Shang Liu Xin still caught a cold and kept sneezing on the bed. "It's all your fault. Why didn't you sleep? Now, you really have a cold.”"You clearly had a cold when I came back. Why are you blaming me for everything? You should lie down for a while. I'll make breakfast for Yaya. If you feel uncomfortable, you can ask the director for leave.”"If it's not you, then who are you blaming? Why didn't you sleep in the middle of the night and lift the blanket?”"Alright, alright, alright. What do you want to eat? I'll make it for you.”"I'm terribly dizzy, my throat is dry and sore, and I don't feel like eating anything.”"Then lie down and rest. I'll bring you the medicine.”"You don't have to take it. I'll get up and drink it myself. I still have to go to work.”"Don't go if you're so sick. I'll go to your garden to help you apply for leave after I go to work.”"It's rare for the principal to trust me so much. The children like me too. I'm happy to stay with them.”
Zheng Qinglan didn't insist and went to the kitchen to cook noodles. Ten minutes later, three bowls of noodles were placed on the table. Yaya said,""Dad, the noodles you cooked are too different. The taste must be different too. Let me try it.”She picked a few noodles and put them in her mouth before running to the kitchen to vomit. "Dad, what kind of noodles are you cooking? This is the most unpalatable kind of food I've ever eaten. It's simply inedible. It seems that you have to learn from my mother in this aspect.”"Zheng Yaya, you're exaggerating. Just treat it as a delicacy and eat it. When we were young, we could only eat noodles a few times a year.”"Dad, stop reminiscing about the past. This is the new century, not the sixties of the last century.”" What you're cooking is also called noodles. It's more like pig feed. Boiling white noodles with water is not appetizing at all. Come, Yaya, I'll give you money. Go buy something to eat on the street. I'll make it up to you when you come back in the afternoon.”" I'll eat it if you don't want to," Zheng Qinglan said." It's not poison. What's so bad about it?"”He picked up a full chopstick and fed it to his mouth. He chewed exaggeratedly and could not help but frown. Ya Ya laughed so hard that she could barely stand." Dad, this is better than poison. Look at the way you eat the noodles. It's even more bitter than drinking Chinese medicine and more uncomfortable than eating sour apricot. Hahaha, Dad, enjoy your noodle feast slowly. I'm leaving."”
After Shang Liu Xin washed up, she picked up the bowl on the table and drank some soup. Zheng Qinglan said,""It doesn't taste good. You should eat some on the street too. If you have a cold, you should eat well to strengthen your immune system.”"You don't have to spend money to eat on the streets? Do you think money comes from the flood? Your family's income is so little. You don't know it yourself. Why are you pretending to be rich?”Zheng Qinglan had good intentions, but Shang Liu Xin had rebuked her. She felt a bit resentful, but seeing Shang Liu Xin coughing, she held back her anger and didn't say anything.
