The words were blurred because of her longing.
- Gu Cheng
The same study room appeared before her eyes. The embedded bookcase made the study room seem very spacious. The only difference from her home was that the books here were stuffed to the brim.
Shen Nanshuang walked into the bookcase and saw that Lu Yichen had even categorized them with labels. On one side was the architectural design, and on the other was the wine tasting.
Her slender hand gently caressed the rows of books that were very useful to her. Shen Nanshuang's eyes welled up with tears. Three years later, Shen Nanshuang felt that she could not understand Lu Yichen at all.
Shen Nanshuang casually took out a book and flipped it open. She saw the densely packed handwriting. It was her own.
It was as if she was sitting in a time machine and going back to her past memories. She and Lu Yichen were sitting in a small rented room, one drawing and the other reading. The notes were taught to her by Lu Yichen when she couldn't understand them, and she recorded them word by word.
A teardrop suddenly fell on the book, soaking the ancient handwriting and turning it into a ball of ink. Shen Nan Shuang frantically reached out to wipe it away, but it was too late.
Some things were like this. Once they changed, they would never return to their original state, such as feelings…
Shen Nanshuang suddenly thought of this. She quickly closed the book and stuffed it back to its original position. Then, she walked out in a panic, but she was caught off guard and bumped into a warm chest.
"Slow down, don't panic.”Lu Yichen hugged Shen Nanshuang tightly, his voice sounding like a cello above her head.
Shen Nanshuang suddenly didn't know how to face him. Was she going to act like nothing had happened? She couldn't do it. She questioned and blamed him, but he avoided answering her.
Shen Nanshuang pushed Lu Yichen away and said lightly,""Got it." Then, she brushed past Lu Yichen's shoulder.
In the dining room, two people were sitting opposite each other. A bowl of tomato egg noodles was placed in front of each person.
Shen Nanshuang stared blankly at the bowl in front of her, not moving her chopsticks.
Lu Yichen couldn't stand it anymore and stuffed the chopsticks into her hands.""Eat it. Didn't you like tomato egg noodles the most in the past?”
Only then did Shen Nan Shuang slowly start to eat. The sweetness of the egg and the sourness of the tomato mixed together. It was no different from the taste from three years ago, but Shen Nan Shuang tasted a bit bitter for no reason.
Shen Nanshuang had only eaten one-third of the food and could no longer finish it. She looked up at Lu Yichen, who was enjoying his meal. Suddenly, she could no longer hold back the questions she wanted to ask.
She put down her chopsticks and said softly,"What makes you think that my habits will still be the same after three years?"”
Her tone was so soft, but it carried such a heavy force, as if she had punched Lu Yichen in the heart.
Lu Yichen's heart was in so much pain that it felt like he was suffocating, but he still pretended to be calm. He knew that he could not reveal any flaws in front of her, so he finished the bowl of noodles slowly and wiped his mouth before looking at Shen Nanshuang.
However, when Shen Nanshuang saw his actions, she knew that he didn't care at all.
" Nan Shuang," Lu Yichen's voice was not as calm as before. It was filled with deep affection." I don't think you've changed."”In my heart, you have always been that you.
"What about you? Have you changed?" Shen Nanshuang avoided Lu Yichen's gaze and asked.
Lu Yichen suppressed his emotions and smiled at Shen Nanshuang,""You haven't changed, and I haven't changed either.”
Shen Nanshuang's lips curled into a smile,""Is that so? Then why haven't you answered my question? Why?”
Lu Yichen's words were stuck in his throat, and he fell silent.
Silence. Shen Nan Shuang received the same response. She seemed to have lost all her patience and stood up. The chair moved along with her and made a piercing sound as it slid across the floor."Squeak-"
Shen Nanshuang looked down at Lu Yichen with disappointment and sadness in her eyes. Lu Yichen stood up and looked back at her.
The two of them stared at each other, and the air froze.
After a long time, Shen Nanshuang sighed and spoke first,""I just want to ask. I just want a reason. I just want an answer.”
Lu Yichen's heart skipped a beat. He opened his mouth, wanting to say something.
But before he could say anything, Shen Nanshuang's voice sounded again. She looked at him with eyes that were not as bright as before, as if she was completely disheartened. Lu Yichen heard her clearly,""Even if it's just an excuse, I'll accept any excuse. But you didn't even give me an excuse. Yichen, have we really come to this?”
In your heart, am I really a doll that you can discard and pick up as you please?
The last bit of doubt in her words was almost non-existent, as if it did not matter whether Lu Yichen answered the question or not.
The next second, she strode towards the door…
Shen Nanshuang took one step at a time, stepping on someone's heart. Her little movements turned into countless slow-motion scenes in Lu Yichen's eyes. His bloodshot eyes followed her steps and finally, he saw her standing at the entrance.
Lu Yichen placed his hands by his side and clenched them into fists. The veins on his arms bulged. He tried his best to suppress the urge to pull Shen Nanshuang into his arms. He tried his best to tell himself that letting her go was the right thing to do.
However, she heard Shen Nanshuang say,"Yichen, I'm leaving."”Suddenly, a sentence appeared in Lu Yichen's mind: "Yichen, it hurts…"
Lu Yichen couldn't hold it in anymore. He ran behind Shen Nanshuang and hugged her tightly,""Don't go."
Shen Nanshuang was already prepared to leave, but she was at a loss for what to do when he hugged her."Yichen, let go."
Lu Yichen didn't say anything but hugged her even tighter.
Shen Nanshuang could not break free from Lu Yichen's embrace, so she reached out to pry his fingers away.
There was a huge difference in strength between a man and a woman. In the end, Lu Yichen held Shen Nanshuang's hand tightly and forced her to turn around to face him.
Lu Yichen said helplessly,""Nanshuang, I can't answer your question now. But believe me, you haven't changed, and neither have I. We can still be the same as before.”
Shen Nanshuang looked at the person in front of her. She felt both familiar and unfamiliar. She smiled bitterly,""How can we still be the same as before? I don't understand you anymore. If you say you love me, why did you leave me when I needed you the most three years ago? If you don't love me, what's with this house? What was with every design and decoration?”
Lu Yichen smiled at her gently." This is our home."”
"Our home?" Shen Nanshuang repeated with a bitter smile. Then, under Lu Yichen's gentle gaze, her expression suddenly changed,""What about Repulse Bay? What about the house I'm living in now? It's exactly the same as here. Is it our home too?”#
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