" I don't think so. It's just that you're worrying too much, Teacher Hiratsuka."
Kamigaki Kyusuke said softly, his gentle expression unfaked.
However, this did not soothe the frown on Hiratsuka Shizuka's face.
"The change in you has probably appeared a month ago."
"I remember that during that period of time, nothing happened to you in the academy."
"Is it because of personal reasons?"
Hiratsuka Shizuka put her palms together in front of her, her bright and slender eyes flashing with worry.
"I already said that there were no changes."
"Teacher Hiratsuka, have you fallen into some kind of dead end?”
"If there weren't any unforeseen circumstances, I don't believe that you could have changed so quickly."
Well... What the hell was this?
"Teacher Hiratsuka, please, do you really want something to happen to me? You are a teacher!"
Kamigaki Kyusuke ridiculed, his mouth curled in disdain.
This guy actually dares to despise me!!!
Shizuka took a deep breath, her eyes firm." I won't tell anyone, and I won't tell anyone."
"You can trust me!"
Wait, why did this sound so familiar?
Kamigaki Kyusuke scratched his head. Wasn't that what he said to Ying Lili?
There was reincarnation in the Heavenly Dao. Was it his turn now?
Kamigaki Kyusuke was truly speechless.
He knew that Shizuka Hiratsuka was a little stubborn, but he didn't expect her to be this stubborn.
Straightforward was not a negative term, but when combined with stubbornness, it would be annoying.
" Alright, something did happen." Kamigaki Kyusuke was forced to find an excuse.
He had to dispel Hiratsuka Shizuka's suspicions so that their relationship could progress to the next step.
Otherwise, with her suspicion and stubbornness, she would probably end up parting on bad terms.
Shizuka Hiratsuka immediately smiled brightly.
Of course, in the eyes of Kamigaki Kyusuke, this smile seemed a little silly.
"It was a calm afternoon. I was lying on the grass outside the football field, drinking soda in my hand and watching the game."
" There's not a single cloud in the sky. The wind is warm. It's an impeccable spring day."
" I watched the soccer players run around chasing the ball that was rolling and black and white. The buzz of the sneakers hitting the ball echoed in my head."
" Suddenly, a warm wind blew and the ball was kicked in. The red team I supported won. The players laughed and hugged each other excitedly."
" At this moment, I suddenly felt that life shouldn't be so boring. I should have some companions who can share my joys and sorrows with me."
Kamiaki Kyusuke told the story as if he was writing an article.
However, he said it seriously without a trace of a joke.
Thus, Hiratsuka Shizuka listened attentively.
" If the change you're talking about is the moment you changed your mind, then this is the answer."
Kamiaki Kyusuke said in a low voice.
Shizuka Hiratsuka stared into his eyes carefully. Those clear eyes didn't reveal any fear or apprehension.
It was a confidence that did not belong to his age.
"Suoga…Is this the opportunity for you to change…"
Shizuka was sure that he wasn't lying, even though the story sounded familiar.
With this story, Hiratsuka Shizuka's suspicions slowly dissipated.
She knew that most of the time, a person's state of mind would change in an instant.
It was not necessary to experience setbacks and disasters to gain enlightenment.
Because she was like that herself.
One day, she became mature.
After getting a suitable explanation, Shizuka did not bring up the previous topic.
The corners of her lips curled up, and her smile became even brighter. There was no hypocrisy in it at all, and it was filled with sincerity and joy from the bottom of her heart.
"I see. Then, Keisuke, please watch more football matches."
Err... Seeing her so sincere, Kamigaki Kyusuke felt a little awkward.
This story was fabricated by him.
Oh no, it should be a reference.
Well, he was referring to the story of Haruki Murakami, the famous Nobel Prize in Literature runner.
It was just a baseball game turned into a football game.
He only hoped that Haruki Murakami did not exist in this world…Otherwise, Kamigaki Kyusuke felt that he would have died a horrible death.
"Yes, I will."
Kamiaki Kyusuke nodded.
Shizuka said emotionally," Since your change is from your heart, then I can rest assured."