When Shang Liu Xin arrived at the kindergarten, Du Bo Lao was standing at the entrance to welcome the parents who were sending their children over. Seeing Shang Liu Xin's expression, he immediately interrupted the conversation with a parent and asked her about the situation: "Teacher Shang, you look so scary. What's wrong? Why is your usually beautiful face so pale? Are you sick? If you're really sick, you can just say hello to me.”Shang Liu Xin smiled bitterly and said," Thank you for your concern, Director. I might have caught a cold. When I passed by the clinic, I went in to take a look. The doctor said that I might have caught a cold and not the flu. Otherwise, I wouldn't have dared to come to the garden. I was afraid that I would infect the children."”Du Bolao looked around and said in a low voice,"It's okay. You can rest. I'll get someone else to teach for you. Here, take this hundred yuan. Just treat it as me visiting you.”Shang Liu Xin was greatly moved, her eyes slightly wet. "Director, how can I do this? I just caught a cold. It's nothing. The doctor said that I'll take some medicine to control it.”"How can that do? If you're sick, you have to see him and rest. You're like a flower. If you wither under my hands, I'll be guilty. Besides, you have to rest well. You can only come back to work if you recover quickly.”After being married for so many years, Shang Liu Xin had never heard such caring words. It wasn't that Zheng Qinglan never cared about her, but she felt that Zheng Qinglan's care was more like a formality. She was not as considerate as Du Bolao now. There was pity in his praise, and sweetness in his sympathy. It made her heart feel especially warm. With this comparison, she couldn't suppress her resentment towards Zheng Qinglan anymore. Her good impression of Du Bolao was like a thermometer under the sun, rising rapidly. She couldn't help but look at Du Bolao. At this time, Du Bolao was also looking at her. Their eyes met, but they quickly avoided each other. Shang Liu Xin's heart beat like a drum, and her face turned red. She immediately pretended to cough and turned away. How could this be hidden from Du Bolao's bubble eyes? He knew that Shang Liu Xin already had an idea in her heart. He couldn't help but feel ecstatic, and he couldn't wait to immediately carry Shang Liu Xin to where he wanted to go. However, with so many people in front of him, this idea was unrealistic. Moreover, he didn't dare to be 100% sure what Shang Liu Xin was thinking. Haste makes waste. I have to take things slowly. I can't rush it. If I rush it, it will only ruin things. It seems that she has already started to get interested. I'm not afraid that she won't be mine in the end. Good things don't come too late. I'll endure it for a while. It's just like boiling soup. Only when the heat is right will the soup be fragrant and comfortable to drink. If one was impatient, the soup would definitely be tasteless. Thinking of this, she said in an even sweeter tone,"Teacher Shang, you are the most responsible teacher I have ever seen. With such a good teacher like you, I am not afraid that our garden will not be prosperous. But then again, you still have a long working life. Your health is the capital of revolution. How about this? You can come to my office to rest first. If there is anything, I can take care of it. Or you can go home to rest. However, you may be the only one at home. If you want anything, you have to do it yourself. Anyway, I have nothing to do. I am happy to help you do something." It's the best of both worlds, don't you think?" "Director, this is just a small problem. It's not to the point where I need to be taken care of. I'm too spoiled.”"Aiya, my dear Teacher Shang, why are you so stubborn? Come, come, sit here. I'll go to the classroom and arrange someone for you.”
Shang Liu Xin felt that if she persisted any longer, she would be ruining Du Bo Lao's good intentions, so she sat down on the sofa. Du Bolao smiled and said," Sit down for a while. I'll be right back. I still have something important to tell you. Don't leave."”Hearing that there was something important to tell her, Shang Liu Xin completely gave up on the idea of going to class. Moreover, she felt that Du Bo Lao's thoughtfulness was very useful. She rarely got such consideration from Zheng Qinglan. She had complained to Zheng Qinglan many times, saying that Zheng Qinglan didn't care about her. Zheng Qinglan didn't agree to it every time. Every time this happened, Shang Liu Xin would be angry and resentful. She swore that she had been blind and had chosen the wrong person. She had found a husband who looked kind but was actually cold-blooded. She had wasted her life in this world. At this point, Zheng Qinglan could only remain silent. If she opened her mouth, the two of them would probably argue and then have a cold war for a long time.
