still don't know who that person is?”
Lou Xuening shook her head again. "If only I knew who she was. If I knew who she was, at least I would know how I lost. But I don't know anything about her. Tong Chen did say something about her, but I still don't know who she is.”
"Oh, then what did my big brother say?”Tong Zhen was excited.
" He said that he had loved her for many, many years, but that person never knew that he loved her. He also said that it was impossible for him to be with her. He thought that he could forget her by being with me, but it still didn't work. The last time we met, he kept apologizing to me. He said that he let me down. He said that he was using me, but I…"
Tears flowed down her beautiful eyes. "I would rather let him use me as long as he can forget that person. I don't care if he uses me, but he still can't forget her. I was really sad. Although he was with me at that time, his heart wasn't with me. I felt so useless. I actually lost to someone whose name I don't even know…"
Tong Zhen looked sympathetically at Lou Xuening, who was crying non-stop. Looking at her appearance, she knew that she still loved her elder brother. Although she had never loved anyone deeply, she somehow felt the same way now.
Who was that person? She was really curious. Was there really such a person? Who was the woman who made Lou Xuening suffer a crushing defeat and made her brother love her for many years and still remember her? She really wanted to know!
Tong Zhen only returned to Prince Tong's estate at dusk.
It wasn't that she wanted to play, but the Lou siblings were too close. She had an extremely luxurious lunch there. In the afternoon, besides chatting with Lou Xuening, she also played chess with Lou Yuxuan. It was really enjoyable to be with them. If she wasn't afraid of disturbing them for too long, she would have stayed for dinner.
Before she left, Lou Xuening reluctantly said that she wanted her to come often. Only when she nodded and agreed did Lou Xuening let her go.
Lou Yuxuan was the one who sent her back to Prince Tong's residence. The two of them chatted as they walked and soon arrived at the entrance of Prince Tong's residence.
"You can send me here. Thank you for sending me back. Goodbye.”Tong Zhen felt that it was better not to let Lou Yuxuan go in. Otherwise, if her mother or brother saw it, it would be endless.
Lou Yuxuan looked at her deeply. "When will we meet again?”
"When?" Tong Zhen thought for a moment and then shook her head. "I don't know either. We'll talk about it later.”
She smiled at him and waved her hand."I'm going in."
"Then rest early."
As soon as Tong Zhen returned to her dormitory, Xiao Die said to her nervously,""Miss, the eldest young master has just arrived. He asked me to tell you to go to his study immediately after you come back. I think he seems very angry.”
Tong Zhen glared at Xiao Die angrily, and Xiao Die could only lower her head and stammer,""Miss, it's useless even if you glare at me! It was Young Master who made you angry, not me.”
"Humph!" Tong Zhen pouted and said angrily,"Why won't he let me go? No wonder that person didn't like him. Who would like a stubborn and unpredictable person like him? He deserved it!"
"Miss, who is that person?" Xiao Die didn't understand.
"Right, I'll go ask who that person is now.”Thinking of this, Tong Zhen hurriedly walked in the direction of the study.
"Gege Zhen is back! How was it? Did you have fun?" Tong Chen looked at Tong Zhen coldly.
Tong Zhen glared at him and went straight to the point."Big brother, tell me, who is the person you truly love?”
Tong Chen's body seemed to tremble. He looked at Tong Zhen with a solemn expression. "Did Lou Xuening tell you?"
"Yes." Tong Zhen looked at him in confusion and said," I really don't understand. Lou Xuening is beautiful and has a good temper. I really can't imagine that you would abandon her for someone else. She said that you already had another woman in your heart before you met her. Is what she said true?”
"It's true." Tong Chen stared at her with his bright black eyes. "Do you know who that person is?"
Tong Zhen shook her head. "Lou Xuening doesn't even know, so how could I know?”
Tong Chen just looked at her without saying anything.
Tong Zhen waited for a long time but still did not receive an answer. She said impatiently,"Big brother, why are you looking at me? Tell me, I really want to know who the person you like is.”
"Do you really want to know that much?" he said slowly.
"Yes." Tong Zhen nodded vigorously. "Lou Xuening said that you've liked that person for a long time. You're only 22 years old now. Could it be that you've liked that person since you were in your teens?”
"Maybe a little longer!" Tong Chen's voice sounded like he was sighing.
