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42 Zheng Qinglan’s Manuscript Killing Shang Liu Xin’s Heart Burning

Sha Fuping

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Zheng Qinglan's manuscript was finally completed. He gently rubbed the paper, his eyes filled with tears. It was really not simple. If this manuscript was compared to a newborn baby, Zheng Qinglan was a pregnant woman. In the past year, he had endured great psychological pressure and finally finished this manuscript. He sat there with an indescribable sense of relief in his heart. At present, he wanted to show this manuscript to Luo Tianyin and Jin Ling. Luo Tianyin was his teacher and leader. She had once given him meticulous care and concern. He treated Luo Tianyin as his father. At the same time, Luo Tianyin could give him useful guidance in literary creation. He hoped that after receiving Luo Tianyin's guidance, he would make some changes and strive to make this work popular. Jin Ling was his bosom friend in literary creation. Although Jin Ling always modestly claimed that she was not qualified or capable to give him advice, in fact, Zheng Qinglan felt that every time she gave advice, it was very relevant. Zheng Qinglan even joked with her that she could be a decent literary critic. Zheng Qinglan wanted to share her joy with Jin Ling. There was another thought that even Zheng Qinglan herself wasn't sure if it was true. She wanted to show off in front of Jin Ling, hoping to get her approval. Of course, it would be better if she could worship her. As for Shang Liu Xin, he didn't plan to show her anything. Although he urgently needed to prove to Shang Liu Xin that he wasn't a useless person, some of the content in this manuscript was similar to Shang Liu Xin's experience. He was afraid that she would associate it with him. This might cause her to feel disgusted, or even angry. He didn't want to make her angry.