"Humans are really social animals. No matter how beautiful loneliness is, in the end, you will feel lonely…"
" I've been lonely for a long time. I've hidden all my words, happy and sad. I've hidden them all."
"In the past, I thought it was good to hide it. One day, when I realized that I wanted to say it out loud, but only air responded to you…That's really sad."
"So…Rather than constantly denying things like growth in pessimism, it's better to seek affirmation from setbacks…"
As she spoke, the expression on her face changed slightly.
It was a little nostalgic, but more of an inexplicable sadness.
Kamigaki Kyusuke was sure that she was not trying to explain a principle, but was vaguely talking about her past.
In the spring, the service department was founded by Shizuka Hiratsuka.
She had also specially arranged for the great teacher to be by Yukino's side. It could even be considered as forcing the great teacher to go.
She had always hoped that her students could see the good in the bad and use positive energy to deal with pessimistic things.
From then on, they would have a heart that truly perceived happiness and was good at perceiving happiness. In other words, they would find the "original thing" that belonged to them.
But why did she do this?
Because of kindness? Don't joke around. She wasn't a benevolent saint.
There was only one explanation.
That was, Shizuka Hiratsuka had experienced this before. At least, she had experienced this stage before.
As someone who had experienced it before, he would definitely pay more attention to his students who were about to walk the path he had once walked.
Perhaps she had once been deeply immersed in her own loneliness and denial of the collective. In the end, she even enjoyed her own loneliness. She was pessimistic about everything and could not break free.
Even now, she was still alone.
She didn't have many true friends, and she had never been in a relationship. She was always alone.
A woman who was almost thirty years old and had never been in a relationship could not be said to be bad, but there would always be some regrets.
Yes, she had also grown from it, but this growth had grown under negative and pessimistic emotions.
To put it simply, she was the Snow of Snow.
Perhaps the two of them had encountered different situations, but in essence, they were both pessimistic about the collective, and even pessimistic about themselves.
They were confident and independent, but also inferior and weak. They were strong and upright, but also conceited.
He had a seemingly chuunibyou but extremely pitiful thought: They were all wrong, and I was right, but I was forced to succumb to the wrong idea.
If they were unwilling, they would resist and gradually treat all stupid 'mistakes' with a cold gaze.
As time went on, the loneliness that came from being alone could easily break through all the hard barriers.
It was everywhere. It happened after every seemingly lively party, after every revelry, and accompanied by joy.
Hiratsuka Shizuka seemed to have matured a lot.
It was also because he had matured a lot.
She knew very well that the loneliness of puberty and the growth of negative emotions were not really happy things.
That was why Shizuka had to prevent her students from repeating the same mistakes.
"Don't smoke so much. It's not good for your health."
Kamigaki Kyusuke did not say anything philosophical to comfort him.
He knew that in Hiratsuka Shizuka's eyes, he was just a student, a little brat.
When Shizuka Hiratsuka heard this, she couldn't help but smile. Then, she fell silent and felt a little lonely.
But soon, she covered up this loneliness and revealed a bold smile again.
"Speaking of which, your nose is also very sensitive. I clearly sprayed so much air freshener."
Kamigaki Kyusuke smiled perfunctorily.
Even a normal person would be able to smell it, alright?
I really don't know why this woman is so addicted to smoking…
It was good. It was good that he was addicted to smoking. At least there was a way to release it.
Sigh...
Her loneliness was well concealed, but Keisuke's keen senses could deeply remember it.
Ha, what teacher? She's just a pitiful old woman.
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[PS: The part about Shizuka Hiratsuka in Haruko was mainly about the way to grow. It was to choose whether the negative emotions of the Yino-style led to growth or Shizuka Hiratsuka's positive emotions led to growth.]
However, there were very few descriptions of Shizuka herself. Perhaps my understanding of her was not correct, but allow me to give her a background.
Anyone who could calmly give guidance must have encountered many things.
As the author, I'm trying to use my own understanding to write about these encounters that weren't shown in the original novel.
If any readers feel that this is incorrect, please forgive them.
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