Actually, Shang Liu Xin didn't know what Zheng Qinglan was thinking. According to Zheng Qinglan's personality and the determination he made when he decided to marry Shang Liu Xin, he should be very concerned about her. Because of the huge obstacle in his heart and because Shang Liu Xin liked to criticize him, he felt that no matter how much he gave, it was meaningless. Therefore, he adopted an indifferent attitude towards Shang Liu Xin's matters. However, indifferent didn't mean that he didn't know what Shang Liu Xin wanted. There was another reason why Zheng Qinglan treated Shang Liu Xin coldly. Shang Liu Xin liked to tell her family and friends about everything she did, some of which were very secretive. Sometimes, she would tell Zheng Qinglan these things to make her laugh, sometimes to make fun of her. This made Zheng Qinglan feel very awkward. "Aren't you ashamed to talk about the matters between husband and wife in public?”"Everyone is just joking around. Who would take this seriously? Aren't you tired of being so mysterious all day long?”"Just say it when it's necessary. Don't talk nonsense if it's not necessary. How can you talk about the matters between husband and wife everywhere?”"Who said that? It's just a few good sisters sitting together and having a private conversation. Don't I tell you other people's stories before?”"What nonsense are you talking about? Who wants to hear it? It gives me goosebumps.”"You're so pretentious. Who knows what you're thinking? I think you just don't like me and treat others very well.”"I treat everyone the same." "Is everyone else your wife?" "You have to check yourself. Don't just think about how others treat you. If others treat you well, you have to return the favor. If others treat you badly, don't always blame others.”"I did very well, there's nothing worth checking.”"Then what else is there to say? No matter how much you say, it's just a blind man lighting a candle in vain.”Every time they argued, it was like this. Because of a trivial matter, Shang Liu Xin would blame Zheng Qinglan, and then Zheng Qinglan would either remain silent or defend herself. Then, Shang Liu Xin would change the topic and make it bigger. She would blame Zheng Qinglan with her own words, which were full of insults and contempt. Zheng Qinglan would defend herself but never say anything bad. In the end, they would both end up angry. Naturally, just as Shang Liu Xin had said, she thought that she had done a good job and didn't need to reflect on herself. Thus, she rarely corrected her own behavior. Zheng Qinglan understood his responsibility and tried to change the current situation, trying to make the relationship between husband and wife more harmonious. However, time and time again, Shang Liu Xin had proven that she didn't care about the severity of her accusations. It was hard to change her bad habit of speaking without considering the situation. He could only respond with silence. This was why Shang Liu Xin thought Zheng Qinglan didn't care about her. Zheng Qinglan wasn't an immortal who didn't touch the mortal world. He had heard from others and read in books that a woman who lacked love would be in danger. However, after thinking about it, he felt that this was someone else's business and had nothing to do with him. He believed what Shang Liu Xin had told him. She said that she had experienced setbacks in her relationship and knew what to do to cherish and respect others. Besides, Zheng Qinglan believed that her character wasn't bad and her ability wasn't bad either. No matter what, he would not be betrayed. As for the former, he did not listen to Tong Qing and Lord Pangu's words at all. As for the latter, he turned a blind eye to Pushkin's encounter. These were the manifestations of his kind nature, but also the result of his lack of understanding of society and the despicable nature of human nature.
"I'm coming, I'm coming. I said I'll be right back. I didn't lie to you, right?”"Who will you arrange to replace me?" "Long Xuelian, I'm still worried about the others. It wasn't easy to set up a sign. Don't let those people who only want money and don't want to take responsibility smash it again.”"I really can't sit here.”"Here you go again. Didn't I tell you that I have something important to tell you?”"What is it?" "It's about what I told you yesterday. When I went back last night, I called the boss and mentioned that you were going to be the deputy director. The boss said that he still had to consider it. After all, you've only been here for a few months, while others have been here for a few years. He's afraid that he won't be convinced by the public. If you really do a good job, the number of years of work won't be a restriction. Of course, I have to fan the flames in front of the boss in the future. He still has to listen to my words. As for your family, The boss said that it was not difficult. He could help find someone to talk to. It should not be a problem.”"Who is this boss? He's so capable. It seems like he's the leader of the county?”"Who is it? A businessman?”He twirled his right thumb and index finger a few times and made a gesture of counting money." When the money comes, it will come naturally. Nowadays, people always say that they are looking forward, but in fact, they are looking at money. Government officials are no exception. They either put their hands into other people's pockets and ask for money directly from people they can control, or they charge fees indiscriminately under all sorts of pretexts. Those