No way! He actually liked that person when he was younger than a teenager, and it was under the circumstances that she did not notice at all? Wait a minute, could it be…
"Big brother, could the person you like be someone from our wangfu?”She felt that this was very likely.
"What if I say yes?" Tong Chen's eyes seemed to be hiding a thousand words, but Tong Zhen did not notice it because her mind was filled with the person that Tong Chen liked.
Since her elder brother had liked that person for many years, and that person was from the Prince's mansion, who else in the Prince's mansion had stayed for so long and was about the same age as her elder brother? Because she couldn't imagine that her elder brother would like those old servants, she thought about it and could only think of one person.
The answer was Xiao Die. Although Xiao Die hadn't stayed in the Prince's mansion for more than ten years, she had at least been there for six years. Therefore, Xiao Die should be the only one who met the requirements of Big Brother.
"Big brother, I know that person too, right?”she asked carefully.
Tong Chen didn't know whether to laugh or cry as he looked at her. This silly girl, she was trying to guess who his sweetheart was! Couldn't she have guessed that it was her?
However, she could not be blamed for this. She would never have thought that the answer was herself. To her, he could only be her big brother and would never become her lover.
"Of course you know her." Tong Chen patiently played this game with her, hoping that she could guess the correct answer.
"Is it really her?" Tong Zhen had a look of disbelief on her face. "It turns out that a true person doesn't reveal his true appearance. People say that beauty is in the eye of the beholder. I can finally understand the meaning of this saying.”
"Wait, who are you talking about? Why can't I tell?" Tong Chen quickly asked.
"You're still playing dumb with me. I've already guessed it. It's Xiao Die, isn't it?”
"Xiao Die?"
Tong Zhen looked at him in admiration. "You are really not simple. You actually abandoned a beauty like Lou Xuening for the ordinary Xiao Die. I now understand that big brother is not someone who only looks at appearances. It's not that I don't want to help my own people, but I really can't see how Xiao Die can compare to Lou Xuening. I still think..."
" Hahaha…" Tong Chen suddenly burst into laughter. He was laughing so hard that tears were streaming down his face.
"Heavens! You actually thought of Xiao Die, I'm impressed!”he said with a smile.
"Isn't it Xiao Die?" Tong Zhen saw him smiling like this and felt her face lose its luster. She shouted at Tong Chen in dissatisfaction,"Annoying, I've been guessing for so long and I'm still wrong. Big Brother, can you spare me? Quickly tell me who your sweetheart is!”
"It's not good for you to know. Do you still want to know?”Tong Chen said meaningfully.
"Of course." Tong Zhen crossed her arms in front of her chest. She looked as if she wouldn't leave until he told her. "I have to know today. Tell me quickly, or I'll keep pestering you!”
Tong Chen's heart was beating wildly. Tong Zhen pouted her little mouth and said that she wanted to pester him. She was as cute as she could be. She was so cute that he could no longer suppress his feelings for her.
He walked in front of her and used his large hand to caress her small face.
Tong Zhen looked at him in confusion. "Big brother, why are you touching my face?”Although his hand felt a little rough, it was very warm.
Tong Chen didn't say anything, but only showed his actions.
He lowered his head and quickly kissed her soft lips.
Tong Zhen felt her entire body stiffen, and her mind went blank.
Tong Chen stared at her innocent eyes and couldn't help but press his lips against hers.
This time, his mouth covered hers completely. His soft tongue gently licked her lips, and then he went deep into her mouth to find her tongue. He curled her tongue and gently sucked.
Tong Zhen was really frightened. She didn't know what to do.
This lingering and gentle kiss ended in Tong Zhen's astonishment.
Tong Chen looked at her with a gentle gaze, as gentle as the kiss he had just given her.
His large hand gently caressed her face.
However, she still did not move. She could only look at him quietly, unable to speak.
Tong Chen could totally understand her feelings. He put down his hand and sighed deeply.
"I'm sorry." He only said this to her before he turned around and walked out of the study.
For the next three days, Tong Chen did not appear in front of Tong Zhen.
Although she was relieved that he didn't come to look for her, she really didn't know how to face him.
The impact of that day was too great. Although Tong Zhen had always wanted to ask Tong Chen about it, she did not have the courage…
He kissed her. Oh my god! He actually kissed her. She really hoped that it was a dream, but it wasn't a dream. It was the truth!
Kisses between lovers were normal and beautiful, but it was too strange for a pair of siblings to kiss.