It was just that it was not suitable for anyone to look at it like this. He still needed to tidy it up. Haste did not eat hot tofu. Let's wait until it was done. Taking advantage of the few days when he was free, he should try to take it out before the new year. He would let the teacher take some time to look at it during the new year. It would be quite embarrassing. He would have to trouble the teacher again and make him feel uneasy during the new year. Fortunately, he had a good habit of never scribbling when he was writing, so it was not difficult for him to modify it now. It would be great if he had a computer. He could write and edit as he pleased. He could edit however he wanted without having to copy again. That would save a lot of trouble. He often saw computers in the printing room on the street. It was really convenient to use it to write things, but it was a little expensive. It cost a few thousand yuan. This was his salary for several months, so he didn't dare to ask in front of Shang Liu Xin. He would definitely buy it in the future, but he was afraid that he wouldn't be able to do it in the near future. At the very least, he wouldn't be able to write this manuscript on a computer. The only way to get it out before the new year was to work overtime. That afternoon, Zheng Qinglan revised her manuscript until eight o'clock before she remembered to go back. He looked at his watch and thought," Oh no, she was going to hear more complaints. Zheng Qinglan was right. The moment he entered, Shang Liu Xin scolded him," You still know how to come back? I thought you were a savage."”"I have something to do at the unit." "Your extremely poor unit doesn't even have decent welfare during the New Year. Is it worth it for you to work so hard? Besides, you're not an official or have no job.”Zheng Qinglan got angry when she heard her rude words. She was going to explain it to her, but she didn't know where to go. She replied,"Can you not be so mean? No matter how good or bad the unit is, don't we still have to rely on the unit to make a living? If there's something in the unit, we have to do our best. Isn't it normal to work overtime?”"Yo, you're quite self-aware. Why didn't the higher-ups arrange for you to take up a position? She's fine now and is preparing for the new year at home. You're the only one who's busy all day.”"They are people, and I am me. Why do you always like to compare blindly?”"You don't have any benefits or fame. What are you after? You're so stupid.”"Alright, alright, let's not talk about these useless things. If you have anything to arrange for me, just tell me. I'll find time to do it tomorrow. I'm just letting you know that I'll be back late tomorrow.”" What's the matter? There's a lot of things to do. Yaya didn't buy any new clothes for the New Year. It's fine if adults don't wear new clothes for the New Year, but this child has to buy new clothes. The price of vegetables will become more and more expensive, so we have to buy some as soon as possible. We also have to prepare some melon seeds and snacks for the New Year. There's not much to say, but we have to choose. We'll look here and there. A day will pass.”"We're not here for the New Year. Why are we buying groceries?”"You, as I always say, when have you ever been worried? Don't you need to have guests at your house during the New Year? In the past few years, we've always bought vegetables for the New Year. Anyway, you're a person who doesn't worry. If there are guests, you don't have to cook. How would you know the difficulties of the people who cook? If you don't have anything, what will the people who cook do?”"Maybe they already bought it at home. It won't be much for us to buy more.”"Tsk, you're simply talking in your sleep. Your mother would be willing to spend money to buy vegetables. With a filial son like you, she wouldn't buy them.”"I have a motorcycle at home. If you want to buy one, you can just ride it to town. It's still more than a week away from the New Year. If you buy it so early and leave it there, even if it's not bad, it'll wither. How can it taste good?”"When the time comes, you can go buy it. I don't have time.”"Didn't you go on vacation long ago? Why don't you have time?”"I'm still waiting for the notice to meet with the boss to discuss next year's work.”"You're the leader of your garden. You worry so much. You don't have to be in a position to do things. If you interfere in things that you shouldn't, be careful that others say that you want to seize power and incur hatred.”"Not at the moment, but no one dares to say that you won't be in the future. If you keep hiding behind everything, you'll definitely not be in the future.”"Alright, I'll take some time tomorrow. Let's go shopping together and buy everything we can. We don't have to go shopping every day.”"Are you guys off tomorrow? It's not Sunday.”"It's the end of the year. I've done what I needed to do and handed in the materials that I needed to hand in. I'll go to the museum tomorrow and come out. You two wait for me on the street.”"I promised not to forget about it the moment I went up. I should hurry up and buy it so that I can go home.”"Okay, I'll go for a walk and come down. I won't delay anything. Ya Ya, you'll have new clothes to wear tomorrow. Have you thought about what kind of clothes you want to buy?”"I haven't thought about it. I'll go shopping tomorrow and buy whatever suits me. Actually, what I want to buy the most isn't clothes.”Zheng Qinglan laughed out loud." You don't have to guess. Everyone knows that you don't like to eat or wear. You just like to read books. Tell me, do you want to buy books?"”"Daddy is indeed amazing. He guessed it right. But do you know what book I want to buy?”"Well, I can't say for sure which book to buy, but you definitely want to buy a book on literature and history. Am I right?”"Right and wrong." "What are you talking about?" "I like literature and history, that's right. For example,'Records of the Historian,''Zi Zhi Tong Jian,' modern poetry, classical poetry, anything is fine, but I don't reject anything else, like 'Animal World,''Nature's Mysteries,' I like them all.”"Don't tell me you still like 'Mathematics World'?”"Yes, this works too." "My God, Zheng Yaya, you're an all-rounded talent. You're proficient in mathematics, physics, and chemistry.”"Dad, you're flattering me. I just like it. I'm still far from being proficient in it.”Zheng Qinglan also laughed." Haha, Dad is even happier now that you've said that. My Zheng Yaya not only has excellent grades, but she also has a strong desire to improve and knows how to be humble. Alright, just for this. No matter how busy I am tomorrow, I have to find time to go shopping with you.”"Dad, what are you busy with at work every day?”"It's nothing much. I'll just write a few small manuscripts and use some time to organize them. They might come in handy at a critical moment.”"What manuscript? Is it a thesis or a novel? Can I take a look?" "Hehe, it's not done yet. When it's done, I'll show it to the experts first. I'll modify it after they give their opinions. However, the things I write are all for adults to read. They are not suitable for children to read.”"Hmph, how boring. I can't read what my father wrote.”Shang Liu Xin interjected," I know if what your dad said is true or not. It's so easy to write a script. He's just finding an excuse to come home late."”"Mom, don't underestimate my dad. What he said must be true. Maybe a great author will suddenly appear in our family.”"You really can imagine it. It's already a miracle that he can survive and not starve to death. A great writer? I don't have such a dream.”Zheng Qinglan didn't argue with her. She thought to herself,'Let's wait and see.'