with more power and resources will give the businessmen benefits, and the businessmen will give them benefits. Otherwise, with their meager salary, who could build a house in the city?”" Yes, we bought an old house and spent 40,000 to 50,000 yuan. We also borrowed a lot from our relatives and friends. We don't know when we can pay off the debt. When I think about the debt, I feel bad. Those officials only have a salary of a few hundred yuan a month, but which one of them isn't a two-story or three-story building? I heard that it's even more beautiful than the emperor's Golden Palace. So the money comes from somewhere."”"You're right. They all have their origins, but their origins are a little shady. Sigh, there's no such thing as being shady these days.”"What did you say?" Du Bolao was stunned for a moment, as if he felt that his words were a little abrupt, and then he said sincerely,"You're not an outsider, so there's no harm in telling you. What do you think those people do with the money they earn? They have three 'children', children, houses, and women. Those rich and powerful people have families and wives on the surface, but behind their backs, they're all' bridegrooms every night and mothers-in-law'. It's strange. That's human nature. It's also human nature, don't you think?”Shang Liu Xin felt her body heat up, and her nose became clearer than before. Hearing Du Bo Lao's question, she lowered her voice and said,"I don't know." Seeing her like this, Du Bolao felt as if his heart was on fire. His body was itchy and uncomfortable. He twisted his body and said,"It's no wonder. You haven't experienced it before, so you naturally don't know. In the future, when you see more, you'll believe what I say.”"I'm just an ordinary person. Where can I see such a western scene?”"You're a person who can talk and do things. You look like a flower. As long as you want to see her, are you afraid that you won't have a chance? If there's a chance in the future, I'll bring you there to broaden your horizons. I'm just afraid that you won't dare to.”"Yes, I really don't dare. It's embarrassing, and I'm afraid that others will gossip.”" Whoever does this doesn't do it with gongs and drums. They do it in secret. It's more interesting to do it in secret than in the open. It's all about the heartbeat. The people in the circle naturally don't talk about the second brother, and the monks don't talk about their brains. They're all the same. People outside the circle only hear about it. They don't know the real situation either.”" I, hehe, why do you like to make wild guesses like my wife? If you haven't eaten pork before, you should have heard of pig hums. After spending a long time with those scoundrels and listening to them, you naturally know something.”" Who would believe that?"" Believe it or not, you'll find out in the future, hehe.”He wanted to tell Shang Liu Xin some erotic news to further stimulate her desire, but when he saw Long Xuelian walking to the door from the window, he stopped talking.
Long Xuelian knocked on the door and entered. Seeing that there were only Du Bolao and Shang Liuxin, she hesitated for a moment. "Teacher Long, what's the matter?" "I'm sorry to disturb you. It's like this. There's a student in Teacher Shang's class who keeps bullying other students. No matter how I coax him or criticize him, he won't listen.”Before Du Bolao could answer, Shang Liu Xin said,"Let me go. This child is called Liu Dazhuang. He has the habit of bullying his classmates.”With that, she left in a hurry. Shang Liu Xin came to the classroom, and the noisy classroom became even noisier. The students complained to Shang Liu Xin, saying that Liu Da Zhuang was bullying someone. Shang Liu Xin asked the students to quieten down, and the classroom immediately fell silent. Long Xuelian couldn't help but feel surprised. "Liu Dazhuang, is what the students said true?" Shang Liu Xin asked Liu Dazhuang.”Liu Dazhuang glanced at Shang Liu Xin and immediately lowered his eyelids, blushing,""Teacher, I was wrong." "What should I do if I know I'm wrong?”" I know." He walked to the students he had bullied earlier and apologized one by one. After the class was over, Shang Liuxin and Long Xuelian walked out of the classroom. Long Xuelian said,"Teacher Shang, I really have to hand it to you. Why is such a disobedient student like a mouse seeing a cat when he sees you?”"It's nothing. When it's time to be soft, it's time to be soft. When it's time to be hard, it's time to be hard.”"Can you be more specific?" "Being soft means that you have to treat the students better and let the students trust you and get close to you. Most of these children are only children and are the treasures of the family. We should care about them like their grandparents and parents, but this is a kindergarten and a public place. Every student has to abide by the rules and get along with everyone. However, these little emperors and princesses are used to being spoiled at home. They more or less have the habit of doing things their own way. We have to set a rule and let the students abide by it. You can't disobey." "What if the students don't abide by it?" "Look for the reason. See if it's the student's reason, the parent's reason, or your own reason. Then, you can prescribe the right medicine for each one.”"Oh, I understand a little. Speaking of which, I came here a few years before you. In terms of experience, I still have to learn from you.”"Teacher Long, you're too polite. Let's learn from each other.”