Weird, absurd, shameful, and unethical…She was almost suffocated by these thoughts.
Why did Justin kiss her? This was not possible. How could such an incest happen to her? She felt that her future was dark. She felt that she had been forced into a desperate situation. She even had the thought of dying. She thought that she was going crazy!
No, before she went crazy, she had to make him speak clearly.
Late at night, Tong Zhen came to Tong Chen's bedroom.
She knocked on the door three times. In this silent night, the knocking sound was particularly loud.
The door was opened very quickly. Tong Chen knew that she would definitely come looking for him, so he had been waiting for her to appear.
Seeing Tong Chen's obviously haggard face, Tong Zhen almost couldn't speak. However, she still forced herself to say,""I have something to tell you."
Tong Chen looked at her with heartache. "Come in!"
The two of them sat face to face, neither of them having the courage to break the deadlock.
To Tong Chen, he had been living in a state of self-loathing for the past three days. He was angry that he couldn't help but kiss her, so that secret would no longer be a secret. He, Zhen 'er, Mother, Ama, and Long Wu, their fates would change because of him. He actually made such a mistake, he really couldn't forgive himself.
Therefore, he had to hide from her and run away from her because he did not want her to suffer anymore. He did not want her to suffer all of this.
But she still came. What should he do? Should he tell her the truth? Would she accept him?
However, Tong Zhen's patience was not as good as Tong Chen's, especially when she had a stomach full of questions.
"Hey, aren't you going to explain what happened that day?”she asked fiercely.
"I'm sorry, it's all my fault." Tong Chen said apologetically.
"Just like that?" Tong Zhen was very dissatisfied with his answer. She stood up and walked in front of him."Did you take the wrong medicine that day? You actually kissed me…you actually did that to me. Do you think an apology is enough?”
"I can only say sorry." His eyes were pleading and in pain. "Do you think I want to do this? I couldn't help it!"
"Can't help it?" Tong Zhen took a step back and said in disbelief,"You're really crazy. I'm your sister!”
At this moment, Tong Chen clenched his fists tightly. A thought suddenly appeared in his mind. He wanted to say it out loud. He wanted to love her openly.
Because if he didn't say anything, he really couldn't guarantee what he would do. He couldn't take it anymore.
He stood up, his tall figure standing in front of her. "Zhen 'er, we're not siblings. We're not blood-related siblings!”
Tong Zhen widened her eyes in shock. "What did you say? We're not siblings. Are you sick?”
"I'm not sick. I'm telling the truth.”Tong Chen stared at her deeply. "If you promise to keep this secret with me, I'll tell you everything. Can you promise me that?”
"Alright, I promise you." Tong Zhen nodded passively.
Hearing her promise, Tong Chen told her his true identity without revealing a single word.
Tong Zhen's expression remained shocked after hearing this. She looked at him and said in disbelief,"There's actually such a thing. Your mother and Long Wu, is this true? You're not lying to me on purpose, are you?"
Because she couldn't ask her aunt, she could only trust him. However, she really couldn't believe that her aunt would do such a thing behind Ma's back. Although her aunt had not treated her well, she had not treated her badly either. Therefore, she felt that her aunt was basically a good person. It was really difficult for her to believe that she would cheat on someone.
"Don't say that you don't want to believe it. I don't want to believe that my mother is such a person either.”Tong Chen's expression was filled with grief. "But this is indeed true. If you don't believe me, I can swear an oath.”he said confidently.
"No need, I believe you!”She would believe him because he was her big brother!
No, he was no longer her big brother! At the thought of this, a hint of sadness appeared in her eyes.
"So…that person is me.”Tong Zhen looked at Tong Chen in realization.
"Yes."
Tong Chen held her hand. She was shocked and wanted to break free from him, but when she saw his gentle gaze, she felt her body tremble and her small hand stopped struggling.
"After I found out about my background, I realized that my feelings for you were not that of a brother and sister, but that of a lover. This caused me to fall into unprecedented pain.”He sighed heavily. "Because I can't harm my mother and my biological father, and I can't let Ama suffer, so I have to keep this secret. But this is really cruel to me, because I can't love you like this, and I can only be your big brother forever. "Later, I met Lou Xuening. She was a very good girl. At first, I really wanted to be with her. I never had the intention of lying to her. But I was wrong. I couldn't do it because her gentleness still couldn't make me forget you. If I continued to be with her, it would only hurt her. I really didn't want to hurt the innocent her. So I left her and left this family. I wanted to live a life without you. I really wanted to forget you.”