After breakfast the next day, Zheng Qinglan said to Shang Liu Xin,""I'll go to the office to take a look first. You and Ya Ya will come later. When you come, wait for me outside the cultural center.”"Can't we go out together later? At this time, who would still go to the unit to do anything? It was just that you were timid and afraid that the leaves would fall and smash your head.”"After all, it's not a holiday. It's good to go and take a look.”"Then remember the time yourself. Don't wait for me to rush you.”"Don't worry."

When Zheng Qinglan arrived at the museum, there was no one there. He looked at his watch and saw that it was already half past eight. He estimated that Shang Liuxin and Yaya would not be here for a while. He opened his office and took out some papers from the drawer to sort them out. He was afraid that it would take too long, so he only took four or five pages and put them outside. He put the rest back into the drawer. After he finished reading the few pages and made some changes, he estimated that the mother and daughter should have arrived by now, so he put away the paper, locked the drawer, and went downstairs. Shang Liuxin and Ya Ya had just arrived on their bikes. Ya Ya said," Dad, we just came over and you came down. Were you watching us at the door?”"No, I thought you would be here by now, so I came down.”"This is called 'telepathy.'”"Zheng Yaya, this poem is well used. I can't remember which poem this sentence is from. Can you tell me?”"Dad, if you want to test me, just say it. Alright, let me tell you. This is a poem from Li Shangyin's Untitled poem from the Tang Dynasty. The first line is 'Without a body and two wings of a phoenix,' right?”"Yes, yes, you're absolutely right." "Don't talk about poetry here. Go buy something and go home quickly. Maybe someone is calling home.”"Why don't you go back first? Yaya and I will go buy it so as not to delay your business.”"You two? I'm not at ease. One doesn't worry, and the other doesn't worry. It's a miracle if the clothes you buy can be worn out.”"Then let's not talk about anything else. Let's get straight to the point. First, we'll buy clothes from Ya Ya. Where should we buy them?”"Ya Ya, what do you think?" Shang Liu Xin asked Ya Ya.”"Isn't it all the same?" "It's different. The clothes in the clothing stall are more colorful, cheaper, and can be sold at a lower price. The clothes in the mall are less colorful, but the quality is better and the price is higher.”"Then just buy anything from the clothing stall. I don't care what I wear anyway.”"Alright, you're growing anyway. The clothes you bought this year won't be able to fit you next year. It's a pity to throw away the good quality ones. It's useless to leave them there. I'm fatter than you, so I can't wear them. It's a pure waste. It was fine to wear a new one. If it was old, he could throw it away and buy a new one.”

The New Year was coming, and the streets were full of people buying New Year goods. It was very inconvenient for the three of them to push two bicycles through the crowd. Zheng Qinglan said,"Let's find a place to put the cart. There are so many people. It's really inconvenient to push the cart.”"You're talking in your sleep again. There are so many people here. Do you know which one is the thief? I'm afraid you'll buy something and come back.”"You still have some guts. It's broad daylight and there are so many people. Thieves shouldn't be so rampant that they're unscrupulous.”"I don't have time to talk to you about this. No matter what, the car can't be left there.”"Then I'll stay here and take care of it. You guys go and buy clothes. When the clothes are done, you go back and wait for the call. I'll go to Xinhua Bookstore with Ya Ya to buy books.”"This is the only way."