After class, Du Bolao walked around the corridor of the classroom and stood in front of Shang Liu Xin's classroom for a while. Shang Liu Xin was in class and didn't see him, so he left in disappointment. After eating lunch, Shang Liu Xin hesitated for a moment before walking into the director's room, saying,"In the future, we should spend less time alone. Otherwise, people will definitely gossip.”"What did you hear?" "I didn't hear it, but someone will definitely say it. I've already felt it.”"Why didn't I feel anything? Well, if I have something to say to you, find a place where these people can't see, okay?”Shang Liu Xin pondered for a while before saying,"We'll talk about it in the future." "You can discuss the matter of helping your family get a position. Give me a definite letter so that I can decide whether to let them do it.”"Alright, I got it."
Shang Liu Xin, who had always been responsible for her work, was also absent-minded during class time. She made a few mistakes while teaching the students to count, and only after the students pointed it out did she come to her senses. She hurriedly said to the students,"Teacher, this is not the right way to count. How do you think it should be counted correctly?”The group of children started talking about how to count, Shang Liu Xin said,"The students are really smart. They have all surpassed the teacher.”The students laughed out loud. If it was in the past, Shang Liu Xin would definitely laugh like these children, but now she couldn't laugh anymore. Although her first love almost destroyed her, who didn't have a moment when their first love made people's hearts beat faster? Today, that kind of irresistible feeling seemed to have descended into her heart again. "Teacher, you counted wrongly again." "Ah, really? How should I count?”"40 should be 41, not 51."”Shang Liu Xin was talking to the students, but she was very annoyed. This was just a mistake in front of the students, it could be covered up with a twist. If she was like this in front of the teacher, wouldn't it cause a storm in the city? She was afraid that others would notice something, so she didn't leave the classroom after class. She sat in front of the lecture table, and a group of children surrounded her, chattering and laughing. She would occasionally respond with a few words, but she was no longer as enthusiastic as before. However, the more she avoided others, the more suspicious she became. The few of them gathered together again and started talking. Cui Xiaoli was the first to speak. She had always been very active in this aspect." You saw it, right? Those two were in Old Du's office for the first class. Now, the woman doesn't even come out of the classroom. Do you know what this is called? Trying to cover up makes one more guilty.”Li Xiao 'ai immediately agreed." That's right, that's right. Even though that Shang guy doesn't really interact with us, he used to come out of the classroom to have some activities with the students after class. Why does he seem like a different person today? He's holed up in the classroom and won't come out. It's really a little strange.”"You guys always like to think of people in that way. Maybe what you think is not the case at all. Teacher Shang caught a cold today and was tired from class. It's normal for her to sit in the classroom and rest after class.”" Anyway, they're not normal today. They're alone in a room. You know what they're talking about. They're probably whispering. They're talking so hard that they can't control themselves. They're afraid that people will find it strange, so they pretend that nothing happened. However, the more they pretend, the less they look like it. It's written on their faces.”"Aiya, have you not heard of the story of Tomoko suspecting her neighbor? The more you think about it, the more it looks like it. If you don't think about it, it doesn't look like it.”Cui Xiaoli glanced at Long Xuelian and said,""If you don't believe me, you'll know when the time comes. Do you dare to bet?”"I'm too lazy to make a bet with you. If I don't make a bet, it's over. I'm still worried about making a bet. Who cares what others do?”"What a decent person says makes sense. We don't care about other people.”"You always say that you don't care, but your words can't be separated from that meaning.”