Upon hearing this, Tong Zhen's eyes were already red. She only now knew how deeply he loved her. He loved her so helplessly and painfully, but she actually misunderstood him and thought that he didn't want her anymore. Who knew that the truth was the opposite. It was not that he did not want her, but he left her because he wanted her too much.
Tong Chen held her hand tightly, his affectionate black eyes staring straight into her eyes. "But I still failed. I can't forget you. Although I'm not by your side, my heart has never left you. I was in so much pain and conflicted. I tried my best to forget you, but in the end, I missed you even more. I didn't know what you looked like, and I wondered if you still remembered me. I fought with myself again and again, struggling between telling and not telling. In the end, my rationality lost to my feelings. I came back with no other purpose. I just wanted to see you once. Who knew that when I saw you, my heart would fall again and I couldn't leave at all. I think you must think that I'm being cold and distant to you, but that's because I'm afraid that I won't be able to control myself, so I deliberately treated you like this. Can you forgive me?”
Tong Zhen's tears flowed down in the blink of an eye. She nodded with a smile in her tears. "I forgive you, big brother. Please forgive me for being insensible. I thought that you no longer had me in your heart. I became so willful because I was angry at you. I was angry that you didn't love me and didn't want me. Big brother, I'm sorry."
"Zhen 'er!" Tong Chen hugged her tightly. "I'm so happy. Do you know how long I've waited for this day?”
" Big Brother, don't be like this…" Tong Zhen struggled in his arms. "I'm not used to this…"
"Zhen 'er, didn't you believe that I'm not your elder brother?”Tong Chen asked in surprise.
" I believe you're not, but…" Tong Zhen looked at him helplessly. "I've been your sister for eighteen years. Now, you want me to turn from your sister into an irrelevant person all of a sudden? I can't do it!”
"You mean you don't want to accept my feelings?”Tong Chen's disappointment was revealed from his tone and expression.
" No…" Tong Zhen shook her head. Her heart was in a mess. " Big Brother, don't misunderstand. I already know your feelings for me. I'm really touched, but I don't know…I mean, I don't have the same feelings for you as you do for me…"
"I understand." Tong Chen gave her a faint smile. "I know it's too much for you to accept me now. It's okay. There's still a long way to go. I can wait for you. I can wait for the day you have feelings for me.”
" I…" Tong Zhen lowered her head and tugged at the corner of her clothes."I don't know if I can…Big brother, I'm sorry, I can't give you any answers right now.”
She didn't want to brush him off, nor did she want to lie to him. She really couldn't give him any promises now.
This was too difficult for her! There was no doubt that she loved him, but she had always loved him as a younger sister. He was undoubtedly the most important person in her life, but she did not know if she could treat him as a lover. She did not know how he did it, but she did not think she could do it.
Tong Chen saw Tong Zhen's dilemma and hesitation. He had been so happy just a moment ago, but now he had fallen to the bottom of despair.
This was not her fault. It was his own wishful thinking. He thought that as long as she knew his background, he would be able to be with her. He was too naive and overestimated himself.
He laughed at himself." It seems that I overestimated myself. Just pretend that I didn't say those words just now. You can leave."”
After saying that, he turned his back to her.
" Big Brother…" Tong Zhen knew that she had hurt him. She quickly went around to him and said apologetically,""Big brother, don't ignore me. I don't hate you, but I can't…Let's go back to how we were before and let me be your sister, okay?”
Tong Chen didn't look at her and only said coldly,""I don't need sympathy."
"This is not sympathy." "Are you going to ignore me if I don't become your lover?" Tong Zhen shouted anxiously. I can still love you as your sister!”
He was finally willing to look at her in the eye, but he looked so calm. His calmness made her feel sad. She would rather he scold her than see his calmness.
"Lovers and younger sisters are different. There are some things that younger sisters can only do if they can't be lovers.”Tong Chen said lightly.
"I don't believe you." She said loudly," I said that I can definitely do it. Tell me, I'll do whatever you want me to do.”
"Are you serious?"
"Of course it's true."
Tong Chen's thin lips curled into an evil smile. "Then can you do one thing for me now?”
"As you wish. I'll do whatever you want.”Tong Zhen said without hesitation.
"Then don't regret it!"
" Absolutely no regrets!"#
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