Shang Liu Xin thought as she walked. Zheng Qing Lan really didn't have any doubts about her. Wasn't it too cruel for her to do this to him? She didn't want to go with Du Bo Lao. However, she also felt that it was a pity to give up this opportunity. She was so preoccupied with her own thoughts that she didn't hear Yaya's reminder. Suddenly, she stepped on a fat woman's foot. The woman glared at her and shouted,""It's broad daylight. You can't see such a big person, but you have to step on my feet.”Shang Liu Xin quickly apologized," I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I didn't notice and stepped on you. I'm really sorry."”The woman left angrily. Ya Ya asked," Mom, what's wrong with you? Do you not know how to walk anymore after leaving my dad? I keep reminding you, but you can't even hear me. See, you're getting scolded by others."”Shang Liu Xin quickly explained," I'm just worried about your dad. He manages two cars by himself. He's usually a person who doesn't care about anything. I'm worried that he might lose the car or get into a dispute with someone else.”"Mom, don't worry. My dad isn't as bad as you think.”"Don't tell your dad about what happened just now. He'll laugh at me.”"My dad doesn't make fun of people. He's very respectful to everyone.”"Your father is a perfect person. Let's not talk about him anymore. Look, we're at the place. Look at what kind of clothes you want. Look carefully. After you choose, Mom will be your advisor.”"Mom, didn't I say yesterday that you don't have to choose? Just buy a random set.”"Why are you different from other children?”"Aren't you happy that I'm like this? It's easy to support and can make you less worried. If I were like the other children and was picky, wouldn't you be annoyed?”"Even if it's annoying, you have to endure it. After all, you're my daughter.”"Mom, I want that ski jacket, the red one.”"Yes, you have good taste. I also like that one. That dress is red and fresh. With your fair and tender face, I don't know how beautiful it is. Boss, take off that red ski jacket and let's try it on.”The stall owner took it off and Ya Ya tried it on. The length, weight, and weight were perfect. Shang Liu Xin was very satisfied, but she did not show it. The stall owner also took a break from his busy schedule to give him two compliments."This dress is perfect for this little girl. I've been selling clothes for so many years, but I've never seen anything like this that fits and looks good. Tsk tsk, it's really too beautiful.”"It's not as good looking as you say. It's just average. Maybe he has someone more suitable.”"How can there be anything more suitable than this? If you really want it, we can give it to you at a cheaper price. You're simply too likable. If people ask about this dress, just say that you bought it from me.”Shang Liu Xin placed the clothes on the shop floor, clearly hesitating. At this moment, a few more customers came. The boss wanted to greet them again, so he said,"If you really want it, give me this amount.”Stretching out three fingers and waving them in front of Shang Liu Xin, he whispered to Shang Liu Xin,"This is the lowest price. I've only sold it once. I can't let anyone know, and you can't tell anyone either.”Shang Liu Xin felt that this price was acceptable. She took out the money and paid, then left with her clothes.

"Mom, you clearly liked this dress a long time ago. Why didn't you give me the money and leave quickly? Why did you say so much?”"Look at how Mom likes to talk. This is called experience. No matter how much you want it, you have to pretend that you don't want it. Otherwise, the seller will raise the price so high that you can't talk it down. If your dad came to buy clothes from you, it would be strange if he didn't get ripped off by the shop owner.”"My dad isn't a fool. Why would he give money to others for nothing?”"He's a fool. Someone sold him and he still helped others count their money. I've never seen a fool like him.”"Fortunately, I have you. Otherwise, my dad would have been cheated by others.”"It's entirely possible."

While the mother and daughter were bargaining with the other party, Zheng Qinglan was not idle either. It was not easy to take care of two bicycles on this crowded street. There were too many people on the street. Zheng Qinglan was afraid that the bicycles would bump into others, so she moved the two bicycles to the side of the road. However, she didn't dare to move too far away. She was afraid that the mother and daughter wouldn't be able to find them when they came back. He stood next to the bicycle and kept reminding the people who came and went. Sometimes, he even smiled and looked around to see if the woman and son had come. However, he didn't see Shang Liu Xin and her mother, but he heard a resounding and beautiful song. Who was it? What a familiar voice. Could it be that someone was holding a concert? Zheng Qinglan looked in the direction of the voice. There was a group of people at a corner not far away. The voice came from the crowd. A middle-aged man was sitting on the ground. His legs were disabled, and it was obvious that he had fallen from poliovirus when he was young. It was so cold to sit on the ground on such a cold day. Upon closer inspection, there was a piece of rubber cut from the tire under his buttocks. There were a few thin ropes tied to his thighs and waist to secure them. The lines on the tire had been smoothed out. Beside him was an iron shelf with a large battery and some old audio equipment. There was also a roller with four small bearings and a pair of hand props. These were his walking tools. On the roller was a cardboard box with some money inside. In front of him was a red paper with his hometown and illness written on it. After he finished singing, he thanked the audience and took two small sips from the dull mineral water bottle beside him. His lips were already dry and cracked, and traces of blood were oozing out.