Shang Liu Xin realized that her behavior today was different from usual. This would definitely make people feel that there was something wrong. After another class, she would walk out of the classroom as usual and play with the students. Sometimes, she would cough. Originally, she didn't cough very badly, but she pretended to cough until she couldn't breathe, her face turning red. Her performance had achieved the desired effect. Cui Xiaoli said to Li Xiao 'ai,""Don't say, Shang Liu Xin seems to have really caught a cold. Look at how hard she is coughing, she is about to cough out her heart, liver, stomach, and lungs.”"This is a good opportunity." "What good opportunity?" "One has a cold, and the other can use this opportunity to curry favor. Originally, we still needed a few rounds of probing. With this opportunity, we might be able to speed up.”"You're the one who's itching. I don't care.”
Shang Liu Xin was also observing the reactions of the others. From Long Xuelian's expression when she entered the room, she could tell that those people must have said something about her behind her back. After school, Shang Liu Xin said to Long Xuelian,"Teacher Long, can we go together later?”"But we're not going the same way." "Oh, no. Aren't you going to pick up the child from school? I also planned to go to school and find my daughter's class teacher to understand the situation. My girl rarely does homework at home. Once she gets home, she will hug her books and read, just like her father. I asked her if she had any homework, and she said that she had finished it in school.”"Your baby's grades must be quite good. She's very efficient in her studies and doesn't have to rush her homework at home.”"It's not particularly good. I'm just afraid that she's too playful and will cause trouble if her results drop.”The two of them chatted as they pushed the cart. Shang Liu Xin said,""Teacher Long, I see that you guys are quite close. I'm so envious. You guys talk together every day and can't stop laughing.”"What can women talk about when they're together? It's nothing more than some trivial things in the family. They also talk about jokes from all over the world. In short, they just want to have fun and pass the time.”"I was so happy when I heard you guys talk about it that time. I wanted to join them too, but when I approached them, they didn't say anything.”"No, no, how could that be? You haven't been here for long, so you don't know much about their morals. Although they're women, they still talk dirty with men. Perhaps they're afraid that you won't have a good impression of them, so they shut up.”"They do like to talk dirty. I often hear them say that you speak quite politely. How can you talk the same as them?”"I never say it with them. It's too tacky. If you really can't stand it, persuade them to say less.”"Will they listen to you?" "They don't listen much, but they don't listen much. On the other hand, they laugh at me and say that I'm conservative and backward. I don't like their 'advanced'. Women have to act like women, don't you think? Yo, Teacher Shang, we've arrived at school. I have to go see my son. He's also coughing.”"Alright, Teacher Long. Let's talk again when we have the chance.”The two of them parted ways. Shang Liu Xin went to Yaya's classroom. Yaya's class teacher was organizing the dismissal. After a while, Shang Liu Xin saw Ya Ya carrying her schoolbag and walking out of the classroom, so she went up to greet her,""Zheng Shufan" Ya Ya raised her head and looked. She hopped over and asked Shang Liu Xin,""Mom, what brings you here?”"You didn't learn well at such a young age.”"This is called humor. Mom, how can you not understand this? Is there a generation gap between us?”"To tell you the truth, I'm here to find out more about the situation from your form teacher.”"Okay, welcome. I'll tell you first. I'm first in Chinese, second in Mathematics, and I've never been third in English. I'm done. Go and understand. I'll wait for you. I guarantee that everything you hear will be good. I won't embarrass you.”"Boasting and arrogant." "Go ahead. Why aren't you going? Teacher will be back in a while.”"Mom believes you, so I won't go and find out. I don't want you to say that I told on you in front of the form teacher. Come, sit in the car. Let's go home.”Ya Ya sat on the backseat of the bicycle, not forgetting to reply to Shang Liu Xin's words,""I am quite confident in what you said. I have nothing worth you saying in front of Teacher.”"Why not? For example, you read books when you go home and never do your homework. Isn't that a problem?”"Didn't I make an analogy with you last time? Why don't you understand? If you keep harping on this, be careful that our teacher won't laugh at you.”"Why does your dad care about your studies?”"Mom, you're wrong. It's not that my dad doesn't care or worry about his daughter.”"No matter how big his weakness is, it's a good thing in your mouth.”"It's a good thing to begin with. Look at my dad. Everything is a flaw.”"Then why did you malign him?" " I'm home. I won't talk to you anymore. You go do your work. I'll prepare dinner."”
Shang Liu Xin was choosing the dishes in her hands, but she was thinking about what Du Bolao had said to her in the morning. The meaning of these words couldn't be clearer. If she continued to develop in this direction, the result would be self-evident. She naturally had to weigh it carefully. "I've already gone through a detour in my relationship. During that time, I was almost in despair and didn't have the courage to live. Fortunately, my parents and relatives comforted me, so I walked out of the humiliation. If it weren't for my parents protecting me day and night, the grass on my grave would have withered many times. However, it's not easy to live. People no longer treat me as a girl. They introduce me to people who are either divorced or have lost their wives. What's the point of staying at home?" I could only add to my troubles and bring humiliation to my family. I originally planned to go far away from home to avoid people's gazes and tongues. I didn't expect Zheng Qinglan to accept me at this time. Although I told him about my unbearable love experience, he didn't seem to care about my disgraceful experience. Although he was just an ordinary person, he was definitely a good person. Every time we quarreled, no matter how I criticized him or disgusted him, he would never hurt me with extreme words. If it was someone else, he might fight back at all costs. For an imperfect woman like me, he would not worry about finding a sharp weapon to fight back. In that case, I would not have any self-esteem in front of him. However, he didn't. If I do something wrong to him, will he forgive me? Of course not. He was such a clean person. He had already accepted a woman's uncleanliness. Was he going to forgive another woman's disloyalty? This was too cruel to him. Ya Ya, this precious daughter is so lively, cute, and smart. What will she think of me after what I did? Can I still raise my head in front of her? If her classmates found out, would she still be able to hold her head high in front of them? No, I can't. Although I have a strong desire and impulse in my heart, I can't be too selfish. I can't indulge my desires for the sake of the child, let alone for this and that.
" But have I been living my life without passion? Yes, Zheng Qinglan didn't do anything wrong, but for a woman who longed to be loved and cared for, his indifference was the biggest mistake. He used all kinds of excuses to avoid paying attention to me. He never really cared about me once. This might be related to me. He didn't let go of my past, so he didn't want to give his true feelings to me. In that case, why did he marry me? I didn't hide my past from him. I don't owe him anything. He married a woman, so he should give up for her. If he wasn't willing, that was his fault. Even if I have anything to do with another man now, it's his fault.
What kind of person was Du Bolao? Was he reliable? Would he spread rumors?