" Thank you, everyone, for your concern and love for me. I wish everyone happiness and happiness. Next, I will sing a song for everyone..." The music started again. When he sang " Eagle," Zheng Qinglan felt as if she saw a lonely goshawk hovering in the sky. Although it was old and messy, its courage to fight in the sky did not diminish at all. Instead, it became stronger.

Many people threw money into the cardboard boxes.

A young mother carried the little darling to the cardboard box. The little darling threw the money into the cardboard box and looked at the singer with his dark eyes. His little hands kept patting. The mother kissed the little darling and smiled happily." Baby, you're so obedient." The little fellow giggled.

A middle-aged woman, who was still carrying a basket of vegetables, took out a tightly wrapped handkerchief from her pocket and took out some warm coins from it and threw them into the cardboard box.

A young couple was originally going to buy barbecue from the barbecue stall next door. Seeing this, they smiled apologetically at the barbecue stall owner and walked away from the barbecue stall, throwing the money into a cardboard box. The boss also smiled. He picked up two steel bars from his paper box and gently threw them over. The clanging sound was very pleasant to the ear.

There was a little girl with pigtails, a student with a school badge, a fashionably dressed young lady, a middle-aged woman in plain clothes, and an old man with a walking stick... He kept thanking her, and there were crystal tears in his eyes.

There were more and more people. Some people stood at the periphery and could not be thrown in. A middle-aged man who looked like a worker became the "second pass". The people who came first had yet to leave, and there were still people coming over. The crowd and the flow of people combined to form a big "," and the traffic was somewhat congested. The police arrived. He stood outside and hesitated for a moment. He shouted," Please, please," and squeezed into the circle. He first put the ten yuan into the cardboard box, then pushed the iron shelf and gently moved it to the street. Someone beside him helped to push the small roller, and someone helped to roll up the red paper. The two young men worked together to pick up the singer and moved it to the street. The road was wide again, and the flow of people was smooth again.

Looking at the scene in front of her, Zheng Qinglan's heart couldn't help but tremble. She didn't know when her eyes had started to tear up." That's great," Zheng Qinglan said in her heart. Then she ran over and respectfully placed the money into the cardboard box.

When he came back, Shang Liu Xin was already standing beside the bicycle. She saw Zheng Qinglan and asked angrily,""Where did you go? Why did you leave the car here? Do you not want it anymore?”"There's a disabled singer over there. Many people are giving him money, so I went over to give him a few yuan. Don't worry, he's still here, so we can't think too badly of him.”"I think you're a fool. You don't even want your own things to care about other people's matters. You're really worried about eating carrots. I'll go back and cook first. Come back early after you buy the books. I'll leave as soon as I say so.”"If you have something to do, go ahead. Don't worry about us. We'll cook for ourselves when we come back.”"You guys go and buy books. You know when you have to buy them. If I don't cook when I come back, you can take Yaya out to eat. When I come back at night, I'll give you more nourishment.”"Okay, I got it. You can go back now. We should go to the bookstore too.”Shang Liu Xin had brought back all the things she had bought. Zheng Qinglan wanted to take Ya Ya to the bookstore on her bike, but there were too many people on the street. She couldn't ride the bike at all. She had to push the bike and ring the bell as she walked. Even so, she had to stop sometimes.

" Ya Ya," Zheng Qinglan called out. Ya Ya responded," Are you happy today?"”"Of course I'm happy. I'm happy every day.”"Why are you happy every day?" "I have parents who love me at home and teachers who like me at school. Why wouldn't I be happy? "What else? Why are you embarrassed to say it?”"Also, I'm very satisfied with myself.”" Smug."" This isn't smug. It's fragrant."”" Hahaha, you're quite capable. You've invented a new word for yourself. I hope this word will be passed down because of you. Then our Zheng Yaya will also leave a mark in history.”"It will definitely be passed down." "You're showing off again." "I didn't tell you. It's Xiangmei, Xiangmei!”"Good, good, good. But I have to ask you, you didn't go to school today, and the teacher didn't come to your house to praise you. Will you still be so happy today?”"Of course. Look, Mom bought clothes with me, and Dad bought books with me. I have both material and spiritual things.”"Now that you mention it, it's true. There are both material and spiritual enjoyment, but we haven't gotten the spiritual enjoyment yet. We have to leave quickly. It's not dry anymore, but I'm sure that there are definitely fewer people in the bookstore than on the streets. When we get there, we can take our time to read and choose a few good books to bring back.”