Shang Liu Xin was lost in her thoughts. She didn't even hear Zheng Qinglan enter. Zheng Qinglan saw Shang Liu Xin sitting there motionlessly as if she was possessed. She had only picked half of the vegetables on the ground. She asked,""What are you doing? Did Sun Wukong cast an Immobilizing Spell on you?”Shang Liu Xin jumped in fright, she grabbed the vegetables on the ground in a panic and said in annoyance,""You're like a thief. You didn't make any movements when you came in. You scared me.”"Then I'll have to shout a report or beat drums when I enter the house in the future.”"Then you're crazy." "Yeah, only a lunatic would enter the door like that. But I think you're not far from being a lunatic. Your eyes are fixed there. Your eyeballs don't move at all.”"I'm still thinking about you. If you were worried, I wouldn't have to do this.”"What do you have to worry about?”"Didn't I tell you about finding a position in the unit?”"Didn't I tell you before? I don't want to seek any position. If I want to seek, I'll rely on my own abilities. I don't need this and that to get involved.”Shang Liu Xin was instantly enraged. She was so angry that she threw the vegetables in her hands onto the ground, saying,""You keep saying that you have to rely on your own ability. How capable are you? If you had the ability, you would be able to get to where you are now. The money you earn in a month is not enough to match the money that others earn in a day. You won't be able to earn what they earn in a year in your entire life. Why don't you open your eyes and see who's living like you? You bought a house that no one can live in and even owed a lot of debt.”"Can you keep your voice down? Ya Ya is at home.”"What's wrong with being at home? Ask the child to judge and see if I've said anything wrong.”Zheng Qinglan was also furious, but he lowered his voice and squeezed out every word through gritted teeth.""I think you're crazy. I'm warning you. You can say whatever you want about me, and I won't hold it against you, but you can't drag Yaya into this. How old is she?”Shang Liu Xin turned around and went into the bedroom, closing the door with a bang. She didn't even take off her clothes before she angrily crawled into the bed and lay down. Zheng Qinglan gritted her teeth and thought," She was simply unworthy of being a mother. Why was she so unrestrained and did not care about her child's feelings at all? Zheng Qinglan pushed open Yaya's door. Yaya looked up at him and immediately lowered her eyes. She looked like a frightened lamb. It was obvious that the quarrel between the two adults made her feel at a loss. Yaya's reaction made Zheng Qinglan feel as if someone had punched her in the chest. It was so painful that she couldn't breathe. He sighed and tears rolled down his face. He walked to the kitchen and picked up the vegetables that Shang Liuxin had thrown down. After a flurry of work, a few dishes were served. Zheng Qinglan walked into the room and shook Shang Liuxin a few times, saying,""Get up and eat." " Even if you don't want to eat it, you should at least express it for Yaya's sake. You don't know her performance just now. It's heart-wrenching.”Shang Liu Xin hesitated for a moment, but still sat up and walked out of the room. "Zheng Yaya, it's time to eat," Zheng Qinglan shouted, pretending to be relaxed.”Ya Ya did not answer, but she still heard the sound of a chair moving. The three of them sat at the table and ate the rice without emotion. The atmosphere was so gloomy that water could be squeezed out. Zheng Qinglan was afraid that Yaya could not stand it, so she asked Yaya,""Ya Ya, what's new in school today? Tell us.”"Did you get scolded by the teacher?"”" No."" Then why aren't you saying anything? I really want to hear you say something."”"If you don't want to talk, don't talk to me. I'm tired. I want to eat quickly and go to rest.”Zheng Qinglan's throat was rolling. He swallowed the rice with great effort, and his tears kept flowing out.
Zheng Qinglan finished washing the dishes and tidied up the kitchen. Yaya had already gone to bed and turned off the lights. Zheng Qinglan gently unlocked the door and walked in. She walked to Yaya's bed and called out softly,"" Yaya." Yaya didn't answer. Zheng Qinglan knew that Yaya wasn't asleep. He didn't want to disturb her, so he tucked her in. Then, he walked around the bed and sat down in front of the desk. Although it was the end of the lunar month, it was not dark outside because of the lights. Although the lights were not turned on in the room, Zheng Qinglan could still see Yaya's face clearly with the help of the lights outside. Although she was already twelve years old, her face was still childish. If you looked carefully, there were still tears on her eyelashes. Ya Ya, he shouted in his heart. No matter how much he suffered, he must not let Ya Ya be sad. This was the responsibility of a father. He sat in front of Yaya's bed until Yaya started to snore softly. Then, he walked out of Yaya's room.
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