As he spoke, he arrived at the entrance of the Xinhua Bookstore. There were still many people there. On the steps at the entrance of the bookstore and on the road below the steps, there were people carrying things everywhere. The bicycle parking space at the entrance of the bookstore was already full. People could only walk sideways when they came in and out. There was no place to park the bicycle here. Zheng Qinglan looked into the distance and saw a bicycle parking lot that was managed not far away. He asked Yaya to wait at the door for a while before he pushed the bicycle over. The old man took out two pieces of iron about an inch wide and an inch long. He hung one on the handle of the bicycle and handed the other to Zheng Qinglan."Take good care of it. We'll use this to retrieve the car later. It'll be troublesome if we lose it.”Zheng Qinglan took it and put it in her pocket. She ran back to the bookstore. Yaya reached out and held Zheng Qinglan's hand. The father and daughter entered the bookstore. This place was a different world. Compared to the hustle and bustle outside, this place seemed a little deserted. However, in Zheng Qinglan's opinion, there were more people here than usual. Most of them were young students. The place had been renovated into an open bookstore. Except for the more expensive books, all the books were placed on the shelves. Anyone who came in could take them down and read them. If they were satisfied, they could pay and take them away. If they were not satisfied, they could put them back on the shelves.

"Do we choose separately or together?”Zheng Qinglan asked. "Of course, we'll choose our own books. Our hobbies are different.”This little girl had her own opinions, just like her mother. Zheng Qinglan liked her like this. "Alright, let's choose our own."

Zheng Qinglan read and chose. Soon, she had a thick pile of books on classical literature. There was a hardcover book titled " An Analysis of 300 Tang Poems ", a book titled " A Selection of Song Ci ", a thread-bound book titled " Mencius ", and a few other novels that were about ancient stories. He put the books in a corner of the counter and went to the foreign literature counter to browse. Most of the books here were available in the cultural center, so he didn't think it was necessary to buy them. If he wanted to read it, he could borrow it from the library, so he found Yaya with the books he had chosen earlier. There was also a thick stack of books in front of Ya Ya. There was a book titled " Records of the Historian ", a book titled " Li Qingzhao's Poetry Selection ", and a few modern novels. Zheng Qinglan had never heard of the author. Perhaps he was a rising star who had yet to make a name for himself. "Didn't you say that you wanted to buy the classics? Why did you choose these few books by unknown authors?”"I saw that they all wrote quite well and that they were quite interesting to read, so I chose a few.”"I think the classics are better. I like these two books.”He said as he held the Records of the Historian and Li Qingzhao's Poetry Selection. "Even though they aren't considered classics right now, it doesn't mean that they won't be able to write classics in the future. They can't always read those classics, right?”"Zheng Yaya, you're getting more and more eloquent. You're making so much sense. What else do I have to say?”"I didn't feel hungry just now, but now that you mention it, I feel hungry too.”

Shang Liu Xin kept feeling that the phone was ringing at home, so she hurried back. When she entered the house, she placed the things she bought on the chair and looked at the caller ID. In the end, there was no call. She was a little dejected and thought," This Old Du, are you kidding me? Why hasn't he called yet? It's almost the New Year. If you call late, I'll go back to my hometown. She wanted to call him to ask, but she didn't know where to call. She returned to the living room unhappily and sat there for a while. She got up and went to the kitchen to choose vegetables. Her ears were propped up to listen to the phone ringing. However, the dishes were chosen and the food was ready, but the phone still didn't ring. It was already time for lunch, so she definitely wouldn't come. However, this phone call might just come. Suddenly, the phone really rang. Shang Liu Xin was shocked and stunned for a moment. After confirming that the phone was ringing from her house, she threw down the things in her hands and ran over to grab the phone." Hello, you are…""Mom, it's me. My dad asked me to ask if you're home. If you're home, we'll come back for dinner.”Shang Liu Xin was slightly disappointed, but she immediately thought that this was good, so she said,"I'm at home. The fever is almost over. Tell your father to bring you back quickly.”"Okay, we'll be right back."

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